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Do you think that Edwin is ever grateful for hell?
Well no, not really. He isn't grateful for hell, the way he still twitches away from teeth and turns dolls away, but the way that pain just, doesn't bother him, not really, because what's a dead family when you could pick out the pigment of your own intestines.
He isn't grateful for hell. He survived it, and doesn't believe in any of the 'pain makes you stronger' because it just made him afraid.
But sometimes, he's sitting at the desk, watching Charles twist in some strange posture, balancing and teetering like gravity has any true control over him, and he realises that he wouldn't have this without it. He could have gone to... He doesn't think he can imagine Heaven, but it could feasibly exist. More like just a quiet continuation, or a chance for, Again. Another turn in the merry go round.
But he would have Moved On and Moved Away, and a sixteen year old child would have passed on without a voice in his head and a light at his feet. That shouldn't Seem like a loss, but the idea of Charles being scared is so bitter he feels an urge to throw up, one that's literally impossible. They wouldn't have found each other in heaven most likely, and whoever they'd be in another life if the Indians were right about it all, it wouldn't be Them, and that doesn't count either.
The only way for him and Charles to meet, to mean what they do to each other, is for Edwin to have suffered. And it isn't 'worth it' isn't 'fair' but when Charles looks like that-
It is quite human, to be grateful for the opportunities that bought you to where you are now.
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Okay no because we joke about Charles imprinting on the cute ghost who came to read to him but-
There's Edwin, who was torn apart and bullied and broken, who spent 70 years surrounded by the proof that humanity was full of pain and sin and suffering. Who was bitter, and traded, and right to be angry because out of all the versions of himself that are corpses under a monsters teeth, not one of them did a thing to deserve that, he was assigned it out of petty teenage pain.
Who planned and waited and escaped, and wound up out of a literal hell to another one, haunting a building that holds his scream. Who sees not just a human, but proof that nothing has changed. Sees that there are bullies, and cruelty, and knows that staying will doom him to hell again, because he distrusts the death that treated him unfairly. In ten minutes, death will come to him and he'll be free. Ten minutes is survivable, he's done seven decades. The boy will be fine, probably better off than he is here. He doesn't need to save him, has no benefit or reason to help.
And he brings him a light.
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I know this absolutely isn't like. Clever or anything, and it literally said aloud to the audience as the main theme of the show numerous times, but I love the way Karma circles characters in this show.
From things as major as Edwin bringing a light to Charles leading to the establishment of the premise, to Niko's casual affection giving way to gratitude from Mick, to how Crystal is able to manage her horrific actions in the past by focusing on the future she did, with the aid of those she helped.
From the small touches, like the Cat Kings affection being returned when he shares information with the girls, Jenny's willingness to risk her life to protect Crystal with The Truth, however much that may not seem like a gift, or how their victims are treated. The show isn't soft in it, it is founded around the premise of divine retribution awaiting you.
And Edwin, as one doomed to an undeserving hell, he escapes, and I'm not so certain that it was fully independent. Despair knew he didn't belong, the Endless don't really overlook, small slips and coincidences allow him to such away. And he commits to good, again and again, against enemies, against clients, against friends, and it's what saves him, it's shaken in the face as proof to why he doesn't deserve damnation.
The show isn't subtle in it, but it's kind. It says that no crime will go unpunished, but no good will be forgotten. It says that you always have a chance to rebuild, improve, repent. It says hell is your guilt and it says Break The Cycle.
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top 10 moments before disaster (dazai is about to step on his toes)
#sees this art#remembers that I already wrote a piece inspired by this artist literally three days ago#sighs#inserts page break of my Kunikidazai fic#“Well I can't NOT write this-”#forreal op are you stalking my WIP's?#but seriously this is such incredibly art I'm OBSESSED#OP and I wait for the family reunion#respectively drawing and writing our babies getting hugs#bsd dazai#bsd kunikida#bungou stray dogs#ao3
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someone draw kunikida punching the orphanage headmaster
#nyehehehe my kunikidazai fic growing wings because I can never write about them without writing about their son#bungou stray dogs#bsd atsushi#bsd kunikida
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“omg you’re so creative. how do you get your ideas” i hallucinate a single scene in the taco bell drive thru and then spend 13 months trying to write it
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I saw one of the most gorgeous pieces of art by @lotus-pear and I have been unwell ever since, and so decided to take a stab at writing an accompanying piece!
(I've read an answer from them once saying they're okay with people writing stuff for them, and I wrote something for them before but needless to say, if they want me to take this down I will! Same goes with any other artist I've written something for!)
I'm going to be honest, this is just the ADA reunion I am manifesting and that Asagiri is keeping from me, let them love each other! I want hugs! But it's about Dazai returning home after Meursalt, so please as always, let me know what you think! Take care, and have a lovely day!
Thank you so so much to the original artist (the specific art is tagged in the fic and possibly below if I can get tumblr to link a tumblr post) for all their wonderful work! You have the most wonderful art style!
