An absolute fucking QUEEN!!!

God is with me. God is with me.

I think this is how I know I’m going to marry him.

I’m high asf and my bf fucked me doggy style while I ate a plate of nachos and were watching our fav show.

Drunk Sex

Had bomb drunk sex to where we were all wet and nasty. I loved it!!! He ate my pussy and made it all wet and then rammed his big fat cock in my vagina. Missionary is my favorite when we’re drunk, because we kiss disgustingly and bite each other’s necks. My bf spit in my mouth and then went back down and ate my pussy again while sticking his thumb in my ass. Then we did doggy and I was dripping wet! We moved to the floor so we could fuck harder and it was amazing. I love sex when we’re drunk. I’ll do anything and everything.

Why am I not getting my ass ate rn?

So the other day I realized that my relationship is so comfortable, loving, and like a goofy friendship. I was taking a shower and he was shaving his beard in the restroom. We were having the randomness convos and he jumped on the toilet to peak at me over the shower curtain and I covered myself up like he doesn’t see me like this everyday. It was so weird because I’m such a private person like I won’t pee without the shower on and door locked just cuz I don’t want you to know I’m goibg. But doing this just shows how in love I am with him that I can be my 100% self ❣️

you have to get yourself out of bad places. you need to resist the temptation to let everything slip and become apathetic & cynical toward yourself and your life. you need to accept that it takes time to change and it’s ok to fall over as long as u get back up. every morning is a new start and things don’t have to be this way forever. you can heal and you can change.

Jan. 2019

My bf met my friends on a weekend cabin trip and it was amazing that he opened up and tried something new. He’s really antisocial and a homebody and I was so happy he did this for me because he knows how much I love my friends, and going out, and doing things. This years amazing so far. I just wanna recap on how much I love him and appreciate him and how he’s kept his promise this year. We had so much fun and always ended up in a snowball fight.

💓

You’re probably wondering whether what you experienced was really ‘that bad?’. Let me tell you - if you have to question it, if it hurts, if it still runs through your mind, it was.

You don’t have to feel guilty over the pain you’re feeling.

Drunk Thoughts

I’m currently intoxicated and honestly I’m pissed like I’m sick of my bf NEVER showing me off! Like there comes a point to where I’m tired of being some idiots secret. I deserve so much more, I’m the mother of his child and not once has this “man” posted one picture of me. Not once had this “man” gave me any appreciation or credit for what I do.

Yes he sends me money ever so often but that goes to my daughter. That doesn’t mean it’s for me. Even when he says it’s for me I use it on her cuz I feel it’s how it’s supposed to go.

How come I can’t get shown off. I’m tired of being some baby daddy’s baby momma.

Ima have to try this 💘

lately i’ve been replacing my “i’m sorry”s with “thank you”s, like instead of “sorry i’m late” i’ll say “thanks for waiting for me”, or instead of “sorry for being such a mess” i’ll say “thank you for loving me and caring about me unconditionally” and it’s not only shifted the way i think and feel about myself but also improved my relationships with others who now get to receive my gratitude instead of my negativity

Recap

My bf has been so sweet surprising me with gifts and making me feel extra wanted and happy! I love this new him!

I’ve been smoking a lot more than usual lately, went from weekly to daily.

I’m starting to spend more money on it than I should.

And I’m keeping it from my boyfriend.

I think I do it at stressful point in my life when I feel like there’s so much going, it’s like I need to.

It’s like my very on anti-depressant too, I can be in the worst mood and it helps me forget and helms emotionless.

My insomnia is horrible but smoking helps., helps me lay in bed so much that I take smaller naps and wake up at random times, but am always tired.

my bf got us concert tickets to a 2000s r&b music festival in April and I’m so in love with his gesture and I’m thinking about it so much how the nights supposed to go and how we’re sing together and stuff to our fav love songs but I think I’m getting my hopes up cuz it seems to good to be true

What doesn’t kill me, better start fucking running.

Aries & Scorpio

“The best stories come from passion. From a writer who was enchanted by the world in their mind and paused to open the door behind them for someone else.”

— A.R. Geiger