#this one really got away from me tbh
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Title: Like Gold
Summary: Sasuke grapples with love and intimacy regarding his developing relationship with Sakura after returning to the village from his journey of redemption. Kind of a character study on Sasuke handling an intimate relationship after dealing with PTSD and survivor’s guilt in solitude for so long. Blank period, canon-compliant, Sasuke-centric, lots of fluff and pining, slowly becomes a smut fest with feelings.
Disclaimer: I did not write Naruto. This is a fan-made piece solely created for entertainment purposes.
Rating: M
AO3 Link - FF.net Link - includes author's notes
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Chapter 13/?: Conduit
A treasured day dissolves into yet another moribund nightmare that has him awake for the remainder of the night. Once he’s managed to stop vomiting, he conceives that it was the memory of his brother that did it, or the trip to the memorial stone, or, most likely, both. Either way, he doesn't regret the afternoon into evening spent with Sakura here in the least, even as he scrubs his teeth and tiredly latches onto a cough drop as if his life depends on it to melt the taste out of his mouth.
The lamp works well for his deciphering work, he discovers. More tea helps ease his pounding headache in between bouts of writing, the turpitude of the past slowly easing away much like a high tide recedes from the shoreline, leaving behind bits of broken shells that catch the light of dawn.
Night filters into day as his washing machine completes its wash cycle, and sunlight casts its shine on the cherry blossom tree across the street, radiantly green. He takes one break to peer down at it before laying out his bedding to dry, and then another prior to preparing breakfast, once the appropriate hour has come.
He’s just managed to piece together the word crawl towards the end of the parchment, frowning as he swallows a bite of sencha ochazuke that feels good on his throat, when a raucous banging erupts on his door.
“TEME!” A raspy voice bellows from the landing. “Let’s spar before it gets too hot!”
Sasuke glances at the door, then at his bedding drying on the rack by the closet. He rolls his eyes as he rises to his feet.
“Give me a minute,” he calls in agreement, eyes lingering on the scroll before he rolls it neatly back up and tucks it away. He then sets what’s left of the bowl of ochazuke in the fridge for later. He neglects to bring his sword this time; the dobe will probably force him to have lunch with him, after, since they both know Sakura’s occupied on Mondays with Ino, and he doesn’t wish to make an extra trip just to drop it off. Simple kunai practice is good from time to time; it keeps him from getting too comfortable using only one weapon.
He does pop a lone cough drop into his mouth prior to leaving.
It’s blazing outside, but it’s still a solid ten degrees lower than it will be in a few hours, and there’s at least some small semblance of a breeze at their backs. The dobe chatters the entire way to their usual training grounds; apparently Hinata made him try grilled unagi for the first time, and now he’s hooked.
“We’re thinking of having a grill-out soon! You and Sakura-chan should come over.” Naruto laughs, clapping his hands together as they meander into the clearing. “We could have a fire or somethin’, too.”
“As long as you’re not cooking,” Sasuke agrees, falling into an offensive position and smirking when Naruto squints at him in offense, right eye twitching. His first sweep of his foot, followed by a shove of his knee, sends the dobe skidding across the scant amount of gravel and into the grass. His friend backward somersaults into a standing position, pushing off from the ground into the humid air for a launched aerial assault.
Shadow clones materialize into existence, using the sun’s blinding beams behind them to their advantage, and the onslaught begins.
Another draw eventually emerges in the humid calefaction, kunai clinking in one final stalemate.
Sweat trickles a path down his spine as Sasuke gulps down water, Naruto doing the same a couple of feet away. It feels good on his throat, cooling and mollifying. He should have brought a few more cough drops in his pocket today, considering, but he's assuming he'll get dragged to Ichiraku’s after this anyway. Ramen would feel good, too, though it’s a sweltering day for it.
Sasuke is contemplating whether or not he’ll be assigned a mission this week and a potential trip to the market in the early afternoon when the dobe pipes up.
"Y'know, teme, we should sweeten the pot a little bit.”
Carefully controlled, Sasuke flicks his gaze in his friend’s direction.
