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concept: extremely sweet and caring guys that fuck you like an animal in heat
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dear writers who are slower/take more time with their writing or writers who are on hiatus or writers who are trying to find their voice again, i see you and i love you and you are valid
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Pixie
Summary: The boys react to the new short hair of (Y/n).
Characters: Ghost, Soap, Rudy, König
Wordcount: 1.247
Authors note: To all my short haired girlies who just need a little support.
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Ghost
"It's short." He looked at me emotionlessly. There was no reaction apart from this sentence.
"So?", I asked rather nervously.
He just shrugged his shoulders. "Cute.", he said. He tousled my now short hair. "Relax."
I pouted. "That was a big step for me, okay?"
He just took me in his arms. "It looks good." He kissed the top of my head and sneezed right after, because of the tickling stubble. Something he deeply hated doing in front of other people. Simon may be a bull of a man, but he had the sneeze of a kitten.
I stifled my giggles.
He just grumbled, "I'll have to get used to that."
I snuggled against his chest. "You really like it?"
He stroked the short hair on the back of my neck. Cuddled me properly. "I like it... now your spider webs of hair aren't flying around everywhere."
I punched him lightly on the chest. "Ass."
"Love you too." He tugged lightly on a strand of hair and smiled with this look in his eyes, that told me he was just remembering one of the few fond memories from his childhood.
"What?", I asked cautiously.
The tips of his ears turned slightly red. "When I was little, a girl in my class had short hair... Maybe I had a bit of a crush on her."
I grinned at him. "There was someone before me?" I groaned in mock shock.
He rolled his eyes. "I was eight!"
I kissed him lightly. "I love you."
He ran his hand over my head. "Love you, too."
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Soap
I walked as quickly as I could through the apartment and into the bathroom. Annoyed, I ripped the shower head from its holder and held my head over the bath. The water ran through my cut of strands and I breathed a sigh of relief. I hated the amount of mousse that hairdressers always slammed into my hair.
Like that would change the fact, that I hated the cut. I could feel the tears coming again. I rubbed my hair dry and looked in the mirror, exhausted.
Johnny hesitantly opened the door. "Are you okay?"
I shook my head. I had spent weeks looking for a cut I liked, only to leave the store with "something" on my head.
I pulled up the snot. Johnny gave me a quick hug and ran his fingers through the wet strands. "That's longer than the cut you chose.", he said.
"It's not what I chose at all." I took a deep breath. It was just hair, but the teasing from school still ran deep.
"You give it a quick wash now. Okay?",he mumbled.
I hung my head over the bath and started washing my hair until the sticky feeling was finally gone.
Johnny immediately wrapped a towel around my head and rubbed it dry.
"Sit down.", he just said and sat me on the toilet lid. I saw Johnny standing in front of me with his cell phone and a pair of scissors in his hand.
"What are you going to do?", I asked, irritated.
He just grinned. "I've been cutting my hair for years. I can manage it."
I sighed. "Why not?"
Johnny was beaming like a child at Christmas and studied the picture I had sent him a few days ago in detail. Then he set to work with great concentration, cutting my head more by feel than anything else. It couldn't get any worse than the mushroom hairstyle I left with.
He looked almost professional as he divided the hair and checked every now and then to make sure it was lying the way he wanted it.
Then he rubbed the towel over my head again and nodded with satisfaction. He reached for the hairdryer and put it in place before grabbing one of his various hair gels and styling it.
"Voilà.", he grinned and pulled me up to look in the mirror.
I stared. "That's perfect.", I whispered. Johnny grinned behind me. "I know."
I ran my fingers through the now more beautiful strands. "How are you so good at this?"
He shrugged his shoulders. "I've been cutting mine forever and every now and then I cut someone's hair at base."
I pulled him in for a kiss. "Thank you."
He ran his hand over the back of my head. "Always."
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Rudy
"Morning." he murmured, smiling. I buried myself in the pillow again. I was slow to come back to the land of the living and realized that my scalp felt different. I remembered yesterday. I remembered that I had finally taken the plunge and cut off my hair. I remembered all too well that Rudy had shown me, what he thought of my new look. My neck felt sore. Rudy is and always has been a biter. I ran my hand over my head. "How bad is it?", I asked, still tired.
Rudy laughed lightly. "I thought we established yesterday, that I like it."
I grinned. "Yeah." I peeked at him through one eye. "I meant more the current state."
He stroked my hair. "I think it's cute."
I grinned. "I feel like an Araucana chicken."
He laughed relaxed. "My sweet Araucana chicken."
I buried myself against his chest. Gently, he ran his fingers over my back. "I must confess... It's quite pleasant to not swallow your hair all the time in my slepp."
I laughed. "You're welcome."
He kissed me on the nose and tousled my head. "Does my Araucana chicken want to shower with me?"
I grinned. "Only if my silky fowl comes with me."
He stumbled. "I don't look like a silky."
I grinned. "Just a little bit."
He buried me playfully underneath him and maltreated my neck with his mouth, grinning. I laughed and surrendered to his caresses.
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König (Klaus)
I felt big hands running over my head. I rolled my eyes with a grin and looked up from my book.
The mountain of a man, who called himself my boyfriend stood behind me with an embarrassed grin and looked down at me.
"Sorry.", he mumbled.
I shook my head. "That's all right. Let off steam."
He lifted me off the sofa, sat on it himself and then draped me so that I could continue reading on his lap. His hands continued to run through the short strands of hair on my head.
I almost felt like a cat being cuddled. I could understand the little creatures. I put my book aside with a sigh and curled up on top of him.
"I would have cut my hair off much earlier, if I'd known I'd get a head massage every day."
He just grumbled and continued stroking my head.
I let myself be lulled by his fingers, until my eyes fell shut. I was almost in the land of dreams when I was torn from my relaxation.
Pumpkin the cat was standing next to us and screaming at Klaus. It didn't matter that I had rescued the little one. Klaus had been her human from day one. Klaus and only Klaus.
He laughed lightly and lifted the cat onto his lap too. She let him stroke her demonstratively and showed me which of us was number one here.
I rolled my eyes and smiled. Cats.
Klaus pressed a kiss to my lips. Pumpkin immediately rubbed her head at his chin.
"Hey, I saved you. He didn't want you at all!"
He laughed. "My two girls." he sighed.
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Yogi's Choice
Summary: The CoD guys with a girl who is into yoga.
Characters: Soap, Ghost, Alejandro, König, Rudy
Wordcount: 1.995
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Soap
"What are you doing?"
Johnny's voice snapped me out of my concentration. I put my feet on the floor and sat down on the mat beneath me. Slightly annoyed, I looked up at him. "Yoga."
He was standing in the doorway with his arms crossed, one eyebrow raised. "And you always look like a pretzel? Apart from that. Why didn't you ever tell me that you can put your feet behind your head? As your boyfriend, I should know that!"
I just rolled my eyes and tried to get into my next pose.
"What's that called now? Warrior something?"
"Super Soldier." I mumbled, concentrating on keeping my balance.
Johnny laughed. "Looks pretty wobbly, soldier.", he teased me.
I didn't let myself be put off. "Then why don't you try it yourself?" I mumbled and changed sides.
I heard him clap his hands. "All right."
I slowly stood up again and watched Johnny trying to sort out his limbs, which only resulted in him standing very stiffly on my mat with his legs a little wide and looking down at himself in confusion.
I smirked. "What's wrong Sergeant?"
He looked at me stubbornly. "Hey I've only seen the pose once. Let me think!"
I grinned. "Legs hip-width apart. Good. Upper body down. Put your weight on one leg and slowly lift the other. Now grab your foot with your hand and-" BOOM. Johnny fell over like a sack of rice. I stifled my laughter with all my might.
"Fuck.", he grumbled, but immediately stood back up and tried again... and again and again.
I watched him sit cross-legged until he looked down at his legs angrily and crossed his arms in front of his chest.
"Looks pretty wobbly.", I grinned.
He grumbled to himself, his accent becoming so strong again, that I could hardly understand anything. "I'll figure that out!", he promised and quickly left the room.
"Where are you going?"
"I'm getting a stupid yoga mat!", he shouted and I heard the door slam.
Knowing him, he wasn't going to let that down until he managed to hold this not-so-easy pose.
I could have just told him, that he has to bend his knee, but what would be the fun in that?
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Ghost
"What are you doing here?" I mumbled, still slightly sleepy.
Simon was sitting on the stairs of the terrace, looking out over the moonlit farm. "Can't sleep.", he mumbled. He tapped his temple lightly. "Too loud."
I sat down next to him. I put half of the blanket I had wrapped around me around his shoulders and leaned against him. "Sorry."
He just mumbled.
We sat there quietly and listened to the nocturnal animals. "Don't you want to go for a walk?" I mumbled into the silence. That was usually his way of dealing with insomnia.
He sighed. "I'm already done."
I looked at him in surprise. "How long have you been awake?"
He shook his head. "Since we went to bed."
"Si." I sighed.
He rubbed his tired eyes. "I'm open to suggestions.", he mumbled devotedly.
"How many nights has it been?"
He looked at his hands. "The third."
"You haven't slept for three nights?", I asked, shocked. "Why didn't you say anything?"
He sighed. "I slept. Just very little."
I rubbed his back. "I'd say do yoga, but-"
He dropped his head onto my shoulder. "I do everything now.", he mumbled devotedly.
I laughed in surprise. "Really?"
He nodded.
He let me gently maneuver him into the house until I sat him down on the soft carpet in the living room.
He followed my little lesson without hesitation. Copied the gentle stretches. Followed the breathing I instructed him to do. We both lay on the floor in shavasana. "Concentrate on your breathing. I like to imagine a circle that gets bigger, when I breathe in and smaller, when I breathe out.", I explained. "This gives your head somthing to do."
He nodded almost imperceptibly and found his rhythm. "Let your limbs consciously become heavy. Push the tension out of them in a controlled manner. Relax your face."
I listened to his breathing and the soft noises that came through the open window. Simon was lying next to me. His eyes closed. His face relaxed.
He seemed calm. I was just hoping, that he would at least get some rest, even if he couldn't fall asleep, when his all-too-familiar loud snoring made me look up.
I grinned. There you go.
As carefully as possible, I laid the blanket over his tall form and trudged to the sofa to lie down again. We could always deal with any back pain later.
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Alejandro
I felt a couple of big hands on my bottom.
"Hot." Alejandro grinned down at me.
I stood up again. I rolled my eyes, smirking slightly. "You really use every cliché.", I said and poked him on the forehead. "Weirdo."
Alejandeo wasn't impressed at all and simply pulled me towards him, until there wasn't a hair's breadth between us. "I am a man. We're simple creatures.", he beamed and tampered with my neck while he kneaded my bottom extensively.
