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not fun stuff under the cut idk
really weird how triggers work, was fine earlier today and now i cant fking move and can barely fking see and non-stop thoughts of kys are flashing thru my head and i have to eat in like 20 min but i dont think i can keep anything down and then my husband is going to get all upset and want me to tell him wahts wrong and i dont have the emotional energy to pull more shit up and ;aldk jf;lasdkfj
guess this breaks my streak of not smoking
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Okay so I'm taking a break and I just wanted to throw this out there
Why? Well my group chat is kinda frustrated by how people don't know so I'll throw it out
⚠️ What is a trigger?
A trigger leaves a person "lost in space"/time or self. The emotions are amplified or completely muffled or "unrelated" to the situation. Triggers are like a trapdoor in the mind. A trigger can be described as viewing something that can can remind a person of any traumatic event. It'll result in many ways such as feeling strong emotions like anger, fear, anxiety, numbness or a frantic mix. They can also result in a panic attack, insolation, shutting down, or being physically aggressive. The effects depend per person.
⚠️ What is not a trigger?
It's normal to feel upset or unsettled by difficult content or media. Having this strong reaction is normal and part of your emotional development. But that is not a trigger. (Ex: Being sad by the news or a topic that's controversial. Being angry at a sibling. Finding a certain word annoying like "duh" or "like like like" being used in a sentence 10 million times.)
⚠️💖I'm not saying this to upset someone. I'm just saying this because not many people are aware of what a trigger is. A lot of people I've met think that a trigger is anything you are uncomfortable with or annoyed by. That ISN'T always a trigger. BUT feeling uncomfortable or annoyed can be side effect of a trigger. When someone is triggered, they may experience a lashing out of any emotion or no emotions at all. Triggers can be anything that anyone can have. Triggers cause a person to recall a traumatic experience. A trigger can affect your ability to "be in the moment." It can influence behavior and bring up certain thoughts.
A trigger IS NOT to be underestimated. They are real, and they hurt others. Don't say "Oh they're just angry it doesn't matter." It does matter. It is more than being "angry" or "emotional."
A trigger is not something that just makes you uncomfortable, something you find offensive, or something you find rude. Example: Your friend insults you so you say you are "triggered."
ALTHOUGH some people may be actually triggered by certain insults about themselves or their bodies.
There is a difference between being uncomfortable/offended versus being triggered/remembering trauma/something that results in dissociation/flashbacks/emotional distress
Triggers can vary per person, like I said before. It can be from a loss, it can be from being in the military, it can be due to substance misuse, it can be from abuse, and so on.
A trigger can be anything but it shouldn't be misunderstood as the recent meme slang meaning you're "mad, angry, or offended." Someone's trigger should be respected and it's important to remember that triggers are not in any way a reflection of how weak or strong someone is. In fact, triggers are very hard to deal with and anyone who deals with them are very strong individuals. Do not assume what someone has been through. Do not assume that they are sensitive or a "snowflake."
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cloud-craft · 5 years
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I take my pills and I’m happy all the time
Happy all the time
Happy all the time!
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graysoons · 7 years
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let me start off by saying that that i KNOW it’s ugly of me to play two fcs from svt but … i couldn’t help myself i’m soruhdjfdfh (and if that didn’t already give away who i am .. surprise i’m not a new person that joined the rp ..  it‘s me, alice aka jiho’s mun) but anyway click under the read more to learn more about this dirtbag 
tw: drugs, drug/substance abuse, drug overdose, drug addiction
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ok so .. family life:
his father is a politician and his mother is the head lawyer at a top notch firm 
he’s the youngest of two (sister is 27, brother is 22) 
sadly his sister got disowned by his parents when grayson was a child so he doesn’t really remember much about her or why she got disowned bc he was too young to know or understand what was going on and no one in his family talks about it ever .. lmao they treat it like she never existed so he’s kinda just ???? huh about it
his parents were never around besides the occasional “are u guys keeping a good image for us/not fucking up your lives” dinner but he was basically raised by his older brother (and their nanny)  
but grayson slowly grew to hate his brother cause he was the obvious favorite of his parents and his brother stopped acting like a brother after their sister left and started acting like a dad
now here’s where things go downhill for grayson…. when he was teen… 
instead of doing weed like a normal teenager, he decided to try out cocaine because he thought it wouldn’t be a big deal and he was like i’m rich i should be getting the best kind of high money can buy …. but oh man what a mistake 
he was addicted to coke by the age of 16 
it stopped being about the high and kinda just was something he needed to do because it helped make his life more bearable to live which is :/
he kept this a secret from his family till one night when he was 17 and partying with his friends and they freaked out because they thought he was overdosing and called an ambulance and since he was a minor they contacted his parents about it
his parents sent him to rehab the night of
he was there for about 7 months 
relapsed a month after getting out … didn’t tell anyone 
ended up overdosing on his 18th birthday 
his parents sent him to rehab again once he was discharged 
he was there for 5 months even though he was suppose to stay much longer but since he had everyone convinced that his overdosed really “opened his eyes” and he was technically an adult they let him go 
he decided to finally leave home and go to california and stay at their summer home and things were fine .. he lived by the beach, did nothing but sleep and play video games 
that is until his brother came to visit him .. (it been had been a year at this point since he left and grayson was on and off with his sobriety)
things didn’t go so well that day and the details are a blurr to grayson but after his brother left, he ended up overdosing on the beach but luckily for him he was found literally just in time 
(now if anyone wants to plot to be the person who called the ambulance for him that night that’d be cool cause he probably won’t remember it was them at first when he sees them around campus and then it’ll click and then yeah  u know) 
how he ended up in sutton..
before his brother left, he told him he’d go to college and get a degree and that he’d get his act together or else he’d be force to come back home with him 
which is why he applied to sutton
since this place is all about second chances
he’s a “dedicated student”
personality wise/other stuff..
grayon does not give a fuck
he’s just. like huh i’m alive that’s cool
he doesn’t care if he graduates he doesn’t care if he fails all his classes he doesn’t care if he doesn’t make any friends he just . wants his brother off his back 
i mean he overdosed twice and he still does it 
but that doesn’t he doesn’t try to be sober cause he tries … its hard tho since he started at a young age and has slightly become depended on it
the longest he’s been sober is about three months and a half
sometimes he does abuse other subtances to try to get his fix when he’s trying to stay away from coke (aka weed, alcohol, prescription pills but none of them give them the same feeling)
he’s not an asshole, he’s pretty decent
as long as ur not 24/7 serious he’s cool with u
he can be sarcastic though but he means it in a “i’m trying to be funny” way
his major is astronomy but only because he loves the planets and the moon and the stars and learning about space
he doesn’t want to become an astronaut (but he kind of does cause he LOVES the moon and would give his right arm to go there) but he also believes the moon landing was fake
don’t get him started on conspiracy theories 
he’s nineteen and a freshman cause he took a year off after high school 
he doesn’t swear besides saying shit but it’s rare
grayson is open af like u can ask him a super personal question and he’ll straight up tell u like “grayson do you have a drug problem” “yeah i do actually i’m a recovering coke addict”
but he won’t take what he tells u seriously like he’ll turn it a joke if you try to tell him how to fix himself or if the conversation gets too deep bc like i said grayson doesn’t care and in his head, its not a big deal
currently grayson is 2 months clean
i think that’s all u need to know about about grayson if u made it this far i love u and u are a good one and if you maybe wanna plot with this loser like this and i’ll message u shortly or if you wanna im me you can on either jiho or grayson’s account i don’t mind which u choose
btw this blog is a side blog so if you were wondering why u didn’t get a follow back that’s why
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