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If you want a friend, get a dog

Hi!

I’m not writing much sweet things so consider this has a special offering!!

I hope you’ll like it.

You can push my door to go on AO3 or just keep reading here!

Have a beautiful day!

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With one burden on his shoulders, or more likely in his hand, Luxu had to leave each of his friends. It was hard. He felt really lonely. He was supposed to wander? Like that? Toward where? Toward whom?

But his dear Master had asked him something. And he just couldn’t not do what he expected him for. Whatever he will be alone for centuries or millennia before having the chance to see his friends again, his Master.

At least, he could see pretty things, beautiful landscapes!

And yet.

One day, he was just in a World among so many other Worlds. He was walking for days. At this point, every mountain, every grass seemed to be the same. He just needed to rest. He let himself fall in a field covered by fairies and pushed down his hood, stretching with a smile. The feeling of the fresh grass under him and the smell of the flowers was delightful. He grabbed a flower and a petal, tiring it out before looking up to the blue sky. He slid the flower in his hair and passed his arms behind his head.

He should find something to eat though he hadn’t much money left. His dear Master didn’t give him much pocket money.

“Stop it! Stop!”

Luxu turned in the grass and daisies. Looking away, he saw someone running after a dog, holding a big hayfork.

The dog had a basket in his big mouth and his body was so thin.

Luxu leaped on his feet, cast a spell of protection and illusion over the box and the Keyblade installed on it. He summoned his own Keyblade and disappeared, coming back between the hayfork and the dog. He raised his weapon, stopping the other.

“Stop!” he said.

“Stop the dog!”

“The poor thing is almost dead! Let it eat a bit. Is it such a big deal?”

“That’s my food.”

The Keyblade slid against the big fork.

“Seeing your clothes and the size of that basket, you’re struggling to have food. Go get other food,” he said.

“Or what?”

Luxu could hear the poor dog moaning just behind him.

“Someone who doesn’t want to feed a starving creature isn’t someone good. I slay what’s not good,” Luxu said.

The person with the basket looked him and… just paced backward.

“He can have it…”

“Thank you very much,” Luxu said.

He let his Keyblade vanish and he moved back. Though he waited for this someone to leave and, finally, he turned toward the dog. He was still moaning, sad and bad looking. He walked to him and knelt by their side. He caressed his yellow fur, very short, against his bones. He was really in sad shape and wondered how it was even possible that they had run so much.

“Poor dog.”

He caressed his head and scratched him behind his long black ears.

Then, he moved his hands, placing them in a cup shape. As he did, water appeared in them. The dog woofed happily and lapped. He couldn’t get enough water because each time it was about to be completely drunk, water appeared again.

And this until the dog finally had enough.

“Good dog!”

Luxu caressed his head, smiling. He wiped his hands over his pants and got the basket to open it to the beast. He took some meat and even sandwiches to offer them to the animal. Which pushed a big sausage toward the Keyblade wielder, his thin tail waving.

“Aw? You’re sharing? You’re so cute!”

He caressed him again and took the sausage because he did was really hungry.

Together, they shared a bit of this basket.

In fact, it was really full and they couldn’t end everything alone. He wondered how many people had to be fed with this. But now, it was just two people. Well, a person and a dog.

“Thank you for the meal! Have the rest and eat when you can,” Luxu said to him.

He made sure that the dog could open the basket with his nose without any problem and then got up.

He walked toward the box and the Keyblade. The illusion spell disappeared at this moment, of course. The Keyblade was now, on the one hand, and the other was closing around the big and heavy box he tugged after him.

He moved, knowing he had to travel. Again and again. Searching after someone able to recreate what his Master wished was someone that took so many of his time. All his time.

As he continued his trip, he heard something.

A moan.

A moan coming from a dog.

Luxu turned toward the poor beast that bend their head, sliding it between their paws. And it moaned again.

“What do you have, good boy?” He frowned. “Boy… Girl?”

The dog shook his head.

“Boy then?” Luxu smiled.

