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mv-damn · 1 year

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I think a lot about egg transfem akarsha and comphet noelle getting into a relationship sometime in mid-late high school and it just like, working. Not in some magical way, mind - they go through their honeymoon period and have their first argument and it's loud and ends in tears. And it threatens their grades and their friendships and their extracurriculars. And maybe it's Chryssa, maybe it's Ester, or maybe it's Diya who gives them a push. Maybe Noelle is determined not to be like her parents. Maybe Akarsha cries into her mother's arms and her mother says, "honey, you need to talk to her."

But they get through it.

And maybe they go off to college together. Maybe they do some kind of LDR. And it's hard! And college is hard! But they keep talking. Keep sending each other memes and links and voice recordings. Eating dinner together across timezones.

Maybe they get their degrees and keep studying. Maybe Akarsha gets a BS in CompSci and gets out. Maybe she gets an early WFH job, or else is able to swing a job near enough to where Noelle's doing her Master's. And maybe they don't move in together just yet. Maybe they're just in the same city again, or within an easy drive of each other again. And it's wonderful.

And all this time, their identities are simmering away in the background. Maybe they still don't know. Maybe they do, and don't know what to do about it. Maybe it's somewhere in between.

But their lives progress, and so does their relationship.

Maybe they become traveling academics. Maybe they get married. Maybe the settle down together somewhere, get jobs, agree not to have kids (because honestly, in this economy?) and become the double-income-no-kids cool aunt & uncle to the rest of Akarsha's family.

And one day, as they're lying in bed together, getting ready to go to sleep, or sitting on the couch watching TV, or sipping coffee together on some lazy saturday, Noelle turns to Akarsha and says, "I have something to tell you."

And Akarsha says, "so do I."

And Noelle says, "you first."

So Akarsha says, "well, I think I'm a woman."

And Noelle's eyes go wide. And she says, "oh." and she says, "how fortuitous. I'm gay."

#butterfly soup #she speaks #akarsha #noelle #transfem akarsha #transfem egg akarsha x comphet noelle #ppkm

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mv-damn · 1 year

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I've just remembered that the Monarchs are all-girls by accident, so egg transfem!Akarsha CAN join and have a bunch of Extremely Cis And Normal feelings about this. (And somebody can start to ask her if it's weird being the only guy on the team before Liz slaps a hand over their mouth/interrupts/furiously makes the throat cut/"DO NOT" gesture while shaking her head.)

#butterfly soup #transfem akarsha #akarsha #she speaks #liz #Liz can canonically spot an egg from a mile away #she has impeccable eggdar

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mv-damn · 1 year

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Transfem Egg Akarsha x Comphet Noelle

been thinking about this one pretty much since I started thinking about transfem akarsha. it became super obvious supper quickly. you have akarsha, nominally a boy, and noelle, nominally straight. things happen.

anyway aside from any more like. fic-specific, contrived ways (like the Fake Dating idea I mentioned in the transfem akarsha post) I think this relationship could begin on three footings (or a mix of some/all):

A) mutual eggishness/unconscious bearding. i.e. "I'm definitely straight/a boy and I'm entering into this relationship as a way to confirm/convince myself/others of that." this differs importantly from the next option in that the *who* is ultimately not the point, so much as the fact of *being in the relationship.*

B) queer magnetism/"you feel different from all the others"/"the gay in me speaks to the gay in you." they get into the relationship because - though they don't realize it - some part of themselves recognize themselves in each other.

C) nothing special, they literally just like each other. they stumble into it working out well in the long-term.

and I think the relationship could continue in a couple different ways as well:

1) the relationship fails relatively early on. they both have too much going on in their own heads to truly commit to the relationship, or be as vulnerable as you have to be for this sort of thing to really work. they part on relatively good terms, but things are Weird between them for a while.

2) the relationship fails, and ends in flames and blame. they barely see each other throughout the rest of high school. perhaps they meet again later, as adults, fully themselves, and old feelings bloom again.

