And anywhere you’ll go, there will be mankind: and that’s a blessing; and that’s a curse.

like it spicy until im bawling out blood

i don’t know why i’m acting like anyone sees or cares about the shit i post

No; you, and you alone, took a shovel and dug your own grave to bury yourself in your misery.

Went shopping with my mother:)

Bought an overpriced parfume i didn’t even smelled first because there weren’t opened ones and a mango candle for my friend because the smell reminded me of the (disgusting, VILE) smoothie she always take. She forced me to taste it once, it was so atrocious it took me several minutes to swallow it. + I was sick the next day. I mean it was a cold yk but i wouldn’t be surprised if it was because some strange bacteria developed into that nasty drink of hers. Anyways she loves mango and the candle was cheap.

I love big, cheap stores. You always find anything in low quality at even lower prices. And it’s fun.

Then we went eating at the restaurant, it was cool but we never have much to say. She talked about her friend and how much of a good person she is.

We’re in a store right now. She made a remark about my dad, she has been doing a lot recently. The last time they kissed it’s because i asked them to for a picture and it didn’t last more than three seconds and you could SEE it was forced and they didn’t like it lmao😭 Also they both have health problems and it’s way worse than they let us know:/

Anywaysss, hope the mist won’t smell awful, or i’ll offer it to someone who likes it.

Love yall❤️ take care<3

went to the skating rink yesterday with my sister, we fell bcs of me lmaoo

was great though:)

We can see the bumps of my scars under my leggings, it’s so embarrassing

What a horrible creature.

wait when you say ‘into’ do you mean like being attracted to them or being trans like literally becoming them or what im confused

here’s to all the weird little girls growing up into even weirder men

it’s genuinely so weird that i have friends. i have the most amazing, funny friends i could dream of. they’re all different in their own ways and im so lucky i get to be a part of their human life.

yet i also bring them misery and pain, because my existence is a burden and my soul is even more disgusting than my body is.

i couldn’t attend one of my friend’s birthday party so we did a face time, and i told them i couldn’t speak loud because it was in the middle of the night and my family was asleep. i could hear their chirrups and singing, and they just chatted together and burst out laughing all the time, often talking with me and including me in the discussion.

they’re so much funnier than me. they just know the right words and jokes to say and they can spend a good time together and i was silently listening in the awkward heavy silence of the living room thinking ‘they’re having more fun without me, they’re better off without me, i can’t make them laugh like other do, i wouldn’t have been able to think of that joke, why the hell are they friend with me?’

and one of my friends always begs me to call her my bestfriend and insists so we call each other ‘a group’, but why? i’m not funny, i’m not kind, i’m not sweet, i’m not generous, i’m not patient, i’m not honest, i’m not talkative, i’m not encouraging, i’m not supportive, i’m not pretty, i’m not healthy, i’m not interesting, i’m not cultured, i’m not sociable, i’m not brave, i’m not inspiring, i’m not clever. Out of all the damn people you know, people who are so much more than me, why me?

is it a joke? is it ironic? do you actually mean it?

i mean, i can be fine as a classmate, a girl you’re quickly talking with just to pass time. but why would you want to grow old together? why? why? why?

a friend made my swear that I’m ‘her person’

oh honey, no, trust me you don’t want me as your person

do i light myself on fire

‘you should seek therapy’

yea so they either lock me up in an asylum or in prison?? bffr💀

sometimes i want to vent about certain things on here because (some) people are so nice and so many relate to each other, and are just casually discussing about very serious and twisted things. then i remember that the said ‘certain things’ i want to vent about are [very very bad] and people would probably be like ‘no that’s just fucked up, you’re disgusting im reporting you to the police’

like no babe you’re supposed to be on my side we’re twinning remember

also i mean digital footprint😔

tw!! SA!

im acting slutty and all but if you actually touch me i will have disgusting nightmares of being violently, brutally r4pd and i’ll have to calm myself by cvtting my flesh open and let the pain be a reminder that i my brain is rotten and my intelligence is the only worthy thing about me, my hands are made to save others but my body is made to satisfy and i have to let myself be used because that’s my only purpose; i’m less worthy than other humans, and only i know, deep down, how repulsive i truly am.

haha yea that was just a head’s up! no problem otherwise😘

tw! vent

mention of SA

holy fuck just woke up from a nightmare of my dad r4ping me agn

nice, guess we cvtting agn tn