I haven’t actually been formally diagnosed with schizophrenia. I was actually diagnosed with ptsd. But I’ve been talking to myself off and on for over 20 years and started hearing voices a few years ago.

I didn’t decree or call forth light for Ukraine and didn’t make a lot of calls during the lockdown. I haven’t shown the care or concern I should about Covid 19. As I mentioned in a earlier post, I may have schizophrenia. There’s no excuse for ignorance of the law, but mental issues have been part of my challenge. It’s probably karmic; my cross to bear in this lifetime. I’m genuinely sorry for my hatefulness. I want to change and become a more loving person.

Why didn’t I know the truth? Why was I so far behind in terms of understanding? It’s a great mystery but truly I have been blind. I have not only not understood but did not even seek to find answers till recently. I actually learned about the violet flame decades ago but for some reason failed to learn the basics of Christian morality. The laws from the previous dispensation are still in effect, even though Jesus is no longer holding back our karma. For whatever reason I never learned the law of love. Instead of extending mercy and kindness to others I focused on myself and my own selfish ambitions.

Beloved I AM presence bright

Round me seal your tube of light

From ascended master flame

Called forth now in God's own name

Let it keep my temple free

From all discord sent to me

I AM calling forth violet fire

To blaze and transmute all desire

Keeping on in freedom's name

Till I AM one with the violet flame

“Use Things, Not People. Love People, Not Things.”

—

I’ve lived a sinful lifestyle. I’ve done a lot of wrong things which I ignorantly believed I would get away with. I’ve used people financially, refused to pay my own bills, expressed a lack of love towards my family and friends, especially my mother, who I have rarely thanked or acknowledged for all she did for me. There are many reasons my health fell apart. Instead of changing my attitude I focused on health protocols and practices, and invested my time in learning about different health theories and ideas, hoping I would one day get well. In the process I actually made more karma because of some of the wrong ideas I followed like eating red meat. I actually followed the carnivore diet a few years ago which is truly stupid considering that the ascended masters teach that meat contains the vicious thoughts of mankind. This actually is true and I was never so sick in my life after I ate meat. I actually got pneumonia twice. In the aftermath rather than taking a stand against it i wallowed talking endlessly about my ordeal and how excruciatingly sick I was. This was in 2018 before Covid, actually. The point is, I was clueless. Instead of seeing the signs of my worsening karma I went down a path of self destruction then tried to get attention for it. I did not understand that I was at the beginning of a downward spiral and that the reason was because my bad karma was coming back. I did decree at this time but without real consciousness of the causes. I thought I had forgiven my mother but I didn’t, and actually never expressed love towards her. She left me when I was young, and I used this as a reason to distance myself. I did not understand that being a loveless person and user would one day come back to haunt me.

“The doors to the higher-dimensions open, when you take sovereign responsibility for every energetic ounce of your Soul. Mastery and I AM Presence is directly correlated to this understanding. You must take responsibility for your entire Self.”

— @neonalchemy

After you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, Who has called you to His eternal glory in Christ, will Himself restore, establish, and strengthen you.

1 Peter 5:10

The greatest commandment

“The commandments, ‘You shall not commit adultery,’ ‘You shall not murder,’ ‘You shall not steal,’ ‘You shall not covet,’ and whatever other command there may be, are summed up in this one command: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ Love does no harm to a neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.” 

- Romans 13:9-10 NIV (2011)

“So then, whenever we have an opportunity, let us work for the good of all, and especially for those of the family of faith.”

— Galatians 6:10 NRSV (1989)

Prayers for Ukraine & Russia!

We unite as Christians to join in Prayer to Pray for the Lives in both Ukraine and Russia. Lord, We Pray against the wickedness. We Pray for people in both Ukraine and Russia to find you Lord! Your Will be done!  Amen!

Matthew 22:39

“And the second is like unto it, Thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself.”

Matthew 5:44

“But I say unto you, Love your enemies, bless them that curse you, do good to them that hate you, and pray for them which despitefully use you, and persecute you;”

Sources:

https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Matthew-22-39/

https://www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/Matthew-5-44/