3) the relationship fails, and they gratefully go back to being just friends. it is a weight off both of their shoulders. they actually grow closer.

4) the relationship works, with a deal of work on both of their parts. they both Realize, but stay in the closet, too afraid of losing what they have. one day, it bursts out of them, and they have a nice mutual "oh!" moment.

5) the relationship works, and Akarsha comes out before Noelle has Realized. she commits to her now girlfriend - her feelings haven't changed, and who would she be if she abandoned Akarsha at this moment? - but Noelle eventually becomes more and more aware that Akarsha is not, in fact, an exception, and that Noelle is actually Quite Gay. could do something with the relationship going on "pause", and Noelle seeing Akarsha truly begin her transition, and falling for her even harder. like

Noelle had always thought that Akarsha was handsome, if in a slightly unconventional way. But now, seeing her like this - smiling at her reflection, standing up straight and being truly confident in herself, putting real effort into her outfits and enjoying it - she was beautiful. Noelle had never been so blinded by Akarsha's grins, and certainly not so often, but she couldn't be happier.

wow this got long quickly. holy shit. anyway this has been sitting in my drafts for too long so. yeet.

#butterfly soup #akarsha #noelle #transfem akarsha #transfem egg akarsha x comphet noelle #gender #ppkm

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mv-damn · 1 year

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transfem!akarsha t4t minkarsha (or just t4t minkarsha generally) is everything to me... its smoking weed in a levee with your best friend and going, "man, wouldn't it be great to wake up as the opposite gender one day?" and hearing them mumble, "yea." It's being the queerest couple on the block. It's fistfighting transphobes. It's shaving in the mirror every morning, side by side. It's trading clothes. It's the garfield top surgery comic. do you understand?

#butterfly soup #she speaks #gender #transfem akarsha #akarsha #min #minkarsha

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mv-damn · 2 years

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been thinking about transfem Akarsha. basically the exact same person except even more depression and self-deprecation. somehow. she does one of the classic transfem egg thing of being friends w/ a bunch of girls, HOWEVER, she is not actually very femme at all, andro at most. (like canon Akarsha tbh.) maybe letting hair grow out "out of laziness", probably in a low pony if so. anyway generally like

- egg!Akarsha accompanying the rest of DAMN to the baseball thing, and Chryssa going, "oh sorry, this baseball team is only for girls." Akarsha processes for a second before laughing and kinda cringing away and going "ahaha, yea, I'm just here to support my friends, lol" (Liz in the background ofc going [laser eyes] *EGG SPOTTED*)

- egg!Akarsha going to the Monarchs' games to be a good supportive friend and somebody gets whacked with a baseball and has to sit out. they realize that they don't actually have any backups and so are about to forfeit when somebody remembers about Akarsha/she volunteers, maybe? anyway she grabs a cap and glove and plays with them the rest of the game and gets this weird thrill from doing it which shes like "hmm not going to ponder that any further"

- a really awkward period where Noelle and egg!Akarsha actually date for a little while, effectively but unconsciously acting as each other's beards, before the relationship either fails and goes back to being friends or the cliche "I'm lesbian" "I'm trans" moment.

- you could maybe do a cute fake dating thing where Noelle's like "my mom is going to KILL ME if I don't bring home a boyfriend for Chinese New Year and you're the only guy I don't despise, can you PLEASE come to dinner on Chinese New Year and pretend to be my bf"

- there are so many different ways you could go with this and so many bits I want to explore, I might just make a separate post tbh.

- also imagining obligatory mtf ftm solidarity stuff with Min. something along the lines of "man I fucking hate being a guy. I wish I was a girl. doesn't everyone wish they were a girl?" "nah I fucking hate being a girl dude. I wish I was a guy". would also make their potential romantic relationship SUPER queer, which is always fun.

