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thehogmomongzyu · 5 years
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14 August 2019 @1:32PM My sweet Momo, I still miss you very much. I am doing well. I think of you from time to time and couldn’t hold up tears still. Today I found a hedgehog was born in same year as you were. His name was Chikkuli. I found him on instagram from a host named chikkunmama. Very chill out like you were. The host’s posts and love for him remained me of myself. I didn’t share your pictures as many as the host did, but the capture from the angles told me much about the owner and the well being of the hedgehog. My eyes were best camera when I was with you. Those quiet and peaceful and joyful moments stay with me. I hope you and Chikkuli are playing happily now. He liked chicken. I know you might but I rarely gave you any. But I Hope you two get enough worms in the sky! I love you, baby.
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thehogmomongzyu · 5 years
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Well said
Why you shouldn’t always trust your vet’s advice blindly
and why people on the internet are sometimes right.
Lately I’ve been seeing a few posts going around in hedgehog Facebook groups accusing people of “hating vets” and how vets should always be trusted 100%, and be trusted over advice from the community. 
I think it’s important to address these concerns. First, pointing out wrong and possibly dangerous vet advice has nothing to do with hating vets. I respect and appreciate vets and their hard work and I’m positive most others in the community feel the same way. But that doesn’t mean I trust every vet blindly, and neither should you. The same goes for advice given on the internet. So who should you trust?
When it comes to common pets such as cats and dogs there are plenty of experienced vets and there is plenty of scientific research on a wide variety of subjects. When it comes to exotics however, there is very little information, most of it is outdated and vets don’t get to work with these animals very often. They learn little to nothing about these animals in vet school. This post isn’t about cats and dogs and other common pets. This post is about the rare exotics and the difficulties of finding the right balance between vet care and input from the community.
Let me take my own pets as an example: I own animals most vets have never seen before in their lives. I own animals most vets have never even heard of.
This means I can confidently say that I, as an owner, rescuer and breeder, have more experience and knowledge about my animals than the vast majority of vets. The same goes for many other people in the community who have experience with certain exotics. Experience which spans years or sometimes even decades. Compare the experience of someone like that to the lack of experience of most vets. Someone who has owned a certain species for years versus someone who just read half a page about them in a veterinary handbook or Googled some symptoms. I’ve been in situations where the vet actually told me they felt bad about having to charge me because they learnt more from me than the other way around.
I have several years of experience in caring for these animals, I read every scientific paper I can get my hands on and I am an active member of the (online) communities. My vets and I work closely together and we’ve read the same handbooks and manuals. Many of these contain outdated information. Sometimes there’s new research on a subject that hasn’t been included in veterinary handbooks yet and sometimes it’s through trial and error by the community that new things get discovered. It is very important for a vet not to dismiss this as “keyboard nonsense”. There are certain things I leave up to my vet and there are things I leave up to myself; the research I’ve done and the input of the community. I might be experienced in some fields but there are others I know nothing about. For me, vets are there for everything I can’t do myself: this includes veterinary treatment such as surgeries. This is often not species specific and this is something vets have studied for and know more about than I do, so that’s where I’ll have to trust them. Same goes for choosing the right medication and dosage, although some treatments are up for discussion (such as the use of Ivermectin).
For everything else I trust my own experience, research and the community more than my vet. Simply because the latter doesn’t have the experience and knowledge on subjects such as general care, behaviour, nutrition… during vet school they have learnt little to nothing about these species (and what they learnt is often outdated) and at work most of them don’t get much real hands-on experience with these species either. Take nutrition for example. The community knows most hedgehog food is unsuitable for hedgehogs due to its ingredients, yet many vets still recommend it simply because that’s what they learnt from their textbooks or in school. This is often information from decades ago.
As an example of something which could be easily prevented if the vet did more research/the owner would’ve listened to the community instead of blindly following the (inexperienced) vet, let’s take a look at Wobbly Hedgehog Syndrome (WHS).
