#which i guess yeah. compulsion. since i do it for intrsive thoughts and bad textures | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

beelzzzebub · 4 months

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i had. The most horrifying dream last night, and i literally cannot focus on like doing school and shit bc the imagery is jumping into my head at a rate much higher than my normal intrusive thoughts and i really don't know what to do about this right now

#bc i've normally got like. stuff to do to dim certain types of intrusive thoughts #bc they're more of less sort of focused ig? idk #idk if you would call them compulsions #i guess yeah although that's not what a lot of my ocd work has been focused on #but the point is this has inspired much more vivid and completely differently placed thoughts #since i have the very distinct memory of the dream with all its gore #and normally if i was having intrusive thoughts about like harm happening to me idk #for some reason it generally happens about my hands? so i kind of just like put the related fingers in my mouth #which i guess yeah. compulsion. since i do it for intrsive thoughts and bad textures #anyway #but i can't do that bc this is about my face #soooo idk how to deal with it #gah #this is not pleasant #if anybody who gets intrusive thoughts has any like tips for how to deal with them #bc like this is not what i'm used to #aah #boink #ocd

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