This. Very important. I used to want to die all the time, but then I realized it was simply a lack of hope that I could get out of my current situation. But it's not that I didn't want to live. I just didn't want to live as I did back then.

One day you think: I want to die. And then you think, very quietly, actually I want a coffee. I want a nap. A sandwich. A book. And I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friends, I want to sit in the sun. I want a cleaner room, I want a better job, I want to live somewhere else, I want to live.

Done with draft of Ch 26! It is 6500 words. Editing will take place next weekend.

I am feeling a bit... emotionally tired and stale the last couple days, though. Maybe it's because a lot has happened in the last month. I am getting to all the fun, lighter, romantic stuff in FoM and I'm somehow... not as excited as I thought I'd be writing it, even though I have been waiting to write it for a year? I hope it's only a temporary thing, I really do. Nothing that watching Fellowship with cast commentary won't fix, I'm sure.

Alright I've got a doozy of a hobbit question- what the fuck would the general consensus be about all these modern treehouses some people actually live in these days. It's the complete opposite of a hobbit hole and often involves more windows than walls and ladders made for bigger legs PLUS all the dangers from falling and storms and shit, I think they'd think the treehouses were nuts! ... slide's prolly a good touch though

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Probably a hard no, considering that in The Fellowship the hobbits were quite uncomfortable with the elven flets in Lothlorien, which are essentially open-air treehouses. That said, hobbits are easygoing folk, who like to live and let live, so they probably would shake their heads and click their tongues at other people living in such conditions, but ultimately shrug and say, "to each his own."

Not neurodivergent, but may I also add that people with autism are accused of lacking social skills, but the exclusion does not help teach said social skills. So it becomes a self-perpetuating loop. Some people eventually learn to mask, but that only works to a point, because those behaviors are picked up without particular explanation or guidance.

In my life, again, I am not neurodivergent, but was heavily traumatized and socially isolated as a child. I did not know what the shows, music groups, games, and fashions were that everyone was talking about. I wore second hand clothes and could not follow conversations because they were full of cultural references I could not simply go home and look up -- the internet was in its infancy, and we didn't have a computer at home. I was around naturally cruel people, and I was ashamed/afraid to invite anyone home, and for years I did not understand that to make friends, you have to take a genuine interest in others, respect boundaries, and be non-judgmental and empathetic, because I did not observe the people around me behaving that way.

Because my brother was autistic, people often questioned whether I was autistic, but no, I was just socially deprived and my behavior and choices only made it a cycle. I had to learn to be social later in life, once I became independent, without any guidance. I messed up a lot of relationships, and was often lonely. I had to take classes in psychology to understand this shit.

If it was so hard for me, so I can only imagine what it was like for actual neurodivergent people, so my heart goes out to them.

i notice that autism and neurodivergency has to come with “a look”. “you dont look autistic”. “you have autism? i didnt notice? are you sure?.” but every mean girl group you encounter in middle school notices before you even speak. You know you cant fit in and nobody is trying to tell you that you do. Maybe a backhanded, un understanding “youll find the right people” is uttered once in a while. but they know. so does your english teacher when she grades your writing. Every one can sense that you, are different. You hate this.

Living in “The Secret History”

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:’) more sam n frodo content ..

The Beren/Lúthien and Frodo/Sam parallels have even more meaning when you consider Sam’s worship of Elves.

He starts off as excited as a puppy about seeing them. He just wants to get a glimpse of them, maybe find out a little more about them.

But as the story unfolds, he ends up walking the path of Lúthien herself, with the same motive of love.

He follows his beloved on a dangerous quest into the land of a Dark Lord, uses ancient magic to cloak himself and infiltrate Sauron’s tower, and sings a song of sorrow and longing that enables him to find and rescue his imprisoned beloved, after which he and his love defeat the Dark Lord and are flown to safety by the Eagles, and then after a tragic separation, he is eventually allowed to live a temporary mortal life with his love after the Valar pity their suffering. ALL of which are deeds done by Lúthien, the greatest of all Elves to ever live.