“Waf!”

“Nice! But what do you have?”

The dog straightened a bit and walked to him, pressing his head against his thigh.

Luxu crouched next to him, letting go on the box to caress his head.

“You want to come with me?”

“Waf!”

“Okay! I could use a bit of company!” the young Master said with a smile.

He scratched the dog behind the ear, once again. He was really happy to have him by his side. To have someone to talk with without looking weird. Because, yes, he could to himself or to the box, but come on!

Now, he had a dog to help him through the journey.

He had say goodbye to every of his friends but his Master never said to him he couldn’t make new friends while this impossible and endless task.

Right?

“But you will need to have a name, now,” Luxu said.

And he definitely needed to find him a collar. Green. Probably green because it would be so good with his fur and his big eyes full of love.

And intelligence.

He could maybe take a medal and would grave the precious name he would give him. A name that could actually fit him and a nocuous Destiny, graved in the History incoming. The Oblivion? The incomprehension?

But so much love and tenderness when you knew how to search.

“What about ‘Pluto’?” Luxu grinned.

The dog yowled with joy and licked him happily. Luxu laughed and hugged him tightly, accepting this affection.

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Chloe : Chapter 31

Here is my 31th chapter !!

I hope you’ll love it !

You can smash the door | °| or keep reading

20th December, 21:46

It was pretty late. It was holidays so Gavin let his daughter watch Anastasia she loved so much. So it was only this late when he went to the door. The little girl was asleep in her bed, her plush in her arms. He smiled, seeing Connor kiss the little forehead.

“You did great with her,” he muttered as they went out.

“I think whatever I’ll do, she’ll love it anyway,” the Android said with a smile.

“It’s right but she really hates the bitch Dave fuck so… it must be you.” Gavin took the sweet reddish lips between his. “I should say, I’m pretty seduced too.”

Connor smiled.

“You both seduced me too. I feel really good with you.”

The Human threw a little smile to him and went to the furnace to put the food in the refrigerator.

“Do you find what you want to ask to Santa?”

“I’ve idea. I wanted to take more time but Hank… Daddy said I must tell quick enough to Santa what I want because he need time to prepare it.”

“Yeah. It’s for the twenty fourth.”

“I thought it was the twenty fifth?”

“Hm… He often brought the present to the parents for the twenty fourth.”

“But is it he or… they? I saw few guys like Santa in the street. Chris Miller even said one Santa was a robber.”

“Santa asks help to a lot of people because he can’t take care of everybody at the same time. That’s why there is so much fake Santa. And some are jackass availing their status to do bad things.”

“I sound certainly stupid for you…”

“Why?” Gavin clipped the last Tupperware to put everything in the refrigerator.

“You talk to me like to Elizabeth when you explain a thing…”

“Connor…” The man looked up. “It’s just… It’s the habit. You’re so fucking smart. Even more than me.” He turned on the water to do the dishes.

“Okay.” The Android approached. “Let me do. You need to…”

“To nothing. A certain stupid and cute robot managed to send me on vacation. You, on the other hand, you worked all day. So just enjoy. Watch something on TV, read. Take time for you.”

“I like to be with you,” Connor smiled.

“Then just come put your lovely ass there!” He touched the workplan.

The boy joined him and sat on it. He was already taller than Gavin but from there, he could see him in a total different view. He liked that. He watched him do the dishes, glasses and forks or knifes. Two mugs passed too.

“What do you do with Elizabeth?”

“You know… It’s not an obligation but you can give to her a nickname. She’ll be happy.”

“I noticed you do that. And Captain Allen. And… daddy call her “Lizzie”?”

“Yeah. He knows her well.”

“Did she used to…”

“Yes. Johanna used to say her son will marry my daughter. But she was completely crazy. I’d shot the boy before he touched my kid.” He looked up to Connor whom seemed chocked. “It’s a way to talk. I didn’t want to harm Cole. He was a nice boy. Didn’t like the mother, thought. Great mom but…”

“Did she left?”