Probably one of the most common medical mistakes regarding pygmy hedgehogs is vets diagnosing them with WHS, a very rare degenerative disease a bit similar to multiple sclerosis in humans. This disease is extremely rare and presents itself (usually) with a gradual onset of a wobbling, unsteady gait and paralysis starting at the back end, which worsens over the course of several months. WHS can only be diagnosed through necropsy. There is no way to diagnose the disease when the hedgehog is alive. The cause is unknown, although there are a few theories, and there is no cure.
Over the years I’ve seen a disturbing amount of hedgehogs diagnosed with WHS, while they were alive (impossible), and very obviously suffering from something completely different. Some of them have died while they could have been cured if they’d gotten the proper treatment instead of a misdiagnosis. In hedgehogs, one of the first major signs of illness (often after people have failed to notice the minor ones, since hedgehogs are incredibly good at hiding their illnesses) is wobbling and an unsteady gait. In fact it can be caused by something as simple as a hibernation attempt which is easily reversed by warming up the animal. Some illnesses which can show similar symptoms to WHS are: hibernation attempts, inner ear infections, a stroke, other neurological damage, spinal damage, malnutrition, a severe mite infestation, organ failure, and more.
Some of these issues are incredibly common and easy to treat as opposed to the non-curable and rare WHS.
I’ve seen people with shaky or (partially) paralysed hedgehogs go to a vet, only to be given a WHS diagnosis which essentially means a death sentence for the animal. Recently someone I talked to had this happen to them and when people suggested a second opinion with a different vet, they went and x-rays were taken. The animal turned out to have a slipped disk which was treatable. I’ve rescued a hedgehog several years ago which was found outside and brought to an inexperienced vet who told them the animal was paralysed. It turned out she was just severely emaciated and she made a full recovery. And there are more stories like this. These are just two examples of misdiagnosis.  
The community isn’t always right either
Just like not every vet knows all about hedgehogs and tenrecs (or other exotics), not everyone online does either. And even if people are very knowledgeable that doesn’t mean they are always right, or that there’s only one way to do things. All of this can be very confusing especially to new owners. It is understandable that many of them will - at first - trust their vet blindly, after all aren’t they “the authority” on animal husbandry and veterinary medicine since they actually went to school for it? We’ve already established such a degree means little to nothing when it comes to certain subjects of exotic animal care, but that doesn’t mean everyone on the internet is suddenly right. Someone can own animals for decades and still have questionable care practices.
When posting a story or a video which shows a shaking, wobbly hedgehog just as many owners will reply with concerns about WHS - even if the likelihood of the disease is extremely small.
When it comes to exotics like hedgehogs and tenrecs, neither should be trusted blindly: not the vets and not the community. Ideally, the two should work together. And none should want to replace the other.
Internet advice should never replace a vet visit
Do: asking for advice online while heading to a vet.
Don’t: asking for advice online and not going to a vet.
In the first situation, you and your vet can examine the animal and compare the advice given with the vet’s knowledge on the subject. Especially when the vet isn’t too experienced, advice from more experienced owners and breeders (or other vets) can help in certain situations.
As for the second situation - people on the internet are not a replacement for a vet. I can’t stress this enough. When in doubt, ALWAYS go to a vet. Even vets themselves aren’t supposed to diagnose your animal from a picture on the internet. Vets exist for a reason.
Do: voicing concerns and advising people to seek out proper treatment.
Don’t: diagnosing illnesses from a story online (whether you’re a vet or not).
When I see someone with a sick hedgehog or tenrec and I’m suspecting a certain illness or a misdiagnosis, I don’t just point it out. I recommend seeking out vet care or a second opinion. Not a “your hedgehog has x” or “your vet is wrong, your pet doesn’t have x it has y”. Instead: “I suspect it might be x, please seek out veterinary treatment, we cannot give a diagnosis or recommend treatment online” or “I suspect it might be y instead of x. It is a common misdiagnosis and your description/picture/video points towards something else than the current diagnosis. I recommend going to a different vet for a second opinion”. Why? Because I am not a vet, and even if I were, I wouldn’t give out veterinary advice online.
