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bellaboow · 1 year

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I always felt that I am not Bella's favorite person. Like I am not quite that fun enough. Like she just loves me because she needs me, because I'm her mom. But I guess that changes today.

So I was cooking dinner and Bella went downstairs with her Tito Harvey, and after about an hour I noticed that she's been there for so long but why is it all quiet? Cause she's loud like real loud personality which is also the opposite of me.

And then I saw Portia and she said that they (Harvey, Bella and Papa) went to fetch Mama from bible study.

So after a few mins like thirty mins, they went home and Bella came running to me. She said a few words and I ask her questions about what she did (cause that's what I usually do). And mama said that she has something to say (she probably forgot about it how cute hehe).

"I miss you," she said. While looking at me teary eyed and when I said "Awww you missed me?"

"Mmmmm hmmmm," she agreed.

Then she cried. And I am so touched. She never tells me she misses me cause it's always been "I miss daddy's" and "I miss tita's". I hugged her and I said "namimiss mo rin pala ako eh (you also misses me ah)." Then we cuddled for a while until she becomes okay.

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And then at bedtime after we went to pee, she's waiting for me at the second step of the stairs and I am just staring at her quite far away.

"I love you mommy".

And of course I calmly say "I love you too."

I realized that today, I got one of the most sincere I love you's from her. And this is the first time I heard her say I miss you. I feel so blessed to have a kid like Bella. The way she is- I wouldn't change it for the world. She's the sweetest, genuine and had the purest heart ever. I realized that all this time I spent with her was all worth it. I will never regret that I chose to be a stay at home mom while I get to experience this little things with her.

16th May, 2023

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bellaboow · 1 year

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Today, it was my parents 26th anniversary.

As usual, I am there in the corner taking care of Bella. Most of the times, I felt left out. It's hard when you are in a crowd of people yet you feel all alone- that's the loneliest.

So it was about 5 pm and Bella just got the hang of it (swimming). She kisses me on both of my cheeks, then I shake my head to her face.

That's when I knew that I am not alone. That's when I felt the most loved. By the person who is half of me. And that's when I felt that I am loving this kid so much, and she knows it. And I realized that, all these people I wanted to hang out with will just be there, but these times, these moments, will pass fast by. One day, these moments will just be memories. So I looked to her and thought, "I am just gonna 0enjoy every bits of this."

"I wav (love) you, Mommy," she said.

From then I knew, that is the best feeling in the world.

/10th April, 2023/

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bellaboow · 4 years

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To my darling, Bella:

Few moments from now, you're gonna see this world I come to knew.

You're gonna meet your dad who's the most excited person in this world when we knew about you. You're gonna meet me, well I couldn't find the words to describe myself to you so I guess you'll just figure me out through this blog. You're gonna meet my family and your dad's. You're gonna meet the cutest lil creatures you'll play soon with-our pets.

What a big family you'll have (:

Though I don't find myself pretty, I secretly wish you would be like my mini me. That would be crazy yet amazing. But do you know who I wish you would look alike? Your dad. He's beautiful, I tell you.

So that's it for now. I've got a lot of things I wanted to say, and yes we have all the time in this world.

I love you. We love you, darling.

So excited to see you come out and make you feel how wonderful living is and make you feel all the love in this world.

love,

mum

//01-20/08/04//

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