maybe im just meant to be alone

I'm sorry for everything. I just want to be happy.

why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why. why.

..maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I should just kill myself instead

I'm so tired of feeling emotions like these.

I can't fucking stand seeing her anymore

If she wouldn't come to our school I could've had a chance with him but NO, SHE JUST HAD TO RUIN IT

Now I always see them together. The SECOND he sees her, he runs up to her

They have matching wallpapers, they even held hands yesterday, they probably made out today when I wasn't in school.

I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING ALONE AND GETTING REJECTED. I ALWAYS SEE COUPLES MY AGE BEING HAPPIER THAN I COULD EVER BE. I'D DO ANYTHING JUST TO BE HIS BOYFRIEND. I'D DRESS BASIC FOR HIM, I'D DETRANSITION FOR HIM, I'D STARVE MYSELF JUST TO LOOK PRETTIER FOR HIM, I'D LET HIM HIT ME JUST TO RELEASE STRESS.

I'd do anything for him. I'd go through anything for him. BUT NO, HE CHOOSES SUM BLONDE BASIC BITCH OVER ME.

I hope she'll kill herself.

I can't fucking stand seeing her anymore

If she wouldn't come to our school I could've had a chance with him but NO, SHE JUST HAD TO RUIN IT

Now I always see them together. The SECOND he sees her, he runs up to her

They have matching wallpapers, they even held hands yesterday, they probably made out today when I wasn't in school.

I'M SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING ALONE AND GETTING REJECTED. I ALWAYS SEE COUPLES MY AGE BEING HAPPIER THAN I COULD EVER BE. I'D DO ANYTHING JUST TO BE HIS BOYFRIEND. I'D DRESS BASIC FOR HIM, I'D DETRANSITION FOR HIM, I'D STARVE MYSELF JUST TO LOOK PRETTIER FOR HIM, I'D LET HIM HIT ME JUST TO RELEASE STRESS.

I'd do anything for him. I'd go through anything for him. BUT NO, HE CHOOSES SUM BLONDE BASIC BITCH OVER ME.

I hope she'll kill herself.

Why doesn't he hold my hand instead.. why does it gotta be her.. I hate her.

gu3ss wh0 F1NALLY G0TZ CL1P-0N 3XT3NS10NZZZZ >_<

mad3 a l1l sumth1ng >:333 ( turn s0und 0n )

1sab3ll3 r3m3mb3rz abt h3r 3m0 phas3 xDD

how long does it take you to type like, a sentence with your typing quirk + rainbows? this isnt meant 2 be hate at all i think its quite cool! o was just wondering

1f 1tz a sh0rt txt, 0nly ar0und 1-5 m1nz!! 1f 1tz a l0ng 0n3, th3n 10 0r 3v3n m0r3 m1nz TwT

Th3 tq 1ts3lf d03snt tak3 m3 l0ng, 1tz da ra1nb0w dat tak3z s0 much t1m3.. but 1dm >:333

Thank u so much for reaching out to me and putting a part of my response into the essay, I really appreciate it <333 also this essay is actually so well made

Ik I've sent u my answer privately, but if u feel like adding a link to a screenshot of my response or something similar to that that, ur absolutely free 2 do it!!!!

MOGAI Interactive Essay!

hello again mogai community <3

I've finished compiling all of my thoughts into the project, and one week before the due date! so I have time to give it to all of you first. If you have any thoughts, please feel free to tell me, this is only version one! (and if you catch any typos too. twine doesn't have spellcheck and I'm famously an idiot)

extra extra huge thank you to @rabidbatboy , @ballsalsda , @blood-moon-night-coining , @phantasverie , @3v3ry0n3z-fav3-al13n-x3 , @coyote-in-the-mirror , @rwuffles and @girlofhoneyandglass for their contributions, as well as everyone who took the survey.

Warning for anti-mogai language and generally the thoughts of an outsider from before I started researching.

p.s. it only works on PC because twine hates me I suppose, and you have to download it to view it. <3

.. ironically enough I got recommended the Pinterest post of ur cupboard just now lmao

0mg ;w; 1v3 l3ft 2 c0mm3ntz say1ng dat 1tz mah ph0t0 & ask1ng th3 0P 2 cr3d1t m3h but n0th1ng haz chang3d s0 far-

als0 th3r3z a russ1an c0mm3nt m3nt10n1ng dat da r00m waz "0bv mad3 by an am3r1can".. buddy.. am fr0m russ1a and l1v3 1n g3rmany xDDD

Does your typing quirk and the slang you use online affect how you talk irl? If so can you tell me how bc I want to use you for writing reference

h0n3stly 1 w0uldnt say s0, 1'd say 1 talk pr3tty n0rmal 1rl :PP als0 wutz r u wr1t1ng?? :0 am 1nt3r3st3d

I g0t @ qu3st1on.

I kn0w people sh0u1dnt explain their triggers but one I saw at some point I don't g3t 1t.

How can the emoticon: :) be a trigger?

uhm.. 1 actually dunn0 l0lz

am sry but 1 f33l l13k wh03v3r sa1d dat th31r tr1gg3r 1z a fck1ng 3m0t1c0n 1z juz try1ng 2 m0ck actual tr1gg3rz.

should I dye my hair white????

:0 FUCK Y3AZ!!!!!

I just want to be his crush.. I'll do anything just for him to kiss me

recently dyed my hair split dyed pink and blue, and u reminded me that maybe other peoples opinions about me aren't that important. thanks broski :3

z0mg.. d1z actually mak3z m3 s0 happ1 QvQ ur w3lc0m3z <33

( als0 m3 wanna s33 :33 /nf )

m3oww

M30WZZZ x33