🍓 Strawberry Pancake 🍓

A lovely custom connect I did as a commission for one of my followers over on Instagram.

I haven't worked on a newer furby model in so long, so this was really fun to do. I'm over the moon with how they turned out!

Dear older generation

Monday, March 2nd, 4:23 am - ok boomer

This is an anonymous letter to all the boomers in my life as well as a rant for anyone willing to listen so if you saw my last post then you would know that I've been really down lately as I've just gotten out of a very toxic relationship,(and also might be a hardcore lesbian but that's fiiinnee)  and have been feeling kinda dysphoric lately which is actually why I started this blog I didn't really expect to make another post my last one was actually more of an ending rather than a beginning. But as you can probably tell I'm still here and that is mostly because when, I made my first ever last post, after I left school that day and things suddenly got a lot better I bought my very first dress from a musical artist I  like a lot and I went to the mall with my brother, who has been making an effort to call me my prefered name, and mother who refuses to follow suit but rather uses my middle name as a substitute but hey I'll take it where I can get it. At the mall my mom even let me get my ears pierced and she even paid for it! Then the next day my friend and I went out to buy some makeup. We went back to my house and had a spa day jamed out too transgender dysphoria blues by against me! and then we went out! verything was going perfectly nothing could go wrong! Until everything did. While my mom was driving my friend and I home we were talking and our conversation somehow ended up on the topic of how Elsa is a hardcore lesbian like myself, which she totally is! But oh, boy did my mom NOT like that she started yelling at me about how everyone is not gay and we got into a screaming match until it was silent on the way home we've barely spoken since. Not to mention on the night of the mall we got into a fight about the correct pronouns for previously mentioned music artists which are totally they/them btw. I was ok this could be a lot worse. It's all gonna be ok and then cue the next morning. I woke up, looked in the mirror and thought oh yeah its a guy day. So I dressed masculine killed some time before work changed for work hoped I worked with people I like and lucky for me I did. And work was going good until another boomer had to ruin my life like they always do first at home than at work will it never end? So I was wearing a little nail polish because of the day before and this older gentleman with a thick white beard pulls up to the window to pay for his meal and I say my usual have a nice day take care and shit and then the guy goes I have a question and I say what is it assuming it was about some special we had on the menu, boy was I in for a treat, next thing I know he asks why are you wearing nail polish? Out of genuine shock and caught off guard I shoot back merely a word “what” so he repeats his question and I simply say because black is a nice color, my nails were painted black, and he goes but only girls wear nail polish are you a girl and not about to come out to a stranger and risk my safety I deflect the question and say why should what's between your legs matter as to what someone wears and how they express themselves and he replies oh it matters a lot you don't want to look like a girl do you? I only reply to his invasive questions with a glance of shock. He asks one last thing: didn't your daddy teach you nuthin? I simply replied my dad taught me to love and accept myself just the way I am which is only a half-truth and as a final remark he goes hmph in disgust or curiosity I'm not sure and simply drives away as I'm brought back to reality as I hear a beeping in my ear indicating that someone else was ready to order something. I'm just glad he didn't notice my new pretty purple pearls decorating my perked ears. I guess as a takeaway from all this dear older generation please don't say stuff like this not only is it rude invasive and frankly inappropriate it could be just what pushes that kid or even adult off of the edge. And if you are someone like me struggling to come to terms with your queerness and with the people around you accepting you please take it from me it may not seem like it but this won't last forever things will get better from yours truly -Lake

Friday February 28th- a very long unsolicited therapy session

I have no idea what to write about. These “free writes” my teacher assign are always so daunting because they encourage you to say what's on your mind and Although it seems like it's easy because there's a million things going through my head right now and i'm not sure if its gonna quiet down, i really want it to quiet down, but i'll just keep taking my pills and blasting my trans music ™ namely true trans soul rebel by against me which was gifted to me by a very special friend and i'll keep crying every night like i always do and just hope that this goes away eventual cause its really loud and i just want some quiet for once in my life. So where should I start? God there's so many different things going on right now a better question would be where shouldn’t I start. Well i suppose i'll just pick one for now so during these past few days i've been feeling sick and not going to school and frankly it's probably just cause i honestly can't get out of bed on really bad days i wasn't planning to be gone three whole days really just one maybe two but something terrible happened i got into a really nasty fight with my boyfriend or rather ex-boyfriend and it turns out that he cheated on me and honestly i was- no i am devastated and i couldn't stop sobbing when i found out so to stop the pain or rather control it i started cutting again and i've done it a few times since then my parents still have no idea and i've been having lots of….. Dark thoughts lately. So other than that whole ordeal the other really shitty things in my life are that i've been feeling hella dysphoric lately and it's been hitting hard and i really just want to no i need therapy like ASAP or i feel like my head is gonna burst. And i guess veniting in anonymous paragraphs like this do help somewhat but it's not really the therapy i need i just hope i'll get it soon.