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tinypoetttt · 10 months

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fs doing this when schools starts. I start in 6 days 😒

Imagine spending all this school year dedicating your life to ana. Starve all day at school, come home, workout, hydrate, try on the next school day outfit. look how your morning skinny turned into regular skinny. "Skip dinner wake up thinner" is a great quote, but why should it just be a quote? why not your life. You say your an4r3x1c. act like it. all this year you can workout everyday and don't eat. too hard? you live with others? not enough time? 1. Too hard? - Having this illness is hard but you have to realize that once you reach your ugw it is so much easier. no more hiding under that zip up. 2. Live with others? - Every situation is different so i cant say this for exact. just some tips. dinner? take the plate to your room, put it in a zip lock bag and then hid it in a good place until your able to either take it with you out of the house or throw it away under garbage or outside bins. 3. Not enough time? - There are literally 5 minute workouts on you tube. if you won't even make time for that then get your priority straight. maybe you share a room with someone. so what? "Embarrassing!" "They will be suspicious!" of what? working out? i promise you they do not care. they will be jealous at most.

Do this all school year. starve as long as possible. workout. hydrate. walk. run. steps. calories in calories out. determination. "Honeymoon phase". You'll be ready to take it the next step in the summer. by the end of the school year you should be on track to have been losing at least 20 LB. School is 10 months long. 10 months. school is the biggest distraction and food avoidant there is.

ana is only ever going to help. show her how bad you want it.

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tinypoetttt · 10 months

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starving is makeup for my body

#anorex14 #disordered eating thoughts #ed not ed sheeran #i wanna be weightless #tw ana shit #tw ana diary #tw restrictive ed #th1n$po #skinnni

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tinypoetttt · 11 months

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trying to handle both ana eating guilt and food waste guilt is my nightmare and it’s every day

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tinypoetttt · 2 years

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rest in piece to porco, i would have liked to taste your pock cock before you died </3

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tinypoetttt · 2 years

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What a Time, What a Lie

Warnings: just angst, cursing

Katsuki Bakugo angst

Summary:The reader has a break up with bakugo

A/N: i’m backkk. And yes this is based off yet another song… I would listen to it on repeat while reading this. The song is called What a time by Julia Michaels. anyways enjoy..

It had been maybe a couple of weeks since me and bakugo broke up. He said we were just too different and that he couldn’t handle that anymore. I had no idea what he meant by that.

We were in our 3rd year of UA high school. Me and him have been together since the first year. We had loved each other. at least that’s what I thought.

I thought he loved me like I loved him. We may have been opposite with personalities but we also found a way to work things out. Me and him together made no sense. We were polar opposites.

People have had there doubts about our relationship but we ignored it. We thought we could over come what they said about us. But eventually after awhile when you hear it so many times you start believing it.

And I guess that’s why we broke up. At least that’s what I assumed.

I lay in my bed, eyes puffy from crying. I start to think about all the sweet memories me and Bakugo have made together. It feels like yesterday it had happened. The night in the park, it was getting dark and we had been up for hours just talking about anything.

My heart has been racing bc we had never had a moment this intimate. It had been cold so we clung to each other on the park bench as we sat there and talked.

It was also the night he gave me this promise ring. I hold it up remembering what he said and did. He got down on one knee and said “I will always and forever love you with my full heart, I will also stick by your side through the roughest times, and never leave you”.

What a lie, He’s a liar. He would stick by my side huh? Bull fucking shit. This is what i get for trusting him. people warned me about him. but i didn’t believe them. “So naive and stupid” I think to myself.

But I had my best memories with him. The late nights together, Just laying there talking. We could talk about anything. The things I told him, I never told anyone else.

“Not in this way, With no reasoning”. I say in a shaky voice filled with sorrow and regret. It was supposed to end with me and him happy together. iI thought we were perfect for each other. But I was wrong, He obviously didn’t love me like I loved him.

I can’t keep thinking about him. I have to move on. But I can’t, I feel like a piece of me has been taken from me and will never be given back.

I feel like i’ve been ripped into pieces.

But I think, “What a lie” the moments, memories, and promises. I hate him right now. But it’s hard to hate somebody you once loved. The sickening feeling of not wanting to hate them and wanting to at the same time. It’s suffocating.

