Her Devine Grace what could be about in existence so radiant that shines as a gamma ray upon my eyes, 4 in letters it's hard to spell something that has no word, for a tremendous astonishing Divine like intoxicating woman without a title far too Demi unbridled, her Blissful presence that bring you to knees, her pheromones is a present that has you soaring above the trees, around her anything is possible, utterly complete confidence she gives you, you feel Unstoppable, you feel Limitless as her essence flows through you, and as that feeling of her Essence is feelings of pure ecstasy, and euphoric tingles overtake you, why wouldn't anybody want something so gracefully elegant next to he, four Horizons her presence can be seen shining, astonishingly, Factor enlightened through one of God's best design, it's hard to see anyone being Worthy of this woman so fine, with selfishness I wish she was mine, truly what betters me, astonishing radiant glow of her Humanity, as purely mesmerized has my site engaged, has magnetized eyes set to persuade, and she has been elegant, graceful, classfully and adorably made, my heart consistently rapidly beats for her as my breath becomes hard to make, as if she's a pure accelerating adrenaline through a dream, but with my eyes wide open in full awake, then it becomes consciously aware she takes my breath as I'm lost in time, for her design, is So Divine, my blood pressure is up as I heat thru passion that makes me sweat, my temperature rising so high The Closer I Get, she's something of fantasy but living in true, every time she's around I become clumsy, words are no longer understandable as they Stutter from the mumbelin Lips Of Me, a deer in headlights, Her Shine is all I see, I don't look back but have one regret, I havent found way to kiss her yet, thankful everyday I smilejust from her Persaud, just knowing her is a present by the grace of God CharlieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson © '17

Got To Stay True let the light shine down on me as I rain true, and they can say what they want to say too, and they can spread toxicity through their disguised lies, and hypocrisy holds up enough to realize, an invisibility will let the truth see through, and I will blind with shine as my soul Rings true, A WOOD pure and true, with my words I'll represent you, a a leader to follow the true, for selfish lives follow not true, for the hands of time will show for sure what the lies will do, for the haters LED astray, for one day find truths day, follow the path of true you'll see it my way, and I stay true, for no other way will ever do, for the truth of happiness lies never pursued, because true happiness hit the life of pursuit, and personalities shine their colors down to the root, deceit is a sinner, the root of a center, the liar that never remembers, the truth is the inventor, the one that delivers, and entreprenuer is one who does not forget, stays true and remember, a life that was tender, and pays back the pay it forward, so others don't pay for what the untrue has in stored, and as some live by the gun die by the sword, and with broken down Chevy onstar started after but before Ford, Message delivered as one that's Accord, for you cannot be true without a blemish, there is no perfect always diminished, but through sin and mistake we learn the better in, which brings true and makes us a veteran CharlieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson © '17

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It’s The Little Things

If a poets heart breaks and no one around chooses to hear, does she make a sound? If her hands shake and there’s this constant ringing in her ears, Can she ever be found?

She sits, constellations of pain scattered on her skin like loose confetti, If she, yet again, shuts everyone out and let’s no one in, Will she somehow save them from her own misery?

Breathing, just barely. Her tears mix with the dirt that sits on her pores, Depression has no desire to be clean, It’s messy; the cracks showing- through her matted hair, dirty face, sunken eyes, self inflicted stripes and lines, Would you take her seriously if she said she wished to die?

Trapped. Again, in this miserable rainbow waiting room, Paintings line the walls, snarling at her, mocking her lack of vibrancy, He’s 24 minutes late for yet another appointment, Caught up with another patient, She wonders, if she should just leave.

Fingernails tapping. he sits across from her, wearing concern, Yet she can only see accusation written in his laugher-lines, Think of the little things instead I can’t. Just try As if there’s beauty when she wishes on razor blades, beauty when she flirts with death.

Think of the little things, make a ‘grateful list’, Others have it so much worse, cue: in Africa there’s dying kids’ It’s the little things he said

Why must she always focus on dread?

She didn’t cry as much she yesterday, and opened her eyes when the sun invaded her room, Does that count? Her breakfast, lunch and dinner was a yogurt, but she lit a cherry scented candle and that’s ‘self care’ is she wrong? He told her, no. But she needs to carry on.

She didn’t punch her reflection when she got up this morning, She stuck a post it note on the mirror that said: ‘I am beautiful’ Sure, It was soon ripped up into pieces smaller than her self esteem, But she tried, right? So gold star for this broken teen?