"Ale!" I protested with a laugh and pushed him away from me. "I'm not finished yet.", I complained.
He looked at me closely. "I want to watch.", he said.
I just rolled my eyes again. "But shut up.", I admonished, poking him in the chest.
"Whatever my angel wants.", he just grinned and sat down next to my mat.
I ignored the presence of the born macho next to me and resumed my exercises. I let my breathing and movements carry me and felt myself becoming more relaxed with every stretch and every pose, until I almost forgot that Alejandro was watching me.
When I opened my eyes again and got ready for the real world, I saw Alejandro watching me intently. He was smiling gently. Almost like a schoolboy he was beaming.
"What?" I asked, confused.
He crawled up to me and kissed my forehead. "You're beautiful.", he smiled.
I felt the heat in my cheeks. "Shut up." I smiled sheepishly.
Alejandro just grinned. "You'll have to teach me a few things.", he said.
I laughed. "You want to learn yoga?"
"Hm. Some of it would be the perfect punishment for a couple of rookies... And some of it could be very helpful in private, of course." He waggled his eyebrows playfully.
I laughed. "An absolute cliché. You macho."
"You're into it."
"Admittedly." I confessed and kissed him.
It didn't take long for Alejandro to misappropriate my yoga mat.
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König (Klaus)
"I'll kill you.", Klaus bit out quietly between his teeth.
Horangi laughed in amusement. "What's wrong, big guy? You said we need to relax more."
"What's relaxing about this, please?", he hissed. Klaus found himself in a very tense version of downward-facing dog, trying to remember what his back should feel like.
"Dig your left heel into the ground and lift your right leg. Keep your hips parallel to the floor.", instructed the yoga teacher of the class, walking through the rows in a relaxed manner.
Klaus knew her. Unfortunately. She lived in his apartment complex. He'd had a crush on her for a while. He had never spoken to her before. He wasn't sure if Horangi had planned this somehow, although he couldn't know anything about it. Klaus just concentrated on not making an absolute idiot of himself and lifted his right leg up with perhaps a little too much momentum. His foot banged against something.
"Hmph."
Klaus quickly pulled his leg back and looked into the face of his neighbor, who was rubbing her jaw. He turned bright red. Horangi next to him almost burst, it looked like, because he was trying to suppress his laughter. He was only partially successful.
"I'm so sorry.", Klaus stammered, but she just waved him off with a smile. "More shock than damage. Normally, the legs I walk past are shorter. I should have been more careful."
Klaus remained silent. Once again, he didn't know what to say. However, she only gestured for him to get back into position.
"Now pull your right leg towards your chest. Move your shoulders over your wrists. Breathe out. Breathe in. Bring your leg back up and forward again. Find your rhythm."
Klaus was still trying to suppress his shame, when he felt two delicate hands on his hips. He flinched slightly. "Hold it straight. You're bending to the left.", she explained gently.
Klaus quickly shifted his hips as he should and looked stubbornly at the mat. "Perfect." He heard the smile in her voice.
"And put it down. Very good. Go into plank and then transition to cobra or upward-looking dog."
She went on relaxed and corrected the contestants. Horangi was still laughing his head off.
Klaus just tried to breathe away his erection. For the rest of the lesson, he stubbornly looked at the floor and prayed that the time would pass more quickly.
Horangi put both their mats away as the teacher moved towards Klaus. His heart immediately raced.
"You live above me, don't you?" she asked cheerfully.
Klaus nodded quickly. Too quickly, he realized. "Uh... Yes."
She smiled. "Say, do you fancy going for a coffee or something?"
His heart skipped a beat. "Coffee? Uh? With you? The two of us?"
She laughed again. "Yes, both of us."
Klaus would have liked to slap himself. "Yes. Yes, that sounds... Yes."
"Okay. This afternoon? At three?"
Klaus nodded.
"Will you pick me up?", she winked teasingly.
A smile crept onto his face. "I hope I'm on time... Traffic."
She laughed. "See you later."
Klaus smiled and looked after her.
Horangi joined him. "You're the only guy I know who can kick a woman in the face and then get a date out of it."
Klaus looked down at him, annoyed. "You have to be over 6'3" for that."
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Rudy
"Ow! OW!"
I jerked my upper body forward again and turned to Rudy, who was red-faced and pulling his legs to his chest.
"You said push." I tried to explain myself.
He just nodded. "And I made a mistake with that.",he whimpered.
"Are you okay?" I asked carefully and stroked his head.
Rudy put his head in my hand. "I'm just waiting for my adductor muscles to reattach to the bones."
I grinned and continued stroking his hair. "You really don't have to do this with me. You know that."
Rudy shook his head. "It was my idea."
Rudy had offered to get a little more involved in my yoga hobby and maybe practice a few couple yoga poses with me. Rudy was strong. He had proven that more than once. Many people underestimated him, but he simply had working muscles, not gym muscles. Unlike any man I'd ever been with, he just threw me into his arms and made me feel like I weighed as much as a squirrel. So he had fun holding me into the air, while I let myself fall into the poses, knowing he would always catch me.
Only the stretching exercises weren't his thing. We sat down with our backs to each other and our legs spread apart. First he leaned backwards and pushed me forwards. Then it was my turn. "Realy press yourself against my back.", he had said and then immediately yelped in pain.
"Are you sure everything's okay?"
He opened his eyes, which he had closed due to my stroking. "Everything is fine. I'm just stiff.", he winked.
I sighed. "Injuries are no joke, if-"
He reached for my free hand and squeezed it lightly. "Torn muscles and tendons feel different. Trust me." He grinned. "I'm just old."
I grinned. "At least it's good for the joints."
He nodded, still grinning. "Then we know what we can do together in the old people's home." He kissed me gently.
I smiled. "I'll get you stretched by then."
He laughed. "I'm counting on it."
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The Lovers
Summary: Jason accuses (Y/n) the town witch that she has cast a spell on him. Neither of them would have expected, what was really behind it.
Wordcount: 7.370
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"Ah!" I cried out in surprise, when I heard the crack and the dull bang behind me and whirled around. I had expected to see a heavy branch lying on the ground and not... Jason Carver?
"What are you doing here?" I shouted, still slightly tense.
He got to his feet and knocked the leaves off his jacket. "I could ask you that? What are you doing?", he asked angrily, pointing at the basket I was holding.
I looked at him in irritation.
"What kind of voodoo are you going to do, huh?"
I raised an eyebrow. "They're daisies, you moron." I demonstratively held up one of the small flowers. "You can use them to make an ointment for sunburn." I rolled my eyes. "You followed me all the way through this forest to play witch hunting? How long have you been following me?" He was absolutely crazy.
He came up to me. "Long enough to see that these aren't daisies.", he bit out, holding up the second plant in my basket.
"Yes, this is St. John's wort. My cousin has neurodermatitis. The creams from the pharmacy are all too expensive and they don't want anyone else to pay for them, so I make her one from this. It soothes chapped skin." I grabbed the little plant and threw it back into the basket. "And before you ask.", I continued, reaching into the basket. "Mint. For my satanic tea against bloating."
Jason looked at me dully, then shook his head. "Why should I trust you?"
"Because I'm just here collecting some herbs and you're the stalker, who's been following me through the forest for at least fourty minutes.", I hissed.
Jason took a step back. "I know you're one of those weird wiccans."
"Witch."
"You admit it!"
"I'm correcting you.", I said simply.
He furrowed his eyebrows in irritation.
"Wicca is a religion. Most wiccans are witches. Not all witches are wiccans. It's like quadrates and squares." I teased him. "If you're going to hate me, you should at least use the right terms."
He looked at my basket. "Just because you're not doing anything wrong today, doesn't mean you're otherwise innocent."
I sighed. I just wanted my peace and quiet. "Yes, I'm usually sin itself. Can I have my peace now, please?"
"No."
I took a deep breath and tried to calm down. "You know what? Do what you want." With that, I turned around and tried to concentrate on the plants. "At least don't trample everything.", I snapped at him and kept walking.
"What is this stuff really for?"
"I just told you."
"You're lying."
"I could pass a lie detector test Carver."
I bent down to grab a small wild garlic plant.
"What's that?" Jason asked, almost angrily.
"Wild garlic.", I explained. "It's simply delicious in food." I threw the plant into the basket. "You're welcome to keep stalking me Jason, but try to be less angry."
"Why?"
"Because I want this", I pointed to my basket, "to have positive energies."
"It's a plant."
"Do you pray for other people's misfortune?"
"No! I'm not."
"Then don't spoil my work, wanting to do something good for the people in my life... Even if it's just to help them with sunburn."
Jason stopped short and looked at me insistently. "How do I know you're not lying?"
I looked at him as calmly as you can look at someone who calls you Satan's bitch. It was his upbringing or the media. How was he supposed to know any better? "Look for Hildegard von Bingen's herbal bible in the library. I know everything about medicinal herbs from her."
"I'm not reading the book of some devil worshipper."
"Hildegard von Bingen was a nun.", I corrected him.
Jason faltered.
"If you don't trust me, maybe you trust one of your people."
He walked slowly backwards. "I'll keep an eye on you.", he said emotionlessly.
"I'll see you at school."
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"I'm just saying. Be prepared for something to come up today.", I grumbled to Eddie, poking at my salad.
Eddie shook his head, upset. "He's been stalking you?"
"Yes.", I laughed. "If he hadn't been alone, I would have been really worried."
"He's out of his mind."
"Is that news?"
I didn't know what to expect today. That got me down. Ever since my former friend Melody unintentionally outed me as a witch, I never knew what to expect the next day. She had snooped through my things and found the little pentagram pendant. After the whole school knew about it, even the head teacher called me in and told my parents.
My dad thought I had a chip on my shoulder, but otherwise wasn't interested and my mom... Well, before I explained what I was doing and that the newspapers had no idea, it took a good three hours. Three hours with a lot of tears.
I never spoke to Melody again. Eddie had taken me in with the outsiders and Jason and his gang wanted to see me at the stake.
"We'll keep watch.", Eddie said, looking down the hall.
"My heroes.", I sighed dramatically.
He grinned and bowed exaggeratedly.
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I was sitting at one of the tables at the edge of the forest, scribbling listlessly on my piece of paper, when a book banged on the table next to me.
I literally jumped up and stumbled backwards, so frightened, that I toppled over the bench and fell onto my back.
I saw blonde hair and a green and white jacket.
I picked myself up stiffly. "What the hell are you?" I grumbled. "Are you making any noise at all?"
I knocked the grass off my butt and gave Jason a dirty look. He looked back just as crossly.
I looked at the book on the table. Hildegard von Bingen. "You've read it.", I said in surprise.
