i feel like i was meant to do something great. but i feel like i’ll never achieve it and it honestly makes me so sad.... that i feel like i won’t amount to shit. and i try to be positive don’t get me wrong. i try to ignore the negative thoughts. i try... i try so fucking hard to believe... i try so fucking hard to be nicer to myself. i try everyday. but everyday i feel more and more lost. everyday i feel like i will always be a failure. and that just makes me want to end it... but i don’t want to die because i feel like it could get better? idk....

Aaah I’m tired of this quarantine bullshit like I gained 3kgs the first like 2 or 3 weeks

Then I restricted and lost 2kgs, then I started binging again and gained the 2kgs back

Now I haven’t counted calories and I’m too scared to weigh myself but I’ve probs gained another 2kgs and I want to dieee

Before the quarantine I was like 300g away from my GW1 and now I’m so far away again jfjsjdjswj

Anyone else not being able to stop thinking about food cuz same

Here’s to the next 10lbs

every calorie is a failure 😔

There’s a difference between being happy and being distracted from sadness

I am a waste of space

when I fit into brandy melville its over for you bitches >:(

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i need to learn how not to eat again

I just ate my whole kitchen, must be faking my ed

my mum? oh, you mean CEO of fueling my eating disorder