“Yeah. As I know, it wasn’t great joy between them before Cole but the boy stick them together and for a while they looked happy again? Then there was the accident and she said to Hank it was his fault. Again and again.” Gavin put a dish in the plate rack. “And then she left him.”

“I don’t get it…”

“What?” Gavin asked, putting a mug upside down with the dishes.

“Why Captain Allen left you when you had Elizabeth and why it helped the couple for Hank…”

“People are different. That’s it. For example, Hank is a better father.”

“Gavin…”

“Look the amazing son he has.” The man winked to him.

Well… he still wasn’t able to wink so it was difficult for Connor to get it as such.

“Thank you?”

“You’re welcome.” He finished with the cutlery.

“But… why do you say he’s a better father? You’re great.”

“Let’s take an example…” Gavin took a towel. “He doesn’t have problem to make ends meet. So his kid has always what he wanted.”

“What’s the problem?”

“Well, you know, less money…”

Connor bent toward him.

“No. What’s the problem?”

He caressed his cheek softly while the man looked up with towel in one hand and glass plate in the other.

“The current problem. I saw you were sad, and didn’t want me to eat… It’s not a problem for me. But you…”

“I…”

Gavin didn’t like to open his heart. Before, he thought he could count on Elijah but now he wasn’t even sure. Then he met a perfect man like David and he couldn’t compete against him. When he wanted to talk about his problems, it seemed he’ll be humiliated by his boyfriend. Not voluntarily, of course. Then he hadn’t much friends.

He was used to just shut his mouth. And he thought it was manlier to keep them for him. So he did it…

“Eliza’ wants to go to the ice rink tomorrow. And you know what… ?”

“You don’t have the money?”

“Yeah. It’s twenty stupid dollars and I don’t even have that. Well… I can have them but I won’t eat when Eliza’ will be at her dad’s. That’s seem the right thing to do?”

“You even already don’t eat… You need that eat. Why is it so expansive?”

“Because we need to rent the skates. It five dollars per person. And the price to get in… I can’t bring my daughter skate if she wants to and Dave can go skiing in the mountain. It’s awesome for him and Eliza’, of course. It’s just lame from me. In fact I’m just so dumb… I’m crumbled because of the debts, so much debts, and I just contracted more.”

“Why?”

“Because… it’s nothing. You don’t need to care about that. It’s just… Maybe I should take a second job since Fowler doesn’t want me to work more.”

“Does the holidays are paid?”

“We’ll know at the end of the month,” Gavin replied as he tidied the dishes.

As he talked, he was drying everything, mechanically. It seemed he never had dishwasher but it wasn’t a problem.

“Do you think you can live like that?”

“Yeah… I just want my daughter to be happy… It seems difficult. I don’t have nice stuff, a lot of money…”

“But you pass time with her and take care of her.”

“And I waited for you to push my ass on vacation. Pathetic.” Gavin sighed and closed the closet where he just put his mug. Then, he turned toward Connor and took him in his arms to put him in the floor.

However, Connor passed his arms around his shoulders.

“I don’t know you well and not since longtime. I even didn’t see Elizabeth so much but she looks happy. She loves you. She talks so much about you. She talks about Captain Allen too, of course. But she loves you.”

“Thank you… I’m only afraid that, one day, she’ll hate me or realize I have nothing to offer to her.”

“You have a lot to offer to her. And everyone.”

“You’re sweet. You don’t know life, that’s all…”

“I don’t, yes, but you make me feel things I would never without you. Even daddy can’t teach me that. I like to be on his arms but that’s not the same…”

Gavin took him softly in his arm and hugged him. The boy snuggled against him, saying a little “thank” as he smiled.

“As long as you’re ready to do things for other, no matter what, I think you have to offer.”

“Sweet.”

“You don’t think so?”

“I don’t. But that’s sweet when you say it.”

“I can’t change your mind.”

“You can’t. But you can install you in the sofa or go take a shower with me?”