"Skimmed it."
I looked at his angry face and sighed. "What's wrong now?"
"The herbs might be good, but you're doing something."
I ran a hand over my face. "Jason.", I began humbly. "I'll leave you alone. Can't you do me a favor and do the same to me?"
"No!"
"Why not?" I whined.
He was breathing heavily and turned away in a huff. "Because you did something. You did something to ME. ADMIT IT!"
I faltered. "Jason what are you talking about?"
"Why do I feel this way if you haven't done some witchcraft to me?" he hissed, coming closer and closer to me. I backed up until I bumped into a tree. Jason encircled me with his arms.
"I don't know what you're talking about.", I said almost fearfully. "I don't know what you mean Jason."
"Stop saying that!"
"Say what?"
"MY NAME!"
"Jas-" I bit my lips.
He was breathing heavily. "Undo it."
"I didn't do anything. You're scaring me."
"Undo it!", he growled. He looked at me almost frantically.
"You have to tell me what's wrong or I can't help you, but I didn't do anything."
"Then why do I feel like this?", he whispered angrily.
"How do you feel?", I asked, almost pleadingly. Hoping that he would stay calm.
"How do you feel Jason?"
No sooner had his name crossed my lips than he pressed his mouth to mine. Hard and unyielding. His hands held my head in place and his body pressed against mine. I was so caught off guard, that I just stood there, like a pillar of salt, waiting. Not quite grasping what was happening.
He abruptly disengaged and stumbled back. Tears streamed down his cheeks. "Undo it.", he whispered.
I looked at him in disbelief. Not a word escaped my lips. Not a sound escaped my throat. Until a fuse in my brain clicked into place and I ran away. I ran away as fast as I could, not wasting a single thought on my stuff, which were still lying on the table.
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"He's did WHAT?", shouted Eddie angrily.
I sat at the kitchen table of the trailer and looked at the tabletop in disbelief.
"I think I'm going to be sick.", I whimpered. No. I really felt sick. I was sick to my stomach. I jumped up and ran to the bathroom. I made it just in time to take the contents of my stomach to the toilet.
Eddie stumbled after me and held my hair out of my face. He stroked my back reassuringly.
When I was sure nothing more was coming, I dropped onto my butt and felt the tears on my cheeks. I wrap my arms around my legs. Eddie held out a bottle of water to me.
"Take a deep breath.", he mumbled.
"They're going to kill me Eds."
"They won't. We'll keep you safe." He pulled me into his arms. "Nothing's going to happen."
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My backpack was gone, of course. What had I expected?
I sat in the library and waited impatiently for Gareth to come. I hid behind my book and tried to stay calm. One of the boys had been keeping an eye on me all day. Just in case.
Jason had been like a madman. He'd gotten it into his head that I'd cast a spell on him. He had kissed me. Jason Carver. The poster boy Jason Carver somehow had... had a crush on me and now thought I'd made him. Jason Carver had a crush on me and he hated himself for it. I was startled when I heard a backpack fall onto the table, but before I even looked up, I saw Jason's back disappearing quickly and my backpack in front of me. I reached for it hesitantly. Slowly pulled open the zipper. Carefully peeked inside. Nothing happened.
"Your backpack is back?"
I winced.
"Since when are you so jumpy?" Gareth grinned.
"Since I'm waiting for the Inquisition.", I grumbled.
POV Jason
How had I let myself get so carried away? How could I have been so stupid? Why hadn't I stayed away from her? I had given her far too much power over me.
My head was buzzing with thoughts as I walked into the theater room as Luke's note told me to.
That little witch. Why had she run away, when this was exactly what she had wanted? That had been her goal. To cast a spell on me. Had she realized that this couldn't be love? Had she perhaps really done nothing - I interrupted the thought immediately. Of course she had done something. I would never think like that about someone, who went against everything I stood for.
The door of the theater room slammed shut loudly. I turned around with a jolt and caught sight of Eddie Munson.
"Ball boy. Glad you got my message."
I looked at the note in my hand. How could I have been so stupid?
"I heard about your little meeting with (Y/n) in the woods.", he continued, walking slowly towards me.
I shouldered my backpack and moved towards the door, but Munson grabbed me firmly by the shoulders and stopped me.
"Not so fast. Where are you going?"
"Let me go!"
"Why is that? I guess it's not so much fun being hassled yourself?"
I pulled my shoulders out of his grip and pushed him away. "That's what she wanted! She started this voodoo.", I hissed. "So tell her to undo it or leave me alone!"
Munson laughed. First in disbelief, then louder, harder, until he seemed almost unable to breathe. "Oh God!", he struggled to breathe. "You really believe that."
"What's so funny?", I shouted angrily.
Munson held his stomach and sat down on one of the folding chairs. "You have a crush and you don't realize it." He wiped a tear from his face.
"I don't-"
"You think you're pretty important, don't you?", he interrupted me, still slightly breathless. "Don't you think she'd have better targets, than some bore with a twist in his panties?"
I turned away angrily and left.
"Bother her again and you can find out how to throw your balls with crutches.", he shouted after me.
I pushed the door open hard and stormed through the corridors.
I don't have a crush on that witch. I don't want anything from her. No matter how many dreams I had in which she lay with me and in which she seduced me with her smile and her scent... Those dreams weren't real. They weren't my dreams. They couldn't be mine.
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"Jason." my name fell from her lips like a prayer. She clawed at my back. I kissed her neck, marking it as my own, as I thrust into her again and again. Sometimes faster, sometimes slower. I let her dance on the threshold of pleasure. Never quite gave her what she wanted. I devoured her and she gave herself to me. (Y/n's) eyes were glassy and yet warm. Looked up at me with affection and admiration. Her hands caressed my back. Her legs wrapped around my hips. She moved towards me. We were united. Two bodies and two souls in harmony.
She twitched around me. Her body tensed. She collapsed in waves of excitement. She took me with her and caught me.
The fabric under my cheek was damp. I sat up with a jerk. I was alone. Alone in my room. Just me in my bed. Sweat was sticking to my body. I wiped the saliva from the corner of my mouth in disgust. My shorts were sticking to my crotch. I pulled a face.
Why in God's name did I have to be the target of this witchcraft? Why did these dreams have to feel so good? Why did I feel so safe in them? She was a witch! She was evil. She was not gentle and sweet. I had to remind myself that she had cast a spell on me. I couldn't love her!
Where did that word come from? Why did it want to creep into my head?
I felt tears running down my cheeks. I don't want to have these thoughts!
(Y/n)s POV
The last week I had gotten away with it. None of the jocks had hit on me or hinted at anything. It just made me even more paranoid.
I was waiting for a prank. Some kind of humiliation. I was almost longing for it so I could finally get it over with.
I was walking home when a sadly too familiar car drove up slowly beside me. I didn't look up, stubbornly continued straight ahead.
I heard the side window being rolled down.
"Get in!" Jason said stubbornly.
I walked on silently.
"Get in the car now!"
"No!" I replied stubbornly.
The car came to a halt. A door opened. I quickened my steps.
A hand clutched my upper arm. "I told you to get in.", he hissed.
"But I don't want to.", I spat back.
His grip on my arm became painfully tight. "And I don't want to have these thoughts, so get in."
I tried to pull away, but it didn't help. His hands were on my arms like vices.
"What are you going to do?"
"We're going to church."
I looked at him, perplexed. "Is the pyre ready or what? For fuck's sake, Carver! I don't want anything from you except to be left alone! Even if I could do what you accuse me of, which I can't by the way, why would I want the guy who's been spitting on me for months?"
He looked at me blankly. "We'll go to the church now and talk to the priest."
I realized tears were welling up in my eyes. It was all so absurd. It... It was humiliating. Someone had a crush on me and it was so absurd that it was really happening that he suspected I had bewitched him.
"Now come on!" he ordered, pulling me roughly towards his car.
I stumbled after him.
The drive was silent and tense. I had tried to jump out at a red light, but Jason had immediately had grabbed hold of me.
When we arrived at the church, Jason dragged me up the steps of the building and through the door into the large main room.
I had never been in a church before. My parents weren't believers, so there was never any reason to attend one.
He looked at me insistently.
I remained stubborn. "What? Did you expect me to burst into flames?"
His jaw tightened. "Come on." he growled.
Roughly, he dragged me to a small room and knocked.
Priest Mitchel opened it for us. "Jason. Hello... And you must be (Y/n)."
I nodded hesitantly.
"Can you give us a moment alone Jason?" the priest asked, stepping aside to clear the way into his office.
Jason reluctantly let go of me.
I cautiously stepped into the priest's office. I only knew him by sight, but he always seemed nice and friendly.
"Why don't you sit down for a minute? Would you like some tea?"
"Uh... No. Thanks."
He just nodded and sat down on an exercise ball opposite me. "They don't look particularly professional, but they're good for your back.", he smiled.
I just nodded. "My mom has one too."
He grinned. "Very well." He became more serious. "Jason told me about his situation." I stiffened. "Don't worry. I won't drag you to the torture chamber. But whether you've done anything or not... Jason... Got stuck on that idea and knowing the boy, he's not going to let it go."
I sighed. "So you're not getting out the pitchforks?"
He smiled. "No. Believe it or not. My wife went through a phase like you once."
"And if it's not a phase?"
"Then I pray you stay true to the right path anyway."
I looked thoughtfully at the table in front of me. "And how do I get rid of that witch hunter out there now?" I muttered. "You know him better than I do."
Father Mitchel looked thoughtfully at my bag. "You don't happen to have any herbs with you?"
I looked up irritated. "What? No. I was at school. What do I want with herbs there?" 
"Hm... Well, the tea will have to do then."
He reached into the drawer of his desk and pulled out a packet of fruit tea. Relaxed, he cut open a good six bags and tipped them into a small decorative bowl.
"What are you up to?"
He grinned. "We're breaking a spell for Jason's sake. Under my supervision, of course, so he'll feel more comfortable and confident about it."
I raised an eyebrow in surprise. "Don't you always say you shouldn't lie?"
"Special situations call for special measures."
"You're a strange priest."
"And I'm very proud of that."
Less than five minutes later, I was sitting behind the church in front of a small bowl of fruit tea, trying to remain serious. Jason and Father Mitchel watched me from a safe distance, how I lit a small piece of paper on which my and Jason's names were crossed out.
Normally, you would use two candels with a connected wick to break a love spell, but Jason didn't know that.
I threw the note into the bowl and watched it burn. The tea left a sickeningly sweet smell, but the light breeze made it disappear quickly.
I waited patiently for the flames to recede and then grabbed the ashes to let them blow away with the breeze for show.
