idk. i'm annoyed.

i realise i am a fandom old at this point

and i have seen some shit in this fandom; witnessed the discourse.

and i don't post meta or spec or much of that stuff; i usually put all my ideas into fics.

but guys seriously. seriously.

eddie's current arc is not about buck.

buck and eddie are not currently dating.

buck is eddie's best friend and vice versa.

eddie is not cheating on buck.

eddie is lying to buck by omission, yes, but that is not a friendship ending offence.

eddie is on the very cusp of cheating right now. he went on a date with another woman, yes. he has not kissed her or slept with her. we are at a tipping point. we do not know what is going to happen next.

he only went on a date with another woman because she reminded him of shannon, who he is not over, who he has spent seasons trying to replace.

the point of this show is that none of the characters are perfect - and especially not buck and eddie. they all make mistakes. they have all made mistakes and will continue to do so because in real life, people don't always make the right decisions 100% of the time.

this black-and-white, morally righteous way of thinking, like eddie is suddenly evil now because he's on the cusp of cheating; that it's going to end his friendship, that buck is going to be angry at him for lying - do you have friends in real life? like, i am genuinely asking.

because if my best friend suddenly started cheating on her husband, i wouldn't be mad at her - i would be worried. am i alone in this? like i would be genuinely concerned and trying to help figure out what's going on.

all the shit i'm seeing in the fandom today, all of the spec posts and commentary about the episode and what might potentially happen, just feels like, once again, an attempt to paint eddie as the villain in the story to prop up buck. let's make eddie so terrible that buck has to have custody of christopher, right?

clearly none of you understand how a will works. it's for after you're dead. not for when you're alive.

but the main issue is this - now that buck has tommy, the people who tolerated eddie can stop pretending to like him. there's another option for buck now, so you guys don't need eddie anymore. right? am i fucking right??

i love drama as much as the next person, but in what world would buck turn on eddie because of this? in what world would the 118 shun him? he is their friend! they love him! they care about him! they are a family!

my god, nobody shunned hen when she cheated on karen. nobody shuns bobby and he indirectly killed 140 people!

eddie is a good person who makes mistakes, just like every single other character on the show.

that is the fucking point.

and the way ryan was talking in the interviews - isolation could mean any number of things. we know eddie has a tendency to isolate himself when he's feeling stressed out - does anyone remember season 3? season 5? buck literally broke down his door!

i'm just fucking tired of this bullshit.

eddie's not a bad guy because of this. he has done shitty things, yes. they all have. that's the fucking point of the show, and if you can't understand that or appreciate adult story-telling, then fuck off and watch riverdale.

hi, I saw your tags on the post with con trying the fake leg for the first time. do we know it was uncomfortable for him? it seemed to me like the grunts are him acting how izzy would be walking at that stage (since it's the skinny leg) and not con being in pain. if he was in pain and the producers were not caring that's so important to know though

Both he and the props department have previously called it 'painful for everyone involved'. There are existing mobility aids they could have used to achieve the same effect but them choosing to diy something with this purpose in mind is irresponsible because mobility aids used by people who don't actually need them, especially when they're not made properly/to the users exact dimensions, can cause serious harm long term. The spindle prosthetic at the very least was too tall for Con, bare minimum it fucked up his hip while filming, but especially with older people injuries like that can stay with you long term. It could have also injured his knee with the way he'd have had to put his weight onto it.

HBO has a history of injuring actors and not actually giving half a shit about it as well. Literally, Kristian was permanently disabled while filming for GoT. I get not wanting to assume if nothing has been said outright (though it has) but he doesn't actually even need to have expressed that it hurt him to know that it was dangerous and irresponsible of the props department and everyone involved who okayed the idea.

I know we all hate argath etc etc but can we just acknowledge that he’s one of the funniest characters in the game for dedicating his whole entire life to social climbing back into the kind of position he ‘deserves’ while also being absolute dogshit at the bare minimum of etiquette and decorum. he finally meets a beoulve and immediately creeps him out by acting desperate. he gets an audience with dycedarg and accomplishes nothing but pissing him off. he plays with the life of his marquis because he’s too wrapped up in his pissing contest against the poor to get through Freeing a Hostage 101. literally bro is so mad at the heirals for being on the grand stage of ivalice when he should’ve been worrying about the fact that delita is consistently delivering the performance of a lifetime while argath is flubbing his way through the lines of the b-plot

https://www.tumblr.com/solarwynd/747123700874297344/i-saw-this-old-jimin-tiktok-on-my-fyp-about-his?source=share

I saw some being like "oh she's posting jimin's videos on her Instagram where people are putting hearts and calling them cute, he's definitely dating her" and I'm like WHAT??? What are you 9 ??? Who even thinks like that?

Also people tend to Forgot that he's literally THEE PARK JIMIN like he's not just an any idol but he's someone the whole industry talks about when it comes to dance and performance. There won't be a single moment even in future where they'll talk about the best dancer/perfomer of the industry and they won't mention jimin cause he's a "IT" in that department. They're in the fandom so they see him regularly so think he's just their best friend or something but he's a celebrity with a bigg reputation and impact. The dancers and perfomers look upto him and would do anything to share a stage with him. Jimin is just as significant as BTS even as a solo. If i danced with him as the way the girl did (I'm sorry idk her name, but it's the girl many call his reflection 😅 and she was the one who was posting all the stories from fans where she was tagged and doing choreo with him) i would literally never let anyone forgot who i danced with lol.

Idk what kind of alternate universe these stupid people be living and when you tell them he ain't dating her, they start lecturing you "why? Because she's just a backup dancer? So what? Love can happen with anyone" and I'm like brother move??? 😑😑😑 I'm sorry but kpop really has the stupidest arguments and like who even thinks that far over something so normal? I wouldn't think he's dating someone until unless we get a proof cause nothing these boys do can suddenly make me think to they're dating xyz cause they literally do the bare minimum than than anyone else in entertainment industry.

“Armys always say that they would be fine with bts dating. They talk about the future, not the present tense, because when there are any rumors about a relationship, armys deny it

In short

Armys: members can date anyone they want, they are adults and we respect them and their privacy🥰

Also armys when there is real evidence that one of the members has a girlfriend: impossible 🙈🙉🤬🤥”

Army have such a long history with never being able to be normal about the women BTS interact with. And some of them think being “normal” is to over compensate. Even besides the sk one who did the reflection portion, there was the one from fallon that people were putting on a pedestal for no reason. Like y’all had no idea this woman even existed before now.

They had found her socials the minute after that episode aired and started to follow her then wanted to act like that wasn’t weird. They’ll stress themselves out over the same scenarios they created in their own heads because when they see these men with women, they’re imagining their potential futures where they’re not the one who will be with them romantically.