She threw away the letter to those she plans to leave behind, But wrote another straight after, You need to think of the little things, She’s trying. But the future is suffocating, She is paralysed from the parasite in her head, But it’s the little things, he says.

When the session ends, he tells her, go home and write them down, Write a list, he says Of all the little things, The small victories in everyday.

So here she sits, pen in hand And at the top of the page… ‘My little thing today is’-

I stayed.

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* I Wish I Was Invisible* walk if u choose, in my torn up shoes, pain in u purtrudes, durgs i cant refuse, nothing will sooth, am i born to lose, down all these booze, Mental Health with bi polar moods, tears become a pool throw out da rules, life is miserable, pain some of us are liven threw, i wish i was invisible, i wish i was invisible, seems my wishes for happieness are unreasonable, why cant i be invisible, i wish i was invisible,** im screaming inside, tears drowning my soul, guilt is cork screwed in, alone i dig my hole, pain so dark and deep no light dare seem to glow, Daddy needs his heart, daughters we live apart, with out you my bugg lifes so dark, my Raven we was pulled apart, Olivia while i was in prison u became so smart, i love my sweethearts, joy they give inspiration to live to the i had something to give, self exspessession through essence is pure and i cant let go, poetry helps endure, i beg for a cure, doctor's cant be sure da root of the core, but given​ medicines​ just making it worse, mood swings and i hear voices converse, pray for brighter days, but its hard to live in tears and anger, stressed since a teenager, i fear not any danger, unexplained behavior, the dark side of a stranger, ** walk if u choose, in my torn up shoes, pain in u purtrudes, drugs i cant refuse, nothing will sooth, am i born to lose, down all these booze, Mental Health with bi polar moods, tears become a pool, throw out da rules, life is miserable, pain we liven threw, i wish i was invisible, i wish i was invisible, seems my wishes for happieness are unreasonable, why cant i be invisible, i wish i was invisible,** fed up with questions, on the edge built up tension, its so impossible it seems to make simple dissions, overtaken of O.C.D. and no more does my mind belong to the person in da mirror I see, torment every day by the spirits wispers, lost my best friend and it hurts thinking about her finale thoughts its horrific this terrible visisons i got, i wish this would stop, im so sorry homie, why you and not me i dont understand, missing you was never part of my plan, my baby brother stabed and murdered, it eats at me, maybe it would not be if I hadn't left Myrtle Beach, maybe id have you in my reach, not around friends with deceat, leave u bleeding​ on the concrete, those bitches better hope we never meet, he got 9 years, but our pain is impossible to delete, my youngest children their uncle they will in this life not meet, pain of me, since i lost my aunt We We and grandma Ricky, no one can compare, the love you gave me, the heart you instilled in me, years of tears make it hard to see, why is everybody i need leave me, this pain isnt fair, why not give me the chair, but not da hospital one, id end this with a gun, fuck pain i want this done, and another risen sun, call about grandpa, hes a fighting machine, ill see him tomorro, by night my sorrow, **walk if u choose, in my torn up shoes, pain in u purtrudes, drugs i cant refuse, nothing will sooth, am i born to lose, down all these booze, Mental Health with bi polar moods, tears become a pool throw out da rules, life is miserable, pain we liven threw, i wish i was invisible, i wish i was invisible, seems my wishes for happieness are unreasonable, why cant i be invisible, i wish i was invisible, by: CharlieBoi 2d/ Charlie Ricketts-Johnson ©

Are They Looking In???? can they see me are they looking in, can they see me are they looking in, can they see all the tears that are masked and I hide, can they see the pain in my heart as it slowly died, can they see me with her away and demoralize, can they see through all pleasures pain and empty lies, can they see the thoughts of suicide and the failed tries, and all that applies, all you see is my disguise, cuz all I see is pain and People that deny they know, walking by and pretend they don't see what is there for all to see, not letting go to the thoughts that somebody might know, the disease in the mind grow, that person is different than they was before, standby, why they Die slow, questions are asked answers they don't know, we all want the living the life for you know, what is something to live for, keep it get up and go, not crazy an throwed, different or slow, inner thoughts that scare you to know, cover up your face and they go, the world forgets that they know, so really who's the one that slow, because you got to go before they realize that you're sick, it's an evil Greed for trick, saves money, problem gone they don't have to pay for shit, so next time they look through when they looking in, they can't see you, you become invisible, can they see me are they looking in, can they see me are they looking in, I guess there's nothing else to hide they done cleaned, in the cold im outside, can they see me are they looking in, I guess there's nothing left to hide they done cleaned, in the cold I'm outside CharlieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson ©