Jason watched everything with eagle eyes, but actually seemed a little calmer with Father Mitchel at his side.
I got up from my cross-legged position and lifted the bowl. A pretty little thing.
I put it in Father Mitchel's hand. He nodded at me with a smile. "If you ever think about it, the church is always open to you."
"That... That's very nice. Thank you."
"Well then. Accounting is waiting." He sighed and walked back around the building.
Jason looked at me appraisingly. I let him.
"Can you at least take me home now? I don't have any money for the bus."
He struggled with himself, but then motioned for me to follow him.
The journey was calm. Tense, but calm.
I quickly squeezed out of the car when we arrived at my house. "Thank you. Bye.", I mumbled and disappeared into the house as quickly as I could.
Hopefully, this haunting was finally over.
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POV Jason
She kissed me so tenderly. Her arms were wrapped around my neck. Her body was warm as it pressed against mine. I could feel her breasts through both our shirts. I enjoyed her hands in my hair. I stroked her ribs. She giggled slightly. Bit my lower lip playfully. I laughed. I felt bliss. I felt light. Here in this meadow, lying on a scratchy picnic blanket, with her in my arms. She kissed the tip of my nose. She ran her thumb over my cheeks.
"I love you.", I murmured and gently kissed the diamond ring on her ring finger. 
I woke up suddenly. Annoyed, I hit the alarm clock and buried myself under the thick comforter again. Still slightly foggy, I tried to fall back asleep and continue dreaming where I had left off. I wanted to go back to the meadow and (Y/n)-
I stiffened up. No. No. No!
Why another dream like this? I curled up under the blanket and pressed my hands against my forehead. I tried to push these wishes out of my brain.
But she had dissolved the spell. Father Mitchel was there. That couldn't be. It couldn't be.
I wanted to be normal again.
POV (Y/n)
I sat on my favorite table in the woods and looked thoughtfully at my tarot cards. The lovers had been extremely persistent in my last readings. I threw all the cards back on the pile and shuffled them vigorously. That didn't make any sense. I haven't really felt it anyway.
I shuffled and suddenly one of the cards flew out of the pile. I turned it over and sighed in surrender. The fool glared at me maliciously. "All right. I get it.", I growled annoyed and put the cards on the table.
I heard it crack behind me. I quickly jumped up and looked around.
God no.
"Jason?"
He didn't say anything, just sat down at the table. He looked tired. Listlessly, he threw his backpack in front of him and lay down on it. But he kept his eyes on me. His eyes wandered to the cards on the table. Strangely, he didn't react.
I didn't say anything. I didn't move.
"What do you want here?"
He was still looking at the cards and reached for one that had clearly slipped out of the deck. When he threw it back down, annoyed, I saw the lovers again.
"I give up.", he mumbled. His voice was low and raspy.
I hesitantly sat down next to him. "What are you giving up on?"
"It didn't work... The voodoo from yesterday."
How could it? It was just for show. I sighed anyway. I had somehow hoped that maybe it would influence him enough to finally put his mind at rest.
"Go on, then. Do what you want.", he grumbled.
I furrowed my eyebrows in irritation. "What?"
"You wanted me. Go on."
I breathed in and out in a controlled manner to control my anger. "Jason.", I groaned, annoyed.
He looked at me devotedly. I rubbed my hands over my face. "Okay. How about you pray?"
He sat up. "You want me to beg you too?"
I rolled my eyes. "To your god, you idiot."
He faltered. "Why?"
"Can't you ask him what's right and what's not? Ask him for the truth."
He faltered. His eyes screamed with confusion.
"Come on," I groaned and put my cards away. "I'll even clean up."
He sat up straighter. Watched me. "All right.", he murmured. His hands pushed together almost cautiously. He rested his elbows on the tabletop and gave me another quick glance. "No games.", he ordered.
I held my hands up in the air defensively.
He closed his eyes and rested his forehead on his hands. It seemed so... antiquated. The way he sat there mumbling to himself. The way he held his hands. It all looked so ancient.
I went about my own thoughts until I suddenly heard him sobbing.
I pulled myself out of my thoughts. Jason was still in his prayer position but I heard him turn up his nose.
His hands separated and immediately ran over his face. I quickly looked in my backpack and grabbed the small pack of tissues.
"Here." I held them out to him.
He grabbed it without a word and wiped his tears away, blew his nose loudly and then threw it on the table.
"Jason." I was practically whispering. As if every loud noise would destroy the world.
He just shook his head. "You're not supposed to say my name.", he replied just as quietly.
"Then what am I supposed to call you?"
He wiped away another tear. Silently, he looked at the tabletop.
"Why do you hate me so much?" I asked.
He grimaced. "I think we both know that the opposite is the problem."
I shook my head. "No, you're conflicted. You hate the... Interest in me."
He sighed and reached for another tissue. "Why do you have to be a witch?"
I smirked. "That's it?"
"You go against everything I believe in.", he pressed out.
I sighed. "How about you pay your debt?"
He looked at me, confused. "What kind of debt?"
"You dragged me to your priest and now you're meeting one of my friends. Don't worry. She's a Christian... And a witch."
He laughed dismissively. "No such thing."
I held out my hand to him. "Let's make a bet, then."
He hesitated. "What bet?"
I thought about it for a moment. "If I win, you stop putting the basketballtaining on the Hellfire meetings."
Jason's jaw tightened. He reached for my hand. "If I win, you come to the service with me. For a month."
"Deal.", I grinned.
"Deal.", he bit back.
"Here?" Jason asked incredulously as he brought the car to a halt.
My friend's house was a simple terraced house. A small front garden with flower beds and a bright yellow façade.
I just nodded. "Yup. This is where she lives." I got out and waited for him to do the same. We walked down the small driveway and Jason eyed the cross on the thermometer next to the door.
It opened and my friend Jannice emerged. She was in her mid-thirties and, as always, a bit over the top.
"(Y/n)!", she shouted happily.
"Hey Jan.", I laughed and let myself be pulled into a hug.
"You haven't been around for far too long. You really need to make me some of that lavender oil again. I've just dried some. You can take it with you right away. Uh! Who have we got here? Let me look at you!" She hugged Jason, who was completely taken by surprise and just stood there.
"I can't believe you're fishing for such a tasty treat. I would have bet on the curly head with the puppy eyes..."
"Jan, we're not a couple.", I quickly interrupted her.
"Oh... Oh well." She brushed one of her wild curls out of her face. "Well, come in."
We entered the house and went into the kitchen, which, as always, smelled wonderfully of all kinds of flowers and herbs.
Jason stopped in the doorway and looked at a small table with a cross and a candle on it. He looked at them closely. The candle was bright pink. Definitely not a candle that was available at the service.
He turned back to us. "(Y/n) says you are a Christian.", he said clumsily, but Jannice just smiled again.
"Yes, that's right."
"And she says you're a... witch."
She put a tin of cookies on the table. "Yes. That's true, too."
Jason looked at her suspiciously. "But that can't work."
Jabnice laughed. "Oh boy. Have a seat. Eat a cookie and then I'll explain everything you want."
Jason still sat stiffly on a chair. "What's in the candle?", he began and Jannice started.
"But there are rules!" Jason huffed.
Jannice nibbled on a cookie. "I live by the rule of being a good person. How many more rules do you need? Treat your fellow human beings with love and helpfulness."
Jason put his coffee cup down firmly on the table. "But then everyone can do what they want!"
"If the law was repealed tomorrow that killing someone was illegal, would you do it?"
"Of course not!"
"And yet there are people who do it despite the law." She poked Jason's chest with her finger. "Because our ethics aren't always governed by rules."
She leaned back in her chair. "Why do you want to understand it, if you're so sure of your religious interpretation?"
Jason faltered.
They were a mismatched pair. So different and yet so similar.
"Jason wants to broaden his horizons a little.", I interjected.
Jannice eyed him. "To broaden your horizons, your heart has to be open."
Jason sighed. "Open heart. I just don't get it!", he huffed.
Jannice put a hand on his shoulder. "Your head doesn't understand or your heart?"
Jason gave her a pained look. "What's the difference?"
She smiled gently at him, but there was a hint of sadness in her eyes. "Because your head only tells you what you've learned. Your heart tells you what you've always known."
Jason's eyes sparkled treacherously wet again, but he blinked bravely.
Jannice's gaze showed understanding. "You were never really allowed to ask questions."
Jason shook his head. "There were rules."
She nodded. "Well. I listen to every question. My door is always open."
Jason didn't respond. Just grabbed another lavender cookie.
He stayed silent for a long time on the drive back. "I really want to understand this," he whispered.
Even though I didn't know what had happened to him, I had seen that something inside him had been shaken awake. Something that he had put to sleep was stretching and trying to understand why it hadn't been allowed to go through all those years.
"These things take time," I replied calmly.
Jason nodded. "Should I apologize?"
I grinned. "What does your gut say?"
He shook his head, annoyed. "I thought we were focusing on the heart."
I laughed lightly. "Everyone gets their knowledge from somewhere else."
He was silent for a moment. "I'm sorry." His eyes shot to me very briefly.
I bit my lip. "It's okay."
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"And now what?" Eddie asked me as we lay on the roof of the trailer and looked up at the sky.
I shrugged my shoulders, even though he couldn't see that. "I don't know."
He sighed. "Do you think he'll shut up now?"
I had to smile. "I think it's more likely that things are just starting now. You should have seen them." I let the thought slip away and the confusion of the last few days settled over me. "This is all so absurd.", I muttered.
Eddie laughed. "I still can't believe he thought you put a spell on him."
I sighed. "Why wouldn't he? I'm not exactly his typ."
Eddie nudged me. "Of course you're not. They're completely hollow."
I shook my head. A sad smile spread across my face. "Can you play my best girl-friend for a minute?"
"Shall I get the nail polish?"
I punched him lightly.
"Sure.", he grinned.
I closed my eyes in surrender to make it easier. "It was so far-fetched, that he could really have a crush on me, that he thought I'd jinxed him Eddie.... That's... Why is it so far-fetched to have a crush on me?"
He patted my shoulder. "I'm sticking to the fact, that they're hollow."
I continued to gaze at the stars and fell silent. How could you treat someone you had a crush on with such disgust?
"What's going to happen with him now?" Eddie had turned his head towards me and was looking at me questioningly.
"What do you mean?"
He shrugged his shoulders. "Well, he understood that he thinks you're hot and now what?" He twirled his rings. "Are you going out? Are we still seeing each other? Do I have to find another club witch because you're hanging out with the cool kids now?"
I looked at him, confused. "We're not going out.", I blurted out. "We're just... I don't know. There's a truce?"
Eddie furrowed his eyebrows in confusion. "He fancies you (Y/n).", he said forcefully. "We know that now. How do you feel about him?"