I think TH with Jennie (and JK with all the girls he’s been caught with) are the only examples we’ve gotten of any of BTS actually being with women. Some people say that the reason armys were upset about TH being with Jennie is because they hate her. And while that’s part of it, they didn’t know any of the girls JK has been seen with. And they’re still in denial that he could have been with them in a dating sense. They simply just don’t like the idea of them dating period.

first of all, LO, you literally described yourself on the first parragraph. you don't have any respect for any culture, as demostrated for how you treat your "native heritage", but especially none for non western ones. neither the culture or the people for that matter. everytime you have a chance to consider cultural differences or appreciate them, you rolled them into the dirt and claim they don't matter because your own cultural interpretation should be enough. you were the one who in a stream sounded positively giddy at the idea of the USA destroying Japan so throughfully that now there's no real difference between the culture, which means celebrating the total colonization of Japan. that's one of the more openly hateful and disgusting things i have ever heard anyone say about another country, and i'm not even counting the times you refer to the entire country as being filled with pedophiles. second of all... LO, when have you ever looked into any of this? when? because what i have seen, Japanese have a crisis with overworking and people being taken to their absolute limits because of work... since the 90s at least. by saying that it's just capitalism then you ignore the very real history of how the economy of Japan was affected since the first bubble exploded. if it was just "late stage capitalism", then every creative person in the west too would be sleeping on the studios to keep working first hour in the morning and until they literally fell to sleep on the studios. it happens in the west, the reason why people protest for the bad treatment of animators and especial effects people, but it's not nearly as common as it happens in japan. read the accounts of managakas who burned out, were close to it or for some miracle withstand work hours that we can't even imagine here in the west and then tell me it's the same. it's not. in fact, by claiming that there's no cultural factors and it's all some big and vague "late stage capitalism", you're erasing how serious the issue is. you're erasing the culture entirely out of the question and making it about some universal form of capitalism, as if capitalism itself affected all countries and cultures exactly the same around the globe when it very much doesn't do that. how can you say that and pretend like you're not the racist one? third... no, actually, anime wasn't censoring anything. western companies who bought that anime for cheap and thus gave it the bare minimum in term of care censored stuff. Sailor Moon had accidental incest lesbian cousins very obviously in love because of the censorship... something i imagine you were actually pretty okay with. if only they were sisters, then you'd have loved it a lot more. the people who made those animes had nothing to do with that decision, they had no control over how those companies worked. Ghost Stories is an example of a dub company having so much liberty to do whatever they wanted that they completely reinvented the story and characters into something completely different. again, without anyone involved with the original anime having any power to do anything about it or even knowing it was happening. LO keeps having this idea that Japan is making any sort of effort to appeals to westeners and they do not. they make anime for themselves, first and foremost. rather colonialistic mindset to have. so, indeed, those animes were westernized... to avoid queer themes. and it was all done by westeners. once again, this is LO riding the corporate train to avoid blaming those poor defenseless companies and still making it about how the people in Japan are the ones always in the wrong, because she's a racist ignorant white person.

i think we need to talk about lucy gray

before we get into the bulk of the rant, i want to clarify i’m not denying that lucy gray is very clever and very good at emotionally manipulating people. you have to be, as someone who makes a living out of performing for other people. and, seeing as she already relied on that skill to survive without the capitol being in the picture, she’s obviously very good at making people like + root for her

the point of this post isn’t me being like “lucy gray has done nothing wrong in her entire life” bc i honestly don’t think that’s true. like, with the war ruining her childhood and the games ruining her teenage dirtbag era and snow ruining what’s left of her adulthood, it would surprise me if she’s not at least a little bit fucked up. she’s not a poor lil lamb or a ruthless killer, but a secret third thing. emotional manipulation is one of her strengths, but i also think it’s her biggest weakness as well

so, without further ado, let’s get into the actual rant!

we obviously know billy taupe sucks. i’m gonna try to not let my own headcanons get in the way of what i’m saying too much, but based on the fact this man literally had to get shot to finally shut the fuck up about running away with lucy gray, i think it’s safe to say that he was obviously very controlling and possessive. but he was always outward with it, unlike snow

so here lucy gray is, in the capitol, because billy taupe got his feet muddy and that’s somehow HER problem, and there’s this guy there! and he’s not (outwardly) repulsed by the fact she lives in the districts! we already know that people view snow as a very genuine person, so what’s lucy gray supposed to think? everyone in the capitol is so intent on treating her and the other tributes like animals, so snow doing less than the bare minimum and sneaking her a couple crackers every now and then probably comes across as a very touching display of humanity for her

and then she gets back home, and there are moments where she’s like “damn my capitol boyfriend is acting odd as fuck” but what’s she got to compare him to? billy taupe, the living embodiment of a sweat stain. someone who has an explosive temper, someone who isn’t intimidated by the idea of immediately getting aggressive and confrontational when something doesn’t go his way, someone who is very transparent with his ickiness. lucy gray was probably over the moon that she ditched billy taupe and his tobacco ridden lungs for someone like snow. she probably thought she was lucky that she seemingly got this whole romance thing down on the second try

and you know what? i absolutely do think lucy gray not only blamed herself for these two failed relationships, but for winding up in the games in general. *in my experience* there is a lot of guilt mixed in with removing yourself from a toxic relationship. instead of being like “slay i don’t have to deal with all this weird bullshit anymore B)” you start blaming yourself for not leaving sooner, or for not acknowledging the signs, and self-blame is especially common for people that have been cheated on. it seems like lucy gray left immediately after billy taupe cheated on her (yay!), but it also seems like we caught her in the second stage of the breakup (anger). the bargaining will come later

and, after snow reveals himself as someone who is, in fact, an aggressive person with an explosive temper, i think lucy gray would definitely start to blame herself for how common this pattern of behavior is from the guys she’s dating. you know, as if it’s her fault that the people in her life treat her like shit

i guess this sounds like a very pointless rant, but cmon! breakups are already so heavy and world altering when you’re 16, but being cheated on? then getting sent to your death by the girl your ex cheated on you with, as if it’s your fault? then your new boyfriend who you thought was sooo much sweeter and more thoughtful than your old boyfriend pulling a gun out on you, as if him murdering his “best friend” is also your fault? goddam! she’s not just processing the games anymore—she’s processing a clusterfuck of betrayal and attempted murders that take place outside of the arena. her being reaped is nobody’s fault but mayfair’s for getting so territorial over a boy that probably smells like a soggy, dirty sock, but lucy gray would absolutely internalize this until she starts blaming herself for not “seeing the signs sooner” or not being able to “keep him happy” before billy taupe wandered off and got her shipped to the capitol

