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I had a legitimate spiritual experience about a week ago where God let me talk to my wife and see her face she is safe with God and my heart is so at peace now. She said she wants me to stop using drugs. And I asked God what he wants me to do and I heard his voice say read the Bible so I got a Bible. I never thought I would become a Christian again. I've been a nihilistic atheist for so long. But when God literally saves you from an overdose and shows you your deceased wife and let you talk to her and tells you to read the Bible, you just cannot question that. So I am a Christian now and I'm going to church today. And when I get locked up it will probably be good for me because I won't have access to drugs, I'll be on my medication, and I can just read the Bible and get really in touch with God and I can do my artwork and I can correspond with people through the mail. Everything's going to be okay. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

I had a spiritual vision from God. I got to see and talk to my wife, she is safe with God and she wants me to stop using drugs. I asked God what he wants me to do and he said read the Bible. So I guess I am a Christian now, I have to be after God gifted me with talking to my Baby Boo. I haven't got a Bible yet but I'm going to. I love my wife and I will be with her in heaven when I die she can hear me when I talk to her she's always looking down on me. I believe in God and I guess Jesus now too because I had a legitimate vision, nothing like that has ever happened I know it wasn't a hallucination or anything. Praise be to God.

Long live Queen Pauline. Probably on my way to prison cause some asshole decided to put his hands on me and I reacted like I do. SoundCloud.com/erikaqueenpauline last 2 tracks were recorded IN MY FUCKING HOSPITAL ROOM with a broken leg and a cell phone. Much love. Queer pride forever. Trans pride forever. Fuck racism. Fuck transphobia. Fuck the mothafuckin POLICE lol. Ok praise be to God (yes I do believe in one). Love my family and friends. Bump Rozz Dyliams and Queen Pauline erry day.

I'm probably going to prison, soon, and possibly for years. Something fucked up happened on my 31st birthday I have a broken leg and that's all I can say. So if it's been years with no new posts, still check my content, my art and music. It's my only contribution to the world. Here are some new collages

There's a warrant out for my arrest and I'm turning myself in later today. Would be foolish to speak on the details, but I am infuriated that this has happened. I was trying so hard to stay out of trouble so I could finish all my probation and supervision and move to Minneapolis, where my sister lives. Back to jail and probably prison. I do not deserve this. Seriously. I'M THE ONE WITH THE BROKEN LEG why the fuck am I going to jail??????? I just love our "justice" system .

I have to turn myself in to jail today. I might be gone for a couple of years. Something happened that wasn't my fault, but I should have known I wasn't going to be able to escape this shitty town and go start a new life with my sister in Minneapolis. As soon as you have dreams they get crushed. Bump my music while I'm gone, if you feeling it. Sorry everyone, I have tried so hard to stay out of jail and finish probation.

I just found out I have a probation warrant, and new charges are coming for what happened. For obvious reasons, not going to say more than that. I may be going back to prison for a couple of years. I recorded two new songs recently, check them out at SoundCloud.com/erikaqueenpauline

I'll probably be gone for a while, bump my shit while I'm gone. Also, I've been writing my life story and I'm over 24,000 words. Look forward to that eventually, when I'm out.

Thanks to everyone who's listening to my music, and read my blog

My wife visited me yesterday, on Christmas Eve, through a stranger... A Christmas Miracle.

My wife died during this exact time of year, two years ago, on December 11, 2020. there was snow on the ground just like there is today, and I found out about her death in this exact homeless shelter, that I'm living at now... So I've been having these terrible flashbacks to finding out the most devastating, soul-tearing news that my wife, my puzzle piece, the soulmate I had finally found, was not alive any more. That I was never gonna hear her laugh or touch her skin again, or smell her hair, or kiss her lips or see her pretty eyes, her adorable, radiant smile. Prior to this, she has made her presence known at LEAST three times since her death. I'm pretty sure she does it to remind me she's still here with me - waiting. That she didn't go away! It makes me really happy when she does something to demonstrate her presence, and she seems to know when I'm at my lowest points and need comforting, or reassurance. She always took care of me when I was in need... "Mama Bear" was one of my pet names for her because she was a little like a mom to me in that she was wiser and more level headed than I was. she guided me, steered me away from danger. I listened to her and abided by her advice or when she told me to do something, which is something I've never done with anyone else, not even my parents. I always trusted her, because she always had my wellbeing and best interest in mind. she loved me so much and knew I needed guidance and a firm directive every once in a while, one of the million reasons I love her. ANYHOOZLE, the first three visitations I'll recount at another time, what I'm about to describe is her best and most visceral appearance to happen thus far. Like I said, it's a rough time of year for me, was in the ER two nights ago due to feeling suicidal and was concerned by how much appeal the idea held. not wanting mom and sisters to go through what I'VE had to go through after Liz died. Basically changed my mind, and convinced myself to live, and left the hospital via a drunk cab driver (Im pretty sure, or throwed off some pills or something) who made transphobic remarks and almost got us in a wreck, which I was oblivious to until he proclaimed that we had almost just got in a wreck. Whatever. Weird ass drunk transphobic christian cab driver yapping in my ear about how he "isn't down with that". Oh yeah, forgot for a sec our society is fucked and the counter culture can't count, to quote the Late Eyedea.

Anyways then this black woman who looked a lot Liz - same height, same complexion, glasses - appeared out of nowhere while I was walking on East Wash and helped me pick up something I dropped and I said "sorry if this is weird but you look a lot like my wife who passed away." She said "I'm still around. You'll see me again." And I know that was Liz talking through her. Then she turned and walked away. A Christmas Eve miracle. ❤️

Okay there's a term for exactly how I am that I just learned about, "soft butch". This article describes my identity/mannerisms perfectly, people expect/demand that a trans woman be ultra feminine, fuck that shit there's a spectrum of masculinity within being a female, like are you that ignorant and basic that you think all women should act and dress a certain way? Oh yeah, you are, 90% of Madison residents I estimate based on the volume and frequency of your unwanted unsolicited critiques about my gender expression that I hear from sunup to sundown every motherfucking goddamn day. PEA BRAINED SIMPLETONS oh yeah, our country elected fucking Donald trump as President, I am awash in a sea of fucking IMBECILES.

This is how hard it is to use the right pronouns

J.S. Park on twitter:

Went to see a patient & the RN [registered nurse] told me: “Heads up. Our patient is she/her.” 

 Patient at one point asked me a question, I replied “Yes ma’am.” 

She hadn’t quite looked at me until I said that. After she was fully engaged. Here’s how long it took me to adjust: zero seconds.

ok. so I'm trippin balls, right? (as per usual) I'm at my friend's house looking at this like what in the actual fuck, is that rainbow pasta? come to find out, those are straws, my guy. fucking straws in a thing labeled pasta 😂😂😂🤣🤣🤣🤣

Watch Way That I Am (feat. Your Old Droog) on YouTube Music

wiki is purely dope as fuck. I been checking out his albums lately, think he's one of my top favorite artists now.

bro. I've been taking cough medicine from your store since 2012, do you think I don't know what "code 3" means on the intercom. 😆

collages I made today