I looked at him dully. "I've never thought about it.", I confessed. "Don't look at me like that! I was waiting for the funeral pyre."
Eddie shook his head in amusement. "I don't believe I'm saying this, but you two seem to be perfect for each other."
I nudged him roughly. "That's not funny!"
"Yes it is."
I pouted.
"So. How do you feel about him? Tell your best friend."
I rubbed my face. "I don't know. He... I mean he hasn't exactly been nice over the last few months." I listened to the rustling of leaves around us. "Can you like someone you're supposed to hate?"
"If we asked Jason, he'd say yes. Come on. What do you think of the Bible boy, non-judgmentally."
I sighed. "It's not that simple.... I mean... I don't know... He seems ambitious?"
"Very romantic." Eddie nodded, playing serious.
I groaned in annoyance. "He's probably quite good looking."
A grin appeared on his face.
"But I don't understand how he can dress like that.", I grumbled
Eddie continued to grin. "I knew you had a thing for Andrew!"
"Andrew?"
"Breakfast Club... Jock Andrew."
I blushed. "Shut up."
Eddie chuckled. "Would the basketball shorts on Jason be more your thing?"
"I told you to shut up."
"Oh, no. I'm going to enjoy this. Besides, he's definitely dreaming about banging you. So you can let it all out."
"He doesn't." I blurted out immediately.
Eddie couldn't stop laughing. "He has a cock and he likes you. He definitely dreams about you two fucking."
I gave him a petulant look. "You really are a catty best friend."
"And I love you very much."
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"But... You could curse someone?", Jason asked me hesitantly.
We were sitting at the table in the woods again. As usual, Jason had come to me like a ghost and then started asking questions.
"I could probably try it. No idea if it would even work. Anyway. It's not my thing."
Jason looked very thoughtful as usual. "Why are you so insistent on only doing good?"
His blue eyes looked confused. "You could and you don't think anyone will punish you for it. Why don't you?"
"I never said I wouldn't be punished for it.", I objected.
He played with the zipper on his backpack. "And who's punishing you?"
"Karma.", I said simply. "Everything you send out comes back to you threefold."
"Hm."
He was silent for a moment. Let it sink in. "Okay."
Meanwhile, I sat in my seat and couldn't get the conversation with Eddie out of my head. Somehow the fact that Jason had admitted to having a crush on me had made it real. Did he really dream about me? Did I want him to dream about me? My ego wanted it, but did I want it?
I sighed without realizing it.
Jason looked at me questioningly. I waved him off. He looked thoughtfully at the table again. "Is there a spell to get rid of feelings?", he asked quietly.
I looked at him, irritated. "What?"
He rubbed his forehead. "I don't know which synapse has locked onto you, but we both know that there's no future in this. Apart from the fact that I very much doubt by now that you want anything from me." He stood up angrily. "So please. Do something and set me free."
I felt the anger boiling up inside me. First mixed with shame, then all the clearer and stronger.
"Set you free? I'm sorry that your limbic system isn't playing along with your image planning. I'm sorry that it's so disgusting to have a crush on me that you even have to assume you've been cursed. I'm sorry, Carver", I bit out his name, "that I'm not good enough."
I could feel the heat in my cheeks. "But you could at least have the decency not to throw that in my face every time you see me!"
I grabbed my backpack gruffly, which unfortunately only caused my tarot cards to fall out and scatter across the forest floor.
Jason just looked at me dully. A gust of wind hit me in the back and blew the last card away.
Jason bent down for it and held it out to me unseen.
I tryed hard not to crumple it up. The damn lovers. I breathed in and out in a controlled manner.
"I'm sorry-"
"Save it." I interrupted him immediately. I held my hands in front of me defensively. "Just let it go." I put the card with the others and zipped up the backpack.
The wind picked up, but I paid it no mind. I just kept going, no matter how hard the wind tore at me. How could the weather change so quickly?
"Now wait!" Jason called after me. "You can't walk through the forest in a storm like this. Let me drive you."
"No!"
I felt a hand around my upper arm, yanking me backwards. I heard a loud crack. A rumble of thunder rolled through the forest. The ground vibrated.
Jason had held me protectively against him. It was only when I managed to free myself that I saw his shocked face. When I turned around, I saw it.
A not exactly delicate branch was lying right where I was about to go. That thing would have easily broken every bone in my body.
As soon as I'd gotten over the situation, the wind died down, but only a little.
"Come on," Jason said and pulled me along with him. His hands were firmly on my shoulders and he swiftly escorted me to his car.
I stayed still for the rest of the journey. Jason had thrown his jacket on me because he had decided I would definitely be cold. The radio was switched off because it had started raining halfway and the signal was gone.
I hated that Jason's jacket smelled good. He wasn't supposed to smell good. He wasn't supposed to look good. His stupid upper arms shouldn't be so attractive.
Pouting, I averted my eyes.
"I can't see anything.", Jason grumbled loud enough to drown out the pattering of the rain. I didn't look at him. But then I felt the car stop.
"What are you doing?"
"I can't see five feet far. We have to wait for the rain to stop.", he explained defensively. I groaned in annoyance and rolled my eyes. Great. Still sulking, I crossed my arms and sank further into the seat.
He did the same. His upper arms stretched his shirt. I shook my head to get rid of the thought.
"I'm sorry, but you have to admit that I don't really fit into your life either.", he grumbled at me from the side.
I grit my teeth. "You know what? Maybe things would have been different, if you hadn't spent the last few months making my life a living hell.", I spat at him.
He looked back just as angrily. "And I'm sorry! God knows I'm trying to understand, but I can't change the past!"
"Where did your sudden interest in me come from anyway? Heh? How can you be so divided in your desires?"
His hands were clenched into fists. "Because not everyone can be who they want to be!", he shouted. "Because I can't like everyone! Because I can't just feel the way I want to!", he continued to shout, looking at me angrily. "Do you think I care what you do with your herbs? Do you think I want to be like that? I don't want to! I want to be normal, but I can't!" He breathed heavily and narrowed his eyes. "There were always rules. I was NEVER allowed to question them. I wasn't allowed to play with everyone. I wasn't allowed to be friends with everyone.... And I wasn't allowed to fall in love with everyone." He took a deep breath. "And people look... They talk when you don't do what they expect you to do." He looked stubbornly at the steering wheel. He continued to speak so quietly that I almost didn't hear him over the rain. "I'm not supposed to like you. I do... I do, but I'm not allowed to... Not until I... Before I... Before I've moved away and have a life for myself. Before I can... can be new."
And that's when a light went on. The fool. New. "Those were your cards!", I blurted out before I could hold it back.
"Wh-what?" He looked at me, snapped out of his emotions.
I rummaged for my little notebook. "I've been drawing the same four cards over and over again for weeks.", I explained. "The ten of wands. You suppress your feelings and desires and thus prevent yourself from being happy. The lovers. I probably don't need to explain. Then the tower. Tower moments bring down all walls... And the fool. New beginnings... Those were your cards!"
He looked at me, perplexed. "Okay?"
I looked at him insistently. "You... You can't spend your whole life pretending to be someone else!"
He sighed. "Not my whole... Just until... after college... Until I get a job." He closed his eyes. "That's a long time, but... Not forever."
"And then what? Do you just get up one day and become a different person? Ignore all the connections you've made up to that point?", I asked.
I saw the turmoil on his face. "What else am I supposed to do? If it gets out that I have a crush on someone like you, my father will call an exorcist."
I laughed in disbelief.
"I'm not joking! My father... is strict.", he concluded choppily.
I faltered. "How strict?"
He shook his head. I put a hand on his. He exhaled shakily. A tear rolled down his cheek. He didn't wipe it away. The rain continued to pelt down. Shielding us from the outside world.
"I can only really be me in my dreams.", he said more calmly now. "And now you've just snuck in there." He took a deep breath. Seemed to want to calm himself down.
"What am I doing in your dreams?" I asked cautiously.
"You just make me happy," he confessed. "You're there and give me so much affection. I can let myself go. I can laugh and... and... and I know I've ruined any chance of it really being like that." He roughly wiped the next tear from his face. "It drives me insane to wake up every morning and all of this is gone. I have to put that possibility of happiness behind me every morning and pretend that desire doesn't exist."
So that was him. Jason Carver. Behind the speeches and the facade. Behind the perfection and bravado. Broken. Unhappy. Alone.
"Jason.", I whispered.
He shook his head.
"Jason... I understand." I just said. "And... I think I can forgive you... With a little time."
He wiped more tears from his face. I squeezed his hand. "When you're ready, I'd like to meet the real Jason."
"I don't know when that will be.", he confessed.
"I can be very patient. But do me a favor."
He looked at me questioningly.
"No matter when you show the world, please figure out who you want to be by then."
His breath was shaky. "I'll try."
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POV Jason
Seven years later
I sat exhilarated at the table of the small café, looking at my watch for the fifth time in two minutes. She probably wasn't coming. God it had been seven years. Seven years since we graduated. Since we only met rarely and secretly in the woods. Seven years since she had kissed me the last time we met. Seven years that I had thought about that kiss again and again, dreamt about it, longed for it. Seven years in which we had only exchanged letters and I had kept them all.
Seven long years in which so much could happen.
Seven years and now she was suddenly standing in front of me again. Grown up and as radiant as ever.
"Hi." She smiled gently at me.
"Hi." I whispered back in awe.
8 years later
She was lying in my bed. She cuddled up to me. It wasn't a dream. It was real. I smelled the scent of her hair. I felt her body against mine. I felt the warmth of her skin. I heard her steady breathing.
I pulled my arms tighter around her naked body and closed my eyes. It was real. We were both real.
9 years later
"Yes. Yes I do!", she smiled at me and euphorically wrapped her arms around me.
I felt a weight fall from my shoulders. She had said yes.
With nervous hands, I put the ring on her finger.
I immediately pulled her into a kiss, unwilling to let her get away again in the near future.
10 years later
I was lying with her in a meadow. The weather was warm but pleasant. The sun danced through the leaves above us.
We kissed lazily. I ran a hand under her shirt and over her ribs. She giggled. Ticklish as she was. She playfully bit my lip. Then kissed me on the tip of my nose. Stroked my cheek. I kissed the ring on her ring finger. "I love you.", I murmured.
She smiled warmly at me. "I love you.", she replied.
I smiled. "I've dreamt about this before.", I whispered.
"And is it as good as your dreams?"
I felt the warmth and bliss inside me and shook my head. "It's better." I kissed her lips softly. "It's real."
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Free by Choice
Summary: Simon and (Y/n) don't want children. After his vasectomy, (Y/n) realizes how much the fear of becoming a father has inhibited him.
