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YA’LL RUN TO GIANT (check availability in any of their grocery store) i just found a stealllll 150 cals for 3 cups?!?! Tastes just like cheese puffs and they meltttt in your mouth
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f4sting to lose weight
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f4sting to be in control
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Over 13,000 steps in today! I’m on a 3 day streak and each day I’m gonna try and add 500 more. Maybe but the end of the month I can do 20,000! I’ll keep you all updated
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Haven’t been on here in about 2 years but I somehow find myself back every… Single… Time…
Due to another failed relationship and ofc my crippling bpd.
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I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.
you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you
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I think i speak for every ED blog when i say that even though i hate myself and my body - i do not think the same about any of my followers.
you could weigh 200lbs more than me and i still would not think you’re ugly, MY body dysmorphia and MY ED does not extend to you
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the feminine urge to completely destroy your health for beauty standards
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Deleted this app ages ago. I got broken up with a few days ago after finding myself again. He said he lost interest in me. Throwing myself back into my old habits to feel in control of something in life.
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I got back into my old habits. I got better for most of quarantine. I was happy with myself. But I said I wanted to lose 5 more... which turned into 10.... I want to reach my goal weight so bad, but I’m so scared of going back into the dark hole I was stuck in for so long :(
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300(& Under) calorie meal ideas....*Vegan*
2 cups cheerios(200) w/ 1 cup almond milk (60) - 260Cal.
.5 cups oatmeal (150) w/ peanut butter powder (50) Banana (90) -290Cal
2Low-Cal Toast (80) 2TBL Hummus(60) 1Tomato(20) -160Cal
2Bananas(180) 1TBL peanut butter - 280Cal
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PSA: TO THOSE WHO DO NOT UNDERSTAND EATING DISORDERS
In the past week I heard multiple things from not only my family, my friends, but people in the public eye that are completely blatantly ignorant.
1. “If my child had an eating disorder I would know”– NO YOU WON’T people with eating issues do not seek help all the time. They can eat a consistent meals in front of you every day. You want to know what they do? They spend all night working out. They throw it up ( known as purging). They see calories as a number yes, they are eating meals but they aren’t doing daily activities only. The working out burns calories and kills enough fat to cause weight loss or keep a steady weight. Not only do they do this but they can store food. They can give away food. I used to pack food away and give it to friends so it was out of sight. I made it a statement to always ask someone if they wanted some when I ate so I could lose calories. I would eat 3 meals a day but make sure they all went up to 800 calories or 1000. The daily value for me is 1,200. I would eat always in front of people in school so they thought “she is always eating” when in reality I would go home and work out the calories or starve myself all weekend. I would hide food in drawers. If my friends offered me food I would say yes, take a bite, pretend to eat it, throw out the item, hide it in my hoodie or in my purse. It is not a game to us. I have even shoved whole things into MY BRA to hide them.
2, “You do not look like you have an eating disorder you are fine” – Okay this is just wrong. If you have an eating disorder you already see yourself as flawed. This shows to them you think they look the same all the time. An Eating disordered person can eat and work out or throw up and lose 3 pounds. Those three pounds are a HUGE DEAL to them. Three turns into 9 and then 15 and then when they are half way in the grave blame yourself for telling them they were fine. 1 in 5 eating disordered people die. THAT IS MORE THAN ANY OTHER EATING DISORDER. SOMEONE COULD LOOK FINE BUT JUST ABOUT EVERY NIGHT LAY DOWN WITH A PLASTIC BAG NEAR THEM AND PUKE OUT FOOD. THEY CAN OVEREAT A WHOLE GROCERY STORE AND THEN WORK OUT FOR 7 HOURS AND BE MENTALLY DRAINED BUT PHYSICALLY LOOK AMAZING.
3. “WHY WOULD YOU HAVE AN EATING DISORDER YOU ARE SKINNY OR NORMAL LOOKING”– Let me tell you that an eating disorder impacts someone’s mind over anything. It is not just “oh I look fat today”. It is reading calorie labels. It is them having anxiety over eating a piece of bread or being offered food.
