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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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Spiritual Self-Care Can Look Like...
Praying or meditating
Spending time in nature
Attending worship if you choose
Deconstructing, and questioning what you've been taught
Letting go of purity culture (that doesn't mean you have to jump into hookup culture, and it's not "anything goes.")
Absolving yourself of responsibility for other people's choices
Forgiving yourself for your mistakes, and giving yourself grace and compassion as you strive to do better and be accountable
Practicing gratitude, even (especially!) when it's hard
Mindfulness and grounding
Joyful movement
Resting, and not feeling guilty about resting
Participating in rituals and celebrations that are meaningful to you (and letting go of ones that aren't)
Sitting with your feelings
Learning to discern intuition from trauma, learning to trust yourself
Getting in touch with your cultural heritage, learning the things your ancestors knew
Making art, writing stories, and being creative, just for its own sake. (Even if it's "not very good," or wouldn't make it into an art gallery.)
Setting up a small altar in your home
Taking a ritual bath, or even just taking a shower after a rough day
Reading sacred texts
Being kind to yourself and others
Leaving a religious group that does not suit you anymore, or that never did in the first place
Finding your own path, even if it's not the one your parents and culture mapped out for you at birth
Listening to a spirit guide (whatever form they might take in your culture or belief system)
Letting go of shame
Starting over
Letting go of bad habits
Decluttering
Getting away from screens, even just for a little while
Volunteering, doing good deeds
Slowing down
Practicing self compassion
Listening to your conscience (and learning to distinguish it from trauma and insecurities), deciding not to do something that "feels wrong"
Working through religious trauma and generational trauma
Letting go of grudges and resentments towards others, practicing forgiveness (not because they deserve it, but because you deserve peace)
Processing your feelings, sitting with them, and accepting them as valid
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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if only life is as simple as this, but instead we need to fight everyday to survive. fighting the world and our own demons is tiring.
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𝘰𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘯𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘥𝘰𝘸𝘴 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘪𝘳𝘥𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘨𝘴, 𝘤𝘰𝘭𝘰𝘳𝘴 𝘰𝘧 𝘯𝘢𝘵𝘶𝘳𝘦 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦, 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘣𝘳𝘦𝘦𝘻𝘦
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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its just that this anger issues is eating all of me and theres nothing i can do. if only i can scream my heart out and just disappear
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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Having hundreds of people in your life yet you still feel alone.
when you're young you'd rather deal with your problems alone because either you dont want to become a burder or you dont know who to trust and you'd rather be sad than dissapointed.
But as you get older, it gets lonelier. No one tells you how hard and isolating and sad and frustrating life can be.
Now you just sulk back into your room because you have no one to tell your accomplishments, no one to run to and hug when some days are a little harder. And you ask yourself if you put up your wall too high because now you have no one but yourself
alot of people surrounding you,yet no one to run to is just ... lonely
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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our parents would get angry when we get past 9 pm and still awake when we were 5
at 10 we are afraid of monsters under our bed so we force ourselves to knock off before 9
at 15 you stay awake past 9 infront of your books telling yourself 'just one chapter and ill sleep after'
and at 17 you wanted a fairytale to happen so you stay awake waiting on your phone for that one boy to reply
at 20 your studies keep you awake at night
and later in life you realize that all those desire to stay wide awake when the sun is far gone is not the people telling you to sleep or the amount of work that you still havent finished. It's because after 9 when the world is sleeping and darkness is everywhere you find peace, you find the time for yourself where you can think straight, where you are not somebody's daughter or girlfriend or student but your own self. maybe there is comfort in darkness because you dont have to think of anything else but yourself and whats inside of you.
#afoolromanticizinginsomnia
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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apparently, the regret and whaf ifs that comes with grief is what keeps you awake at night. i call them sleeping monsters, you cant really avoid them but you can distract yourself from it.
i mean i fail, but points for trying
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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between the rain
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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grief is a never ending pain you will carry for the rest of your life thats the punishment for being alive i guess. How unfair it is? to be with a person 21 years of their life and carrying on without them for another 50 of yours. A piece of you died with them and it stayed that way but you have to put on a smile every fucking day like your world didnt just end.
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atdbackofmymind · 1 year
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I never ran out of love. Never. Not even once.
Do you know what i ran out of? Patience
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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I sometimes wonder if life really gets better, but here i am surviving, fighting my way through life and just thinking of the night that i decided to end my life in sorrow but ended up challenging my self and asking if im curious enoughy to continue? who would i be in the next 5 years, what are the feelings that im gonna embrace? who are the people that i will meet and where are the places that i would go and see? a battle of me vs me and living wins. More than 5 years after that, here i am. Learned so much things, wrote my feelings away, saw different places and goddamn beautiful ones, met amazing people, fell inlove, kissed a boy, and read alot of books. So yes! it does get better. but it depends on you on how you will embrace it. Give yourself a benefit of the doubt, be curious. be fierce and just continue. its you vs sorrow and you always lose if you let sorrow take your life. Its a very dark place but we are all born to see the sunshine!
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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Mary Oliver, ‘north country’
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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Lucky are those who doesn't cry at december holidays. 🙃
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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Now where is my Dean 🥺
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atdbackofmymind · 2 years
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2022 is Gonna be a Great Year!!!
I will be working on a better version of myself
I will be sleeping enough
Hydrated and Will only look at the positive side of life!
I will be waking up in a different country and i will find my home where i will feel like home
and i will be amazing!
lets manifest that!!!!!!!
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