i also want to acknowledge how different she is around billy taupe in comparison to snow, bc her behavior with billy taupe was one of the reasons why snow was so distrustful of her at the end of the book. but tbh if i wasn’t worried about saying something that would start a screaming match between someone who cheated on me and looked the other way as i was being sent to my DEATH, i’d start biting too! no jk but i think the the thing with that is lucy gray didn’t have to be as careful with how she approached billy taupe bc she could literally just kick him off her property if he started acting up and the covey would be chill with it. before the breakup, they’d both have to deal with the fallout of losing their tempers, so lucy gray finally having the opportunity to tell him to fuck off (as well as her trauma from the games) probably influenced how much more boldly she interacted with him after she got home

idk i just think viewing her as some sort of master manipulator who solely viewed snow as an exit ticket reads a bit too much like snow going sicko mode in the woods after he somehow convinced himself that lucy gray is out to get him bc the capitol forced her to play a game and she won. i genuinely do think she liked snow at the beginning. she was very vulnerable by the time they met, and while i do believe she knew snow was her best shot at leaving the arena alive, she had more important things on her mind than thinking about if her literal mentor giving her food so she doesn’t starve to death is part of some sort of longcon mind game extravaganza. also her already being distrustful of him but still staying with him after she won also seems like a longcon mind game extravaganza, but i don’t see what her motive would be for doing that

(don’t get it twisted tho i looove fanfics where lucy gray is like “this boy is not my fuckinf type but i’ll be damned if i won’t eat his food.” there was a fanfic on ao3 where the main pairing was lucy gray and sejanus and <3 oh i love that so much she deserved someone genuinely sweet in her life)

this concept sounded so much better in my head but basically the gist of what i’m trying to say is that there’s probably a lot of self hatred on lucy gray’s part for how awful her life turned out. (also i’m not trying to boil down her character to the guys she’s had romantic relationships with, but i think there is something to be said about how snow views things like love and obsession and control as things that are very much.. interchangeable)

actually here’s the gist of the gist:

“fool me once, shame on me. fool me twice, also shame on me” -lucy gray after two different boyfriends both try to murder her for having the audacity to think for herself

another disclaimer before i end off this post: i don’t mean for this to come across as me bashing anyone who has theories about lucy gray wanting snow on her good side bc she wanted a higher chance of surviving. maybe she was just stringing him along, or maybe her already fucked up perception of love paired with a wholly fucked up situation made her think he was much sweeter than he was

or maybe it’s a secret third thing

Elden Ring is genuinely one of the least fun of all the souls games. It's just empty. It's hollow. Not in the joking manner but literally, it's just such an empty, checklist of an experience.

For one thing, it's a stupid fuck idea to make it so if I get knocked down, if I don't Dodge Roll back up, I'll get hit again, but then make enemies, that punish this, when you're literal only alternative, is to just take the damage, and hope they don't do it again.

It's just bad. Like every "hard" base enemy in Elden Ring wasn't designed. It feels like the developers themselves only played Dark Souls 3, and not even that much. They didn't get anything from it. Not that DS3 is even good, they'd honestly been better off with DS2, DS3 just fucking sucks, every encounter is ridiculous.

In Elden Ring you never know if you're attack will hit. I'll admit it's cool how many attacks you can jump over, but the fact that's practically apart of their design just forces you to play one way, and that way is fundamentally one that is not fun. Not intuitive. Not worth it.

Every. Fucking fight, feels like I'm not playing Dark Souls but a Unity knock off. Enemies feel both like jelly, and like I'm clipping through them, not damaging them but telling the engine "tell em to take damage" Poise break is utterly random, my strongest move doesn't break poise, but my weakest, at pure random, does.

They spam enemies like it's DS2. It's not fun fighting hordes of enemies when they didn't even fucking solve the problem that was getting ganked in a corner.

Don't get me started on flying enemies, no no, please, make them stupid hard to hit, unfun to follow, and have them do stupid shit like shoot fire. Why not. It's not like it's genuinely just a frustrating experience and not a single thing else.

Exploring is pointless. You want good equipment? You have to grind in late stages of the game. You're only option is to grind enemies, who drop pieces of their armor, randomly, and just pray, pray to god they give you something that doesn't look like a fucking joke, or a piece of shit.

Honestly whoever made the armor designs should be fired. Same with weapons, is there a reason 20% of the weapons look and act bout the same as each other, and you get them the most often? Just boring getting yet another shoe or glove or helmet, they look like shit, have varying stats of worth, and overall you're still getting one hit killed by enemies with attacks that do 3 fucking hits in one go.

Or, the aforementioned "dodge roll or get hit when knocked down, except sometimes not where we'll punish you for this god awful mechanic, and we didn't remotely plan or make anything for that situation."

It's genuinely, just a bad game. There's very, very little content. Whatever you do in the first 10 minutes, you'll be doing for the rest of the game. And it never, ever, feels good. It always feels like a slog. This fuck off massive open world with Absolutely Nothing In It.

The more you play, the more you realize it's a checklist of dark souls, bare minimum for each. Slapped into an Open World.

Elden Ring feels like the Farcry of Ubisoft. A completely, hollow, experience, with nothing but checklists. The only difference is there's a layer of professionalism that Ubisoft never displays without coming off completely insincere. Elden Ring opens the door for you, but doesn't offer you a drink or place to sleep, let alone a blanket.

it doesn't reward you literally, and I can't stress this enough, it Literally, Never. Rewards you. There's no point in fighting most enemies, just run through til you reach the next checkpoint. It's boring. It's so. So. So hollow.

And to be clear here, While DS2/3 were technically my first Souls-like, I hated them, didn't really give them much time, DS3 is genuinely a piece of shit. DS2 at least, has some artistry. Doesn't feel completely phoned in.

ER was my first true experience. And I enjoyed it, but very, very quickly, my opinion of it dwindled. It's just...another fucking checklist open world game. Not checklist as I meant before where they just looked at their catalogue and put whatever memorable in at the bare minimum of effort.

No, it just became dull as fuck. I kept having armor from the beginning of the fucking game because it Never fucking gave me anything else to wear worth a shit. I had to stick mostly to 2 weapons and they fucking sucked but were the only weapons able to fucking break past the garbo this game gives off.

It became obvious that dodge-rolling wasn't that great, you HAD to time them, and even then it wasn't worth doing, because they punish you for learning. It's just so bad. It's so fucking bad fighting the birds, the giant dogs, like fuck off. Give Me a REASON to fucking bother. They never do. They attack fast as shit, run miles away, you can't hit them, you have to wait, forever, and just dance around. It's fucking boring. It's so. God Damned Hollow.