4. “You are always eating”– I have had multiple say this to me. I EAT IN FRONT OF PEOPLE TO SEEM NORMAL. I always do this. I eat in front of people so I can gain the satisfaction of nobody asking questions. This isn’t skins. I do not openly starve myself. (Not until this post comes out then all of you know I guess).
5. “Aren’t you recovered though”– WELL YOU SEE THE THING IS an eating disorder is like a drug addiction. You could be perfectly fine but when the time comes you can just get hooked back on. You can go eating guilt free for months then go on a date and see food and feel that anger, guilt, and obsession all over again.
6. “Why would you do that to yourself”– You see we do not do this to ourselves purposely because honestly do you purposely forget to put earrings in? Do you purposely drop your phone. It just happens during the moment I am not just like, “oh jeez cassie you really need to stop thinking like this”. NO!!!!!
7.”Stop being so sensitive”– Okay well if I came up to you and said:
“Do you really need to eat that?”
“You eat so much!”
“I always see you eating is that all you do?”
“You are looking chubbier or you gained weight!”
“Wow you aren’t even that skinny?”
“This girl is smaller than you!”
YOU WOULD BE PISSED WE JUST SEE IT AS EXTRA INSULTING.
Lastly, to top off this rant. I feel that if someone comes to you asking for help do not deny help. Do not call them crazy. Do not tell them they are weird or that therapists will do nothing but give them pills. Do not ignore the subject. Do not tell them they are dumb. NO NOT ACT LIKE THEY AREN’T REALLY VALID. I had multiple people tell me I am crazy. I am stupid. THEY TOLD ME THAT I WAS A BAD PERSON. THAT I DO NOT NEED HELP. THAT I AM NOT SKINNY ENOUGH. THAT I AM STILL NORMAL LOOKING. THAT THEY WOULD KNOW IF I HAD IT. THAT I JUST NEED TO LEARN TO THINK I AM BEAUTIFUL. LAUGH AT ME. TELL ME THAT I AM BIGGER THAN MY COUSINS. THAT I SHOULD NOT “DO THIS” BECAUSE I DO NOT WANT TO END UP LIKE THOSE MODELS. That if I am going to eat so much I should pay for it. That I am a walking garbage can. Tonight I have had enough with these comments. I am sick and tired of acting like this is normal. I shouldn’t be told my needs and begging is wrong. I just get all this side eye. Do not worry when the time comes they will all realize it is not my fault. I sure as hell wish I could not be this way.
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Things not talked about (as much) in the ed community
(For anybody who can still turn back and needs a reason to, or someone who just wants to be like “Yes! I’m not the only one!”)
It gets harder to lose the skinnier you are
You know how you feel when you have a high fever? Shaking and cold and weak, a special kind of weak that’s closer to fatigue than weakness? That comes with the ed, too. What a great package deal.
People will talk about it. I dunno about you guys, but I hate to be the center of attention, but I feel like I am every time someone brings up my eating habits, even in a passing comment.
On that note, being known as “the one who never eats” is great and all, but it also makes you feel pointed out, like the spotlight is on you, like everybody knows all of your secrets
Compulsory excercise. Even when you’re bone-tired and just want to climb into bed and get the day over with, you had just a couple too many calories for dinner and so you’ve got to work it off before you can think about sleep.
The food OBSESSION. This IS talked about, but I don’t think it’s represented accurately. Although, a lot of times, it’s like “OREOSPEANUTBUTTERCOOKIESCAKESANDWICHPOPCORNPANCAKES F E E E E D M E E E E” When it isn’t doing that, though, you’re wasting time googling calories for totally random things you’ve never eaten and never will eat, you’re trying to find creative ways to skip meals or have as little as possible, or trying to find the best excercises to burn calories in as little time as possible, or SOMETHING. I can’t remember a moment in a very long time when I haven’t been thinking about food, or how to avoid it. (Side note: if you are in school, your grades will likely suffer.)
Your “fear foods” will most likely also be your favorite foods.