Arwen may have the face/physical beauty of Lúthien and make the same choice, but by the end, in terms of heroic actions (perilous quests, dungeon rescues, songs of salvation), it is Samwise Gamgee who has become the Lúthien of the Third Age.

Ate Bilbo out of house & home without offering so much as a token for his trouble!

Blunt the Knives - by Kazuki Mendou

Alright. This has been ping ponging in the back of my head for weeks as the dust de-settles from returning to Tolkien once again. Say any big folk goes to the Shire- long visit, business, proper vacation, marriage- whatever reason, they're there a long ass time. All shoes have a life to them on any earth be it beginning- Middle TM- or end, right? Do you think that Hobbits see so little use in shoes that there are genuinely no cobblers and such to make them, and folks who need them would have to go to Bree? -or is there one or two people who picked it up for shits and giggles and could make them for a Price?

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Well, Tolkien himself said that hobbits practice all crafts except shoemaking, and I think that hobbits as a community are really quite insular and distrustful of anything foreign. I would even go so far as to say that a group, they disdain foreign things, though the four hobbits in LOTR, as well as Bilbo, are obviously exceptions!

However, when it comes to fixing shoes at least, I think that if one has mastered another craft, such as making belts and other leather goods, it's not too hard to figure out how to reattach the sole of a shoe, put seams back together, replace buttons, etc. When it comes to making brand new shoes, though, yes, I think you'd probably need to go to Bree.

One thing I should say is that Elijah has large eyes in real life, but the Frodo wig makes them look even larger.

The wispy curls cover part of the forehead and temples, reducing the visible area of the face. As a result, his eyes look bigger by comparison.

Many of you are too young to remember, but back in 2001, when Fellowship of the Ring first came out, they literally had to put out a statement saying "no, we didn't cgi Frodo's eyes, Elijah Wood is just Like That."

i’m just saying aragorn son of arathorn oh im sorry STRIDER (one of them rangers what his right name is i never heard etc etc) didn’t need to be that sexy at the prancing pony. like ostensibly he’s trying to lay low but even dipshit little [relatively] eighteen y/o frodo is like hey what’s the deal with that extremely ostentatiously sexy man in the corner

the thing is that war should always be reluctant. no one should want to fight. legolas and gimli and aragorn don't want to kill the orcs, they just want to to save merry and pippin. gandalf does not want to fight the balrog, he wants to pass through moria unharmed. aragorn doesn't even want to take power from the stewards of gondor, he just wants the people to have a stable leader. faramir says it best when he hopes that one day they will tell stories, sitting on a wall in the sun, laughing at old grief. we just want better times. we just want to be happy. we don't want to fight, we only fight because we have to. because they are forcing us

There are some interesting studies on this. Traumatized dogs, for instance. You’d think being habituated to violence would make them good guard dogs or good at defending their masters, but no! They become more erratic and hard to train.

Also, traumatized people are vulnerable to more trauma.

"yOuR trAuMa mAde yOu sTroNger" no bitch it made me prone to disassociation and afraid of loud noises

Elijah Wood could be wearing a ratty hoodie and have 5 day stubble, and I would still be incoherent and unable to look at anything else in the room if I were in his presence.

Many of you are too young to remember, but back in 2001, when Fellowship of the Ring first came out, they literally had to put out a statement saying "no, we didn't cgi Frodo's eyes, Elijah Wood is just Like That."

Another one for the Frodogold playlist. I don't even know how. Maybe because they talk and they always say things that have a profound effect on the other. And their verbal and emotional connection is so intense, that sometimes their physical relationship is actually a relief from the intensity. As well as the "I always knew, it's always you" thing, obvi.

'Cause you talk to me And it comes off the wall You talk to me And it goes over my head So let's go to bed Before you say something real Let's go to bed Before you say how you feel

More Mr. Nisilë logic: Also, you have one thermos. Chaos grandpa does not have one thermos. He has 17. And he somehow managed to get every one of them through security, but then he forgot them all on the plane.

Me: I... used to be like that?

Mr. Nisilë: Yes, but you've aged out of that.

Me: Yeah, now you're the chaos grandpa, if we go by your definition.

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