Motivation?

Yeah that’s what I need at the moment, where do I find some? where can I buy any?

Lately I’ve been contemplating starting to make youtube videos again but. there’s nothing inside me motivating me it feels like I no longer have a drive to do it, but in my head I have some ideas bouncing around.

I’m literally here right now wanting to write this post even but there’s nothing really pushing me to write something good... 

                       Please don’t let this last forever.  

                           I hate feeling like this, never felt so low.

(in my head I've wrote about 7 paragraphs, this is all I can muster up though, sorry)

Top 3 moments in 2017

- January, Blackpool - WWE UKCT 


So for Christmas 2016 I bought my brother and I tickets to go to the WWE’s UK Championship tournament, booked us a nice little hotel too. One of the funniest weekends where it was just me and my little brother. 
After the horrendous 5-6 hour drive to Blackpool we checked into the hotel and then got showered, dressed and went out for a few beers which turned into a messy night in some metal bar, head banging and mashing the night away. The next morning we both were dying and needed food so we went to Nando’s for the hangover curing chicken, it tried to work but didn’t go down to well. 
Still suffering we decided to go up Blackpool tower, do the touristy things… why not ayy? After the gut wrench of all that we went back to the hotel to chill before heading out for night 1 of the tournament, it was an incredible experience to be there and part of WWE history.
(If you are a WWE fan remember the Jesus chants at this event? Well that was started by me and my brother, very proud moment)
Guess what we did after night 1, thats right we went out drinking again… Drinking is our downfall thats the only way I can put it. 
Another horrendous hangover ensued the next morning and we come to an agreement that we would not drink that night at all because we wanted to remember every single moment and we did  we saw Tyler Bate lift the UK championship. 
After that we went to a pub and had a pint… like I said we like to drink. 



- June, Download festival.


This was such a last minute decision for me I think it was 3/4 days before I bought my ticket and managed to get the day off work. Should I have planned ahead, maybe? Why didn’t I? Because I like to make my life hard.
Anyway June 9th I travelled up to Donington on my own because I was going to see the band that got me into everything I listen to today.

Who? System of a Down.

And lucky for me the line up for that day was pretty damn solid if I do say so with Northlane, Astroid Boys, Holding Absence, Issues, Four Years Strong & Loads more. 
I made 3 videos from this day I’ll link them below-



Download 1 
Download 2
 Download 3

System of a down could not have been any better! I loved every moment of the set and was in shock that I was actually watching them.

- October, Travelling alone.

Yup at 25 years old I finally travelled abroad without my parents or any friends to Berlin, Germany. What an experience it was I booked it all myself the Flights, Airbnb, Ubers, everything it was so empowering to do it as well. I was only there for 2 days / 1 night but I made the most of my opportunities and walked from my Airbnb to a Cafe and got myself a stein of German beer. I was living the life in a very urban area of Berlin sat outside a Cafe with a stein & just taking it all in, I will go back to Berlin one day soon and explore more of it.
Surprisingly unlike the stereotype of German people everyone I spoke with were absolutely lovely and couldn’t have done much more to help.

You can see the full video here! on my youtube channel.

Wish you all the best in your 2018 adventures! Love from Agzy Carini

Stage Diving.

Whether you love it or hate it, I’ve wanted to do it for years but being really self conscious about my weight I put it off... until last night! (14/12/17)  I was at the Roam, WSTR & Stand Atlantic show in Club iFor Bach, Cardiff. before the show I handed even contemplated even doing it because well I had never done it previously, last night was a little different usually when I go to shows I'm the driver so I don’t get to drink and let lose as much as my friends. This time I was drunk (not hammered drunk, but a fun loving drunk), I had been out for a works Christmas party before heading to the show at which point I was 8 pints deep.  I met my brother and some mates in the gatekeeper across the road and then met a few more friends in the queue for the show, luckily though as my brother works in the venue we had queue jump and guest list tickets! We went to upstairs where they all grabbed a drink and I thought to myself, I’ll have myself a bottle of water otherwise I’ll be way to messed up before WSTR, we all chilled at the back listened to Stand Atlantic and everything was all good.  Just before WSTR come on stage I got down to the front with my brother and mates, then they started playing and everyone was going wild and there were crowd surfers, stage divers & a pits. A perfect night in my eyes! 