#butterfly soup #akarsha #noelle #transfem akarsha #transfem egg akarsha x comphet noelle #she speaks #ppkm

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mv-damn · 1 year

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I would love to do the wip game but 1. I don’t have any currently, only ideas and 2. If I talk about something I’m working on I never end up finishing it so I have to keep quiet about what I’m working on until I’m done with it. This has been true 100% of the time and it sucks

Anyway I’m curious of your wips what the “I wish I could be a girl” one is

Understandable re: WIP game, you do you! As for that WIP of mine - it's a fic of one of my about ten thousand "what if [this/these bsoup characters] is/are trans" AU ideas, specifically one I've posted about here a fair amount, in which Akarsha is transfem but gets together with Noelle before she realized she is trans (and before Noelle realizes she is a lesbian). Specifically specifically it's about the version of that AU where they get a long, long way into their relationship before Akarsha really realizes/comes out. They are, in fact, married and living together in this one, with Akarsha (having realized but still in the closet at this point) working an early work-from-home programming/IT job and Noelle doing something corporate and science-y.

Anyway the title of the fic (and the "opening music" if you will) is taken from the chorus of the song I / Me / Myself by Will Wood which is very good and exceedingly Transgender. Rather than nattering on about it any further I will simply give you the opening.

"I wish I could be be a girl, and that way..." Akarsha sings along to the music blasting over the vacuum cleaner, stepping high and swinging her hips, enjoying the way her skirt moves. She doesn't hear the key in the lock, doesn't hear the door open, doesn't notice the person standing in the doorway until Noelle's thermos goes clattering to the floor and Akarsha's head snaps up to meet the wide eyes of her wife. She's home early.

It's probably gonna take a while more to finish but making this post has reignited my Brainrot for it. Also worry not, everything ends well! I'm not one for writing sad stories really, and anyway what Noelle cares about first and foremost is that her partner is happy. (And also seeing her dressed up like that is doing very strange things to Noelle's insides... 😏)

#butterfly soup #she speaks #ask reply #ppkm #transfem egg akarsha x comphet noelle #akarsha #transfem akarsha #noelle

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mv-damn · 1 year

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PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TELL ME MORE ABOUT BRIAN ANAND I HAVE READ YOUR FIC LIKE TWENTY TIMES TODAY AND SCORGED THE INTERNET FOR ANY CRUMBS II COULD FIND 😭😭

Brian Anand, neé Lei, is the transmasc-ing of Noelle. (And, particularly, my own personal version of it where he goes on to marry Akarsha and take her last name - Anand.) To quote my dear twitter moot Juno, "brian lei is noelle’s trans boy form, he has a terrible mustache and a terrible haircut and he’s heartbreakingly straight and min is his gender guru"

It wasn't originally my idea - that should go to @nofrndofmine, I think, if anyone - but it's one of my favorites of my collection of Gender headcanons for the soup characters. Particularly because it makes his relationship with Min so much more interesting (not that it wasn't already very interesting to begin with).

With Brian, you get to have this very strange inversion point where, before, during, or after Brian's egg cracks (i.e. he realizes he is trans) Min begins to realize that Brian also has Gender, and perhaps is envious of her, and that's why he hates her so much.

And perhaps when Brian does realize he is trans, all that hatred flows away like so much dust in the wind and becomes simple envy. And perhaps Min helps him, because what else is she supposed to do? Not?

One of the favored scenes for this is Min cutting Brian's hair, mirroring the scene in Butterfly Soup 1 where we see Min cut her own hair short. Implicit in this action - beyond the simple caring and touch that comes with it - is Min saying, "I had to do this alone. But you don't have to. I will make sure you don't have to."

Of course, there's also another set of interesting interactions with Akarsha which depend on what level of ppkm they're at when Brian Realizes. It's similar to the permutations I discussed about my "what if akarsha was transfem and also ppkm" posts a little while ago, but with a twist - Akarsha is bi, and openly so. (There's a funny little moment to imagine of egg!Brian learning Akarsha is bi after already having fallen for her a bit and going "huh. that information is important to me, but I will not interrogate why.")

