my fucking les mis brainrot is back can you believe it.

marius jumpscare under the cut

marius be upon ye

Summon Night: Swordcraft Story (ATLUS, 2003)

home for the first time since 6 am thursday, have my kitties, wedding shoes arrived and they are gorgeous, nothing can bring me down (even only getting four and a half hours of sleep)

here's the shoes btw

ah yes! the joys of executive dysfunction and something being Fundamentally Broken In Your Braincase!

I've decided I'm not going to text my boyfriend until he texts me first. Making this post to keep track of exactly how much time passes, wish me luck 😭

Bruh i went through old tumblr posts from this blog and i used to yap so fuckibg much about anything... i wanna go back

Weighing in on the debate “Are you allowed to ship aromantic characters?” As an aromantic person, this is a difficult subject. On the one hand, we have characters who clearly and repeatedly state that they hate romance, do not feel romantic attraction, and don’t want to be in a relationship. On the other hand, we have your personal inability to engage with deep relationships without making them romantic. As a compromise, I say people are allowed to ship canon aromantic characters, provided they pay me at least $100 in cash for the license.

anyway my thoughts on Barbie snubbery discourse are all over the place because obviously there is indeed an irony to Ken being nominated and not Barbie, mimicking the exact trajectory of the film. And it is kind of sad to think about that and it does suck because I think Margot was amazing as Barbie, and I would have loved to have seen her nominated for that!

But also. If we’re looking at it realistically, it all depends on the pools for each category. Margot and Ryan are in separate categories, so you cannot really compare their nominations because they were never competing against one another, but their respective peers from other movies. I’m not super familiar with the Oscars or with films generally, but from what I’ve heard the best actress category this year is particularly stacked, so the competition for Margot was really hard. At the end of the day, there’s only 5 slots! If Margot was in, another one of the nominated actresses would have to be out. It’s just that Barbie is the bigger movie so it’s getting all the attention.

Also a lot of the extended arguments about it diminish the own original argument’s point. I’ve literally seen people saying Margot was snubbed because of misogyny and then in their next tweet going on a rant about how Margot deserved it way more than America and it’s wild that Barbie got noms in xyz categories but not best actress. Like, if you’re putting down America to hype up Margot in the name of feminism…let’s unpack that for literally half a second, i mean? they aren’t even in the same damn category!!! ~~ “Why was “I’m just Ken” nominated for best song and not Margot!!!” ~~ Well now how it that remotely relevant?? what the heck are you even talking about?? 😭 if you dislike that the song was nominated you should be comparing it to other songs you wish had gotten nominated instead, not randomly bringing it up in a conversation about best actress.

But on the other hand, people saying “well no, Margot didn’t actually deserve a nomination as much as the 5 selected actresses” (which in itself is a totally fine and fair opinion) are by and large just pretentious film twitter commentators who can’t resist but to go on to remind us all that they think Barbie was a shit movie, and generally act like Margot is less talented because she starred in a comedy, and therefore her acting was “less serious” than their artsy indie favs. Which is also deeply annoying and emblematic of how the Oscars and film buffs view certain genre movies like comedies in general.

Which is all to say, I generally think there are far greater threats to feminism than the Barbie movie not getting a best actress and best director nomination, lol. But it’s cool that it’s bringing awareness to the Oscars long-standing problem of bypassing women in favor of men (especially in categories like best director) which is something we should talk about! Greta’s snub is perhaps no different than any other director snub in any other year, but the pattern of female directors continually being snubbed is a problem worth unpacking! I just wish people would stop talking about it only in soundbites and delve into that deeper systematic issue with arguments that actually make sense.

honestly I love talking to people and making new friends but at the same time it’s also TERRIFYING

sometimes my dad will make these autism jokes like about me and idk it juat rubs me the wrong way. not bcs hes allistic, my friend makes autism jokes all the time and its okay and its funny because i know that in the end she will at the very least try to be there for me when im having a bad day and shes done more to accomodate me than anyone ever in my life and i know i suck and im boring when im overstimulated and im a handful and i dont understand things everyone else understands, but she understands this and puts up with me at my worst so when she makes a silly joke about something autistic i do its funny and i laugh, because i know thats all it is, a joke. but my dad doesnt just get to mock me, infantilise me and use my autism against me and expect me to find it funny when he makes a joke because i know he sees autism in itself as a joke and he thinks im stupid and he means it more as a scornful comment, and even if he doesnt being ableist like on a daily basis kinda makes you lose the priviledge to joke around with your kid about their disability. 🙂👍

something that happened to me that i've been wanting to make into a comic for *checks calendar* six years! none of us ever actually did this btw

ya know, i've been thinking so much about the date today. last year, i was up to my eyeballs sick with anxiety over the goddamn mcat, and the unknown medical school application cycle that was looming closer and closer. and today, exactly 1 year later, i just worked a shift at a job i truly love while saying goodbye because...im finally going to medical school. like when i catalog all the ways my life has changed since that last year, and how close i am to my dream being my reality, it makes my heart hurt with gratitude and i just......needed to let it out

spamming ny mutuals' dash once again! im not sorry :3

I am out here, fighting demons, I have lived with my whole life, to find you solace in my world. -kk 2024

if i act exceedingly dramatic in the next 36 hours to a week it's because the cat is ill and my emotional circuits are overloaded

The world is a little too soft sometimes. Like dont get me wrong, i love love and self care and mental health and i love when people go 'sometimes you just have to say no to things and you have to prioritise yourself and your mental health etc etc' like fuck, yes, but sometimes you also just have to just get fucking through. Get up, go do your chore, youll be fine. Sometimes you have to struggle through some stuff and you have to be uncomfortable, not because being out of your comfort zone is good or whatever, but because you dont have a choice. Don't skip that class youre just a little too lazy to go to, don't call in sick just to stay at home doing fuckall, don't say you cant hang out today. Get up, go out, do stuff. Sometimes you have to force yourself to do stuff and thats ok, youre a grown up person, youll survive.