“I can? We didn’t since the first time so…”

Gavin nodded slightly. He caressed his cheek and took his hand to lead him in the bathroom. They had already put clothes in the bathroom since Gavin didn’t want they disturb Elizabeth for such thing. She deserved nice and sweet dreams.

When they arrived there, Gavin started to undress. He was never uneasy when it came to the up part or even his trousers. He even smiled when Connor went against his back to kiss his shoulders, his neck and let his palms came on the tattoo.

He pressed his lips against the up of his back, following the shoulders.

“I can stay like that forever. I just want to be with you.”

Gavin took his hand on his. He caressed it softly.

“You’re so fucking sweet. How it’s even possible?”

“I don’t know. I’m me.”

Connor pressed his lips on the scapula.

“I don’t know why I deserve someone like you…”

“Huuush. Stop being pessimist. Please?”

“You’ll be happy if I smile?”

“Only if you feel it.”

Gavin turned his head toward him and looked his big brown eyes.

“Talk to me…”

“Okay. Oh! I’d like to listen to music. Can you help me to listen to music and like it? I can analyze everything but I can’t listen to music.”

“Eliza’s asleep but yes. Not tonight but soon.” Gavin took his hand and kissed it. “What do you want to listen to? Do you already know?”

“Daddy likes Jazz and Heavy Metal.”

“Punchy,” Gavin replied, kissing the palm.

Looking the arm, he could see that Connor was topless, like him. And feeling him against his legs, he could feel he hadn’t clothes there. When they didn’t play, he could undress easier, quicker.

And that sensuality was good and pleasant too.

“I’m not fond in Jazz. But I’ll listen some with you.”

“Thank you. I’d like to listen to what Hank loves. And… you.”

“I love Rock’n’Roll and I like Cyan from Kindness but not for the same reason. And the band Doves.”

“Doves that seems cute!”

“Yeah, the lyrics are less cute,” Gavin replied as he kissed his fingers.

He looked the hand, with sweet beauty spot, and smiled when he felt the kiss on his spine. He wanted to kiss him in return but couldn’t right now. Maybe he could push him to turn around? However, he had Connor’s hand on his belly, the arm squeezing slightly.

He caressed this hand, joining their finger. He felt calm with him. His lips against his warm skin were like cat’s kiss.

“In the end… you feel the cold.”

“And the warm, yes. But I’m not sure it’s useful and didn’t want to frighten you.”

“You put yourself in danger and I hate that… I’ll put the water as warm as I can. Then, we’ll cuddle under a lot of covers.”

“That seems nice! I like the cuddle.”

“What do you really like?”

Gavin kissed his wrist and let the hand of his lover travel on his chest, find the little hair he was so proud of, go to his belly and touch his abdominals. He kissed more and more that hand because he couldn’t do better.

Connor went up and pressed a kiss on his cheek.

“I like working with daddy. Make friends, but I don’t success to… I like you and Elizabeth! Then daddy, Felix and Sumo, of course. Oh! I like dogs!”

“I like cats. They don’t piss off people. ‘Please, I need to pee, make me go out.’ The cat goes on his litter and that’s finish. They can hunt. They’re smart.”

“Isn’t it the cats that push off everything from the table? And never decide if they want to go out or in?” Connor asked.

“They… do it, yes. Still, they’re better than dogs.”

“But dogs are cool. And Sumo is awesome. He’s fluffy and soft. The night, he comes to my room and we sleep together!”

Gavin looked the happy face. He had taken his other hand to caress it or kiss it and caress his cheek to. It was the second hand that roamed his chest now, finding the scars, the hump and the hollow. He was so beautiful. So precious. Innocent.

“You sleep?”

“I can sleep. Or go in stand by, if you prefer. But it’s true I just passed the night to caress him! Oh! Last night, I read the books you said to me to read. Do the Androids Dream of Electric Sheep.”

Gavin laughed and kissed his palm then his wrist while the boy continued. He even didn’t heard the “sorry” but it wasn’t useful.