Example: I received pictures of a very sick hedgehog from someone who just came back from a holiday and found their hedgehog unresponsive and very weak. Everything pointed towards a severe mite infestation. I told the owner, who already had a vet appointment scheduled. The hedgehog was put under to be examined and the owner mentioned the possibility of mites multiple times but this was dismissed by the vet. They didn’t find anything else but the vet suspected kidney damage and send them home with a glucose injection and some Hills a/d to syringe feed.  Once back home, the owner sent me a close-up video of what the vet said was “sand” or “dust”, except it was crawling all over the hedgehog. Not only did the vet dismiss the concerns of me and the owner, they somehow managed to miss a severe mite infestation while examining the animal under anaesthesia. The animal received proper treatment after a second visit to a different vet but unfortunately didn’t make it.
Tips on finding a good vet
A good vet is worth their weight in gold. They do an incredibly difficult job for which they often don’t get the recognition they deserve. A job that can be very emotionally draining. And they have to deal with people who “know better” all the time. People who’ve read something online, follow the latest fad, read fake studies and voice concerns with no scientific backup whatsoever. I can fully understand a vet wanting to eye-roll at a client who read something online and is convinced their pet now has that incredibly rare disease and didn’t just catch a simple URI. With the internet it almost seems like everyone can become an expert in just a few clicks. When it comes to treating exotics however, there is indeed a wealth of knowledge amongst the community that can’t be found in textbooks and isn’t taught in school. Vets need to realize this. The only way to work with exotics is more often than not by trial and error. By listening to experienced owners and discussing treatments with other vets.
Especially when you own exotics like hedgehogs and tenrecs finding a good vet is important. Here are some tips:
Find a good vet before you get your pet. Another thing I can’t stress enough. Nothing as heartbreaking as having a very sick animal and not being able to find a vet who can treat them. And, this is probably not something people want to hear: don’t get the animal if you cannot find any good vets within travelling distance. If there is no one in your area to treat them, it doesn’t matter how badly you want the species: don’t buy them. It is incredibly unfair to the animal and it’s entirely on you if you cannot provide veterinary treatment when the animal needs it.
Keep in mind that most exotic vets are more expensive than regular vets.
Find an experienced vet and ask them about their experience. Ask them how often they have treated said species. Some people think treating a hedgehog twice and following one class on them years ago means being “experienced”. It isn’t.
Respect the decision of some vets not wanting to treat your animal because they don’t feel qualified to do so.
If you really cannot find an experienced vet - and this is almost always the case with rarer exotic species like tenrecs - find a vet who is willing to learn.
In fact this is one of the most, if not the important thing I look for in a vet. They need to be willing to learn and be open to input from others. This means discussing treatments with other vets in the country (or from other countries), as well as with me. They need to be willing to listen and adjust their information if it turns out to be incorrect. It isn’t about who’s right or wrong, it is about the animal receiving the proper treatment.
Find a vet who’s honest about their inexperience. Do not expect them to know everything, and do not blame them for it. Very little is known about hedgehogs and tenrecs and some things aren’t researched well enough or simply not at all. A vet doesn’t necessarily need to be very experienced with the species, being eager to learn and keep their knowledge up to date is more important.
A vet should be transparent about the treatment and discuss it with the owner. Concerns regarding treatment shouldn’t be dismissed.
A vet should be willing to look up things online/read up on online advice together with you and not dismiss any information that isn’t from a veterinary textbook.  Do not pick a vet who will only listen to people in their own field or their textbooks.
