do yall get that obsessive fixation over a character every now and then?
i dont mean obsessive as in "omg, i love them, they're so hot", i mean obsessive as in; every single moment i am awake, i am thinking about them. every fucking second of the day i am wishing they were real, wishing they could show up and meet and touch my pleading body -me, as i would immediately submit myself and my body to him.
the feelings i have towards him are unholy. you couldnt even begin to understand the blasphemies engulfing my mind-
if he were to show any kind of attention towards me; be it positive, negative- loathing or admiring, i would take it with open legs arms. as long as it pleases him, i will submit to it.
I have a fascination with angels. Angels of all kinds; biblically accurate angels, biblically inaccurate angels, angels taking different forms, such as animal or human, angels using a human vessel... the list goes on! There’s something about them that speaks to me, and while I get that angels are supernatural and majestic beings, of course we humans look up to them, be they real or not. I’m not saying I’m different in this accord- I’m probably not, but angels inspire me, and I’ve been wanting to write something about or including angels for some time now. I need a plot or an idea.
me: ew men 🤢 how can someone like any white man???
also me at 2 am, looking at pictures of jschlatt: now that. THAT is a man. i live for him. if he were to blame at me for being born, i would apologise and crawl back into the womb of my mother.