Surprise, fuckers. I'm here again. Gonna shitpost for the past few days until my session with my psychiatrist again.

✨ trust the process 🤍 believe in yourself ✨

This is what four years of therapy does to self talk

:)

you’re allowed to ask for help.

you can’t do everything by yourself and you don’t have to.

Why do people seek validation from others? You might seek too much validation as an adult if you received too little or too much external validation in childhood. This may affect how you manage your emotions, personality, and attachment style. Unlearning things that you've known for so long is very hard and you might feel that you are a failure but if you try and try again, you are not a failure because you are still doing something about it. One baby fucking steps at a time.

i distract myself everytime my mind tells me i should suppress the anger. pent up rage and anger shouldn't be the answer. i distract myself by visualizing the big anger and i crumple them into a small circle and let it go.

i will no longer ask for anyone or everyone, even my partner's validation. who are they, by the way?

Whenever there is a slight inconvenience in my life, I resort to drinking... again.

yung picture ko dito sa tumblr, xray ng paa ko yan. ayoko na ibalandra yung mukha ko dito, baka ma-trace pa kung sino talaga ako.

subtle reminder yang xray na yan na hindi na ako makakabalik sa pagtakbo, pagbike dahil forever na siyang may tama. nailalakad ko naman pero hindi na kagaya ng dati na kaya ko itakbo. siguro isa sa rason yan bakit ako bumagsak ulit sa 'low point' ko. tanginang sprain yan eh, midfoot pa talaga. nakakadepress.

andito na naman tayo sa magulong parte ng tumblr. naghahanap ng sagot dahil hindi nila maintindihan na hindi mo na talaga maintindihan lahat. bibigyan ka pa ng palaisipan para isipin ko raw kung anong mali. ay, hindi ko na alam.