Still, you can have a lot of Moments there between them. Supportive, mostly, I think, but it depends on what sort of a story you want to write! I can certainly see Brian trying to force them apart as he is coming out/transitioning due to internalized transphobia, or isolating himself from his friends because he doesn't want to come out to them and risk not being accepted for who he is.

The last particular relationship of note is, of course, with Liz (being trans as she is). She won't have quite as much perspective on Brian's experience, having gone in the other direction, but on the other hand she might have some different and helpful viewpoints as another binary trans person (assuming of course you are happy with Brian being binary transmasc, rather than some other flavor of Gender.)

The scene that comes to mind for me is one where Brian learns Liz is trans and then says/thinks something along the lines of "that's POSSIBLE?!"

Or perhaps he has to have Being Trans explained to him, and is like "so uhhhhhh. can you um. go in the other direction? Hypothetically, I mean."

Liz of course is like, "yes, of course!" (and internally is like "A NEW HAND TOUCHES THE BEACON") and Brian is just like "....huh." and either Represses That Knowledge and/or has a gender crisis about it.

There is, of course, also a great deal to consider about Brain Lei himself. HRT, various surgeries, etc. But also - how does he dress? Act? How open is he? What's his journey like? (And more mundane things besides.)

I, personally, can't decide if he becomes Some Dude In A Business Suit (with Fun Socks but an extremely boring outfit otherwise), or if he dresses aggressively retro and fights his manager about the specifics of the dress code. ("Yes it says I have to wear a suit, but does it say anywhere that it can't be double-breasted? Does is specify the cut of the jacket? I thought not.") Either way I think he wears one of those "subtle trans pride pins" on his lapel.

Damn, this got long. Anyway, for "more" you might have more luck with "Brian Lei" rather than "Brian Anand", particularly on @noelleIei and @nofrndofmine on twitter (thought there's not much, as I think a lot of the conversations happened on private twitters or in groupchats. I may talk or write about him more at some point, but my brain tends to bounce around a great deal. (Blame my ADD.)

(Sorry for @-ing you Nico.)

#butterfly soup #ask reply #brian #gender

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mv-damn · 2 years

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butterfly soupers i want to hear your gender takes on the nominally cis characters of the game. (aka not Min or Liz. they have gender already.)

my thoughts:

Diya: demigirl/agender. her reaction to gender is just to sort of... shrug? she doesn't understand and frankly doesn't care.

Akarsha: fuck gender norms. all my homies hate gender norms. gender anarchist. nonbinary.

I've also been having thoughts about transfem!Akarsha since that one post I made but that's a level of AU which is very uncommon in this fandom so eeehhh idk

Noelle: has a gender crisis upon learning there are more than two genders. idk what conclusions she comes to yet but it feels in-character for her to realize that she's never really thought about this fundamental part of herself and have a multi-day "OH GOD OH FUCK OH GOD OH FUCK" moment. I've got a WIP of that so maybe it'll reveal itself to me in time.

#butterfly soup #diya #akarsha #noelle #she speaks

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mv-damn · 2 years

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your transfem akarsha comphet noelle post is so so so cute but if I may nitpick one thing and it's that chinese new year dinners are family exclusive thus unmarried partners (especially that of minors) are probably not going to be invited, much less expected. that's not always the case but with noelle's family, definitely. let me propose a more likely scenario: noelle's parents being more accepting of akarsha at the prospect of her being a possible partner instead of just a "friend", thus eliminating the "competition" aspect.

huh, I didn't know that. I can use some other holiday, then. I do agree that it makes more sense if they're a bit older than they are in the game, which is what I was imagining.

I do like the idea of Noelle's parents kinda like, shoving her towards Akarsha, and Noelle's complex feelings about that. very interesting 🤔

especially since her parents are more likely to (correctly, lol) identify Noelle's ranting about how annoying Akarsha is as, well - non-platonic, shall we say - which would drive Noelle absolutely bonkers.

#ask reply #she speaks

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