Genuinely, Elden Ring's status will only diminish. Because it gets worse every playthrough. Nobody. Not one soul, can tell me it remotely matches DS1.

Fun Fact, DS1 was the last in the series for me to have played. From DS2, to DS3, to Elden Ring, then to DS1. DS1 is still, despite being a garbage bag with a handful of gold inside it, is still the best in the entire souls catalogue. Because it gave a shit. Elden Ring didn't. They put Absolutely Everything into the visuals, and they're not even good, because they're Grey as fuck, Have Chromatic Abberation, continually force Anti-Aliasing back on, RTX hardly looks better and runs terribler.

Honestly, After playing every souls like other than exclusives, I can safely say that Fromsoft had a Fluke. But one. Dark Souls. They've never tried since then. DS2 was fundamental proof they didn't know what they had, nor what to do with it, they threw literally everything, every, god damned thing out, and it failed because some absolute dumbshit put everything into the god damn lighting that didn't even work or stay.

Then DS3 comes around and I can't even remotely think of one good thing to say. What. The Grey visuals again? Once again a fucking Grey Filter? Awful enemies with too much health and do too much damage, it never feels like they're made to be bosses, it feels like they made you a bottom tier NPC with infinitely less at your disposal than any other game in the series. You're fucking called the Chosen One all the god damned time, don't get me started on the fucking store bitch utterly killing the entire vibe of the game calling you "Ashen One" in that obnoxious delivery. Yes please make me feel like a Saturday Night Cartoon Superhero. That totally doesn't Utterly Destroy Everything About The Game and Artistry.

Then here comes Elden Ring. Where they boiled every aspect of Dark Souls 1 down to a fucking checklist, a format that offers less than every subsequent game, just made more convenient. I swear to god when I saw the barrels with fucking dudes throwing bombs I vomitted. Because it was handled so, so much worse than every game before it. It's not even debateable, it feels like a checklist. That's the game. "Gotta have the explosive barrel section" and "gotta have the enemy behind the wall section"

it's so boiled down it becomes as empty as an Ubisoft game, and it literally never stops going down that rabbit hole. I desperately do not want Elden Ring to be the new formula. I really, fucking hate their open world format. It's as empty as their shitty world. No story to push you, no characters of interest that feel like actual characters in the world but instead a shitty scripted event.

All this to say: I don't get the Fromsoft loveboner. At least from a Souls-Like perspective. I really, really don't. They made 1 good game, and forever abandoned it for shittier and shittier boiled down to their bare minimum components versions. It never, improved. It got worse somehow every game.

They looked at the sheer number of options Dark Souls provided, they looked at the exploration and fun traversal of many areas, they looked at the interconnectivity, they looked at the combat, and they said "How can we simplify it further, how can we not improve, how can we not itterate, how much can we abandon."

they focused on combat, the worst part of dark souls, abandoned exploration for linear stages connected via shitty teleports, hallways, and elevators. They took NPCs that lived and breathed in the world in some manner, and boiled them down to set pieces, pointless stories with no greater purpose. They took the charm of the visuals and lighting and put a fucking grey filter on it. They took the online elements and kept shrinking their scope into nothingness.

I genuinely, can't believe how experimental DS1 is, and how much they abandoned to be this overtly streamlined, meant to get the greatest audience, garbage, that has never been capable of reaching the 7/10 that DS1 was.

Simply put: It has to be embarrassing to be a fromsoft fan. Sure, their quality has only dropped slowly, but it's dropping. And next game i guarantee, will be the one that makes people realize. Oh. They really were just a fluke. A One off, a Once in a Lifetime. That's it. Congrats on the fake legacy propped up by exactly one game.

https://www.tumblr.com/denimini/731243899182563328/today-perfectly-illustrated-why-i-try-not-to-jump?source=share&ref=faeinthecloud1

Glad someone thinks like me cause i be seeing everyone going"see? Vmin are all okay so the same applies to jkk" and i disagree with that cause atleast jkk had some online interaction vmin had almost nothing.

Being honest? the thought of th asking jm to join his fanmeet already crossed my mind. Idk bro i still feel they weren't on that good terms in the beginning. They might have resolved it. before jm going to tae's music show taehyung hardly ever mentioned jm like not even during jm's album release... but as soon as jm went to the music show he suddenly mentioned jm in his two lives in row (which honestly never happened before since 2023 when he started doing those 3min lives)..

i never believed that this and that interaction between members are planned (except some of the things they do on stage like doing a dance move nd something like those interactions ) and I'm also not going to start doing that now. I still believe all of their interactions are genuine.

But yeah i do believe there was something which might have got resolved and all.

Before jm's Album i thought hobi and tae would go to his mv shoot and his music shows (if jm does) or like any thing to support jm but the way taehyung disappointed me, I'm never calling them soulmates again ever and I'm also not gonna like their friendship like before. like now no matter which member does what for jm literally i don't feel grateful for anything I'm like "so what? Jm does so much more for them they can do atleast this simple thing". I know it's petty and all but the way all my hopes from them crushed bad I'm never hoping a single thing from any member (Maybe except hobi. I believe he'll be there for jm).

Thing is jimin does way big things for the members so anytime any member does something for him it feels small cause his gestures are always big so no matter what you're never beating him in being the supportive one.

A very bad thing to say but gonna stop being greatful for the bare minimum even tho i don't know what goes behind off cam cause if jm can do on and off cam and all the members are active on sns then yeah...

I think we shouldn't compare the other members' support with Jimin's because, let's be honest, very few people in life are at Jimin's level when it comes to emotional intelligence, support to loved ones and expression of love. Jimin simply is a very rare gem in this world.

All of the members have shown support towards Jimin during FACE era in their own way, and we also don't know what was going on behind the scenes. Sure, I think Tae could have done more, and comparatively, Jimin did do more for Layover, but if JM doesn't seem mad or insulted, we shouldn't be either.

I know that for years now, it seems like JM is there for everyone else, and not many people are there for him, but he always says his biggest support is ARMY and the other members. We should try to remember that all of them are different people and express their support in different ways. Not to mention that if we assume JM and Tae have some fall out at the beginning of the year, this explains the lack of a grander supporting gesture on behalf of Taehyung.

two cents anon here

My thinking they’re not together isn’t really tied to how bh portrays their relationship, because there could be other factors at play, one of which is the company trying to promote less popular members, and the easiest and most profitable way is through shipping.

