"Ripples of Childhood" - Original - Digital Gif - 2024

something ive been thinking about lately is how some of my abusers are slightly popular on the internet

it bothers me a lot because i hate watching people interact with these people that i know are bad, but i dont want to be seen as bad for thinking about it this much

one of them works with vulnerable people and i think it is probably the worst fucking job for them because they do not understand the negative impact that they have left on not only me but nearly everyone else i have talked to about them and i just wish there wasnt as much guilt for calling out your abusers and their behavior

i wish you never manipulated me into dating you when i was in a vulnerable place, i wish you told me about your other partners before we dated, i wish you wouldnt get upset/mad at me when i communicated, i wish you didnt use me for money and gifts (that you didnt even appreciate), i wish i never gave you access to my body, i wish i never trusted you with our child alters, i wish i didnt trust you with my surgery aftercare, i wish i wasnt as dependent as i was on you, i wish i didnt relapse because of you

my life was so horrible when i was with you and now that it has been nearly two years i am starting to be where i should have been if you never were in my life

I'm gonna bury the version of me that you killed / I have to move on even if you won't let me

I'm not gonna forgive you

why does nobody care that i’m in pain?

The roaming ones (now in motion)

When approached from the front, their stalks are lowered to climb. Otherwise they just stand, and sometimes take a few steps.

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They are not from our dimension