Harvey at the saloon :P hearts & no hearts version!! MOST PRECIOUS MAN EVER!!!!!!!

Comfort character… kinda based on a moment in game but I forgot to take a screenshot 🥹 Tried giving him an alt outfit

I just checked and I found out I had 1.3k followers. Hi. This is I think one of the first posts I’ve made on this blog in almost five years but I’m feeling down at the moment so I thought I’d reminisce.

Stardew Valley was the first game in which I romanced a male character. Yes, it was Harvey. I was eighteen years old, freshly out to myself and I was dipping my toes into the idea that I could get into a relationship with another man.

I had so much shame about it all then. I couldn’t speak, even to my queer friends about my feelings, like the words in my brain were censored before they even reached my throat. All things personal to me, all the aspects of myself felt embarrassing and wrong, fodder to be humiliated for. The thrill of a video game romance, the concept of openly wanting and being openly wanted, was exciting and mortifying.

The escapism of this imagined bucolic setting and of love and nearness to others, where being open and vulnerable is as simple as giving gifts and with a press of a button having something to say to someone. In life I struggled with my words, with relationships and being open with people. Even now talking about myself often feels like my innards are on display and I will be laughed at for it. I’m working on it.

Five years goes so fast and so slow. Forays into dating have left me hurt and confused. Coming out left some bruises. And in times of change like these, where people and friends who I wished would stay close forever have to move on and out into their lives, I think it’s easy for me to feel disheartened and stagnant. Like everyone’s caught in some big autumn but leaves me right where I’ve always been, a green leaf.

But I have changed. I came out to all the people I wanted to be out to, from whom I risked rejection. I’ve grappled with religion, with existential dread, with dating, even after I’ve been hurt. It sucks to have to go out there and meet new people and start over fresh when it feels like it takes me years to be myself around others. But those years have to start somewhere. My closest friend now I only really got to know five years ago. Who knows what five years more will look like.

I know that making a comparison between a real life concept with one that appears in a video game is sometimes seen as silly, but as this is a Stardew Valley blog it seems a fitting way to end. This is my year one again, with the sometimes cold people and the first flower dance. Even if I’m geographically in the same place, I’ll start fresh and there’ll be plenty of characters to know. One frantic day at a time.

I should learn to fish.

THIS?! You mean.. this..model airplane?? no.. its not mine..

brainrotting

Rodrick Williams belongs to me ^_~ again w more Harvey content ueuahueha

they're all gonna wake up with neck pains smh 🙄

Idk what compels me to draw them in a train, but here we are

here is my beautiful wife bc I am in a stardew valley phase rn!!! Proud to say I have always been a Harvey enjoyer, I am very glad he is finally getting the attention he deserves

As celebration for Stardew 1.6 coming out, I thought why not bring back some more old hollywood Harvey ^^

Hi I've been very dead. Here's a Harvey I doodled to dust off the rust

would you guys be interested . Hi

Having a phone call with his spouse 👀

I'M FINALLY BACK HERE AFTER SO LONG I give you... a little fall date with Harvey ((because I'm so excited to see the winter outfits for the upcoming update skdjfn I NEED. COZY DOCTOR. IN MY LIFE.))

Harvey is such a sweet guy, I am glad he enjoyed the 10 hearts event with the farmer

where are my fellow harvey truthers🗣️

I like to think Harbey wears scrubs to honor Casual Friday.

guys Instagram isn't fun anymore so I'm gonna start shit posting my art here. Here. My husband doodle. Stardew valley Harvey. Isn't he beautiful.

Found an old photograph 👀

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