WSTR started to play Graveyard Shift, the first song they ever released as a band. I can vaguely remember when I seen it posted on UKPP on Facebook and loved it from there, ANYWAY... towards the end of the song before they sing the Chorus one last time something clicked in my head and all I said to myself was , “if you’re going to do it do it NOW!” so I jumped up on stage and then for the first time in my life stage dived. 

It was the best experience ever! Why the fuck I ever let my weight stop me I don't know because I was up there for a good 30 seconds but it felt over before I knew it. I was actually sat up on the crowd singing back to Sammy and ever so graceful was pushed back to the stage and landed on my feet.  I gave Sammy a hug and then jumped back down into the crowd, I was buzzing! never had a feeling like that in my life.

                        Photo credit - @ photodannyB on Instagram

There is a video one of my friends got of me and I've put it on my Youtube so you can all experience this fat boys first time stage diving. - Click here 

Please go like the video and Subscribe for more awesome videos to come very soon!

                                      Agzy Carini - 15/12/2017

STAY CLOSE!

A few days ago I finally managed to get around to recording and editing a video review & interview with a American band called - STAY CLOSE, the band are from New Jersey and are some of the nicest guys I've ever had the pleasure of speaking to.  About two months ago the band private messaged me on Intsagram after watching one of my other videos on my Youtube channel and asked would I be interested in in doing a review video of their Self titled EP. I checked them out and thought “FUCK YEAH” so I got back to them and we began speaking from there.  I had the idea to do a sort of interview with them as well, being on the other side of the Atlantic Ocean and me not having enough money to actually fly out there to interview them I sent them a few basic questions and they were down to film it and send it back, AWESOME!  A month passed by and I thought “well maybe they don't want to do it anymore”,  that very day they messaged me on Insta again saying that somethings had gone down there side of the pond but they were still going to get it done. I was so excited when they emailed the video through, that same day I got off my arse and made the video that I had been dying to do for so long.  You can watch the Review/Interview right here! Make sure you like the video because that would mean the world to me & Subscribe to my channel for more great content to come. 

You can listen to Stay Close’s EP right here! (Spotify) You have to spin this record and let me know what are you favourite songs, do that by leaving a comment on here or in the Comments section on Youtube.

If the above link doesn’t work for you here are the links to each song on Youtube:-

Waiting for you  - https://youtu.be/o4JjvdM3DYs       Crush          - https://youtu.be/lVzh89EmQyc    Ten Twenty     - https://youtu.be/UWgzZzI9_7Q Coast to Coast  - https://youtu.be/m-0h40WUrpE

                                  Dylan (Guitarist) & Danny (Singer)  Thank you to Stay Close for giving me this opportunity to work along side you for a small portion of time! I looking forward to seeing and hearing more from you dudes! Follow them and keep your eyes peeled for something big very soon:- Twitter - @StaycloseNJ Insta.   - @StaycloseNJ 

If you or one of your friends are in a band and you would like to do an Interview or Review or BOTH. Then slide on down into my messages on here, Twitter or Instagram! (find those in my bio) PLEASE DON’T GET BUTTHURT IF I DON’T.

                                         Agzy Carini - 09/Dec/2017

It’s actually five years to the day today that Adam played that very show in Crickhowell.  (Pictured above) 

That Nostalgic Feeling.

So I decided to look back on one of my old Youtube channels and I stumbled across a song that I uploaded for one of my best friends, he didn’t have the courage at that time to show people his music. I has to take matters into my own hands and made a little video on movie maker with his picture and the song then uploaded it straight away! I knew he didn’t want his full name on the video or in the title to the song so I just put down Adam H, the song title which is Paradise.  

Me and Adam would always chill in my flat nearly everyday of the week, drinking beers, singing songs and then him performing his own stuff and asking me what I thought of it. This boy had it all the voice, the skills on the guitar, it worked in perfect harmony.  I always wish that I had recorded more of his songs, not even to share but to listen to them again because I’ve found myself listening Paradise over and over for the last hour or so and I cannot get over how good my best friend is! 