“First of all, the reply is “no”. Not me in any case. Secondly, I read it in internet because it was easier. It’s easier and I can pet Sumo while I’m reading then. And finally, I really liked it. But…”

Connor pressed his forehead against Gavin’s shoulder.

“In the same time, I didn’t. It was a kind of deviant Hunter so I wasn’t very happy about that.”

“I’m sorry.”

“It’s nothing. It was nice. Just… as I’m a Deviant now, and deviancy seems to be good, I feel bad.”

“Just think we wouldn’t meet without that my dear plastic pet.”

Connor laughed a bit and kiss his cheek.

“Thank you.”

“This time, let’s try…”

He thought as he took both Connor’s hand in his, playing with them.

“What’s your favorite book?”

“Hard to say… Wycliffe and the Four Jack? But I like all the Wycliffe and the Dalziel and Pascoe, too. And… of course, Agatha Christie stuff.”

“They’re all Crime Novels?”

“Yup.”

“So that’s from you Elizabeth got that?” Connor laughed.

“Yep. And she’s a geek because of her dad.”

Gavin smiled to him and the Android smiled back to him but he ended up surprise. He could feel his hands going down. He could feel the fabric on his fingers…

“What do you want me to do?” Connor asked softly.

“Take it off if you want to…”

“You sure?”

“Yeah.”

Connor approached a little bit and kiss his shoulder softly.

“I won’t touch you there,” he swore with so much sweetness in his tone.

“Thanks…”

The Android let his hands down and took the thin fabric with it, caressing with love the strong thigh. He felt Gavin’s breath increase. Maybe it was nothing, as for his heartbeat, but he could feel it. He bent to kiss his throat and let the boxer fall on the floor. He put his hand on his belly, the other coming on his pectoral, near of the heart.

Gavin rid off everything he still has. Like the elastic that helped to keep the fake penis helping him to feel more manly. He could STP, Stand To Pee, with that and when person looked down, it was something on his pants.

But it wasn’t at him.

Since he couldn’t leave and throw the stuff in his clothes. He’ll take care of that, cleaning, tidying it, later.

“You’re beautiful,” Connor muttered gently.

“Hm…”

“Do you want to undress me?”

“Yeah?”

Gavin turned around in his arms and Connor kissed him softly.

“I can go if you n…”

“No. I want you to stay with me. You’re so sweet.”

“But you’re used to that, no?”

Gavin shook his head.

“With Captain Allen… he seems to like you very much.”

“Yeah and he liked to put his dick over there. And that was fucking humiliating.”

Connor hugged him more tightly.

“But… in the end, it’s a nice thing because you got Elizabeth, one day.”

“Na… That day we were in his fucking car, because he loves that, he has the kink he wants hey, and I asked him to fuck me in the butt. Not pleasant but better than being fuck in that stupid thing I’m forced to have and… his fucking sperm slide.”

“Why no protection?”

“My fault. I took T since one year and half, didn’t bleed for a while I… I should have asked for the condom.” Gavin lowered his head. “Of course, don’t say that to Eliza’…”

“I won’t, don’t worry. Let’s take a shower.” Connor kissed his cheek softly. “I want a really hot one. Is it possible? Or…”

“Don’t pity me!” Gavin pushed him, more gently than Connor could imagine, and lead him in the shower.

The boy smiled and kissed his lover when this one joined him. Quickly, the stream went on them.

Well… still cold for start.

21th December, 8:16

“Papa! Papa!!”

Gavin sighed. He finally fell asleep at five a.m. with Connor in his arms and he knew the Android turned off the alarm clock since he could sleep more. Well, Elizabeth wasn’t aware of that. It was so early…

“I’m awake… I’m awake. What?” he said.

“Look!”

The man rubbed his eyes and looked toward his daughter. She pointed something on the coffee table and he looked. There was skates, nice, new and exactly in the right size. For the little girl, there was an orange’s pair with white hawaiiannish flowers and for him black. And then two tickets for the ice rink.

“I’ll kill him.”

“But whyyyyy! It’s a nice present!”

