Weird Pokemon Name of the Day: Yosemite Sam the Passimian

one last time

I'll never be able to take the theory that Vincent is Sephiroth's real father seriously cuz I cannot stress enough how important I think it is to the plot that Vincent wanted to fuck Lucrecia and did not get to.

ok. im going to make this post but i REALLY shouldn’t but i just am so devastated rn and need to not be alone in it and you guys are the only people i can talk to candidly about moving stuff rn for a lot of reasons. the reason im crying rn is because i just found out i made a massive error in my budget and it turns out that my net pay is barely over minimum wage and i cannot afford to live by myself. at all. unless i live off of savings in addition to income but even then that’s only going to help me for a couple months and anyway it’s extremely unwise bc i should save that money for getting a car etc etc. this is not entirely a bad thing because a) at least i can afford to… you know… live. and b) living with roommates will not be bad especially if i live with friends and/or strangers i come to be friends with. it’s just i really… i don’t know i just feel so sick to my stomach. it’s just that recent events have made it so clear to me that i need to teach myself how to live independently before i can live with other people (let alone function in the world, heal from trauma, etc.) healthily. i know it so deeply. and it can’t happen for me. this is confirmation. this is confirmation and there’s nothing that can change it. rent is too high (even for shitty apartments in the area which let’s be real most of them are… it’s too high!) and over half of my income is going to taxes and deductions and bills and student loans. i feel so hopeless

So, I met my nurse today and she said I'm finally getting scheduled for the ADHD testing on Dec 18th—after all these years. Albeit she said that it may not change a thing, but it's good to test it anyway.

I also had a discussion with my teacher today about my problems and we went through some stuff, and I might feel a little bit more enlightened about some things, which will hopefully help me.

Still. I'm having trouble with planning some stuff at my workplace because the staff there simply doesn't have time, and my instructor is also a very busy person (plus she's fussy and impatient and a little upset/disappointed with me which is not making it any easier for me), so that is still giving me a lot of stress right now.

So, I don't know. On the other hand, one teacher says I'm doing a good job and that I shouldn't quit. Then again, this particular school and their style of teaching simply might not be the thing for me and I expressed that concern today as well. I need help getting through with some stuff and nobody has time for me, so it's obviously not good.

I also need to find another place to train soon and that workplace would have to be something where I wouldn't have to manage 15 things at the same time and well. Finding that could be a challenge, too.

But. I suppose we're going somewhere.

bro what the fuck are they doing with my package

updated my oc page again ^_^

i’m back in the fucking building again

a new attempt at me trying to sketch out ideas for my porcelain (faerie) royalty outfit that I’m putting together, all I have so far is the shirt, earring (it’s not even finished) and bracelet

did a cute little 6.7 mile run this morning (i am actively wishing to be removed from this mortal plane with the swiftness and grace of a yellowing leaf being carried by a strong autumn wind)

Canonical explanation as to how Isadora survives being shot in the head by Kellog; nerd rage activated + Rooted (bunch of damage resistance)

Canonical explanation as to how Augustijn survives [insert life threatening situation here]; 9 endurance and a goddamn dream

@dvarapala:

"you shouldn't have to do so on my account." udyati looks up at doctor eklund - ravi - and resumes gnawing on her lower lip until she knows what she wants to tell him next. "this happens a lot." see, there are doors everywhere. big doors, small doors. ugly doors. pretty doors. ornate ones and ones that are nigh invisible unless you pass them by a certain way. and though she's been doing this since she turned twelve, every so often, udyati overshoots. overestimates herself. her abilities. turns up somewhere she shouldn't, shivering and shaking and with blue lips. "my body, it isn't good at regulating it's own internal temperature. it always takes a second. well, no, not a second. we're way past that. but i'm---i'll be fine. please, go get some rest. we can't both be wrecks tomorrow morning."

ann farthing is the last person ravi wants to spend time with, usually. she and dr. mishra may come as a package deal, sure, but that doesn't mean the two of them have to like each other. it doesn't make them friends. still, right now, ravi wishes she had come planetside with them.

she'd know what to do with... this.

per mission policy, they have brought a medic with them, but she's from y-detail, and ravi doesn't know her. no way of knowing how she'd react to a girl appearing out of thin air, who he's still not convinced isn't a hostile life form playing a very convincing trick.

he's convinced enough not to shoot her, but he's keenly aware of just where he set his weapon down.

❛  noted.  ❜ if she wants to stay awake all night, fine. ravi can do this for as long as she can. if nothing else, in the morning they have to head back to the ship and he can pass this over to someone paid enough to make a decision. in twelve hours, this is officially no longer his call. ❛ but i'm not offering out of concern for your wellbeing.  ❜

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Lord, do I resent being forced to put up with this nonsense for some very part-time barista work so I can barely pay most of my bills. Jesus.

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HAD A DREAM ABT SANS!!!!!!!! i dreamt that i did something i thoughtd make him happy (i think clean his room?) but he ended up getting really upset with me. then he felt bad about getting mad at me and apologized ^_^