My dearest love has once again returned to war (ao3 is down), and I am left with no tales of sweet loves and adventure to regale (no bedtime stories for me)

submitting an aita to phil’s tumblr post for it has me rethinking my entire love life and how i may just be a stereotype of the typical “useless lesbian” as me and this girl i thought was just being really friendly have:

-gotten ‘platonically married’ in which we exchanged rings and vows and now wear those

-plan to move in together

-have a cat together (he’s my baby but he loves her more)

-planned to spend the next 80 days on a bus trip around the US together

-are referred to as ‘mom’ and ‘mom’ in the friend group

-have multiple matching outfits and keys to each others current places

-pretended to be a couple to get free tshirts

-acted like a couple the rest of the night “just in case” anyone got suspicious

anyone have any advice? talking to her is out of the question i will simply pretend like everything is normal and FINE until i die or explode in a bridgerton-esque confession whichever comes first

Every once and a while I'll think too hard about the dsmp again and I'll feel like this

quick sketch of the apples

unrelated but why do roblox tycoons slap so hard?? but it’s like digging with your bare hands through burning hot sand to find a good one like i hate hate HATE new roblox interfaces please bring me back to 2010 roblox tycoons where i watch the blocks go down the conveyer belt and there aren’t a bajillion adds or robux add ons constantly in my face

thumbs down roblox

A good kid? Yeah, Tommy, that’s a good one!

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Art credit: @/robotic-poet; @/cattoonxd; @/brainwroms

Text credit: The Lightning Thief! The Musical

mildyly affected by an edible BUT i got really emotional thinking about c!tommy for the first time in a long time. it’s just…..he was just a kid!! a child!! and child soldier that was thrust into a world that didn’t want him and didn’t want him to succeed and all he had were his connections to his friends and his brother and all he wanted was to great a HOME!!!

ALL C!TOMMY EVER WANTED WAS TO GO HOMEEEEE AND HANG OUT WITH HIS OLDER BROTHER AND GET IN TROUBLE AND JUST GENUINELY BE A CHILDDDDD

like he sacrificed EVERYTHING literally everything he could to build out this home with the people he cares about safely in their own nation and he was still left behind or betrayed by everyone in the end so it was ultimately for nothing

he was a child soldier trying desperately to keep his family together and safe despite literally every adult character on the server being actively harmful to him and he was the one responsible for keeping himself together

like i think back to exile all the time and this might just be me reminiscing and wanting for that period in my life and that feeling back but i was genuinely so affected by exile, logging on everyday to watch as this child soldier slowly loses more and more of his will to live until he tries to kill himself, rethinks half way, and escapes to techno, probably one of the last people he could even think to trust

and god i miss technoblade, i think back to his stream and his videos all the time and am getting a tattoo as tribute to him and his contribution and i loved his content and god he committed!! like the dsmp was CRAZY in which the streams you watched were (for most creators) ENTIRELY in character and techno and tommy deserved OSCARS for that fucking acting like their confrontation at both the festival and doomsday was POWERFUL BROUGHT ME TO TEARS and outside of dsmp content they were so good together!! literally i was obsessed i watched streams almost everyday i felt so connected to people and to a community (in general terms)

i just, i miss that time. i miss the art and the fics and being so intertwined with fan made content for a plot line that while not always thought out was full of flawed characters and themes and motifs it was crazy

and while this might make no sense as i am slightly high rn i just wanted to ramble about dsmp bc i feel like i never got closure on that part of my life and i want to go back and finish all the fics i opened on an extra tab and never went back to read like i missed that era so bad and i’ve been looking for one like it ever since

watching castiel’s impact on queer media feels like when jesus died and his disciples were devastated but they still saw all the good his death did for the world

my 2024 new year’s resolution is just gonna be that one post that’s like “kill not the part of you that’s cringey but the part that cringes” like hell yeah baby i’m going to be so annoying in 2024 weeks are learning to like ourselves and our interests motherfuckers

TOMORROW IS HALLOWEEN!!!

whenever i (accidentally) skip my meds for the day my fuckin spider senses start tingling bro is this normal???

in other news i have started rewatching bbcs sherlock so maybe the mental illness IS catching up to me and i should stop forgetting to take my meds

rereading mangoball is soul healing i am being so fr rn like holy shit it’s like looking at a time capsule of 2020 mcyt stan twt and every post is so fucking funny

YOOOOO IM 21 NOW

YOU KNOW WHAT THIS MEANS????

ABSOLUTELY FUCKING NOTHING I AM GOING TO REGRESS INTO ALL OF MY PAST HYPERFIXATIONS RAHHHH

there is absolutely no way

bro dnp games is back and we are getting a consistent spooky week??? genuinely never thought i would live to see the day the world is healing fr (or just reverting back to 2015)

(which is, in a sense, healing)

guy who walks into autism diagnosis appointment and just pulls up this

LOVE failed chosen ones. Chosen ones who failed and chosen ones who aren’t special and never were and chosen ones by chance and chosen ones by a choice not their own and chosen ones who succeeded at what cost