Today I went to the American Library of Paris to open an account, and I stumbled upon a random page in a random book and it couldn’t feel more relevant to me. I love pretty moments like this :’)

[04.12.22] ✧ my little home ft my new 2022-2023 digital planner from @emmastudies

Feeling cozy being inside and resting on the weekend.

I am so happy to share that I have an incredible therapist in Geneva and I have been working out (ya girl joined a boxing club haha what!!). I have also been prioritizing comfort and warmth around me - in the literal sense - and have been wearing looser and comfier clothes, not realizing I had been ignoring my cues on touch sensitivity and overstimulation.

And let me tell you, and I have felt incredibly better.

Like, suddenly I’m less depressed, which is a bit wild because I don’t remember the last time I’ve felt “less depressed”?

Mostly now it’s really a sensation of comfort and warm and soft and looking forward to things and ooh this feels good or yes I can do that. And I feel it really in the center of my body, like in my heart space and solar plexus chakra - like the energy is just radiating! It’s a sensation I hold onto when I go into situations that I know will stress me out.

It’s also a sensation that has helped me feel less anxious about leaving my apartment - an anxiety deeply rooted with the social and physical discomfort of going outside and doing things. Discomfort in the sense of a bit of social anxiety, a bit of exhaustion, most often a discomfort with the temperature, some sort of looming responsibility or deadline (work, school), and the stimulation-saturated overwhelming nature of the public. But I know I am feeling a bit better because this is getting easier for me. ♥️

Anyway, explanations over! I hope all of you are finding some sweet rest and warmth during the change of season. 🤍

10.27.22

there’s a pun about outfits and neck fitting to be made here, but im too tired to do it rn…

🎧 : roddy - djo

2022年10月13号

I had a very busy but fun week these past few days! On Sunday, I went to see Titanic the Musical at the Milwaukee Rep theatre, which was absolutely amazing, I loved every second of it! We went out for dim sum afterward, where I had some delicious 小笼包 (xiao long bao), or soup dumplings. We also had a guest instructor at Martial Arts club this Tuesday, who taught aikido -- it was a great experience and we all learned a lot and had a ton of fun.

This week I've received a lot of homework, most notably a computer science project that is driving me up the wall, so I've been in the library a lot, trying to not burn myself out too much, haha. Tonight there's a pizza night for the comp sci department, so I can go and ask for advice on my project. The free pizza doesn't hurt either.

16.09.2022

Apart from the occasional showers absolutely drenching me, I had a wonderful day full of park and museum visits. The air here is so refreshing 🪴🌱🌿

2022.08.31

an original post for the first time in a while! an update on me, i've safely graduated and am currently in my gap year studying for international school. it's a big leap for me so i'm crossing my fingers that all goes well.

today's song is gyakko by ado :) this song has been my main source of energy these past few days!!

also, to all my new followers hello and thank you! this is probably the first original post a lot of you have seen from me haha but i'll be trying my best to post from time to time. i wish you all the best in your studies <3 mwah!

sunday 21.08.22

messy and improvised morning study session since i no longer can’t study at my desk. it seems like my dining table has become my new study space (at least it comes with a pretty and cute study partner)

Studying a new Russian repertoire and getting crazy

16.7.2022—we’ve had some good sunsets recently 🌸🌿🍃🧚🏻‍♀️🌟

Just finished week 1 of my final semester

...is anyone else going through an existential crisis, or is it just me?

I feel like I've finally settled into a comfortable routine at university, especially now all classes are in person again. I don't think it was too difficult to adjust, I had the misfortune of having to deal with quite a few problems outside of academia that made the transition more difficult. I also believe I came with the wrong attitude. It's strange to think I was afraid of being too intellectual at a university, but it is the kind of fear that has lingered with me for years. Anti-intellectualism runs rampant and it frequently made me feel quite insecure, that I was a know-it all and annoying, but I won't let that stop me anymore.

Day 3/30

19.05.2022 // Started the day off very late today but the vibes when reading in the morning are always so good. Tbh very little productivity bc i was stuck at work for half the day but nighttime is my best friend when it comes to studying.

🎧 She - dodie 🌊

11/05/2022

Currently on the home stretch of my exams, I wouldn't say they're going really well but they're over which at this point is the most important thing I guess :))

Also went to the library yesterday and crammed the final chapter for my biology exams today and I'm really hoping for the multiple choice paper to save me haha.

Anyways hope you're all doing well 💞

working on the last set of edits and hoping i live to see the end of this heatwave

14 apr 22 ; 8h39

i am currently having two weeks of easter holiday. as my focus is terrible when staying at home, i spend most of my time in the library. the idea of peers judging me pressures me to work :)

organic chemistry and I really had enemies-to-lovers arc because I hated it a lot before and now this is the only thing that gets me the "zone" of studying