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soldier-poet-king · 1 year

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Ocd trying to convince me I hit a cyclist this morning on the way to work because I had to pass them on a curve w/ oncoming traffic and it got a lil dicey (dicey by my grandma ass driving standards, most ppl in this clown city where ppl drive like it's a PvP zone wouldn't think twice)

I DID NOT hit anyone it's literally down the street from my work, so even IF for whatever reason I accidentially committed a hit and run I would've heard sirens by now. But like. The devil may work hard my OCD works harder TRULY

#franposting #literally the most unhinged flavour obsession i have #this one is rarer #only comes up a few times a year maybe #but like wowee i am going to b thinkin about it for days!!!!#this is like. the time my brain convinced me i killed my prof by writing a critical end of term review.#or that i killed the cashier by not smiling enough #god the HYPOCHONDRIA obsessions ans the existential obsessions are easier #BC ultimately the only affect me. my health or my soul #when im afraid of hurting OTHER ppl??? infinitely worse and harder to talk myself down from #when it's just me i can leverage the power of long standing depression to b like #well you suck so much that it doesnt matter. and then move on with work #(telling myself im worthless isnt Great Ik but it WORKS for the solipsism spirals)

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