I’ve been to and heard of experienced exotic vets which refused to listen to the owner, misdiagnosed animals or simply turned out to be not so experienced after all. On the other hand there’s vets with zero experience but who’ve done an excellent job treating animals simply because they wanted to learn, were open to input from the owner and others (from the medical/scientific field as well as the community). I’d take the latter over the former any day.
So, long story short: when it comes to exotic animals such as hedgehogs and tenrecs vets aren’t always the most trustworthy authority especially not in any field other than medical. If multiple experienced people in the community question certain veterinary advice, chances are high it is indeed incorrect and possibly harmful. The same goes for advice that can be found online - it doesn’t always have to be correct. Do not trust every source blindly, vet or otherwise, and do as much research as possible so you can make an informed decision on what would be best for your pet.
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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I am very sorry for your loss, and perhaps our loss as well. Stroke often comes suddenly without signs. I’m sure you have done what you could. Certainly we wish our pets lived as long as possible; however, 4+year hedgehog is not that bad. I am sure during these years, Skaði was loved by many and had a good life living happily with you. She was such as a cute dig-for-good girl. The day when Momo passed away, someone shared a quote with me that has helped me through, and I would like to share with you and those who lost their beloved ones. It says, “There is no death - only a change of worlds.” It sticks to my desk and it remains me almost every day. 
I know it hurts, for how ever it may be, but when we look into the space where the temporal and spatial meet, it leads to eternity, and we can allow ourselves to embrace nature and its cause and to be thankful. Thank you Skaði for giving us those joyful moments.
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I’m posting this with a heavy heart. My little dirt pig Skaði has suffered a stroke. I found her in the morning laying down in an unusual spot. It was clear from the beginning that it was a very bad situation so I immediately called the vet to have her put to sleep. I am fortunate to have an experienced vet closeby and he agreed with me, there wasn’t much we could do (or that I wanted to put her through). She passed away peacefully in my arms. Back when she turned four, I jokingly said she was part of the “old ladies club” now, but I didn’t expect to lose her so suddenly. Part of me has always been a little scared of her getting sick, since she came from a pretty bad (mill) breeder - WHS, cancer, or other diseases; but no, even when she got a little older she was as healthy as ever. This whole situation happened so sudden I still can’t fathom she’s really gone and I keep looking up at her enclosure expecting to see her staring down at me in stalker-hog-mode because she wants her food.
My dearest, grumpiest potato, I will miss your little white vampire face covered in mud and the way you inhaled every unlucky insect that happened to be under your nose. You might have been a grumpy princess but you never failed to make me laugh. Everyone loved your adorable face (although we jokingly called you “Satan” at home sometimes because it suited your personality much better. You were so grumpy and sassy). You were the one and only Dirt Queen, Skaði, and I miss you already.
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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I think there are a number of things to be shared with your audience - regardless of their backgrounds and interests. If it is a lecture, start with educational and reliable info that they can take home with because you do want to cause an impact somewhat to their life and to provide a perspective. Here are my thoughts:
1. Why you are here to talk? What is your story liked to hedgehogs and tenrecs? Instead of delivering an 101, what is the difference between your unquie perspective and thousands YouTube videos? Why do I have to come listen to instead of watching free online myself? We know they are cute, but there got to something more than that -  personally.
2. What are they, really? Get your audience know about them. 
3. With info you providing, try to find a link to connect with your audience. What problems are these species, especially the wild ones, are facing due to human civilization? Elevate further with concrete evidence. In the wild, what should you do if you see a hedgehog during day time? At home as pet, what problem?  Etc etc etc... And why are they important to know? What do they do with “me/us” ( your audience)?
4. Share your experience with the animals. What worked? What not? And why you think worked and not? How did you overcome these difficulties? What don’t you want others to repeat your mistakes that could potentially hurt them. 