the place i claim

im from places that you may not understand, where your day can end way unplanned, gangsters have Street Wars over drugs just to say they was da man, where business stay business and who block you on you better represent with the right stuff in your hand, you sell drywall and a consumer no call more robbing Peter to pay Paul, end up in the paper taking a fall, yeah my cities I can claim 3, put time in the streets people know me, Funky Town, Baltimore Maryland, Washington DC, Frederick County Police know me, Prince George's County Police know me, Baltimore County Police know me spend time D.O.C., Funky Town murder worth yeah that's where to be, and just did a bit TDC, I can show you gangster shyt, follow me, I like the win, I'ma a game room G, use your fucking brain, My Philosophy, and if you're posing, probably that's what you always be, I'm branching out, you can call me a tree, now watch me earn to be, number one MC, it's been a long time in the making, lots of things taken, lots of things give, pain is How I Live, heart's blood stain is what it is, heart in the sleeve, gets hearts broke real quick, question is can it be healed like Viagra to broke dick, they say I'm head sick well no shit son of a bitch, I guess the doctor got cookies that's why it's rich, well who he, yeah me bipolar OCD runs in the family, yet they waste time with all the wrong fucking medicine, if you just listen to what the fuck I'm saying I'll let you in, all the runs to pick up that girl,and alcohol Comas, Oxycontin, muscle relaxers somas, loving rushes to the DOMA, you think I'll be smarter than that with this diploma, see my hats then i hit a homer, I'm a Rolling Stoner, to each his owner, bitch suck it I got a boner, hurry up bitch this aint my car it's a loaner, matter fact bitch where's your friend, let's have a threesome phone her, hurry the fuck up before I'm sober, I trust no one, unload my gun, and three of us in the bed till the Rising Sun ChalieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson ©

the place i claim

im from places that you may not understand, where your day can end way unplanned, gangsters have Street Wars over drugs just to say they was da man, where business stay business and who block you on you better represent with the right stuff in your hand, you sell drywall and a consumer no call more robbing Peter to pay Paul, end up in the paper taking a fall, yeah my cities I can claim 3, put time in the streets people know me, Funky Town, Baltimore Maryland, Washington DC, Frederick County Police know me, Prince George’s County Police know me, Baltimore County Police know me spend time D.O.C., Funky Town murder worth yeah that’s where to be, and just did a bit TDC, I can show you gangster shyt, follow me, I like the win, I'ma a game room G, use your fucking brain, My Philosophy, and if you’re posing, probably that’s what you always be, I’m branching out, you can call me a tree, now watch me earn to be, number one MC, it’s been a long time in the making, lots of things taken, lots of things give, pain is How I Live, heart’s blood stain is what it is, heart in the sleeve, gets hearts broke real quick, question is can it be healed like Viagra to broke dick, they say I’m head sick well no shit son of a bitch, I guess the doctor got cookies that’s why it’s rich, well who he, yeah me bipolar OCD runs in the family, yet they waste time with all the wrong fucking medicine, if you just listen to what the fuck I’m saying I’ll let you in, all the runs to pick up that girl,and alcohol Comas, Oxycontin, muscle relaxers somas, loving rushes to the DOMA, you think I’ll be smarter than that with this diploma, see my hats then i hit a homer, I’m a Rolling Stoner, to each his owner, bitch suck it I got a boner, hurry up bitch this aint my car it’s a loaner, matter fact bitch where’s your friend, let’s have a threesome phone her, hurry the fuck up before I’m sober, I trust no one, unload my gun, and three of us in the bed till the Rising Sun

ChalieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson ©

“For Her Four Letters”

your hair doesn’t matter your soul is a beautiful glamour, you could never be a throwback that’s like losing your soul and not wanting to have it back, and all the other girls you don’t give a fuck, that means you’re like virgin, in your beautiful essence im purging, cuz I could give a care less about your hair or what you wear, your Raw beautiness is what makes me stare, because I live to see you wake up, no hair done, no eyeshadow, no lip liner just no makeup, cuz as a diamond you shine in the most beautiful vision of mine, with you I only got time, the total Beauty you have inside and out, a soul so colorful it has to scream out, the mesmerizing lure of you that brings me in, The scent of you so magnetizing I just can’t win, I wish you just walk by again, Beautiful Soul God made Angel is true, you always put others first, seeing in the actions you do, amazing aura that everybody sees, the beautifulness that Graces me, I wish you could see what we all see, and though you truly deserve better, but you make me better, for you my heart has four letters, and they will always be, L -O -V -E

