Having set up my new apartment, I think I am realizing I have built for myself everything my 16year old self ever wanted.
I have a cool customized bedroom where I can
•Listen to any music I want on my radio or record player
• Read all my favorite books I’ve curated in a pretty bookcase
• Make any kind of art I want at my home studio
• A closet full of cool clothes that reflects who I am
My pantry is full of food that I like and doesn’t have a lock
I live close by to my gym and I’m the most fit and healthy I’ve ever been in my life
I’m out as trans and I’m 9 months into medically transitioning
I have a really cool job at a museum
I show my art at a gallery
I have freinds
And I have firm boundaries with my family and finally privacy and safety from their control etc etc
I think my recent birthday, this move, and Mother’s Day put me in a reflective mood and realizing I’ve made for myself a life that I used to think I could never have as a teen and I’m like safe from the hell that was my childhood home..
It’s a weird feeling. A good place to be at 28 though I think. I feel like I’ve rescued my hopeless suicidal 16 year old self
59 notes
·
View notes
Hello! Hope you are having a good day.
So I have a question for you, just ignore when you don't feel like answering.
I came to Mattdrai via the enemies/rivals to lovers tag and then got sucked into hockey. I really like the fanon take on Leon, fav character, fanon Matthew was fine but way too woobified and infantilized in so many fics. So my surprise when I started to watch games, interviews etc. Public Matthew is so confident, so loving, awesome family to back him up, especially Brady, hot as hell, sexy way of playing hockey, amazing public persona. Loved and respected by his team, beyond hockey.
Then Leon. His only trait seems to be that he's pissy which I can appreciate but it seems that he's just a downright mean, arrogant guy with a superiority complex (see that interview when he puts Silovs down.) I don't find him stoic at all but he's just seems boring and bland and yeah, pissy. It doesn't seem like he has fun or likes his team a lot or is liked by them (Connor aside and his skills aside.) His friendship with Connor seems the only endearing or likeable thing. He even looks good in a bland way and his hockey is while it's so skillful it's not hot and also I wonder why his dirty plays aren't called out more often.
So what do I miss? Where does great fanon Leon come from? Why is he written mostly so superior to Matthew and where comes the "his team likes Leon so much but Matthew is an outcast in his own team come from?) It's so far from what I gather from old and new interviews or games and I have watched a lot, also German interviews. I really would like to like Leon, shipping them had been more fun when I didn't find his public self so jarring. What do I not see what everyone else seems to get?
Sorry for the long ask! Have a great day and thank you
first off thank you for such a thought out ask! i don't get to dive into things like this a lot outside of writing fic and it got my brain gears going.
to get right into the bulk of this ask: i get what you are saying about leon. that can be the way he comes off for sure, and look everything i'm gonna say? i'm talking out of my ass here. i don't claim to know anything about him as a person besides what's publicly presented, and i don't have much right to theorize about why he is the way that he is, but i'd be lying if i said i didn't think about it. how would i write rpf otherwise, right 💀
i think he cares a lot. and i think sometimes he gets so wrapped up in things, how things should be, how he should be performing, etc, and when it doesn't go a certain way he gets frustrated and snarky (eg, pissy comments and such). but i don't see that being bad necessarily, especially when it's seems to come from such a team oriented state of mind. which, i dont think he dislikes his team at all? i think if anything, he has a sort of blind faith in his team, and that's the only context i could see a 'superiority complex' making sense in. and yah maybe a little misplaced at times, but ultimately i think it comes from believing so fully in his team and not seeing that come to fruition. he really does not seem to care about his individual performance much at all, so how self obsessed can he be? when i think about leon i just see someone that is ultimately very passionate and committed to the game he plays. i'm also curious to know where you get the vibe that his team doesn't like him? simply because i never got that impression from any of the other oilers, they all seem like they're obsessed with him.
beyond hockey, i see a caring, sweet, kindhearted individual. anytime i see a picture or vid of him interacting with bowie, or even the things his girlfriend posts about him, the comments he leaves for people on ig, and yah of course in the way he talks/acts around connor, i see fragments of someone soooo different than the little two minute post game interviews (which, can we judge any hockey player on those? i think they all hate them dfkjgsd). it's not always something i actively go digging for or have examples of the top of my head, but i do see it, and it definitely goes into creating the version of leon that i have in my mind.
