We drove out to that park in the middle of nowhere, the only place I liked to be when I was alone. It was a piece of my world I kept secret from everyone but you.
We sat on top of that big hill, with nothing but the stars and moon above us, and they all sat still as if waiting for a moment they knew would soon come.
We talked, we laughed. We watched those two ducks on the lake who seemed to be exactly where we were for the exact same reasons.
God, the way the moonlight consumed the ground like an ocean was something I'll never forget.
Do you remember when we were smoking weed and you dropped your lighter? We both went to grab it in the same moment and our hands touched. I remember looking in your eyes and feeling like I was seeing the entire world for the first time, I felt like I was seeing you for the first time.
We sat so still in that moment. My hand resting on top of yours. That was the moment I knew that I could no longer ignore the feelings I had for you. We had come to the top of this hill as friends, but I knew we would leave as lovers.
And then I did something I had only done in dreams. I grabbed your hand and I put it to my heart, as my other hand careased the side of your face. I knew it was now or never, and I chose now.
That's when you said "whatever happens next, I'm happy it's going to be you. I wouldn't have it any other way. " So I did the thing that felt so wrong, and so right in the same moment. I did the thing my soul and bones were itching to do. I leaned in, and I kissed you.
But, I guess when you tell the story, you'll say it was you who kissed me. But we both know it was out of our control, we were simply two stars who's collision was meant to be.
You'll probably never read this, but if you do, I want you to know that no matter how many years pass, I'll never forget that night. I'll never forget you.