BH still makes money off of tk, they just use clickbaity trailers and minimal interactions (e.g., sowoozoo, we had a bunch of tk moments, but 99% of them were just JK laughing at something Tae did, nothing really of substance between them… tkkrs ate it up and some even encouraged eo to buy the dvd). imo BH has finally found a good balance for their biggest ships and doesn’t want to rock the boat 🤷‍♀️ (jkkrs are obsessed with “official content” and tkkrs will settle for the bare minimum 144p-microwave-quality-play-at-being-an-FBI-agent content)

I have seen moments of attraction between them, and even without those moments of attraction I would still be inclined to believe they’re both queer, but I don’t think they’re together because the amount of obstacles they would have faced at whatever stage they would have decided to get together just seems insurmountable to me. If it had just been the societal aspect, they could’ve risked it, like you said queer people still exist and exist together in SK. If it had just been the fame aspect, they could’ve risked it because they have the resources to keep it on the down low. If it had just been the two of them without the rest of their bandmates, they could’ve risked it because they wouldn’t be jeopardising anyone’s livelihood but their own. But all of these aspects together, especially knowing what happened to the last two boy groups whose members were outed? It just doesn’t seem likely to me.

It’s the first time someone’s asked me this so I might not have made much sense 😅

Hi, welcome back!  And thank you for sharing your thoughts, I really appreciate hearing other people’s perspectives.

This makes complete sense to me actually, and I felt very similarly as you do earlier on.  That’s actually part of the reason why I’m constantly saying that if Taehyung and Jungkook are together, then I think they’ve probably been together for a long time -- because you’re right, it would be an awfully big risk to take, and I think that would hold a lot of people back.  I think if they made it into adulthood without acting on their attraction/feelings, then there’s a good chance that they overcame that and have ended up just having a really sweet friendship.

For me personally, though, I actually think in their case it’s more likely that they have acted on that attraction if they truly do feel it.  I think that because I feel that evidence of their attraction exists from very early on, and I think it would be really, really hard for literal teenagers to resist making some arguably bad decisions if they had those kinds of feelings and they were around each other all the time -- not just working closely together but living together too.  I just think of what it was like to live in college dorms freshman year and...yeah, it’s harder for me to believe that they would resist the temptation than it is for me to believe that they might throw caution to the wind and go for it, especially as kids.

Add to that the way that the members talk to and about them, the glimmers of not just attraction but, in my opinion, intimacy between them, how often there seem to be little hints that they spend a ton of time together, plus the types of romantic songs that they write and choose to work on, and it just seems to me like they’ve probably been in a relationship for a long time.

All that said though, I do totally understand where you’re coming from.  I still have moments where I think, is it really possible?  Would they really do that?  So I get it, and ultimately I think the most important thing -- in this space anyway -- is just to appreciate their bond, whatever you or I or anyone else believes the shape of their relationship to be.

Thank you again for taking the time to share your perspective!

Shinnosuke: That Koganeya is one slippery thief!

Keiwa: Wait, you found him?

Kiriko: We also found Sumida attending classes normally.

Emu: Seriously, who was in-charge of his treatment?!

Emu: It's like they did the bare minimum!

Hiiro: I wouldn't say the bare minimum.

Hiiro: It's likely his frustrations got the better of him at times and his injured leg was damaged.

Kiriko: We checked the records regarding Sumida's accident.

Kiriko: Apparently, it was a case of drunk driving and the said driver is still unconscious.

Michinaga: Heh, he's complaining about his cards when he got the better end of the deal.

Emu: Michinaga-kun, both Sumida-kun and the driver did not get a better deal from their circumstances.

Emu: While Sumida-kun was able to walk again, he wouldn't be able to do the things he did before the accident.

Hina: And that's a perfectly valid reaction.

Kiriko: Hina-chan.

Hina: Kiriko-chan, you're here!

Hina: I wanted to see you.

Kiriko: What's wrong?

Hina: No, nothing is wrong.

Kiriko: Oren-san wanted to give this to you and Kagami-sensei.

Hiiro: Thank you for delivering this, however, I was under the assumption that he was going to have Jounochi deliver this.

Hina: Well, he's coordinating with the restoration committee about stages around Zawame, so Oren-san asked if I could do it.

Hiiro: Thank you for delivering the cake, Izumi-san.

Shinnosuke: You did and buy the cake for the kids?

Kiriko: Yeah, they really liked the cakes Oren-san made.

Kiriko: Much more than that of Kougami-san's.

Hina: *chuckles* if he were here, he'd commend the children's desire for the cakes they like.

Neon: Wait, wait.

Neon: Are we talking about the famous patissier from Zawame?

Neon: Oh I love his cakes!

Keiwa: What's so special about his cakes?

Keiwa: Nee-chan and I were at Zawame once before and we came across his cake shop

Keiwa: Nee-chan was really into his cakes.

Keiwa: Sure it was tasty, I don't think it was THAT tasty.

Zack: If you were a kid then, he'd probably say that you were still a kid and did not have a sophisticated taste buds.

Hina: Zack-kun!

Zack: Hina-san, hello.

Hina: What are you doing here?

Zack: i'm here for a Sakurai Keiwa.

Keiwa: Ah, here.

Zack: You're one of the newest Riders huh?

Keiwa: Eh?

Zack: That'll be *insert price here*

Zack: I'm guessing that was your sister who made the call for Druper's

Keiwa: Yeah, we were running out of fruits and we found that Druper's sold fruits cheaper than everyone else, including delivery.

Zack: Leave it to Oren-san to suggest that Druper's have an online store.

Zack: To boost Zawame's economy, after everything that happened.

Hina: He was trained in France, after all.

Zack: True.

Zack: A piece of advice, Keiwa, expect betrayal.

Keiwa: Eh?

Zack: As a Rider, I've betrayed a fair share of people, and everyone around here, apart from you new Riders, has experienced a betrayal or two.

Emu: Zack-kun...

Zack: I know what I did Hojo-sensei.

Kiriko: You were stuck in between an unstoppable force and an immovable object.

Kiriko: Quite literally.

Keiwa: *looks at his fellow DGP Riders*

Ace: *smirks*

Michinaga: *scoffs*

Neon: *looks conflicted*

Uhhh there's a bit much here for me to react to tbh

I don't know how nihilism and misanthropy is a valid reaction to a broken leg... I mean, my disability literally made me unable to play any sport without dislocating my knee, and that didn't make me want to end the world or whatever. The Sumida kid's got more issues than a broken leg, for sure.

Keiwa just isn't into the hype lmao. Tbf I kinda see his pov- I never really understood the whole hype culture thing, and I think Keiwa's just the kind of guy who finds something he really likes and sticks to it even though it's "basic", like tanuki soba.

