I GIVE UP!!!

I give up on being nice! I give up on caring! I give up on everything!!!

I thought getting out of a bad relationship is good for me. Having to escape the hell I've been in with my kids and all will give us the peace that we all deserve. But the impact it left our lives is so deep that we are all sufffering in different level. I myself is so traumatixed that I can even get a decent relationship with anyone. Try as I may but when I see signs from the past to the new one, I back off. Too afraid and scared that it would be another manipulative and abusive relationship. My kids because they saw how the other person has treated me is now staring to trat me the way they saw how I was treated. I feel so trapped and helpless because if I say something, I am in the wrong and my words get twisted. And they think I am always looking down on them no matter how I try to please them and be nice to them. I am just tired. I want to be understood too. What I went through and still going through, no one understands. I was told I am not fit for any relationship. Been told that everything is my fault. Been told that I was always doing or saying the wrong things. So twll me, when do I get to express how I feel when all I do is cater to everones feeling. When can I say what I want to say without having my words twisted around. When can I be understood. When can I have the peace that I long for.i guess it can only happen when Im gone there's no one to say Im worng anymore. No one to twist my words around. No more walking on eggshells around people. And I am able to have my peace.

I have never felt so helpless until I actually felt it.

Im shutting out people that interrupt s my peace. No time for dramas. My life already been a drama , now I want some action comedy.

Your choices makes you who you are.

I need help too😭

Sometimes... life is not fair. While everyone else can vent and get mad and get aggitated, I was expected to be calm and not be affected. I have to understand them and the the things and words they threw at me. But really, who understands me then

Be the person you want to be. No questions, no judgement. Just be you!

Don't under estimate me. I think more than I speak, know more than I say and notice more than you realize.

If you didn't lie and break the trust, we would've been very happy

Let go!!!

Let go of the things that hurt you, let go of the past that haunt you, let go of the people who forsake you. Let go of everything that makes you unhappy. Let go to what disrupts your peace. Just let go!!!

If only life is as simple as having tea

I really want you to be different from my past and I really need someone to treat me good this time.😪

Everytime you ignore me, I go back to my old self. Lonely, scared and thinks it's all happening again. You tell me it's not but your actions says differently. You say you understand but you are drifting away. You said you'd be patient, so you're ignoring and neglecting me. Guess you never really have it in you. I feel you're drifting away...

When you thought you have it all figured out, all is well, no worries of any sort then boom... everything crashes back to reality. It's all but a dream and you're still living in the reality that the feeling of being alone is still there. Hidden for a moment by realm to give you a break. It would be nice if this will all go away. No matter how crowded my world is... I am still alone