Gavin frowned and got up. He needed coffee. He went to his percolator and opened the refrigerator to open it and… found it entirely filled with everything you could need.

“I’ll kill that fucking Android…”

“What?” Elizabeth asked, turning toward him.

“I’ll cook a breakfast, what do you want?”

“Connor said he bought me cereals, can I, can I”

“You saw him?”

“Yes, he left early and came back with presents and food! And covers and he even offered me game for here! I love him so muuuuuch!”

Gavin sighed. Fine he won’t kill it…

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I need you : Chapter 20

Hi Everybody!!

Here’s my 20th chapter!

It holds more Hankcon than Reed900 this time. I hope you’ll love it anyway!!

Have a nice day!!

As you know, pass my door | °| or keep reading!

In his chest, Connor’s heart was still hammering and it was almost hard to breath. He didn’t smell as good, didn’t look as good as Hank. The man had made a lot of efforts. He shouldn’t have listen is brother?

But… yes, he needed to listen to his brother. His brother was so intelligent…

“You look lovely,” Hank said as he was closing the door.

“Woof!”

“Look at that, Sumo thinks the same!”

“Thanks. Both of you. But… you look lovelier. I… I think?”

“Thank you. Wanted to impress you.” Hank saw his partner uneasy. “For work,” he said.

Connor laughed a bit, feeling uneasy. “I bring you chocolate. I thought… it would be great.” He handed them to him and the man accepted it with a smile and thanks. “I found a good place for Blossom. She’ll have a lot of sun and I’ll water her well.”

“So you love… her?”

“Yes, really much. Thank you.”

Hank smiled then moved to the living room, calling Sumo. “Come, Connor. Let’s have a seat.”

The younger did follow him and took the seat offered to him. The big dog came to him so Connor caressed him with a smile. Here, it was more soothing. Even if he had seen the document, the papers and the computer. The sheets of paper made the younger smile. In that strange case about Androids, when they had decided to let the Revolution go on, Hank had said to him how much he loved the smell of papers, how he loved to read books. That was at that apartment. The first time he decided to don’t follow the orders because…. Well, Rupert Travis had done nothing except being a Deviant.

And after that… they had let the Tracis go because it was only self-defense.

Androids were just like them and today, he was happy of that choice. Of the choice Hank had helped him to do because his own brother took advantage of that.

“Do you want something?” Hank asked. “Something to drink? Or eat? The spaghettis are ready if you want. I wanted to add meat ball and then… I wasn’t sure anymore. I still can add them. That will take few minutes but I can do it. As you wish, Connor.”

“You like meat so… I’m up for the meat and… we will work while it gets ready? Maybe?”

“Yes.” Hank got up. “Connor…”

“Yes?” he squeaked.

“Please, relax. We know each other and we’re working, right?”

“But… it’s also a date and I don’t know what to do.”

“Just what you want, Connor. What makes you fine.”

Connor watched the man as he walked to the kitchen to throw some meatball in a pan when the pasta where in a kettle, done and just waiting for them to eat. The younger caressed Sumo and even kissed his big head.

A bit after, the Lieutenant came back and sat next to him.

The boy bend on the coffee table to look the information on a tablet, passing his fingers to switch between the information.

Hank looked him, couldn’t prevent a tiny smile on his lips. He found him so pretty… The way his hair fell back, the way the light shone against his soft skin… looking so soft. The way he moved.

“So… you…” Hank hesitated because Connor wanted to work, feel better but…

Yes that was a date. They couldn’t lie to themselves that way.

However, Anderson couldn’t bore the idea to hurt Connor or making him uncomfortable. Connor saw his efforts. He wanted to reply to them.

“What about Cole, if I may? You have news from him? Niles saw him yesterday and he said he was doing well.”

“Oh…” Hank smiled. “Fantastic. It’s… fantastic.”

Connor realized his smile wasn’t so happy…

“I’m sorry…”

“No. I’m happy to know that. I just didn’t saw him since a while. But I’m trying to have him for Christmas.”