5. Human moral responsibility with them and our world. And why do they deserve our attentions?
Hope it helps. Good luck with the lecture. It must be awesome. Let’s know how things go :)
I’ve been asked to give a lecture (nothing’s sure yet, but I wanted to start brainstorming a bit) and they’ve given me a lot of freedom; it can be about any animal related subject I want. For me the most obvious choice would be something hedgehog/tenrec related, but I was wondering what kind of lecture would you go to? The people wouldn’t necessarily be hedgehog owners but they’d have affinity with animals/be owners themselves (both private and commercial, hobbyists and professionals etc.) I think tenrecs are to much of a niche and not sure if everyone would be interested in a hedgehog 101. So I was thinking of doing something about bioactive/naturalistic keeping, enrichment etc. because that might be useful for other animal species too. Any suggestions or ideas? If you could come what would you want to learn?
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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I lost Momo because of cancer. We tried many things until they didn’t work any more. It was a very frustrating and difficult experience, both on her and on me. The strange smell could be caused by many factors. It’s possible that vulnerable prey produces/makes odor on the body to space away from potential predators or visitors. This is a signal of requesting courtesy in her territory like in the wild. It’s also possible that her urine/stool carries substances metabolized in response to her administrated medication and her interrupted immune system. Although she may excrete waste on a particular spot in her cage, the smell is still on her body and in the bedding. Other possibilities also include anointing the medication on her body when experiencing new and strange taste, mixture of drug residue and saliva on oval cavity, and many others.
Momo smelled at the end stage of her life, too. The odor and its causes did not matter to me. What matter was, I was there and I gave her as less as unnecessary stress in order to alleviate her pain. I did not give her bath as frequent as she used to have. Instead, I changed the bedding and cleaned her cage every day to maintain hygiene because giving her a bath made her stressful (no matter how I had trained her and delivered rewards right after quick and through shower since she was little, she never liked in water) or used warm and moisture cotton to clean the dirt on her. Give her shower only when it’s necessary. 
When we know it is cancer, it is cancer. It proliferates fast. What we can do is to spend and cherish the time we have together and let our pet sense that we are safe and we are there for her to maximize the quality of life given such a desperate condition. Until one point, you will know. I hope my sharing help and I wish you and your hedgehog good time remaining on the journey.  Take care. If there is anything you think this community could help, jump in. 
My hedgehog is dying of cancer. Her vet is doing palliative care with medicam and I also have her on CBD. The last couple days I've started to notice that she smells awful. My mom seems to think it's another symptom of her cancer getting worse. Have you lost hedgehogs to cancer before and can confirm this? It smells a bit like the medicam to me so I thought it was just from her trying to annoint with it but I just gave her another bath and she still smells...
Sorry to hear about your hedgehog being sick. I have no experience with cancer in hedgehogs (it is not very common in our population) but I’ll post this publicly so my followers can chime in if they have any experience with this. As far as I know cancer doesn’t really smell, but there are stories of people who say they can smell cancer. Some medication can definitely make an animal smell differently though, so that could be it. Even if the remaining time is short I hope you will have some good days left together, letting them go is always difficult. Big hugs!
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Echidnas (aka spiny anteaters) belong to the family Tachyglossidae and are egg-laying mammals (order: Monotremes). They are the most abundant in Australia. They are not pet.
Hedgehogs belong to the family Erinaceidae and do not lay eggs. They may be everywhere… They can be pet if you see only four toes on their hing legs. I am sure Momo gives you a clear view of how the four toes look like.
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Momo, 101 days have passed. I have been doing great. Friday nights have always been the time I think of you most. Hey, tell you what. Couple days ago, I bought 3 cups of bugs to the tenrecs Salsa and Bowie on your honor. I must say, Bowie’s character is very much like yours: pure and innocent. Yesterday I also checked out Jasmine, the legend 8-year-old hedgehog and left her owner a note about how much I had learned from him and Jasmine even before I got you. This morning I got a feedback from the owner. Shared love for our beloved.
