So..I'm just at this point again.. deep in a black hole of hopeless shit and I have no idea how to get out . I'm just crawling from weekend to weekend so I can sleep all day.. but also the nights, also in my dreams I can't feel any better ..I'm exhausted when I wake up. Some nights my head is almost exploding and I'm fucking freaking out, I just wanna hurt myself to let the pain out...but I'm just sitting here, quiet in my bed, doing nothing, letting a fuck come out of me. I .. I just can't anymore.

The Mental Illness: we need to start crying

Me: wtf, why??!

The Mental Illness: we need to be in tears

Me: .....?

The Mental Illness: DO IT

Me: alright, alright, al- 😰😰

llegas al punto en que te sientes mal y no entiendes por qué, porque creías que todo estaba bien, pero al final, ¿por algo te estás sintiendo así, no?

Aaaand I'm back

it scares me to think about how i’m only alive because i don’t want to hurt the people i love

that’s the only reason (via depresseddisneyprincess)

I'm smiling..so..I'm happy right?