I am not loved, not wanted, worthless and useless. No one loves me, I’m a loser nobody even wants to do anything with me…why do I always fuck everything up?

I’ve gotten to a point where I feel like I’m a burden on everyone around me. I can’t handle the stress of life anymore, I just want this pain to stop.

08.03.20 | 23:12

I will never be loved in a way that I crave to be loved. Never. What a lonely life I have ahead of me... It will always be just me, my pathetic and negative mind and my self-pity.

“dark shit happening in my head”

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I think I need help. But the thing is I honestly don’t know anything that could actually help me. I’m just broken and there’s literally no way to fix it

Maybe I don’t deserve it. Maybe I’ve done something that makes the world hate me, but I’ll never know what it is…

me:

my brain: dont worry if things go wrong you can always kill yourself :))))))

Dear Diary,

I can’t fucking breathe, or take a deep breath like I’m slowly suffocating. My chest is so unbelievably tight with a knot in my throat like I’m drowning. The more I try to focus on how to calm down it feels like a bullet through my skull.

I feel bad and then I feel bad about feeling bad and I hate myself for having emotions and think I deserve to be in pain and it’s just an endless cycle of self hate and I am just so so fucking done with my mind.

And sometimes all you want to do is die