Friday night when I was reviewing the principles of chemical thermodynamics and kinetics in my study, I zoomed out and thought of you. I then stopped to pray for you and Jasmine. I love you, Momo. I promise you I will learn well how to transform this energy to something else that helps to make the world a better place.
The video was recorded when you were 2.5 years old. I couldn’t get a nice picture because you were sniffing with your head, so I decided to record it so I wouldn’t get a blur picture. Talk to you sometimes, Momo. I will keep going.
Recorded on 13122017
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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This was one of my favorite moments in late night with Momo. I still remember those moments and those firm quills vividly. She was awake, chilling,  allowing me to pet whatever and however I wanted. Calm. Peaceful. Trusted. Just me and her in our world. What a great company. I still miss her very much.
Recorded  OCT 2017 when she was a bit more 2.5 years. 
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She is. The pups feel very safe.
World’s best mum
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Hi there (whoever has lost a beloved AFH pet), I understand it is hard and it will take time to heal. Someday when you do come back, your heart will be readily open to this adorable and wonderous species again. I hope that day will come to you. I was the other way around comparing to you: when my Momo passed away, this blog became my secret savory and the only place that I have found peace, especially when I was, still am, in grief. I want you to know that you are not alone, and you don't have to be. I hope you do have nice people around to support you and care about you when you are deeply vulnerable for the loss. I am very sorry for your loss. May God bless our lost ones.
I have to unfollow you for a little, while, but I promise you didn't do anything! My hedgie just passed away and it's hurting my heart to see hedgehogs right now. Your blog makes me so happy though, so I'm going to come back!
So sorry for your loss! Take all the time you need, I know the feeling :( big hugs!
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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20180502 Momo, your friend bobber is doing fine. He is playing around me. He seems to know(sense) I am thinking of you. Photos taken in 2016 when you two were first met.
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Hold me tight when ascending
Did you know Momo the hedgehog felt more awkward (more stressed maybe?) when ascending than descending?
Case-study Evidence?
Experiment #1: While Momo’s eyes being open ascending at 30cm/second on my hand, her corrugators (the muscles above eyes) instinctively contracted. It might signal, “ I am scared! Let me close the eyes first so that they couldn’t see.”
Experiment #2:  While her eyes being open descending at the same speed, her corrugators were relatively relaxed comparing with those in Exp. #1. It might signal, : “Well, what are you doing? I am not scared.”
Experiment #3: While covering Momo’s eyes by my left hand and ascending at the same speed on my right, surprisingly the same result as Exp. #2.
Why? What do I say?
My explanation is that these animals are innately ready to roll in a ball while experiencing something like a free fall to self defense from the point of final impact. Cushion, right? However, while ascending, they may not know what to do with their body, except covering their eyes. Contracting eye muscles are an automatic self-defense presentation of hedgehogs anyway. What make it meaningful (or significant) in terms of fears dealing with ascending versus descending? 
Implication?
The stress generated by sudden environmental ascendance may associate with hedgehog’s vision. Because hedgehog’s vision is relatively poor and greatly sensitive to movements, Momo’s fear of the ascendance might be more likely initiated by visible changes, whilst fear of sudden environmental descendance, such as free fall, more likely geographic. Such presentation and effect need to be elucidated by future observations and a greater sample size.
P.S. Let me know your observations-if any. I don’t think anyone would be interested in what I say in this blog, but it’s worth-noting some cautions below - just in case.
Caution: Do not repeat this experiment unless you know what you are doing.
Caution: Do not repeat this experiment unless you are an adult.
Caution: Do not repeat this experiment more than once in every other week (7 days)!