But oh yeah that last thing... Honestly both Azuma and Ace are really sus. Tsumuri doesn't seem to answer to anyone but the person running the DGP and while we do see signs that she isn't entirely into the whole thing (like some fleeting moments of sadness/regret over the eliminated Riders) it seems like she won't rebel either.

The way they started the episode off with stage 3 c-word and kept repeating about myung-seok's d*ath in like literally the 1st 5 mins

And how minwoo was acting ableist in front of both suyeon and junho, but he's supposed to be portrayed as sweet bc he did the bare minimum of stopping her from chugging a bug?? No bc I was literally waiting for suyeon and junho to jump his ass

The writing this episode, like what was all thatttt ??😐😩

i want to know who hurt writernim. like. something must have to made them think this was a good idea. the way atty. jung was like ‘i have stage three c word 😐 yeah. okay. i’ll get the surgery i guess 🤷🏻‍♂️’ is so ??? TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF WHY ARE YOU SO NONCHALANT??

the fact that he was this 🤏 close to saying the most vile ableist things out there…IN FRONT OF SUYEON AND JUNHO!! with his full chest too! no one cares that he does one act of kindness. we want him to stop being a dumpster fire who feels so threatened and insecure and tiny that he constantly make those comments. his whole ‘forget about her’ did not come a place of a friend trying to help out. you know he felt secretly glad that junho was dumped. i think he only shut his mouth when he realized the death glares he was receiving. he has done nothing to deserve redemption let alone did he do anything to deserve suyeon. speaking of suyeon…you can’t control your heart but girlie can absolutely make the conscious decision to not date minwoo. she is not blind to his ableist comments!! or general trashy-ness.

what did they do? write a rough draft for the script and decide to not edit it? to think these plot lines and things through??

everyone @ writernim these past two episodes:

The toxic side of Escort Clubs in SecondLife. (RANT)

Do you all know how many places(adult clubs) I've worked at that are severely toxic? Not just the other workers, for the most part they are very nice. I mean THE OWNERS of these clubs. These adult clubs, specifically escort clubs, are so strict and when you bring concerns up to the owners, the owners will 100% gaslight and manipulate you into thinking they do these things for a good reason, which for the most part... They don't. They have these rules set in place to be strict, money grabbing assholes. Places I've worked at have 100% over worked their employees, and when the employees (myself included) expressed how overworked they felt, or tired they are after a long week and because of such, they are incapable to complete the agreed hours. Hours being 4 hours bare minimum, 7-8 hours for exclusive employees, 10+ for management, and THEN SOME. Now it seems more popular that the hours are being less, but likely because of these specific clubs either being exposed for their unacceptable hours, or they're actually owned by nice people. As someone who has a pretty busy RL, and uses SL as a hobby, I and many others, cannot sit down at a computer on SL all day every day. We have Real Life to tend to. Work, kids, family matters, etc. I understand a lot of club owners pour their hard earned money/Lindens into SL and their club and want the club(s) to be a success, but that DOES NOT excuse abusing their staff. Staff members have been humiliated, lied to, manipulated, verbally abused and even fired for little to nothing. Do you know what happens when you can't make your agreed hours? You risk being fired. Especially if you fail to message the owners " in time" due to simply forgetting from being so busy with RL. Even if you explain why, for example, I was in the hospital once for mental health issues and even giving the owners of the club I worked at at that time updates, and explaining I won't be online or at least at the club( In escort clubs you HAVE GOT to be flirty CONSTANTLY). Understandably, I was NOT in a flirty mood, and know what happened? I had the owner and her clique of managers up my ass and around the corner about when I "can be on stage" when I literally just got out of the hospital for a mental break down. The stress escort clubs put their employees under is simply not excusable.

ALSO, Most of these club owners have their own PRIVATE DISCORD where they get together and shit talk EVERY EMPLOYEE THEY DON'T LIKE, and with almost all of these club owners being in the same discord, and having that " hive mentality" they can easily BLACKLIST ANY EMPLOYEE THEY DISLIKE, and the worst of it, they blacklist employees before giving employees a chance to defend themselves. My friend got blacklisted by these very people, and she was out of work for a LONG TIME because of it all. She was miserably depressed, stressed and anxious about the thought of being completely blacklisted from almost all escort clubs on the grid. She loves the escort community on SL, and the fact she was too afraid to find another place to work and have fun at because of these narcissistic, gaslighting and manipulative abusers is sickening. Does LL know about the discord server, More than likely no, they don't. Otherwise every. Single. Club. Would get either shut down or have LL checking on them 24/7. Luckily my friend did find another place, but even that place was just as toxic, if not worse than a lot of the others, and she ended up quitting because the owners WOULD NOT LET UP on messaging her. She explained how stressed out she was, and how she couldn't keep up with it anymore, so she quit. For the love of fucking god, please STOP abusing other people on SL, as many others do actually use this specific community to pay their RL bills. Treating them like work horses drug through dog shit is not acceptable on any level, regardless of SL being a virtual world or not.

#personal

Been a little happier lately despite all the gloom, doom and fuckery. I can't say anything has been getting any better in my normal life. I fear that sooner or later everything is going to implode around me. I received an email back from a recruiter Friday night. I don't really get much contact from anything in the job market at all. I send about three or four resumes a week depending on the listings. The recruiter admitted that the hourly pay rate and role probably wasn't of interest for a person at this stage of my career. That's interesting poker call in the game of job hunting. Some of the jobs I've applied for customer service in certain fringe industries only offer barely above minimum wage. This opportunity would have been fixing computers. So it kind of told me how low in my field I shouldn't go salary wise. I've applied for three or four jobs in the Marijuana industry here in Illinois. Those are a little easier to present yourself professionally to ironically. But everything out there for me is a mixture of closed doors, reluctance to interact, and some grand cult like civic agenda I'm supposed to already know. For the record, finances are my own problem. This is what has stressed me out so much about being retired early. It isn't so much about the money. It's that everybody just assumes I don't have to work. The pension payout I got wasn't exactly enough to live on for the rest of my life. Not that anyone around Chicago appreciated my birthday even happened let alone admit I"m alive and still sell music. I keep thinking of myself as a test subject. That Generation Z and Millennials are going to be hit worse when their time comes. Imagine hitting your ten year mark in a career you went to college for at thirty three or something. Then being forcibly retired and having to plan out the next fifty or so years of your life. I've spent almost three years doing that. And all I ever get is recruiters asking me if I can refer them to someone more fit for the roles they offer. Why blog about it when I can just worship a woman I'm in love with at her feet? Because I'm kind of fearful the things we both love about this country are going into a financial tailspin. I just read that a population of gen z was polled as thinking women's rights have "gone too far." That shit scares me. That the children of generation x are complete fuck ups in so far that they've erased any culture we brought to the table. I'm completely invisible these days. I tend to use it to my advantage to stay alive and protect the things nobody really needs to know about.