He asked me one day to sing with him and we covered Funeral for a Friend’s song Your Revolution is a Joke, bare in mind that I can hardly sing at all but Adam and his now girlfriend always said they loved it and that made me feel really good about myself even though I probably sounded like a dying cat squealing. 

Adam had a song that I loved dearly and I can’t remember the proper title but I do remember that it was something like Hit The Floor, a song he had written about that very spring/summer as a group of friends drinking, driving around, going to the beach, all the good stuff like that!  The main line in the chorus was “And drink ‘till we hit the floor” because that was our lifestyle at the time I was working a 9-5 job Monday to Friday drinking nearly every night and Adam was in college studying I.T. I think… We were still in our teens, what do you expect? (I was 19 turning 20 and Adam was 18-19)

Adam played a few local shows, the main ones being the unplugged events that were put on every month down The Bridge. Run by some of our other friends they are really talented guys from sound engineering to photographers and videographers. His first show was main support for Dane Lloyd from the band Into The Ark, Adam was so nervous but he absolutely killed it and we were all there to see him play his own songs and a few covers. He went on a few months later to then headline the event and everyone was there for him even people we didn’t know. It was amazing to see him perform, not just for me but for everyone. 

I can remember another show vividly, it was out of our town and a few miles down the way. Adam was supporting the band Tone Damage, (our friends band) so we helped them get gear down there and it was a brilliant night, there was a little backstage area and we were all working together really well, Adam even had two of our friends perform with him that night (Liam & Issac) to make it even better again. I’ll put a picture at the bottom of this blog from that night.

I’m going to be totally honest with you here if you have cared to read this much… writing this I have been holding back a few tears because I miss all the good times we had together but I’m not as sad as you might think, why? because Adam has grown up now with a beautiful family his own place and it’s so nice to see it! I am so happy for him, his partner Steph and their beautiful daughter. Adam is an amazing father hands down!  If you do get around to reading this, I FUCKING LOVE YOU MAN!

Check out Adam’s song right HERE! 

Sorry about the picture quality… phone cameras weren’t as good 5 years ago

The Day I Died...

Earlier this year I had an experience in my life where I actually felt like I was dead.

I was in work at the time and I was so tired I needed to have a sleep, I was driving the car at the time so I pulled over and thought I would have 5 minutes because I was a danger to myself at this point. 
So I pulled over in a nice dark area where there were not lights or people, I then put the seat back, hood up, hat over my eyes, knocked the engine off to the car and drifted off to sleep. 

Oh Boy did I go into a heavy sleep, I’m one of those people that can get to sleep easily most days/nights or any time really. I was out for the count and I started dreaming and I can remember this dream although there was no context or back story to it everything felt, smelt and was real to me at the time. 

 The Dream

There I was sat in an aeroplane a wind seat with great views of the airport we were coming into land at, the runway was was on my right hand side and literally at a 90 degree angle to the direction we were flying. Something was not right I had a really deep gut feeling, I can remember I was travelling alone so I only had to worry about myself when all of a sudden the plane took a sharp turn right and decent towards the runway. As a result of this the wing on my side as I looked out of the window broke clean in two. I remember hearing the pilot saying “Brace, Brace!” It was too late to do anything else….



I was dead.

This is where the story ends, I actually felt as though I was dead. I couldn’t see anything, I could not hear anything and I could not feel anything. I was in this black nothingness Abis, it was so peaceful and calming after all the panic that had just happened.

I was sad but I was happy… sad because I knew I would never see my family again and I was doomed to this darkness for eternity & happy because I was at peace.

……..



“Control to Alpha Charlie”

What the fuck was that? I thought, then I could feel the car seat I was sat on, the pins and needles in my toes and the hat resting on my face. I was alive! My heart started to pound and I could feel it throughout my whole body.  I know it was a deep sleep dream and I know it was because I was working my arse off at the time but in the moment that I could feel my heart beating again I thought that I could have actually been dead, gonzo, Finished.         _________________________________________________________ Hope you enjoyed reading this blog post, there are loads more to come as and when I feel like writing and posting. In the mean time check out my Youtube channel, theres a small series on there called Lets Talk Music. Check it out and let me know I've also posted loads of gig videos there should be plenty of choice there, something for everyone!