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Photo taken on 20170126 - the date I started to notice this cute little effect
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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I am glad that you are doing better ever since. Thanks for your message and being there for me. How did you go through the process and get things on life? What would you do when you have a long list of things to do but your brain is not operating with you? How to swim across the ocean when the wave hits hard? Life moves on. But what would do if you do not want to do anything except laying down on grass and read the sky all day? Life must go on. People are expecting things from you, but you do not want to do anything except going back to haunt those objects that she once touched or was like? The last time I experienced this level of pain and craving was when my grandpa passed away and I was 9. I know I can get through this. I know I can do something else. I know that I can transform the grieving energy to something else positive, such as helping out. But there were times when I didn’t want to do anything but to lay flat to read the sky…
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Quillis passed away peacefully on April 17, 2017. She was 3 ½. We made the difficult decision to have her put down to avoid prolonging her suffering under WHS. It is a heartbreaking disease. We took her out one last time to her favorite grassy area so that she could play to her heart’s content before the end.
I want to thank everyone who has ever supported this blog. I started it as a way to spend more time with Quillis outside and it has really blossomed. She even reached 1000+ followers. You have no idea how much it helps my grieving to know that there are so many people who cared about her.
I will post what photos I have left when we are feeling better but right now it’s too hard. 
That being said, if you want to say something for Quillis or discuss WHS or anything else, you can send me a message here or on my main blog (linked on this page).
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Echidnas (aka spiny anteaters) belong to the family Tachyglossidae and are egg-laying mammals (order: Monotremes). They are the most abundant in Australia. They are not pet.
Hedgehogs belong to the family Erinaceidae and do not lay eggs. They may be everywhere... They can be pet if you see only four toes on their hing legs. I am sure Momo gives you a clear view of how the four toes look like.
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Day 8 - The breathing grass on the playground
The Sky's dark; the grass's breathing, there The playground's empty, far but visible, from the window in the 6F pantry, here. The grass reminds me of thy. You never liken the taste of the green. The smell, the touch Not the color, maybe? You always walked away. Perhaps you were afraid Of the change in sensation or the bugs’ base. Perhaps you were keen On the similarity of your cage and your mountain mate.
The Moon, where? Who would matter? You would care, the time it came, the dark it painted;  the peace it sank, the joy it rank; We were friends.
Is there any grass in the heaven? Are ah-Fei, Feifei, Toby, Tory, xi-Gui, Quillis, and grandpa there playing with you? I bet they do.
Don't be afraid of the green Walk there with your charming pins. Remember our soft campus wind. Go, my girl. Have fun with the mighty souls. Don't be afraid, I'm here watching the breathing grass on the playground, breathing its green glory in this world.
Photo taken in Feb 2016
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thehogmomongzyu · 6 years
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Day 6
It’s probably one of those pictures that I captured your curious and natural face with your eyes on the camera. I have been doing okay these few days, trying to getting back to normal. Life moves on. I try to put smiles on my face because whereever I go, whenever I miss you, you are there. Touch is physical. Physical hurts. Memory is spiritual. Sometimes it may hurts, but when I step back and recall the last moment when I kissed your body. Your soul transcend. That moment we were tuned. That moment, I felt you no pain, so was my heart.    
Photo taken on 19 Feb 2018. Macao.
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Momo’s feet Story
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Picture 1: 2017.06.11 - healthy feet
Picture 2: 2017.08.14 - healing right feet. After surgical removal of infected uterus, Momo started to bite her right feet seriously.
Picture 3: 2017.11.15 - completely fine after healing.
Picture 4: 2017.12.30 - healing after the first relapse - biting her right feet.
Picture 5: 2018.01.24 - serious relapse of biting the right feet after the second relapse. The right feet were never healed by then.
Picture 6: 2018.02.06 - started to bite the other feet.
Picture 7: 2018.02.19 - healing of both feet after constant bandage for a while. 
Picture 8: 2018.02.21 - modified taping of bandage to increase moving flexibility. constant bandage.
Picture 9:  2018.03.02 - the wounds were completely healed. As you see, two toes on the right feet were lost.
Picture 10:  2018.03.07 - further modified taping of bandage to increase skin breathing area. This version of bandage was maintained until the end. She could not stop letting her feet to rest without bandages.
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