“Christmas! That’s a beautiful day to have him. Does he… does he still believe in Santa Claus?”

“He’s nine, so yes,” Hank laughed softly. He saw Connor’s face and frowned a bit before laughing even more. “Well, you’re really smart so I’m not surprise you stopped to believe earlier.”

Connor put down the tablet he had in hands.

“In fact… I kind of never believed in?”

“Never?”

Connor shook his head. “My mother thought it was really stupid. The first time they had talked about Santa Claus at school, I had four, I think, and when I asked why he didn’t come at our house, my mother said it was a liar used to force parents to buy presents.” He noticed Hank’s shocked face. “But she was a great mother! She’s right, it’s not useful to have present! Especially if that come from an old strange man! See, I never accepted candies from strangers,” he laughed softly.

Hank smiled at this sweet joke.

“But…”

Connor looked him, shyly. God, was it okay if he took out his coin to play with? He was so stressed!

“You never had present?”

“My mother thought, and still think, it’s bad to offer things to people when they didn’t deserve them.”

“But you never…”

“We received a bit of money if we had a good year at school. Niles more than me because he did better.”

“It’s…”

“It’s normal! I’m not mad against him. And he was really cute all the time. He used the difference to offer us some candies and we ate them together.” Connor smiled, lost in his thought. “Before today, he was the only person buying me things without I deserved it…”

“Connor!”

The younger jumped and moved a bit in the sofa. He felt oppressed when Hank went just next to him and took his hands.

“You don’t have to deserve present!”

“May… Maybe? But my mom is also right… I didn’t need all of these.”

“It warms the heart. It show to someone you care for them. That doesn’t have to be useful. It just…another way to express your love to someone.”

“You’re saying my Mother doesn’t love my brother and me?”

Hank blinked, his hand still in his big one. “I… I…”

The words Connor whispered were like a big slap in his face. Did he…

“What… what did you say?”

“You’re right…” Connor smiled a bit. “But… But I’m happy Cole will have presents! Did you have already those you want? Can I offer him something? And what can I offer him?”

Hank smiled to him a bit. “So… You do love Cole?” he asked.

“Yes! And, especially, I lo…” Connor blushed. “I… You’re fine and I want you to be happy? So if he’s happy…”

“I’m happy, yes.” Hank looked him. “I’d also be happy if you could come at Christmas.” His face looked blank. “Crap… is this to quick?” he asked. “Just forget!”

“I don’t know. For Christmas, we have a big family reunion every year and now Niles is better so he’ll probably come and I really can’t let him alone there, Lieutenant.”

Hank’s thumbs were caressing his hands. “Why don’t you… go for ‘Hank’?”

“Excuse me?”

“I just offered you to… call me ‘Hank’ since we’re…”

“Oh… Oh, yes! Yes. If you want to. Yes… Hank.” Connor blushed.

“Except if you don’t feel it?”

“I… I feel it? I think? I… don’t know…”

“I’m sorry. Just… stay comfortable.” Hank let go of his hands and got up to join the kitchen and check the meatballs.

The silent went back and Connor didn’t know how he needed to react. If he called Hank ‘Hank’, could he work? That was so strange. And it wasn’t so warm in there. Him, with his only t-shirt… he was freezing.

And what should he do with his hands? Where was his coin? He started to ruffle his pockets, his hands twitching, when he received a big lick on his face. Of course, it wasn’t Hank but Sumo and he started to caress it fur, so fluffy. And so distracting.

Soon, he heard a tiny sound and looked the plate put down on the coffee table.

“Here you are,” Hank said.

“We eat here?”

“You want to eat at the table?” The old man was about to eat a fork of the meal but he got up.

Fuck! The table wasn’t undressed from… all its mess. Connor knew about that but he wasn’t proud. So much empty noodles cup, pizza cardboard so greasy, and beer… by dozen.

“No, no. Please. Here, it’s fine.” Connor reach to him but didn’t dare to touch his hand.

