Why are people sticking up for Will Smith? He will quite happily let other men go balls drop into his wife's vagina, but assault a comic making a joke about his wife's haircut? If the dictionary had pictorial definitions, then Will Smith would appear next to 'cuckold'.

You've strived for an Oscar for so many years, and the one time it comes to you, you ruin the whole thing. You laughed at the joke but she gave you the look. She's played you for a mug. Did she threaten to have another affair? Dump that toxic shitbitch

Further to a previous post, I have had thoughts that I may have been too harsh regarding an individual and that perhaps they should be given a second chance. Well it appears that my initial instinct was correct. Always trust your gut feeling.

The individual in question is still holding a pity party and seems to feel aggrieved that their behaviour was triggering me. Evidently I should ignore the fact that their behaviour upset me and forget it all, so that they feel better about themselves.

A year or so ago I probably would have caved in but not now. I have reached a watershed in my life and will no longer let others dictate how I should or should not feel. 

Another one goes too soon

This morning I had a Instagram notification so opened that first rather than browsing the news feed. It was a bot accounting wanting to follow me. Blocked. I then went to the home page and saw a post from the Foo Fighters’ official page. I had to read it three times and even then I could not comprehend what I was reading.

I can’t believe that Taylor Hawkins has died. I was only watching YouTube videos of them last night. He was one hell of a drummer but also like a whirlwind of energy and huge smiles. It’s just so totally unexpected. Even now I checked the news pages to see if it was just a mistake. It just goes to show who fragile life really is. You can’t take anything for granted. It can be all over in a heartbeat.  

This has been the shittiest Saturday morning news ever. Condolences to his family and friends. Rest in peace, Taylor.

Some men are slimy shitbags. There is one on this site in particularly. So say professes his love for his wife (who is on here also - both fitness blogs) but then comes out with all the cheap oneliners for his adoring female followers. The man is pure slime. When he moves, I bet you leaves a trail like a slug.

I call him 'Bootsy Callico with a pony tail'.

You have to laugh at virtue signallers. They so like to post about how kind and wonderful they are, when they are the complete opposite.

Beware of anyone who makes a point of publicly declaring how kind they are.

Time to put myself first....

and not let others control my life and feelings. I do not need toxic people in my life. When I say ‘toxic’ I do not mean that they are horrible people, I just mean that that their behaviours are toxic for my mental health.

Example..

I was friends with someone from this site for 2, maybe 3 years. We only became really close in the last year but we enjoyed talking to each other and sharing thoughts and music. Things changed rather quickly though because of a severe mental episode I was going through (and still am). I am the kind of person who detaches a little from life when I feel like this. I feel like a burden to people. I also don’t feel very talkative and me leave it an hour or two before I reply to the initial message. I have self harmed and been suicidal.

Anyway, my friend accused me of deliberately avoiding her and getting bored of her company. No matter how much I tried to explain that it wasn’t anything to do with her and that I am like it with everyone, she wouldn’t believe me. She then turned to emotional blackmail to try and make me feel bad. In the end she said perhaps we shouldn’t be friends anymore. I said I wanted to stay friends but just needed a bit of time to get my head straight. This wasn’t acceptable unfortunately. Hence to say we are no longer friends.

I see from her account she is posting passive aggressive things, suggesting how awful some people are and that she feels lonely. This has made me so angry, I have basically had people through my whole life trying to control me and expect me to put my own problems on the back burner so that I can entertain their needs. Very few people, if any care about how I am or what I am feeling.

I will not be dictated to any longer.