Stop telling yourself you can stop when you’re skinny. You won’t be able to. A) You’ll probably never see yourself as skinny, because of body dysmorphia, and B) It’s not as simple as something you can pick up, use until you’re finished, and set back down. It stays with you.
Green tea and black coffee is disgusting. Absolutely revolting. They are a plague set upon this earth by the ED gods.
You get tired of water.
Your ed will make itself a part of you. This not only means that you feel as if you need it in order to feel right, it also means that you feel as if nobody can completely know you or what you’re like because they don’t know about your eating disorder. And you’ll feel like you can’t tell them about your eating disorder, because they might try to take it away from you.
Anytime the word “calories” is mentioned by ANYBODY outside of the ed community, even in passing, you will probably panic. (Or at least, I do)
“1000 cal workouts” and “Quick 500 cal workouts” never amount to that. It’s extremely difficult to burn that many calories. Look up excercise calculators or use an app with your stats to see which excercises burn how much, and make your own workouts.
It’s actually pretty easy to “let yourself go” for the holidays and birthdays and such, but it’s much harder to forgive yourself for it later.
♡ That’s all I can think of for now. Feel free to add on, I know I missed some. ♡
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This is the workout I’ve been doing lately.
PLEASE NOTE: i go all out for my workouts, I’m not saying you should do this. Tailor this to what you can handle. Please stay safe 💞
For this first one I try to do this twice a day, sometimes three if I have the time. This is just a modified 11 ab workout to fit what I can do.
Now THIS is the meat and potatoes of the workout, but there are some things I need to warn you about:
1. don’t do this while your fasting, I did that once and I almost passed out during the toe touches.
2. If you do this don’t start at the high numbers I listed, tailor it to fit what YOU can do. I don’t want any of y’all to get hurt trying to do everything.
Other then that, be safe and if you have a question just message me :)
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I’m so upset I didn’t get 10k in but I did burn 254 cals today so in grand total I had around 300cals
Wooooo
#ed#eating disoder mention#eating disorder#tw ed#disordered mind#eating disoder things#promia#not pro just using tags#proana#disordered eating tw
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Needed this
eating too much on one day is like eating too little for one day, it’ll do nothing. When you eat too much your body speeds up its metabolism a lil to be able to digest this extra food, just how your metabolism slows down a lil if you don’t eat enough on one day. Don’t freak out if you overeat, seriously, just enjoy today. Your health is a long term commitment, the world won’t collapse on you just cos you had pizza tonight, just enjoy yourself.
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a whole bunch of links for a bad day
distract yourself + positivity
2048
control the weather (flash warning)
spend bill gates’ money
read a book
write without distractions
snickerdoodle mug cakes
recipes for when you’re low on spoons
khan academy
an aggressive reminder
1000 awesome everyday things
bongo cat
useless websites
emergency compliments
a nice uquiz
more useless websites
sketch comedy
sculpt something
guess google searches
white noise
rain
customizable
coffee shop
thunderstorm + fireplace
rain on a tin roof
rain + traffic
train sounds
a fan
catharsis
scream into the void
cut your screen (trigger warning)
break glass
self-care
inexpensive self-care
small acts of self-care
develop a self-care plan
do nothing for two minutes
cope with:
common sleep problems (+solutions)
nightmares
stress
stress 2
are you stressed or depressed?
homework stress
an eating disorder
things to do instead of harming yourself
trauma
anger
worrying
grief
a breakup
the suicide of a loved one
bullying
is this relationship harmful?
sexual assault
obsessive-compulsive disorder
obsessive-compulsive disorder 2
suicidal thoughts
help
a whole bunch of hotlines
more hotlines
suicide hotlines
talk to someone
active positivity blogs
@positivityreblogs
@positivitie
@recoverystuff
@survivor-positivity
@ocdiscourse
@positivelypastelpink
@positiveautistic
@mental–healthawareness
@slfcare
@traumasurvivors
@softheartedsuggestion
remember:
drink some water
eat something if you haven’t in a while
take a break
sleep if you need to
you’re doing amazing i love you
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