I turn over to my nightstand next to my bed. Looking at the clock. It was 11 pm. “Shit I forgot I still have class tomorrow”. I turn off my night lamp and close my eyes.

And that night, I cried myself to sleep. Thinking about everything i’ve shared with Him.

#bakugo angst #katsukibakugou #bnha angst #bakugo x reader

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tinypoetttt · 3 years

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Forever Gone

Jason Todd x Reader

Jason Todd angst. Warnings: Sad, Kinda Toxic,Mentions of the Joker

A/N: Tbh this is one of those Angst story’s that will have you up at night thinking. This was kinda hard for me to write since i always found what happened to Jason Very Horrifying. Anyways enjoy 👩🏾‍🦯 Also this is kinda based off that one adele song “All I ask” but more towards the end 👩🏾‍🦯

‘=Thinking “”= Talking

It had been days, months even. Me and batman had been looking for Jason. It had been hard time ever since the Joker took him away. Batman was in his bat cave more than usual, I haven’t ate or slept.

I have been going through it. Jason was the love of my life. I did everything with him, he was the other half of me. I felt empty sleeping in the apartment by myself. His side of the bed was empty, though the smell of him was still on his pillow. Whenever i’m there alone it makes me realize that he’s really gone.

I turned over to were jason use to sleep. My eyes started watering thinking about how I may never get his side of the bed filled again. I can not stand living in this apartment another day without thinking about the memories me and him shared.

I get up to pack my belongings in a bag to leave. ‘I need to move on and forget about him’ I think. My phone buzzes next to me. I look at it and it’s batman “I think you need to see this come to the Manor”. ‘I’m curious.. What did he find..’ ‘did he find Jason’. All these thoughts running through my head all at once it was over whelming

-flashback-

“It has happened again. We’re fighting over stupid shit” Says Jason “How is this stupid you could’ve died out there” I say.“That happens every day and your never worried about me, Why do you care all of a sudden ” He says in a annoyed tone “Because I love you Jason, And when a person you love goes out into the world and almost dies you get worried” I say almost in tears. “one day I don’t want you to go out there and never come back to me”. He looks at me with pity “Jason all I ask is that you be careful ” I say sobbing.

“Oh baby I- I never knew you you felt like this”. “Come here”, He motions me to hug him. “Is this how we’re going to remember us?” I say in a sad tone. “I hope not, but that doesn’t matter right now. He says in a uplifting tone. “I’m going to sit here and hold you till you stop crying”. “We’re going to do what lovers do when there sad” He says.

This is his way of saying sorry.I knew he had a had a little bit of trouble expressing his emotions. But I forgave him. He just has to promise me that we don’t remember us like this, like a mess…

-End of flashback-

I think about the fight me and Jason had just before The Joker got him. I was right, This is how I remember me and Jason. Always fighting over the littlest things. It only started being like that when we were getting older. We were growing apart.

We had both joined up with Batman at the same age so we grew up together. We had so much in common back then. But now it seemed like we barely knew each other. I use to be able to tell him anything he was my best friend until we started dating….

That’s when our relationship took a turn. ‘I can’t think about him’ I say pulling up to the Manor. I pull into the driveway and get out of the car. I walk up the doorsteps and knock on the door. Alfred opens the door but he looks devastated like he just heard bad news. “

Hello Alfred” I say in a tired tone He bows and leads me to the BatCave.

I see Bruce not Batman. ‘I wonder why he doesn’t have his suit on’. I walk over to Bruce he greets me. “ There was something you wanted me to tell me that you couldn’t say over the phone?” “Yes Umm I don’t, I don’t know how to tell you this”

He says in a devastated tone like he found out somebody just died. “No don’t tell me He-“ I bring my hand to my mouth and start crying. “no..” I say barely a whisper . “is he… is he really dead ”. Bruce Couldn’t find the courage or heart to tell Me Jason is dead “bruce tell me is he dead is.. is he really dead…”.

i look down at the floor not able to control myself. i don’t look up till i feel bruce staring at me

He looks at me, And stares into my eyes. For the entire time i’ve been here this is the first time he’s looked me in my eyes. That just confirms it for me. “He’s dead…” I say falling to my knees. to tired to even reply.

#jason todd angst #jason todd #batman #the joker #dc fandome #sad asf #jason todd x you #jason todd x reader

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