I've always thought the thing about me that probably is the most attractive is that I try to deal with the present in a creative way. Even if dumb people don't understand it. I don't care. I know I'm in a completely losing situation. And I know people are just always trying to trap you into some petty shit to make you trip. My immediate neighbors fucking unplug the laundry when they see me get quarters so I lose them when I try to do my wash. They've stolen my 5g phone after being delivered by fed ex by asking me to unlock the laundry room while someone else lifts the package. They've set up makeshift shit traps on the fence so that I'll be covered in feces when I take out the trash. They work with my old job to intimidate me at the mailbox when my COBRA extension gets delivered. All of this is true. Nobody wants me to prove it. And has happened over a two or three year period. I've been trapped here writing about it. I've been applying for jobs overseas, in la and New York to get away from it. And I just sit here day after day watching nothing happen. I get that ultimate the joke is on other people. But some of the things I've had to do recently just fucking piss me off. I was expected to literally spend down my whole retirement and wait for another offer. I haven't done that yet. But the way the stock market has behaved the last two years, I've been left holding the bag on a lot of shit. I don't really understand how anyone in the future is supposed to retire with things behaving this fucked up. The value of Tesla as a company is ten times it's future revenue. That's like ten credit cards stacked on top of each other with Jerome Powell tap dancing at the top with a cane that twirls the interest rates around like a magic show. This recent bank failure is the result of nobody having enough liquid cash on hand to cover their ass. And yet everyone listens to whatever the fuck some twit whole stole an entire free speech platform to bankrupt it has to say.

And the FDIC bails out exactly 250k max for each "victim" at Silicon Valley Bank they protect. Around the same time they cut pandemic food benefits for poor people. I tried a number of things over these years to buffer myself. I didn't just lose my job yesterday. But even the two universal basic income programs I applied for in my country and city I was denied. I didn't qualify for unemployment because my pension payout was too much income. I basically got fucked. Now Monday morning an entire mess of startups will implode because there is no way to payroll with two hundred and fifty dollars thousand dollars unless you are paying minimum wage. Maybe that was intentional? That's one way to sabotage the employment of America. I still invest just the same. I was taught by America that this is the only way to stay alive. But my perception of money, capitalism and rich people is that of a gluttonous demon who plays tricks on the townsfolk like the idiots fucking with my laundry. If you've read this far, you understand that I don't think there's a solution in complaining. I'm not even on health insurance anymore. Not like COBRA payments weren't as much as my rent. I've been literally left to die by most of the people who say they knew so much about me from my past. I've been on LinkedIn the entire time professionally. If people wanted to find me for a real opportunity it's right there. I cut off my Facebook. I cut off my instagram. I block people on Tumblr that I think are too locally nosy about what I'm doing. I have to ignore entire friend groups now out of proactivity simply because they're not worth the liability of gossiping about my personal life. I know the way forward in the future is to leave it all behind. I just am a person who thinks deeply a lot. I am hurt that people don't want to fix things. I am hurt that when I get given a new shovel by my building maintenance the rest of the neighborhood treats this shit like a school yard bully and thinks I'm the teacher's pet. This isn't fucking high school. And yet with child labor and child marriage, maybe it's not far off. People out here have turned severely populist, encumbered by their own financial decisions that seem to be blowing up left and right. I think we're all a little more aware of the dangers of being blindsided by absolute failure here in this country. But it's getting beyond scary that you can communicate so well but the people around you will actively collude to fuck up your only line of communication to people who care about you. That's fucking terrorism. And these people out here are motivated by it for the dumbest fucking reasons. They aren't smart and they don't appreciate smart people or talent. Mainly because everyone would rather hoodwink, trick and grease people than work together. The more people get tricked? The more people get angry and the more society here in America starts to turn worse than it already is for me. I know my future is a lot brighter especially when I think about things that inspire me. And I am still inspired don't get me wrong. But I'm fucking dying out here in a literal ghetto prison of bullshit that I don't think anyone hasn't observed being fishy at least once. I just live every day like people are camping out waiting to surveil me on every corner. They literally take my garbage out of the trash and leave it on my porch facing back at me. Like we know what you spend your money on. I know what you did a couple summers ago too. And if the tips I sent in the government are any indication. Everybody gonna lose their fucking jobs sooner or later. I'm not hiring. <3 Tim

Deep sigh….. big rant incoming, bc if I don’t let it out it’s going to kill me inside….. anyway, I think somethings could be better if the writers at least try to show us after work scenes with Chenford, when we see Tim and Lucy they’re always at work, like show us what they do AFTER work, like we basically know Tim lives with Lucy now, show us them cuddling on the couch, cooking dinner together, idk give us more interactions OUTSIDE of work bc we know they can’t be intimate and touchy AT work and that’s basically all we see of them, which is repeat after me: AT WORK.

it’s really obvious the show is now trying to focus more on the big plots instead of trying to help the audience build a connection with the characters, I mean look at what they’re doing with Lucy, We haven’t seen her get any promotions or any indication that she’s moving up in her career or what she wants to do moving forward…nothing! we didn’t see her at UC school, or hear more about her Time in UC school, it’s so frustrating bc everyone’s moving up while she’s stuck running around doing god knows what, and they just proved it by making her look after the make a dream kid with Tim. I could go on and on about how the writers are literally doing the shittiest job writing stories for the main cast but that’s another post for another day lol.

anyways, remember those underground car park scenes of Chenford after work, those to me were really good filler scenes to develop their relationship and those were what kept me going, we used to get so much of them, wtf happened?? I would really like to see a scene with Chenford in the underground car park now that they’re dating like it’s the bare minimum really, I wish they could just give us something small like that, it’s not the Chenford show but small scenes like that could easily help us see the development, even if the scene is like 30 secs long.. Now, I’m happy that they’re having talks about kids but it just feels so weird right now during this stage of their relationship when we NEVER and I mean NEVER EVER see them having intimate moments together, sure we see Lucy touch Tim’s arms here and there but it’s all surface level stuff bc we never see Tim reciprocating it back.