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She had never experienced Simon like this before.
"The tests look good. If you want to, you have green light."
As neither of them wanted children, Simon had decided to have a vasectomy.
As he had never had a relationship before and sex wasn't really a big issue, he had never given it much thought, but that had changed.
(Y/n) didn't want children either. They're cute as long as you can give them back. She was more than willing to be 'just' the cool aunt.
The decision was final for both of them. The pill worked, but this way (Y/n) could finally stop taking it and no one had to worry anymore.
"Good means absolutely safe?"
"Yes, Mr. Riley. Your last semen sample was positive... or rather negative."
Simon just nodded and held out his hand. The doctor tried to grab it, but Simon slapped it away and pointed to the papers.
The doctor handed them to him with a slight blush on his cheeks.
Simon skimmed the pages and nodded with satisfaction.
"Thanks, doc.", he mumbled.
The doctor nodded. "If there's anything, just let me know."
It wasn't until the evening, when they were both lying on the sofa, that it started. Simon began to gently kiss her jaw, letting his hands wander under her shirt.
If only she had known then, what was in store for her.
Three hours later she wasn't really sure, whether she still had a functioning brain cell. She was lying on her stomach, exhausted and drooling on the bed. She hadn't really come down from her last high when she felt Simon's lips on her back again. Her breath caught. Simon moaned with pleasure and a little laugh underneath. "Just one more little mouse. Seven is a lucky number.", he whispered in her ear and bit tenderly into the shell of her ear.
The next morning, everything hurt. Her thighs were covered in bite marks. Her back was a mess. Her neck felt like her thighs looked and all in all, she was mostly sore. No matter how gently Simon had rubbed her with ointment.
Surprisingly, he was still sleeping next to her. Usually he would have been up and away by the time she got up. He had already trained and made breakfast, but today he was lying on his pillow, slumbering, with a cute little pout on his lips.
She turned to him with a smile. What had gotten into him? They'd had good sex, but this? Despite being on the pill, he always insisted on using a condom. He usually never came more than once inside her. Despite everything, he often pulled out and came on her. She had just assumed he was into it, but after last night?
Had he been so afraid of having a child? Had this procedure taken such a weight off his shoulders?
He moves slightly.
His eyes opened slowly.
"Morning," he mumbled.
"Morning," she simply replied.
He rubbed his face and stretched. "Fuck. My back." he grumbled.
She laughed. "Serves you right."
He didn't answer that.
She snuggled against his shoulder. He buried his nose in her hair.
"You realize, you have to carry me everywhere today, right?"
"Hm. Anywhere you want."
"Why didn't you do this before, if it was weighing you down so much?"
He closed his eyes again. "I have a therapist for that kind of talk.", he mumbled.
She punched him lightly on the shoulder. "I'm serious."
He sighed. "I've never had a relationship and the one night stands were rare and sporadic." He shrugged. "Wasn't necessary up to this point. Sorry, if it was too much."
She kissed his shoulder. "It's okay. Just remember that, when I get ugly, after I get off the pill."
"Why would you get ugly?"
"Hormonal acne and hair loss are definitely coming."
He grinned. "I've been through the meat grinder once and you're worried about a few pimples?"
She pouted. "That's a sensitive subject."
He tousled her hair, "I'll help you squeeze them out, too."
She smacked him on the chest with a grin and no emphasis. He laughed.
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Five months later
Simon looked at the nutritional supplement packs that had been piling up in her kitchen for the last few months.
(Y/n's) skin had rebelled briefly, but the worst of it seemed to have subsided. For two weeks, she had been in so much pain because of the inflammation under her skin that she had sometimes stood in the shower crying.
Simon had given her every bath that could even help in the least.
But now, two months later, it had subsided. Things seemed to be settling down, even if they weren't perfect yet. She had an appointment with her beautician today and Simon had thankfully stayed at home.
He was reading the newspaper, when he heard the front door open and close again.
(Y/n) came into the small kitchen. Her skin was still shiny from some cream, but she seemed to be glowing somehow.
Unimpressed, she threw her bag onto a chair and sat astride his lap. She immediately pressed her lips to his and wrapped her arms around his neck. Taken by surprise, he tried to figure out what was going on when she pulled at his shirt. He had no idea what was about to happen.
Hours later, he lay wrung out on the bed, breathing heavily.
"I want another round. When can you manage that?"
"Today?" He looked at her in shock. She nodded.
He looked up at the ceiling, shocked. "Nothing happens here for the next three to five business days."
She looked at him, pouting.
"What's gotten into you?" he asked, pulling her hand towards him, which was already exploring again.
"Not only is my skin fourteen again, but it looks like my libido is too."
"But I'm no longer fourteen mouse... My jaw hurts... And my back."
She grinned. "Will you at least take a bath with me?"
"At least? That was eight rounds!"
"Nine is a lucky number."
"Oh Fuck."
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Spooky Girl
Summary: Ghost, Soap, Rudy and König have a girlfriend who just likes things, that are a bit spooky. (Just a few little scenes that my brain spit out.)
Wordcount: 2.497
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Ghost
"Are you growing your hair out, L.T.?" Johnny laughed and flicked Simon's wrist.
Simon reacted as expected. Not at all. He stared at Johnny motionlessly.
"Fits the look, after all.", the sergeant winked at him.
Simon rolled his eyes and pulled his sleeve over the hairband on his wrist.
Johnny continued to grin. "My sisters say these scrunchies are best for the hair. There's less friction. So no split ends."
 Simon continued to stare at him.
"Are you going to tell me why you've got that thing on?", he grumbled.
"No.", was Simon's simple answer before he turned back to his food. It was nobody's business. (Y/n) was nobody's business, or what was between them.  It was still too fresh anyway. This was his first mission since they had met. He wasn't sure what to make of this relationship yet. He liked her. It wasn't because of that. He was just too used to being alone. It scared him. His therapist would probably have found a bigger, more important-sounding word for his emotions, but fear seemed appropriate enough to Simon.
She was weird. He was weird too. He had started to like the weirdness. He was probably too old for her. Maybe he wasn't. He'd never been in a relationship. He'd never had to discuss the fact that his hoodies were actually HIS hoodies until a few months ago. She had only told him that they were hers now, as if that was the most normal thing in the world. But she looked really cute in them. She'd beamed at him when he'd unceremoniously thrown three of his hoodies on her bed. 
"Until I get back.", he'd mumbled.
She had then pulled her hairband off her head and put it around his wrist. The black satin with the little skulls on it was soft and had immediately clung to his skin.
"So that you'll really come back.", she had said and kissed him on the forehead.
"Always.", he had mumbled.
 "Who is she?" Johnny asked him directly. He looked at him with gentle playfulness.
Simon snapped out of his memory. He looked into his friend's blue eyes.  "You don't trust me with a 'he'?", he grinned under his mask.
"Well then HE definitely has long hair."
Simon shook his head in amusement. "A little one from home. It's still fresh."
"Photo?", Johnny continued to grin.
Simon shook his head.
"Oh come on!"
"No Johnny."
Johnny looked at him like a petulant puppy. "At least describe her.", he sulked.
Simon sighed and rummaged for a small photo in his pocket. The boy wouldn't stop anyway. He plonked it in front of the sergent and stared at it.
Johnny stared at the photo. "A goth chick?" Johnny reached for the photo, but Simon immediately pulled it back to him and put it away. Johnny looked at him in surprise. "Hot.", he grinned.
Simon just grumbled.
"Yes, I get it. I can see it. You fit together."
Another grumble.
 Johnny grinned like an idiot.
"What?", Simon snapped at him.
"Does she have a friend?"
Simon just rolled his eyes. His cell phone buzzed.
A message from (Y/n). When he opened the message history, he saw a picture of a rabbit skull.
'For your collection?' it said underneath.
Simon looked at the picture. He had been glad, that she didn't see his little hobby as disgusting. But that she was now also participating in it. It was a beautiful bone. Completely intact.
'Beautiful. Where did you get it?‘
'Judas picked it up on our walk.‘
Judas was her dog. A stubborn but tough creature. It was probably her type. 
'Put it on the ant farm. I'll bleach him when I come back next week.‘
'The three of us are waiting for you. ;)'
When he looked up again, Johnny was still grinning at him.
"The little one really has you wrapped around her finger."
Simon just raised an eyebrow.
"Good for you L.T."
Simon grumbled in agreement.
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Soap
"What magazine did you cut that out of?" Kyle laughed.
Soap pulled off his boots. "Huh?" he groaned and looked at his friend.
Kyle pointed to Johnny's locker page and the photo hanging in it.
Johnny followed Kyle's suggestion with his gaze and immediately furrowed his eyebrows. "That's my girlfriend you douche!"
"That's never your girlfriend! She's far too pretty... Apart from the fetish make-up."
Johnny threw his boot at Gaz. "Don't talk about my girl like that!", he growled.
Gaz raised his hands defensively. A grin stretched across his face. "Oh come on."
Johnny continued to scowl at him. Simon came into the changing room and looked at them both wordlessly. Without another comment, he went to his locker.
"How can you always train with that thing on your head?", Johnny asked him.
"Habit.", came the curt reply.
Johnny rolled his eyes as Gaz clapped his hands with a laugh. "So you've got a type!"
Johnny looked at him in confusion. Simon paid him no attention at all. 
"Dark and intimidating," Garrick winked at him and nodded towards Simon.
Johnny followed his gaze and a blush immediately appeared on his cheeks.
"I don't have a type!", he barked.
Gaz chuckled in amusement. "Sure."
Simon slammed his locker shut conspicuously loudly and disappeared just as wordlessly as he had come.
The two of them looked after him.
"She's very different from him.", Johnny grumbled immediately.
"Is she?"
"Yes, she's very reserved, but when you get to know her better, she's really funny. She likes to tell jokes, you know? Even if she's more into dark humor. And she likes her order, but accepts my chaos and she's not immediately put off by my job. Well, she goes to therapy, but she's actually really tough."
"Where did you two meet?"
"At a shooting range for my brother-in-law's stag party. She's really amazing. She could almost be a sniper and..." Johnny eyes widened.
Gaz grinned knowingly.
"Oh God! I'm dating L.T.!" Johnny exclaimed, overwhelmed.
"Really, how did you notice?"
Johnny threw his second boot at him. "What if I'm just trying to replace something with her?", he asked anxiously.
Now Gaz looked at him, confused. "What now?"
"Well... What if I subconsciously just saw her as a replacement. God I'm such an asshole."
"How many times did you try to enroll before you were finally eighteen?", Gaz asked him firmly.
"I stopped counting. What's that got to do with it?"
Gaz shrugged his shoulders. "You're nuts, but you know what you want. You've never accepted an alternative before."
