Pardon me for speculating wildly in your general direction, but we all need to be out there, catching and stuffing small birds into our mouths for science.
may you achieve all your creative aspirations in the new year, be it professionally, as a hobby, or both. may you gain everything you seek from it and allow it to bring you joy
With The Boy and the Heron, Miyazaki really said: I accept that my legacy is out of my control, that my children may not be my successors, that this tremendous monument I've built with a lifetime of toil, this fiery blessing that simply fell out of the sky, may not continue without me, In fact, it may crumble to dust, I accept it because my children and their children are alive and well, in this imperfect world, and thats enough. Yes, I accept that this is the end, but God damn, I'll go out with a bang.