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This art has been spinning in my head like a rotisserie chicken for So Long and I was 100 words into a wip for a family reunion fic anyway so the fates aligned and I have ruined yet another lovely piece of art. You all must suffer with me. Sorry OP.
IF ASAGIRI WONT DRAW THE FAMILY REUNION ILL FUCKING DO IT MYSELF
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My favourite girl in the world is the pretty one in the library who saw my Kashmiri Pink Chai and said it was Barbie Coded and then immediately gasped with horror told me that she didn't mean to spoil the movie. Bestie what do you meeeeeean.
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Me, finishing my most monstrous WIP: Well now I have time to wrap up my OTHER monstrous BNHA WIP, of which I only have three chapters. Right? Right!
Also me: ... I wanna write a BSD one-shot again.
Me: NO
Also Me: IT'S BEEN FOREVER
Me yet again: IT'S BEEN THREE WEEKS
So setting myself a challenge for you guys to get either a Kunikidazai fic by the end of the day (inspired from one of my favourite artists) or a found family ADA piece, a touch more Atsushi centric. I hate myself.
Edit: This is now a 5+1 Atsushi & ADA centric fic. I hate myself.
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I'm so happy to say that I've finally finished my longest fic yet, capped at 111,111! If you want to read a story about Wei Wuxian healing, learning the difference between survival and living, understanding that he isn't a curse upon those he loves, with a side of him making a home in Gusu, forming and reconnecting with family new and old, and some Wei Changze introspection, I'd love to hear your thoughts on it!
Also, so so many thanks to everyone who has commented, messaged or interacted with this story. Love you all, hearing your support has truly made me so happy 🥰
A happy ending depends on where you stopped the story. Wei Wuxian had never put much faith in such an idle saying.
But his story had ended over a decade ago, and the world had moved too far forward for him to find his own place. What use was a nightmares role in a time of peace, except to hide away and retreat from everyone else's happy ending?
It isn't upsetting. He has people in this world who love him, even if he can't be with them. And it's good, to be alone, figure out how the world has changed under his own standing. Honestly, he's fine alone.
Fortunately, the people who love him refuse to let him be lonely. And sometimes it takes a third chance for the souls to click back into place.
(The one where Wei Wuxian travels alone, only to find home in the place he never dared to hope for. Or alternatively, the one where Lan Zhan holds his soulmate and tells him he can stay.)
#ao3#grandmaster of demonic cultivation#wei wuxian#lan wangji#wangxian#the untamed#mo dao zu shi#fic rec#my fic
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'Go to hell' is basic. 'I hope your favourite book let's a bad movie adaptation' is juvenile. 'I hope your favourite franchise has an announced movie, with a full teaser trailer, before immediately throwing it in development hell for seven years with absolute zero updates, and then being cancelled out of nowhere, without the possibility of another studio buying the IP to pursue giving the franchise a second chance to be rounded off in a satisfying way' is vicious. It's possible. It happened.
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Was it that one Duolingo 'Born to make history' ice skating exhibition with the massive green owl that killed Ice Adolescence oooooor???
Like, did MAPPA see Duolingo pull that together and go like... Yikes, let's axe the whole thing. Just, Burn the Baby. Throw the whole project out.
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A moment for all the fic writers who have found at least three hundred new titles for fics with the Taylor Swift double album drop.
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im laughing so hard because no matter what song you listen to
spiderman dances to the beat
no matter what song
ive been testing it and lauing my ass off for an hour
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So there’s this huge dudebro in my class, who, yesterday, sat next to me. And I’m sitting there sweating because like… I’m wearing my shirt with the lesbian flag on it, and he’s the most popular jock in school, and always has this look on his face that say ‘I can and will kill you’. He looks me up and down, stares at me for a minute and then goes, “So. Girls in skirts and long socks, am I right?”
To which I nodded solemnly, both out of agreement, surprise and also a healthy amount of awkward fear. He nodded and went, “You get it.”
I said, “Yep.” He fistbumped me, and on went our lives.
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This is VERY much the same energy as that one Much Ado About Nothing show with David Tennant and Catherine Tate which brings a certain 'their swagless looks and cringefail personality have captivated me' to the whole affair and I am not being as polite as OP I am DEMANDING that you all enjoy the free serotonin of both of them cross dressing, David Tennant in a denim miniskirt and a purple sequined crop top and various physical comedy shots of poor Catherine Tate swimming midair. I truly believe it's required viewing.
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i am once again asking you to watch the 2019 shakespeare in the park production of much ado about nothing
#much ado about nothing#shakespeare#david tennant#catherine tate#not the first time I've shared this on tumblr#if I had a nickel for everytime I promoted David Tennant and Catherine Tate's version of MAAN I would have about 23 nickels#which isn't a lot but it's weird it's happened 23 times#Youtube
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