Johnny looked at the photo in the locker. "No I never have."
Gaz nodded. "You clearly have a thing for mentally unstable Halloween decorations, but that doesn't mean you only want the girl as a substitute."
Johnny nodded. "Yeah, you're right. She's really great, you know?"
Gaz grinned. "I'll take your word for it."
"She always makes chocolate muffins, that look like the little coal men from Chihiro.", Johnny smiled at the photo. "And she can cook! I really put some weight on the last time, I was with her. It's almost like the good old times at grandmas.", he grinned to himself. "Even if it scares me a little, how relaxed she is with the house ghost."
"Please what??" Gaz blinked at him in surprise.
"The house ghost. She calls him Edgar. After the guy who built the house. She bought this old victorian house and at night you can always hear the back door banging open and shut and someone running up and down the stairs. But never up to the top floor. That was  built on later. I nearly wet my pants the first night, when I went to see what was going on and this gigantic mirror fell on me. The thing was secured with six sturdy wall anchors! SIX! Well, I didn't set foot in the house for two weeks after that, but she says she's negotiating a deal."
Gaz looked at him with horror in his eyes.
Johnny shrugged his shoulders. "I'm used to it by now. But the noise is a bit annoying."
Gaz gave him a forced smile. "You see. You don't have anything like that with Ghost... No ghosts with Ghost."
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Rudy
He was sitting in his small kitchen with Alejandro, listening to everything about Ale's last date, until they were interrupted by a loud noise.
Ale flinched in surprise and looked at the kitchen counter behind him. Rudy immediately ran to the counter and grabbed a cell phone. He wiped the green icon across the display and held it to his ear.
"(Y/n)s phone. Rodolfo on the line. - Yes, you forgot it here. - No, no problem. - Good. See you in a minute."
He placed the device on the kitchen table and looked into Alejandro's shocked face. "What? Was? That?"
"(Y/n) left her cell phone."
Ale looked at him like he was stupid. "What was that sound?"
"Her ringtone?" Rudy replied hesitantly. "Yeah... Her taste in music is a bit...  special," he admitted, looking at the device again.
"A bit? It sounded like a pig had been tormented.", Alejandro said indignantly.
Rudy grinned. "Somehow that relaxes her." He rubbed the back of his neck, embarrassed. "I think the band was called... I can't remember. Lorna something."
Ale looked at him skeptically. "Wait. Is she coming over? I can finally see the mystery (y/n) with my own eyes?"
Rudy sighed. "Be nice, please."
"I'm always nice."
"Hmph."
Ale gave him an annoyed look. "I'll pull myself together."
"No subliminal threats.", Rudy stated firmly.
Alejandro started to speak, but didn't get the chance.
"And certainly no direct ones!"
The colonel fell back against the back of his chair, annoyed. It wasn't as if he had no manners. If anything, some even found his temperament attractive.
"Fine," he grumbled.
Rudy nodded in satisfaction as he heard the front door open.
"Hey." (Y/n) called down the small hallway.
Rudy stood up and walked towards her.
Alejandro didn't know what he had expected, but somehow he had always imagined her... pinker.
When Rudy spoke of his girlfriend, it sounded like he was talking about the sweetest creature on earth, who couldn't hurt a soul. Alejandro had envisioned a girl in a summer dress with pink lipgloss kissing Rudy on the cheek.
What he saw was a girl dressed in black. Transparent cut-outs, heavy boots and various buckles adorned her body.
Her lips, which Alejandro had always imagined to be pink, were painted black, just like her eyes.
She gave Rudy a quick kiss on the lips. "Sorry, I'm only here for a moment. Sofia got tickets for a concert today. I'd rather not ask how. Oh hi!"
She waved to Alejandro.
"This is Alejandro." Rudy introduced him.
He waved at (Y/n), overwhelmed.
"I'm (Y/n)." she replied quickly.
"You sure?" asked Ale before he could stop himself.
Rudy immediately gave him a warning look before turning back to (Y/n). "Be careful."
She kissed him again on the tip of his nose. "I'll text you when I get home. Bey Alejandro!" she called out and was already gone again.
Alejandro looked dully into the hallway. Rudy looked back with a raised eyebrow.
"Well I didn't expect THAT.", Alejandro said.
Rudy sighed.
"Oh come on! You described a lamb!" He threw his hands up in the air dramatically. "Not a little vampire. No matter how cute she seems to be."
Rudy sighed devotedly and sat down at the table.
"She's just like I told you."
"So... a black lamb?"
The corners of Rudy's mouth twitched. "Yes. That fits."
"To get back to the, let's call it 'music'."
"I don't get it either.", Rudy smiled with amusement.
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König
"Little bat?" König asked his girlfriend cautiously. She was sitting in one of his shirts next to his legs in front of the couch, looking thoughtfully at her puzzle, while the movie of her choice was playing on TV.
"Yes Bear?" she asked without looking up.
His eyes darted to the television at a particularly organic sound, before quickly settling back on her.
"Um... I know I said 'My job is war and I can take more than nornal humans'."
(Y/n) looked up and grinned mockingly.
"But I admit that your warning was probably... justified."
She grinned at him openly. "No (y/n)! I've seen and done things-"
"All right!" he interrupted her. A woman on the television screamed. "Is this girl still alive?" he asked in disgust.
(Y/n) pressed a button on the remote control and the movie stopped.
"There's no way anyone could survive something like that," he huffed.
His little bat just took a sip of his coffee. "The lore is, that Art keeps someone alive ,until he's satisfied. He decides when you die."
"That doesn't make any sense."
"It's horror. It's not supposed to make sense." She patted his gigantic thigh. "You held out very well, but you dropped out of the movie. You lost the bet. You have to order today.", she smiled mischievously.
He grumbled and reached for the tablet.
"No! You have to call! That was the bet."
He looked murderously at the phone. He hated ordering food. Which made no sense, considering his job and his career in it. He was a grown man. He made most people afraid, but still. These everyday situations weren't exactly easy for him. It wasn't like it used to be, but it would never be normal either. Nobody had to like him in his job. No one expected him to be polite. In the real world, there were all these rules and unspoken regulations.
"Like always?" he asked her. She just nodded and went back to looking at her puzzle.
Sometimes it was funny. They both weren't the most confident when it came to social interaction, even though the world always thought they should be. Him because of his body. Her because of her look.
They had started making bets. The loser had to make phone calls or tell the waiter in the restaurant that the food was going back.
He ordered the pizza and felt (Y/n) put a hand on his knee. He had started wiggling his legs again. A habit that had always upset his mother. She stroked his knee with her thumb and he brought his limbs back to rest. With a sigh, he tossed the cell phone towards the pillow. It was nice that he didn't feel any anxiety with her. It was nice to have someone who gave him the space to find peace.
"What kind of picture is this going to be?", he asked her, stroking her hair and looking at the dark puzzle.
"Blackness."
"Blackness?"
"Yes. It's just black." She grinned.
"Why?"
"Because we as humans like to play God. The nice thing is... There's a reference picture."
He grinned. He loved how she was amused by little things like that. He loved his little bat. Her and her bloody pointless puzzle.
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Mask
Summary: (Y/n) shows Ghost a different kind of mask.
Wordcount: 1.252
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The myth, the phantom, the death with the mask, Ghost flinched.
(Y/n) just rolled her eyes.
Simon continued to stare blankly at her.
(Y/n) stared back.
Simon made circular motions in front of his face with his index finger and looked at his girlfriend questioningly.
"A sheet mask.", she explained and closed her eyes. "My skin is always dry in winter, so I do it more often."
Simon continued to look at his girlfriend. He had only recently started spending the night at her place more often. As a result, they had become more familiar with each other's daily rituals.
(Y/n) knew that he got up at 4 a.m. every day. (Y/n) had immediately given him a wrist alarm clock that vibrated to wake him up, so she wouldn't be constantly woken up in 'the middle of the night' just because he wanted to exercise.
By now, Simon was familiar with her evening beauty routine, as well as the weekly, extensive 'reset', as she called it. Bath, face mask, peeling, hair removal, eyelash lift (something that frankly terrified him), henna make-up, eyebrows-something.
He couldn't see through it, but it seemed to do her good.
Still, this image was new.
"Tell your eyebrows to relax.", she murmured.
Simon forced his face to relax. "Sorry.", he grumbled.
"It's okay." She relaxed and leaned her head back against the back of the sofa. "My face is just too small for these things. But it's so nice and cool on the skin." A grin steels itself on her lips. "I'm sure they'd fit you better."
Simon just grumbled dismissively as a ring went off from (Y/n)s phone. She jumped up and headed for the bathroom. His unmasked girlfriend came back and grinned mischievously at him.
"What?", he asked immediately, alarmed.
She pulled a small packet out from behind her back and held it under his nose.
"No.", Simon clarified and crossed his arms in front of his chest.
She pouted. "Oh, come on. It's really nice and good for your skin."
Simon raised an eyebrow. He pointed to his face. "Good for the skin? You can see the cheshire smile, can't you? Or the scar that nearly cost me my eye? The burn-"
"Simon-" she interrupted him. "I mean that..." She took a deep breath. "You think I haven't noticed that you have scarring pain and always get earaches when the weather changes, or that your eyes hurt when it storms?" She looked at the little blue packet. "Something like that helps to provide relief.", she pouted.
Simon sighed. He had hoped she wouldn't notice. "All right."
He sat down forcefully on the sofa and crossed his arms.
(Y/n) looked at him before she carefully grabbed his hand and pulled it.
"To the bathroom.", was all she said.
"What for?"
"I have to prepare the face first.", she shrugged.
Simon looked at her. "I'm going to regret this, aren't I?"
(Y/n) shook her head in amusement, but pulled him behind her.
No sooner had Simon been placed on the toilet seat than she reached for a tube in her arsenal.
She squeezed a white, creamy substance onto her fingers and looked at him, beaming. "Can I?", she asked.
Simon nodded. She dabbed his face with a wet towel and then began to spread the stuff over his face. Her hands massaged in circles over his skin.
"What's that?", he asked.
"Cleansing milk.", she said simply.
"You know soap works too."
"Men." she just mumbled. "Wash up." she delegated.
Simon leaned over the sink and rinsed the stuff off.
He was immediately pushed back onto the seat and dabbed with a towel.
He was still processing the feeling on his skin, when (Y/n) reached for another bottle and dabbed the contents onto a cotton pad.
She ran it over his forehead, his cheeks and his chin. She was particularly careful with his larger scars. Simon looked at her concentrated face. Warmth fluttered around his heart.
She threw the small piece of cotton into the garbage can next to the sink.
