I am so tired. of feeling sad. all the time.  Getting off the couch is hard. I want to listen to music because its the only thing that makes me feel better.but i cant find a pair of damn headphones and ugh~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  My old roomates christian and malooska moved out, finally.  They were supposed to pay my mom five hundred dollars, and they dipped out at the last second.  Fuck.  Now my mom wants me to find a new roomate, just as i finally got my house back to myself ._.  I'm going to put it off as long as possible, but I think it'll have to be sara or megan, but then manny would sleep in the car outside.....ugh

Siick =[

I had two days off, I worked today, and tomorrow I have off too =]  Thank god, because I've come down with a slight cold.  I am hoping it doesn't get worse.  I have to work on Wednesday and if i come in coughing, Jen would have a fit.  Other than that, nothing new has come along.  Ray is in pretty bad shape, his cousin just got released from prision and he spent all night last night trying to bail him out, while his cousin walked all the way home????? atleast that's what I gathered from him.  It can be hard to tell sometime.  I have my new beautiful car and i am still getting used to driving it, hehe.  I really need to take it on the highway so I can feel comfortable.  And, lets face it, who doesn't take their car on the highway in the first week?  lol I am too nervous

Totally badass

i love these tatts

It's getting old....

My boyfriend is so distant recently.  I am trying to recover from my depression, but it seems like he is dragging me down every day.  I can see how hes changed in good an bad ways, but he is being so self destructive.  Still, I keep going forward with my life and doing my best to focus on the positive.  I know he is just trying to have fun, but we hardly spend any time together.  I'm scared of what is to come with my insurance claim.  I saw the officer handling my case at work today, and he said he would have papers for me tomorrow. I don't know what that means, he didn't really seem happy to see me...I didn't even recognize him without his uniform, which was pretty embarrassing.  I guess I'll find out tomorrow.  Hopefully its just the accident report.  I missed the call from the insurance lady today, hopefully when she calls tomorrow I'll have enough time to answer the call even if I'm at work!!!  I called and left a message with all my info.  Also, my aunt actually called and put me on her insurance officially, which is great because if I have to buy a new car thats one less thing I have to worry about.  I just want my freedom back.  That way I don't have to be trapped at home with my depressing boyfriend.  I hope I can have the courage to deal with all this insurance bullshit.  If there's one thing I'm really thankful for it's my job and the people I work with...It seems like no matter what problem I have they're willing to help me out.  At the scene of the accident my shift supervisor and several regulars were there, including one foreign girl who embarrassed the hell out of me.  She was talking to the missionairies as if they were being mean to me, when in reality they couldn't have been nicer.  In retrospect, I acted like an idiot, I should have been calmer.  I was just really disappointed with myself because I didn't want to be another statistic, you know, how they say almost everyone has an accident within a week of getting their liscense.  Well, thats me.

Good song-- love two person bands, with classic sound, just like the white stripes!!!

car accident

Today was my day off, and I just slept all day.. Woo...I crashed my car on Saturday.  I rear-ended a pair of missionaries on my way to work.  I was in tears the whole time, making a fool of myself at the scene at work.  My front bumper is smashed, the lights are falling out and it was leaking red liquid which i hope to god is just the radiator fluid and not the transmission fluid.  The lady in the third car involved is trying to claim that she is injured.  I don't really know whats happening right now, I don't know if they even have my insurance information!!  I showed everything to the police officer but they didnt ask for it....The missionairie's car didn't even have a scratch on it really...I just hope my insurance will cover the cost of the repair... ={

Waiting for our tattoo