has anyone considered that i don’t wanna

thank fucking god I'm not 14 anymore

Y’ever read something and have understanding that has eluded you interminably suddenly stop, curl up, and snuggle neatly into a fold in your brain because a new way way opened to it?

My cats have this meow that means "please come with me to fix this" after which they'll lead me to the problem in question, usually a empty (or 'empty') food bowl or a closed door they want open. They look at the 'problem', they look back at me, clear message.

What fascinates me is how this illustrates what they percieve as being in the realm of my 'power.' I control the food, I control the door, sure, but my cats love to sit on the balcony in the sun, and it has happened plenty of times that on a rainy day they come get me, go to the balcony and show me... the rain. "Please fix this" they say. "Please get rid of the wet"

"Silly kitty," I say, "I can't control the rain." I then walk into the shower and turn on the rain.

i need to bite you for my mental health

Sometimes I think abt how painfully alone I was last year, and the year before that too, and also the years before. The last two years were definitely the worst, but I was always lonely in a way or another and I simply… am not anymore? It’s weird to think of it ig. I realize that I was just really surviving in a weird way and now there’s so much love in my heart for this people, for this small group of friends that sometimes I think I’m gonna choke on it. It’s like if I’ve never been aware of how much my heart could expand and how much could fit there, but now I’m painfully aware of it bc it’s full all the time. I love so much, and I’m so happy, and I want to hold it close. Sometimes I’m just going by my day and I get this urge to hug this group of friends, this urge to just BE CLOSE. And I don’t wanna sound needy, or weird or whatever.

I just kinda realized I love and I am loved in a way I never thought would happen. I know now why people write poems about it, why there’s so many songs about it, why art is the only way to express it bc oh god I love and i am loved.

Idk, just me being emotional ig.

Forgot to say he’s also a German version of Gerry what’s kinda. Like. Gerry’s family is already German, so he’s a modern irl version of Gerry ig. I’m in the process of forcing him to cosplay Gerry next Halloween

I have a friend that I’m a 100% sure he’s gonna become a German version of gunpowder Tim

To that random post here that I saw at 5am one day and gave me the weirdest shiver and changed my way to see the world, thank you

I love relgious imagery in horror

People underestimate how much it fucks you up to be subtly excluded as a kid. I would try to talk to my classmates and be met with disinterest or annoyance. The one friend I had, who I clung to and nodded along to his every word, had other friends he liked just as much or more. And his other friends didn’t care for me at all.

I look back at pictures from the time and see how separated I was from them. I remember knowing I was different. I remember posing questions about the world to the girls playing next to me and realizing that they had never asked the same ones to themselves. That the ways we thought couldn’t be more different.

I kept myself amused with my own fanatical stories and musings in my head. I would wander the playground on a circular path, imagining a friend and being sorely disappointed when it didn’t feel as real as I’d hoped.

There was a bubble separating me from everyone else, thin, and nearly invisible, but with a pearly sheen you could catch under the right conditions. I knew it was there, they knew it was there, and it changed me

I think so, it’s a canon event

I have a friend that I’m a 100% sure he’s gonna become a German version of gunpowder Tim

I think a lot abt me and Ali meeting for the first time like fate or smth bc like how tf are we this close???

Guys I think I fucked up

Oh no

I have a friend that I’m a 100% sure he’s gonna become a German version of gunpowder Tim

I desire him carnally (I want to bite him)

I had one of the gayest experiences in my life today and now I need to be normal and follow with my life like haha nice my heart is beating so fast thinking of you but Oh Well

i actually do remember how to draw him