Simon noticed that his skin wasn't as tight as usual. He usually just took a bar of soap and washed himself with it.
(Y/n) finally tore open the blue packaging and pulled out a slippery-looking white something.
"That looks weird", he said.
(Y/n) just grumbled in agreement. "Put your head back a little.", she said, gently placing her hands on his jaw and pushing his head into the desired position.
Simon waited patiently. She carefully placed the face-shaped thing first on his forehead, then his nose and then positioned the cut-outs so that they matched his facial features.
"Yes, your face is better suited to the standard size.", she sighed as she adjusted the piece here and there.
Simon let his eyes fall shut as she started to scratch his scalp.
"And?" she asked softly, sitting down on his lap for comfort.
He hummed with pleasure. "Refreshing.", was all he said.
She laughed and pulled her hands back towards her, but Simon immediately pulled them back to his head.
He kept his eyes closed the whole time, enjoying (Y/n's) caring hands.
Only when her phone beeped again and she slowly pulled the mask off his face, did he let his eyes flutter open again.
Her fingers began to massage in the excess fluid.
He let his arms move around her hips and pulled her against his chest.
She grinned at him and wrapped her arms around his neck.
"Satisfied?", he asked.
She nodded, beaming, and stroked his short hair again.
He pressed a kiss to her nose and buried his freshly groomed face in her neck.
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"What are you doing?"
Simon put the pink tube back in its place in a flash. "Nothing."
(Y/n) looked at him with amusement. Simon looked back, caught off guard.
She reached into the small cupboard under the sink and pulled out two headbands. She put one on and pressed the other, still wrapped, into Simon's hand. "Move over.", she said, nudging him lightly with her hip.
Simon put the band to one side and held out his hand as (Y/n) squeezed a small amount of the cleansing cream onto her fingertips. She also put a small amount on his hand, put the tube down and started to clean her face. Simon did the same in silence.
They each went about their own business.
"You do know, that we will be doing this always together when you're here from now on, don't you?"
"I had suspected."
(Y/n) grinned and put on under-eye pads. She also held a pair out to Simon.
He looked at the two gel pads extensively, before pressing them to his face, as (Y/n) had done.
"I still have a lot to show you my friend.", she grinned.
Simon looked at her. Without make-up, wearing only one of his shirts, she stood there and had never been so beautiful as with those green things under her eyes.
He smiled gently at her. "I'm a fast learner."
She pulled him in for a quick kiss. "I noticed.", she smiled and pushed the slipped pad back into place.
"You and Johnny would get along well.", he muttered. "His ratio of hair care products to actual careable hair is irrational."
(Y/n) shook her head with a laugh and scratched the back of his neck. "I'd rather spoil you."
He rested his forehead against hers. "Thank you."
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you don’t talk too much. you aren’t too loud. you aren’t too needy. you aren’t too sensitive. you aren’t too this, or that. you aren’t too much anything. you will never be too much: you are you, and you are allowed to take up space. you are allowed to exist however you choose.
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Please Papi
Summary: Alejandro always thought Rudy was a bit of a prude. Good lord was he wrong about that.
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Rudy was like a brother to him. He knew him better than anyone else.
Which is why he couldn't help but grin now and again at the soldiers' jokes.
Rudy was calm and even-tempered. Many people thought he was shy because of this.  He was pragmatic in his job and had so far proved to everyone that he was a serious sergent major.
He only became shy when it came to women. He used to blush like a schoolboy every time a pretty girl approached him. A habit he had thankfully broken.
Despite Rudy's improvements in dealing with the wiser sex, if it hadn't been for Alejandro, he would never have gotten together with his current fiancée.
The girl was just as much of a lost cause as Rudy, but they were cute together. They were right for each other.
But even Alejandro, who was protective of his friend when it came to the teasing, couldn't imagine the two of them being particularly... creative in bed.
The guys thought he was a prude and, if he was honest, he agreed with them a little.
Nevertheless, Rudy was part of his family. They had been through good times and bad. Bad times like the ones he was going through right now.
A pipe had burst in Alejandro's apartment. During the repairs, he now had to find somewhere else to stay and
Rudy had immediately offered him his sofa bed. Alejandro had accepted.
The whole thing had been going on for two weeks now, but fortunately there was an end in sight.
He was very reluctant to press them, but they assured him each time that it would be no problem. But they already had very little time to themselves. He and Rudy were proud of their job, but it was also time-consuming. On top of that, they were planning a wedding and Rudy was looking for a house of his own for the two of them. Alejandro could only assume that family planning was already in the starting, if the hurry Rudy was in to find his own home spoke for something.
Tonight he wanted to leave the couple to themselves. He'd snagged a date and assured Rudy with a wink that he'd be gone for a while. If all went well, they would be alone for the night.
However, Alejandro hadn't expected his date to turn him down so fast. Annoyed, he went back to Rudy's apartment.
He had expected to see the two of them in the living room. Cuddling on the sofa and watching a movie, but he didn't see anyone. The apartment was completely dark.
"Fuck! Just like that."
Alejandro stopped at his friend's voice. It sounded muffled from their bedroom.
Oh fuck.
"My good girl. My - oh hmm - my good, good girl."
"Please papi."
Oh FUCK!
Alejandro's eyes fell open in surprise.He heard a surprised cry and then, as clear as glass, the bed frame being hammered against the wall. What followed sounded as if animals had taken possession of the two of them.
Alejandro snapped out of his stupor and left the apartment in a flash.
He went into a bar, hoping to burn the memory of the incident out of his brain. Unfortunately, he was unsuccessful. Rudy isn't the only one who liked that nickname, but damn it, it was Rudy. When he'd finally slept with a girl for the first time as a late bloomer and Alejandro had prodded him to tell him what it was like, his friend had blushed so hard he thought he was going to keel over. Alejandro had assumed that Rudy was simply embarrassed at having come too soon, but he was probably wrong. That would also explain why the little girl kept throwing herself at him.
After a good three hours, he decided that the coast was clear and went back to the apartment. He would simply lie down on the sofa, sleep and forget about this incident.
How on earth could the two of them still be going at it?
Alejandro stood stunned in the doorway and involuntarily listened to the two of them.
He understood that Rudy was a few years younger, but damn it, he wouldn't have been able to deliver a marathon lasting over three hours when he was twenty. Let alone one that sounded so brutal.
He sighed. All he wanted to do was sleep. He sneaked into the bathroom to get some oropax, stuffed them into his ears and pulled the pillow over his head as he lay down on the sofa bed.
It's always the quiet ones after all.
The next morning he sat at the breakfast table and didn't quite know where to look.
Now he was the prude who couldn't look at Rudy without blushing. Let alone (y/n), who was solving a crossword puzzle in the newspaper.
"Can I have the papi - PAPER - the paper? The... the sports section."
They both looked at him skeptically. (Y/n) handed him the pages and looked at her crossword again.
"You good?" asked Rudy.
"Yes, of course. Why not?" smiled Alejandro.
Rudy shrugged his shoulders. "You're so... quiet."
The corner of Alejandro's mouth twitched slightly.
There was a banging on the front door.
"Parra!" someone shouted.
Rudy immediately jumped up and ran to the door. (Y/n) turned red as if on cue.
"Good-"
"Parra. I'm complaining. That-that- Fuck your woman quieter!" shouted the one at the door.
"I'm sorry-"
"You're sorry. Of course you are. You're always sorry. If you can't keep it down, keep it in your pants!"
"Pablo be a little-
"Quieter? Is that really what you're asking me to do?"
Alejandro saw (y/n) burying his face behind one hand in surrender.
Rudy came into the kitchen, grabbed a bottle of tequila... a good bottle and disappeared from the picture again.
"Next time, warn me!"
Footsteps went down the stairs and Rudy came back into the kitchen, his face bright red, and dropped into his chair.
Alejandro cleared his throat. "How- How's the house hunting going?"
"Ale.", Rudy warned him.
(Y/n) released her hand from her face and stood up. "I'm going to take a shower."
They both looked after her. Rudy still said nothing.
Alejandro decided he could talk more openly without his fiancées present.
"I have a confession to make.", he began.
Rudy looked at him skeptically.
"I may have been here earlier than I thought yesterday."
Rudy turned bright red.
"No shame my friend." He punched him in the shoulder. "I understand the girls all hanging on you after that. My goodness. Honestly, I've been here twice. Three hours Rudy! I can understand your neighbor. I'd be jealous too."
Alejandro's grin widened at the sight of his embarrassed friend, who was getting smaller and smaller.
Alejandro laughed. "And you let everyone make jokes about you, while you're fooling everyone."
Rudy glared at him venomously.
"What else besides papi?" Alejandro continued to laugh. "Is she calling you sergent major? Was she bad and has to make amends? Bondage games? Floggers?"
Alejandro watched in amazement at his friend's face, as he hit the mark with every guess.
Rudy, however, looked increasingly annoyed despite his blush. "Why did your date end so early?"
Alejandro's laughter faltered. "She left?"
Rudy crossed his arms in front of his chest and nodded. "Why is that? Alejandro Vargas has the women running away?"
Alejandro pursed his lips in annoyance.
Rudy looked at him like he was a newcomer, who was about to be shown, how quickly he could kick the ground from under his feet.
Alejandro didn't move.
"Something must have bothered her.", Rudy thought aloud.
Alejandro was sulking now and grumbled a reply.
"What?" asked Rudy.
"I was too old for her.", he bit out.
Rudy nodded and you could really only tell how amused he was, by the slightly deepening wrinkles around his eyes.
"Even?" Alejandro asked, annoyed.
"Even." Rudy nodded. "But shut up in front of (y/n)."
Alejandro nodded.
The two drank their coffee, until Alejandro turned back to his friend.
"My brother-in-law probably wants to sell his house."
Rudy looked up. "Oh yeah? Which one?"
"Matias. Four bedrooms. Two bathrooms. Large kitchen. Garden. Party cellar... With soundproofing."
Rudy rolled his eyes.
"Should I ask?"
Rudy nodded.
"I'm happy for you both.", Alejandro said, and he meant it. He was glad that Rudy had someone, he trusted with this side of him.
Rudy looked happily at his coffee.
"Thanks Ale." He patted Alejandro on the shoulders. "You'll settle down one day, too."
"When the first gray hair comes, I'll start looking." Alejandro grinned.
Rudy blows into his coffee. "We both know you've been dyeing these for two years."
Alejandro looked at him in shock. "I don't understand how everyone thinks you're so innocent."
"Me neither. After all, I heard you both times yesterday."
Alejandro choked so hard on his coffee that it shot through his nose.
Rudy grinned.
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drmaddict · 5 months
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once again!! men moaning !! men groaning !! men breathing heavy !! men just making noise !!
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