Nowadays it really feels like they’re replacing all the important aspects of their relationship for banter and irrelevant plot lines (the make a dream kid plot is so stupid, no offence cancer kid ) and it’s truly disappointing. It makes me so mad because we could be having actual meaningful scenes with their relationship but instead we get to watch them look after a make a dream kid all day, like give me actual policing that will lead them to talking about children, not taking care of a make a dream kid who sent them on a Wild goose chase in the fucking station, it was just so annoying to watch ugh. it would’ve been more meaningful if they had taken care of baby Jack or something lolz. I’m not saying that Chenford have to be the typical melodrama couple but when we go back to s1-s2 it’s hard to not want that when the writers have built it up so well. They don’t have to be kissing 24/7 or having sex all the time but I would really like to see them be intimate and actually acting like a couple, since they slept together it’s been nothing but crickets, I mean after you’ve slept together shouldn’t you be all lovey dovey with each-other like it’s just a natural instinct? I will never forgive the writers for not giving us a morning scene when they had the perfect opportunity to do so.

I’ve been trying to bask in the glory that is the Chenford dating era but I’ve just been having a really hard time doing so, I have smiled at some of the amazing gifs on here, shout-out to the amazing gif makers on this app y’all are god sent <3 but really i’ve been sad asf lol… therefore… moving forward what I really want is for chenford to break up… because, here me out, I think it’ll actually be good for them and all the storylines it could bring but then again, I don’t trust the writers enough to actually make something good out of a Chenford breakup because look at where we are now with their dating era lmao so I’ve given up…..

Bleh, the red flags from the person I live with just keep getting worse.

My only personal boundary with them I wish to have respected is for them to clean their shit, but even that is seemingly difficult.

Flush and when they shit, clean the toilet up after themselves.

Clean up the stove after using it.

Clean up the table after using it.

Even like, don't leave the lights on.

Stuff like that.

I ask for small things.

And I do consider patience because it's also human to forget. But at some point something no longer is by accident.

I'm comfortable with literally pretty much everything else. Just clean your fucking messes (particularly in shared spaces).

And I *know* they could easily do this because they are shown to be capable of cleaning up. I know. They clearly just "can't be bothered".

And I've said this calmly and I've yelled about this, but nothing has changed.

And it's this "convinient" thing where I will eventually have to use the toilet or use the stove or go to where the lights are left on and I am indirectly forced to clean up after them.

Or they just do a very sloppy job of cleaning after themselves. Like sloppily just rinsing the dishes without any dishwashing liquid (which is ok in some cases, like maybe if you put cookies or bread or smth simple on a plate), but holy shit.

Why is it so hard to respect this singular boundary I have set?

That's where the biggest red flags come from and if you know about toxic relationships, it often just excaberates from there and spreads to other stuff.

So I'll really have to think about creating myself a way out. It happened with the previous situation I was in and we are from the same circumstances (same family), so they simply carried the bad shit on from there.

The minor boundaries I have been able to set are like tough-won victories, too.

Why is it so hard for them to just have basic respect if you *ask*? I don't want to yell.

But whenever I call them out, they're like "if it's so basic, then you can do it". Or "Ew, I don't want to do it. Of course I haven't done it."

No, bitch, clean up after yourself.

So for now I've decided I'm just going to be doing the bare minimum to not feel gross myself. And especially make sure to let all of their messes stay where they are.

It's the only solution I see at this point.

That and if it spreads and gets much worse, really make sure to have a way out.

It's the really obvious early stages of a toxic roommate situation that *might* be able to be fixed, but will most likely just get much worse.

i genuinely think i just missed you :(

i just woke up and its like two mins after you said goodnight x



>:(

spam me if you want I’ll answer them tomorrow!! :DD

but I miss you too! 

its just i’ve been very busy lately and if I were to actually tell you what I’ve been busy with it’s really nothing but time goes by so fucking quick.

and I feel like I might be getting overwhelmed from it all but not really.. I don’t know how to describe it. it’s like I’ve been busy and all I want right now is just some peace and quiet; alone time but doing what I wanna do (like being on here or something) I feel like I have barely any time to be on Tumblr anymore :( but also without having to feel like I need to do homework.

but I’m still here!!

I really don’t know how to describe it..

today I had a pretty good day though! me and first period person we’re watching die hard at lunch today! we only got like halfway through it and I don’t expect us to finish it tomorrow because it’s a minimum day but who knows.

I also found out that the curtains that I spent two weeks trying to fix was basically for nothing. because for this play, the curtains in the back (which are the ones i’ve been working on) will be open and we also have these big panels which is literally right in front of the curtain in the middle back of the stage so basically the house wouldn’t even be able to see the curtain in the back if it was closed. but that also makes me feel relieved because I don’t want them to be seeing the spots and than again if I didn’t fix it, it would’ve cost a lot of money and they may or may not would’ve closed the theater because of that, bc of the money that was spent to fix it. and also we might need it fixed for the other play at the end of the year. so honestly my work was needed!! :DD suck on ittttt

I also learned how to tech today!! that was really fun! I learned how to do the lighting and sound and I also learned that a tech person has to be the one moving the panels (which is basically like a book in the play) but they have to do that on the stage when performing; so basically when the play is happening, its about fairytales and the panels are painted for those specific stories, so when changing into a new story, tech person comes out and flips the page, which is the big panel but it’s pretty easy to do!! and I kind of wanna do that! I told the stage manager that i liked that part (who is technically in charge of picking the roles of who’s doing what for tech ppl) and so hopefully I get chosen for that!! :DD (stage manager is also in my year too)

what else happened today? so when me and 1st period person were watching the movie, their arm was around me and a friend then asked us if we were together in a way, but yeah, so I was like we’re partners and that’s it.. the person whose arm is around me then asks me if that makes us official, (when friend went away) and I’m like yes but unofficial. I don’t think that makes sense. I also didn’t say that, I was just like idk kind of *nodding my head..* but yeah I was also holding their hand! it was very comforting :) we did clear that up if we were or were not official and I told them that I wanted to get to know them better (because I feel like I still don’t know them that well but I do) they’re okay with that but I feel like bad because they were saying that they do wanna be partners and I do too but not yet. it seems too fast.

also we were doing some hard-core flirting earlier.. well it seemed hard-core to me because I haven’t ‘flirted’ with someone in awhile :DD they like calling themselves of thief and basically they are one, (who isn’t?) but I called him a thief and he said yeah bc he stole my heart by the looks of it and i was like AH- I literally typed that and sent that to him the ‘AH’ because that’s what I was thinking! I was like you’re a thief because you stole my heart :DD but yeah that was fun!! <3

okay anyways that was my day! I love you 😽😽 goodnight!! yk it’s weird because usually I’m saying goodnight to you because you’re going to bed :DD I hope you have a good day!! make sure to eat, drink water and do what you wanna do! <3

xxx