Gordon is in a heavy ass uncomfortable HEV suit the entire time. That thang is made of METAL. It's hazmat suit ARMOUR. It's made to withstand BULLET WOUNDS. That shit is heavy as balls you guys realize that???
He slept in it. Multiple times.
NO WONDER HE BECOMES MORE OF A DICK AS THE SERIES GOES ON HE'S IN MASSIVE AMMOUNTS OF PAIN IN A LIFE OR DEATH SITUATION WITH A BUNCH OF PEOPLE HE DOESNT KNOW FUCKING AROUND AND NOT SEEMING TO TAKE ANYTHING (including himself!) SERIOUSLY!
For my chronic pain havers, picture this. The pain you have now, but you are also carrying several lbs of metal Armour on your body and trudging through toxic waste, there are alien creatures trying to kill you, you're seeing a fuck ton of people die all the time, your friends (who are seemingly immortal) don't take your mortality seriously and have died infront of you several times, AND YOU DONT HAVE A PROPER PLACE TO SLEEP!
You also get AMPUTATED at some point!
Like!!! No WONDER the dude was being a dick man!!! This isn't even to consider his already stated suicidal thoughts, any mental illnesses he may have (I think he's schizophrenic and a DID system) AND physical ailments like disability and chronic pain.
Now, granted, if we're doing a streamerman kinda thing like in source, you have to remember that Gordon acts JUST like everything happening is real to a certain extent. Like. He feels PAIN when the model feels pain. He's fully fucking immersed in the experience. Even when there's like. Outside stuff like stream he still seems to forget the world outside the stream EXISTS. (Also part of my schizo headcanon)
SO LIKE! YEAH IF I COULD FEEL THE PAIN THE MODEL WAS FEELING YEAH ID BE A BIT OF A BITCH TOO!!
Cuz like. I've found myself getting ANGRY at things I genuinely find funny during really bad chronic illness days. So I just. I understand why Gordon feetman is such a dick now.