hey, and, he's a silly guy!!! please, i know the reputation is pissy and humourless, ESPECIALLY in fic, but that man is so funny. so many random offhanded comments that make me pause and then laugh. a different sense of humour but it's so there. i love the sandcastle vid from the asg last year and feel like it's a good example of that, all sunburnt and happy. also hey, big man in tune with his fear of the ocean? love that. that little vid of him dancing on the ice earlier this season, those halloween photos where he's dressed as a monkey, every time he talks to a kid. hell, seeing him in warmups and watching the way he takes time to interact fans?? loveee watching warmups but i'd never had a player actually acknowledge my existence before leon!
also i really enjoy his personality on the ice, i like the rat behaviour and the sassy comments that he makes to other players/refs, i like the bitch moves, and i like his hockey too. i think his game is dependable and like you said skillful, and while maybe not the most creative, the sureness and the technical aspect it is hot to me. so my thoughts on everything are probably skewed in that regard.
anyways this was just a whole lot of rambling about why i find him interesting, endearing even, but i understand the perception you have. i don't like some players that other people love, just cause i cant see what they see. and honestly that's sometimes just the way it is! if you don't like leon, maybe u just don't like him and thats fine.
disclaimer that i have only been on hockeyblr for a couple years, and really didn't spare many thoughts for leon til the beginning of the 22/23 season. truthfully i'm hardly the person to ask about leon imo, but of course i have thoughts anyways! if someone else with more knowledge reads my bit of rambling here, please feel free to chime in and add your voice to this!
and side note, ofc, i have to touch on this bc who would i be if i'm not one to talk about matthew; in the way of m.tkachuk, i think that in the early days of mattdrai it was maybe a fair take away during his time with the flames (minus the woobifying). even though he was loved so much here and had some fucking times, and i think the team was mostly good to him (player wise if not regarding management, that is), i see such a stark difference now that he's on the panthers. he seems much happier and more confident, and obviously he's clicking with the cats on another level, and i do see a shift in how he's been portrayed in fics since tbh.
49 notes
·
View notes
The timeline of past events for the GG rivals au
Year 547:
War breaks out between Wintertide and Coral Crest.
Impulse and Skizz join the army.
Etho leaves his village to fight in the war (he is 16)
Years 548-49:
Etho grows to be feared and infamous.
Year 550:
Grian and Pearl meet (they are 14 and 13).
Year 551:
Ren becomes king following the suspicious death of his father (he is 24; young for a king)
Year 552:
Scott becomes Impulse's squire.
Grian vanishes, leaving Pearl all alone.
Joel becomes Lizzies personal guard.
year 553:
Etho is captured by Coral Crest -> set free by Joel.
Mumbo and Grian meet.
Pearl starts her mercenary work.
Wintertide and Coral Crest enter a tense and hostile truce at the very end of the year.
year 554:
Whispers of a resistance in Wintertide begin.
Year 555:
Etho helps Mumbo and joins the resistance.
Scott becomes a knight.
Pearl and Scott meet.
Martyn joins the Wintertide army.
Year 556:
Gem leaves her village and becomes Impulse's squire (she is 17).
Gem and Grian have their first run-in and Gem is promoted to knight.
Cleo joins the resistance.
Year 557:
Jimmy and Tango join the resistance.
Bigb joins the resistance.
Marytn and Ren grow close -> Martyn becomes his personal guard.
Etho and Gem cross paths again.
Year 558:
Pearl reunites with Grian.
Pearl befriends Gem.
Year 559:
Grian and Mumbo meet Scar.
Scar agrees to help + joins the resistance.
Year 560-561:
Lots of back and forth between Gem and Grian.
No other major events.
Year 562:
war breaks out again.
Year 563:
Wintertides Commander dies -> Gem takes over.
Year 564:
Coral Crests ruler dies -> Lizzie takes over.
another uneasy truce is made, and fighting is halted.
Years 665-66:
Relative peace between the kingdoms
Some back and forth between Gem and Grian, but things seem to be pretty quiet on the resistance's part.
Year 567:
Current events
87 notes
·
View notes