How can I love him or be in love with him if he is so far away? Could I actually live someone that I never kissed, touch, smell? Could I let myself fall deeply in love with a stranger? What if it's not what I expected or even worse it's not him? There are so many unanswered questions. Can I take that leap?

Alright, I came to terms with love now. It doesn't exist for me.

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I feel like I have been searching for love for years. Somehow, I never found it. This time, I'm going to let it search for me.

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Maybe love it not for me. Maybe it's not the right time. Maybe I will never find my true soulmate. I just hope I'm content being alone in this world.

As I watch the rain come down and the thunder in the air, I am at peace with out any worries.

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I'm learning to fly now. I'm doing things I thought I couldn't do. I'm learning who I am as a person. Even though I'm scared of the unknown, I'm taking the leap. If I failed, at least I can say I tried and not look back 20 years later wishing I did.

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Stepping out of my bubble scares me. I wish I didn't have to start back over. I just unsure how or if I can.

If I told you ibwqs lonely. Would you even believe me? I'm lost in sobmanybwaus. I cry and break down every other month. But only once. Whipping away my tears. Except that u will be alone forever. It's easier to accept, then wait on someone that will never come. So, instead, I walk around like I'm okay. Instead I pretend to be okay. Deep down, I'm lonely

New rule for me going into the next year. Go get some fuckken friends. I'm here drinking a glass of wine by myself reflecting on life. Where to begin and what to do. I guess we shall see next year

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