However, Hank took it. Softly. Sweetly.

“Okay… Do you want something to drink, I forgot about that.”

“Just water but I can…”

“I’m inviting you.” Hank pressed a kiss on his hand. “I’m coming back.”

Connor watched the man leaving for the kitchen, once again. He switched just a bit and caressed, once again, Sumo.

When the man came back, he had a glass of water and a beer bottle in his hand. Connor thanked him and took the glass to sip a bit before taking the spaghettis’ dish. He was so uneasy, his fork turning in the pastas.

The silent.

Once again.

He should work maybe?

It was hard to him because he didn’t know what to do. Was it supposed to say it was yummy? Was he supposed to talk? He watched his hand because the kiss that had landed on it was really soft and he wanted to do something but… but what?

“So… Cole is in 3rd Grade, right?”

“4th Grade, in fact. Since he’s at the first of the school year.”

“End of September, right?”

“Yeah.”

“You had it for his birthday?”

“No…”

“I’m sorry.”

Hank shook his head. “Don’t worry. That’s not your fault.”

Connor hesitated because his face was so sad now. He switched a bit to come nearer. Like from on inch?

“You look like a great father to me… Well… I’m clearly not the good reference.”

“It’s a long story… But…” Hank bit his lower lips. “Fuck!” He looked toward the younger Lieutenant. “Lori wants to punish me,” he finally said.

“How’s that?” Connor muttered.

“She’s younger than you. A bit younger. I met her because she had been robbed and she went for a claim. I was the only available and took care of her. While the filing, we joked a bit and that was pretty cool. I didn’t see anything long but when she asked me out, I found it was bold and quite sexy so I accepted. It was fun but… she wasn’t for me.”

Connor frowned.

“I don’t get it…”

“We had sex…”

“Oooh! I get it! She was pregnant from that time?”

“Yes. So I assumed the baby, for her and… I wanted to be father, to be honest. I was quite excited by that and Lori was fun so that could work? That was what I believed. But… few after Cole’s birth, I fell in love. Not with Lori. First, I tried to forget those feeling, being loyal to Lori, to my baby Cole but I was just lying to me. I found it was horrible to stay with Lori in this situation and I offered her a good divorce. I was ready to pay a rent for her and Cole and even to let her have it at the beginning, offering to start the sharing when he’ll be three or four? But she didn’t like that…”

“Why you didn’t attack in justice?”

“I did, Con’, I did… At this time, I was ‘working too much and my job was too dangerous’. That destroyed me… I already thought about attack again but I’m a fucking alcoholic. A barrel of beer. I do…”

Hank looked toward the table where he was so often playing Russian roulette…

Nobody will let him have his Cole back. He never saw him and he just wanted to hug his baby. What that will happen at Christmas!

“And… and what about the person you loved?” Connor asked. “They said ‘yes’?”

Hank looked him with a soft smile.

“Connor…”

“Yes?”

“It’s you.”

The younger blushed.

“You… You mean it’s… it’s my fault? It’s my fault if you’re not with Cole? It’s… I… I’m supposed to…”

“No, no… I fell in love with you but you don’t have to do anything, Connor. I swear. Though I asked for be your partner to know… Know if it was a crush or way more than that…”

“No!” Connor got up so quickly the dish fell in the floor and broke, splashing the meal everywhere.

The younger shivered, his eyes widened by the horror. And he paced backward.

“I can’t… I can’t… I can’t be with you just because you had lost Cole because of me. I don’t… I’m not… You don’t…”

Hank got up, just after shifting his plate on the sofa, and he moved to him. “That’s not what I’m saying. I’m not asking you anything. I was just saying the truth to you. But I don’t expect you to be with me because of that.”

“But… No. No. No… I need… I need my brother. I…” Connor paced backward and when he felt the wall against his back, suddenly, all became black in his mind and he just slid on the floor.

“Connor?”

The younger shook his head, moving slowly his hand and pressed them against his ears, his head so low it almost touched the floor and he whispered the “no” again and again.

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