💠 Kikyo’s greatest fear?

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Kikyo was not a woman to fear many things, while alive she underwent a strict training to become a priestess, and therefore she learned to detach herself from emotions that could be considered detrimental to her duty (or at least suppress them). However, there was something that was always somehow haunting her mind: the fear of failure. Kikyo had a lot of lives depending on her, people who looked up to her for inspiration and guidance. The world needed her to be flawless in order to protect the jewel, failing wasn't an option, and this pressure forced her into building a cold exterior, she had to have complete faith in her own abilities, she had to believe she was the only one who could protect the jewel, because otherwise her entire existence would be questioned. She might not acknowledge it as fear, but in the end that's what it was, she was terrified of failing her duties. I also believe that deep down she was afraid of dying alone, on chapter 173 she says that she thought she was going to die alone when Naraku made that giant soul collector to steal her souls, but Inuyasha was there for her, and for that she was very happy. I think that was something that she was secretly afraid of, dying alone, forgotten, as if she never meant anything to anyone.