Right, considering the current state of corporate politics on this site, and that it seems that only those affected seem to be actively speaking on the matter, it is up to I, the only fucking cishet on tumblr, to drag this out to a wider audience.

REBLOG IF YOUR ACCOUNT IS A TRANSFEM SAFE SPACE.

We need to show these higher ups how much we truly value them.

My experience with derealization

A writing I’ve done for an English project that I have to transfer into comic. Just wanted to see if anyone else could relate

Sometimes, when I’m left thinking, I remember something that happened to me some time ago. Despite it having been one or two years, I remember it to the core.

I woke up that day, after having a strange dream, and when I looked around I found that I hadn’t woken up

Or had I?

Everything around me felt strange, disgusting. It didn’t feel real, it didn’t feel right.

No, nothing felt right. Not even myself. Ants ran through my insides, and I wanted nothing more than to tear my skin apart and reveal what was below

It was all bad and wrong. Everything. I wanted to scream so bad, but I couldn’t, because there was a problem in me. I didn't know what I was. I thought about how I used to be someone. 

I wasn’t inside the flesh. I wasn’t there. There were no emotions, but at the same time it would never stop. Time went slow, or was it fast? I didn’t notice, I didn’t care.

I saw my family, that day, and something deep within me screamed something. They were not my family. They were monsters. Why were there monsters in my house? Why did they have my family’s faces? Why did I have memories of them when they weren’t them?

I ate, but I wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t anything, nothing. I talked, lost track of what I said, but stopped once I saw the look on those monster’s faces. I couldn’t breathe, so I couldn’t eat. I barely ate anything that day.

I just wanted everything to stop. I wondered why I was feeling like this. I wondered if the government had something to do with it. They surely had to, right? Maybe this was reality. Maybe my whole life had been a lie, a joke all along! Maybe they were watching. I wondered if it was funny to them. It wasn’t for me. 

There was a moment too where I wondered something scary. It was fleeting, but it was there. Was I going insane?

I didn’t want to explain it to the monsters, I still didn’t feel much but I was scared, in some way, that it’d break the act they were watching. Or the act the government was putting on me. That it would break whatever was happening.

I hid myself in my room. I was supposed to study that day. I tried to. I swear I tried to. But it wouldn’t stop, it was too much

Then, I had to go outside. To go eat somewhere. It got better a few hours later, but I still wasn’t able to breathe.

I told my therapist that week, but she mistook what I had said for a dream, and didn’t get too worried. Of course, I didn’t know that till a week later. I still couldn’t breathe.

School was painful, it didn’t give me a break to work out my wrongness. I told a teacher, I could tell he didn’t take me seriously by the way he smiled down at me. 

I told my therapist the next week, and she realized it hadn’t been a dream. She got worried, I’ve never seen her so worried. She asked me if I had lost someone close, or had had any incidents happen to me. They hadn’t. 

Some time later, we discussed medication. We never went through with it, but I feel like that me would’ve done anything for it. These days, I can breathe much better. I don’t know if to be grateful to the oxygen that goes through my lungs though. Why does it go through now, when I had needed it the most then?

Thankyou if you have read till here, hope you have a nice day

A bit of a project + some extras 👍

Idk, just felt like doing a comic, and I did just that :)

Props to @dancingthesambaa for writing this AMAZING fanfic! (And thankyou sm for the compliments you’re way too nice 😭😭)

Omw to the hospital actually, coming from another bc gotta see if I’ve actually broken my finger or not w a radiography, but whatever, the sillies 💖🤭 Fanfic curse is frfr true istg

Some ideas! (Doodled this yesterday night pls dont judge)

Soooooooooo

This is kinda what I have in mind for Raven's design in the fanfic 'Starblind' made by @dancingthesambaa !

What I went for is basically a kinda flowy look on her, as if she didn't have a definitive form. I do like to think the outlines of a 'young woman with eyes aged beyond comprehension', per say. This is more of a doodle, so I didnt encapture her exactly. But I would like to think that her entire being is constantly like moving, and her hair flows as if not affected by any gravety whatsoever, fading at the tips as more grow. No idea how to explain it, but I like to think that this would kind of be like what a god would look like. A confusing, terrifying but at the same time incredibly beautiful; no, incredibly *goregeous* being. Ever eternal, ever omnipotent. I also would like to think that she'd be able to pass through Leo, phasing through his body with him only being able to feel the brush of her cold (or warm? Still not decided) hair before she disappears completely. Man. I've thought WAYYY too hard about this. AND, I may be very very wrong with this direction, but I kinda hc that she's, in a way, Leo's mother. Cause like- she blessed him, she's the mother of his ability, and his ability is apart of him! Idk, just really like the idea even if it doesnt become canon (I dont mean as in she would be with the fam and be his 'mom' or something but more of like the titles of mother or father given to certain gods when they had kids with humans. Like a demigod from ancient Greece, only being abke to visit the one they call their 'parent' very rarely. The role never really fitting all the way, but still being a fact nonetheless)

Sorry, rambled lmao. But yeah! @dancingthesambaa, if there's anything you think I should add to her design I've forgotten about, please do tell me! I wanna do more drawings but for that I'd rather have a more solid take on the way she appears. Thankyouuuu <333 (Oh and if you dont make the fam meet them soon, I might have to make COMICS to sustain my mental health. Imma STEAL YOUR FANFIC /j) but like actually, might do small comics

See yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa :))

It’s been a LONG time since I’ve drawn em

I might, I might!!

Loving this fic :) Also never seen the 2003 series so spare me please @bluepeachstudios 

Ghost in the Shell by AmevelloBlue on ao3

Yesss and thankyou!! Might do more in a future and I’m glad you liked it <333

Loving this fic :) Also never seen the 2003 series so spare me please @bluepeachstudios 

Ghost in the Shell by AmevelloBlue on ao3

Loving this fic :) Also never seen the 2003 series so spare me please @bluepeachstudios 

Ghost in the Shell by AmevelloBlue on ao3

Leo-is-Spider-Man comic :)

Some Leo-is-Spider-Man sketches

Leo double mutated and now he Spider-Man :D

Expressions

The Leo multiverse

Getting better at drawing this guy

I am proud to say I did not use any references except for Leo himself ;)

Leo angst for my soul (kinda unfinished but welp-)

Just some reference sheets :)

Just started the series even tho I’ve pretty much spoiled everything and know most of what is gonna happen lol