Click here for Youtube channel.

My Band. 2

Continuing from the last post, 
 It was the night before we were set to go out on “Tour” and we were playing a show in the town close to home again in the venue The Dolls House, I think this was classed as part of this ‘tour…’ I don’t know.  Here’s the tour just so you have reference to follow:



So the show that night was absolutely terrible and after the show me and the guitarist Ray got in to an argument because I couldn’t take him and his gear back to his house which was a 2 minute walk from the venue… Later that night he left the band, just hours before we were set to get up and go to London (turned out that the first show in London was cancelled). I was so pissed off at the time I was happy that he wasn’t in the band and so glad that we had more space in the car for gear… Well all that changed because the drummer then wanted to bring his girlfriend, I was still cheesed off but thought yeah why not if she’s going to help us out with the gear that’s fine. 



This is the statement Gavin the drummer made on our Facebook page the following day.

We made it to London, parking was absolute shit and I has to fork out of my own money to park the car, keep in mind it was like £16 for 2 hours and you had to go back every two hours to renew it. Luckily after 4pm it was free for the night and I only had to spent £32. 
(thank fuck it was only the one day right!) The gig was shit, there was no one there and I wasn’t feeling it, plus I had to then drive out of London and find somewhere to sleep. It took over 3 hours get to get out of London and on to the M4 I pulled over into Reading services and then realised that the other band members ideas for sleep was to just crash out in my car with all the gear… FUCK THAT, I then forked out again for two rooms in the services hotel. 



The next day we headed to Chippenham to play a show in The Little George, this place was really nice the owners were lovely and let me park in the private courtyard out back so I didn’t have to pay for parking. 
 The show was amazing! The best crowd we had ever play for huge mosh pits, human pyramids everything my love for the band rekindled a little. As soon as the show finished I had an instant bangover, my head was pounding so I couldn’t enjoy the bands that were on after us, I went out to the car and sat there with the radio on quietly. 



It was in these moments that I knew the band was over, I knew deep down that this was the last show we would ever play. I was thankful that we went out with the style we did that night.   Driving home that night no one really spoke much, we found out the show the next day in Newport had been cancelled and that just confirmed to me that it was over. It's sad to say but when I got home I was so happy that the band was over, I never thought that would have been the case after the first time I stepped out onto stage.

I was never going to get the money back that I was owed for the petrol, parking, hotel, or food I had bought for everyone but I was still happy.

It was over. (Rip, 26/08/2012 - 20/10/2012)

Funny to think that it was supposed to be just Cowars last show but it was also ours.

Click here to see my favourite song that we made

My Band. 1

Following along the lines of 5 years ago, I joined a band that I had pervious started with some mates of mine. I originally left the band after 2/3 weeks as they wanted to do covers and that wasn’t the direction I wanted to go in music wise. 
After a few months they changed line up again… except for the drummer and guitarist (Gavin & Ryan) and they wanted to create original music and in the sort of genre that I was into at the time, maybe a little heavier at times but still.

We had a few jams and practices and got some our on songs down, we had a new front man (Jake). Everything was going really well songs were sounding good in practice but we weren’t set to one genre we were bouncing between two or three. Then we got another guitarist (Ray) which gave us the full and total line up. 


We re-wrote one of the bands old songs Doomsday Prophesy we kept the lyrics and some basic fundamentals of the song but changed it up. Personally I was not at all a fan of the lyrics and really didn’t like to play the song but got along with it anyway.



After Doomsday come Buried in Broken Glass and this was like my song this is what I wanted us to sound like all the time but with conflicting views on music between all of us, we had to compromise with each other to try make it work. There were 2 more songs but I literally cannot remember what they were…



I played my first ever gig in my home town at a small festival called Viking Fest on the 26th August 2012, it was amazing. My mother, father and brother come to see me and there were a good load of people there watching us even though we were so early on in the day (understandable being the new kids).