CharlieBoi 2d Charlie Ricketts-Johnson ©

beauty is not a word that would be used with such Grace, you have preceded it and such a amazing radiant glowing goddess like amazing creature could only be explained as if an essence full of pheromones and slipped through breezes of flower Orchards with the scent of a Heavenly Breeze, that intoxicates and Rises the blood pressure as it pumps through a blissful feeling of ecstasy and has breathing all but Holt as your erratically tonic energy passes through and gives Cosmic tingles throughout the body, and goosebumps throughout as the stomach knots up and butterflies your platonic essence passes through and it's discovered they can only be explained as a heavenly erotic sensual extravagance, Graced in Elegance and extranomical and astonishing spectacular adorable gorgeousness that's there's no word for on this Earth, towards the goddess essence of all Beauty and colorful Creation on Earth forgot it's like Beauty can never be summed up in the word but only explained in the series of moments that are Blissful and extremely exotic please

FOR JUST ONE WISH

For Just One Wish

want a couple dollars to Millions, poverty beginnings, relationships ending, unforgiving, humble are you kiddin, wrong decisions, tragic endings, why am I living, if you knew what I been in, lust, pride, greed, envie, I’m every thing defining sin, my personality has a twin, you may have met him, all I got is this paper and pin, but yet they say I offend, maybe if I had a wish, okay I think I’ll make a list, and I insist that these things of it consist, depression don’t exist, everyone happy to coexist, Rolex on my wrist, with a twist, gold and diamonds in my ears,flash so crisp, and up in da horizon,it starts to brighten, and whiten everything, it’s shinnin, mind inlightend, confidence of a titan, stayin high as Mount Zion, nobody around me that I love dying, no more pain and crying, no lying, sell dope, nope only buying, I hear a voice loud in my head, and behind my reflection in da mirror a blur of red, devil said, “"okay all this I can give you, just cut your finger and sign in red, and you don’t owe me nothing until after you’re dead, I’ll give you everything, everybody will know your name, money and fame, secrets to the game,”“ and what about the pain, ”“ youll have no more hurt, no more sorrow, everything you could ever wish for begins tomorrow”“, wake up my eyes glossy, wrist so frosty, out side my gates flashin cameras from paparazzi, a brand-new murdered out black Bugatti, alrighty, it seems like as if I’ve introduced myself into the Illuminati, did I do something I’ll regret, the voice, shit, don’t forget to me you owe a debt, bet, and I’m on my knees, oh Lord please, he tricked me, he said to him I’m in debt, if you get me outa of this my life is yours to direct, I follow and trust your plan, I promise I won’t be foolish again, in JESUS name AMEN

FOR JUST ONE WISH

For Just One Wish

want a couple dollars to Millions, poverty beginnings, relationships ending, unforgiving, humble are you kiddin, wrong decisions, tragic endings, why am I living, if you knew what I been in, lust, pride, greed, envie, I’m every thing defining sin, my personality has a twin, you may have met him, all I got is this paper and pin, but yet they say I offend, maybe if I had a wish, okay I think I’ll make a list, and I insist that these things of it consist, depression don’t exist, everyone happy to coexist, Rolex on my wrist, with a twist, gold and diamonds in my ears,flash so crisp, and up in da horizon,it starts to brighten, and whiten everything, it’s shinnin, mind inlightend, confidence of a titan, stayin high as Mount Zion, nobody around me that I love dying, no more pain and crying, no lying, sell dope, nope only buying, I hear a voice loud in my head, and behind my reflection in da mirror a blur of red, devil said, “"okay all this I can give you, just cut your finger and sign in red, and you don’t owe me nothing until after you’re dead, I’ll give you everything, everybody will know your name, money and fame, secrets to the game,”“ and what about the pain, ”“ youll have no more hurt, no more sorrow, everything you could ever wish for begins tomorrow”“, wake up my eyes glossy, wrist so frosty, out side my gates flashin cameras from paparazzi, a brand-new murdered out black Bugatti, alrighty, it seems like as if I’ve introduced myself into the Illuminati, did I do something I’ll regret, the voice, shit, don’t forget to me you owe a debt, bet, and I’m on my knees, oh Lord please, he tricked me, he said to him I’m in debt, if you get me outa of this my life is yours to direct, I follow and trust your plan, I promise I won’t be foolish again, in JESUS name AMEN