Just before we were about to go on I was going through doing some last minute practices and I got the worlds biggest blister on my finger, so I had to pop it and plaster up before going on.



As I walked out on to the stage I could feel the nerves start to kick in with my bass over my shoulder and two bottles of beer in my hands I cracked on, looking out over everyone one thinking “Yes! This is what I want to do, this is where I want to be forever” The show went really well we played for about 25-30 minutes. Once we finished we all got drunk and I headed home by 7pm that day cause I had to walk home. (my parents took my gear home after we finished playing)



The next show after that was Destroyer Fest in a town about 10 minutes away, we were opening the main stage of the 2 stages that were on that day, Playing along side some of my other friends bands and loads more: Charnel House, Napoleon, Moments Before Oblivion, Virtue in Vain, and The Hotel Ambush. 



So many gigs close to home I can barely remember, but there was one in Swansea. I don’t know who we were supporting or when or where it was but I do remember pre show I went for a pint in the closest spoons with another one of my best friends. At the time he was studying in university to become a nurse (I can say he passed, I am still so proud), He couldn’t make it to the show but it was lovely because it had been months since I’d last seen him.



                                            To be continued…



                                                     Left to Right 

                              Me, Jake, Gavin & Ryan (Before Ray joined) Click here to see my first ever gig

That Nostalgic Feeling.

So I decided to look back on one of my old Youtube channels and I stumbled across a song that I uploaded for one of my best friends, he didn’t have the courage at that time to show people his music. I has to take matters into my own hands and made a little video on movie maker with his picture and the song then uploaded it straight away! I knew he didn't want his full name on the video or in the title to the song so I just put down Adam H, the song title which is Paradise.  

Me and Adam would always chill in my flat nearly everyday of the week, drinking beers, singing songs and then him performing his own stuff and asking me what I thought of it. This boy had it all the voice, the skills on the guitar, it worked in perfect harmony.  I always wish that I had recorded more of his songs, not even to share but to listen to them again because I've found myself listening Paradise over and over for the last hour or so and I cannot get over how good my best friend is! 

He asked me one day to sing with him and we covered Funeral for a Friend’s song Your Revolution is a Joke, bare in mind that I can hardly sing at all but Adam and his now girlfriend always said they loved it and that made me feel really good about myself even though I probably sounded like a dying cat squealing. 

Adam had a song that I loved dearly and I can’t remember the proper title but I do remember that it was something like Hit The Floor, a song he had written about that very spring/summer as a group of friends drinking, driving around, going to the beach, all the good stuff like that!  The main line in the chorus was “And drink ‘till we hit the floor” because that was our lifestyle at the time I was working a 9-5 job Monday to Friday drinking nearly every night and Adam was in college studying I.T. I think... We were still in our teens, what do you expect? (I was 19 turning 20 and Adam was 18-19)

Adam played a few local shows, the main ones being the unplugged events that were put on every month down The Bridge. Run by some of our other friends they are really talented guys from sound engineering to photographers and videographers. His first show was main support for Dane Lloyd from the band Into The Ark, Adam was so nervous but he absolutely killed it and we were all there to see him play his own songs and a few covers. He went on a few months later to then headline the event and everyone was there for him even people we didn’t know. It was amazing to see him perform, not just for me but for everyone. 

I can remember another show vividly, it was out of our town and a few miles down the way. Adam was supporting the band Tone Damage, (our friends band) so we helped them get gear down there and it was a brilliant night, there was a little backstage area and we were all working together really well, Adam even had two of our friends perform with him that night (Liam & Issac) to make it even better again. I’ll put a picture at the bottom of this blog from that night.

I’m going to be totally honest with you here if you have cared to read this much... writing this I have been holding back a few tears because I miss all the good times we had together but I'm not as sad as you might think, why? because Adam has grown up now with a beautiful family his own place and it’s so nice to see it! I am so happy for him, his partner Steph and their beautiful daughter. Adam is an amazing father hands down!  If you do get around to reading this, I FUCKING LOVE YOU MAN!

Check out Adam’s song right HERE! 

Sorry about the picture quality... phone cameras weren't as good 5 years ago