The dobe cracks a smile that seems self-satisfied.
“If you beat me, I'll tell you what happened in Earth."
Sasuke keeps his expression blank and uninterested, studying Naruto’s shit-eating grin, and almost instantly he gathers that there are strings of some kind attached to this offer.
Still, he would like to know. Logic is often lost on his teammate, but it’s worth a shot.
“...I already beat you once.”
His friend’s grin momentarily morphs into a scowl, blue eyes narrowing.
“We didn’t have an agreement then!” He huffs, sticking out his tongue and folding his arms together.
Sasuke, meanwhile, rolls his eyes, contemplating ahead of his focus flickering back.
"...What's in it for you?"
Naruto's expression eases into something like a sneer.
"Whaddya mean? Do you want an alternative to going drinking or somethin’?” He unfolds his arms and takes another pull from his water in an effort to appear casual, when Sasuke knows he is being anything but. Tch. As if he hasn’t known the idiot long enough to recognize when he’s talking out of his ass.
“‘...Cause that could be arranged, ya know!" He recites a little too cleanly, as if from memorization.
Suspicions confirmed, Sasuke narrows his eyes, looking off into the tree cover and refusing to take the bait. He’s sure he’ll find out eventually, anyways.
"Wellllllllll. You must not wanna find out what happened, after all. S'too bad, ‘cause Sakura-chan was totally awesome. Guess you'll never know."
Sasuke narrows his eyes further, directly at Naruto now, summoning an expression that will effectively communicate that his patience for this conversation is running thin. A deadlock glare session occurs before Naruto just grins again, which pisses Sasuke off further.
"Y’know…” His raspy voice trails off as he looks at him again in a way Sasuke doesn’t like.
“...Kakashi-sensei and I are just dying to know what you got Sakura-chan for her birthday. Since you came back the end of March and all."
Sasuke’s eye twitches, a trickle of deeper annoyance siphoning into the corners of his consciousness on someone else’s behalf.
Nosy, indeed.
"...You're both stupid." Albeit his increasing requiescence around Sakura, Sasuke plainly doesn’t care for the notion of directly vocalizing his feelings to others, which is exactly what explaining said gift would entail. It would make him feel inordinately exposed, he thinks, even to his best friend and teammate. Furthermore, Kakashi doesn’t need to know everything about him. The copy ninja can wonder about it indefinitely for all he cares.
The words don’t have their intended effect; instead, Naruto’s entire face lights up, and though outwardly he betrays nothing, inwardly, Sasuke groans. He’s waltzed right into a trap, giving the idiot some sort of confirmation through his few words that Sakura apparently has not.
“Aha! So you DID give her something!! What is it, what is it?!” The idiot starts shaking his good shoulder, fingers seizing brutally around a nasty splotch of a fresh bruise that encompasses almost the entire curvature of the muscle. “Jewelry? Kakashi-sensei thinks jewelry, but we haven't seen any on her. Flowers, maybe?! Girls love stuff like that!” Sasuke’s brows knit ever closer as his frown sinks deeper, completely unenthused.
“None of your business, usuratonkachi.” He shoves Naruto away rather forcefully, because A, it actually hurts with the huge expanse of fresh bruise he's gripping onto, and B, the idiot is violating his most cardinal rule with nearly everyone in his life: personal space. He summons his most menacing glare that icily communicates drop it.
“Temeeee,” he laments, folding his arms together and pouting much like he used to when he was a child. “C’mon!! I’ve been bugging Sakura-chan for WEEKS and she hasn’t given an inch. She’s worse than Granny Tsunade when she wants to be.”
A strong surge of appreciation courses through him at Sakura’s consideration for their privacy, the dobe’s apparent pestering of her taking on new meaning. He wouldn’t mind necessarily if she told people about the gift eventually - it’s hers to do whatever she likes with, after all - but for the time being, he’s enjoying what’s between them as it is, the quietude of it. Other people knowing what’s in his heart to that degree would be wholly exorbitant as of yet, uprooting the framework of the small pocket of calm that is his slowness to adjust.
The feeling is shortly followed by Sasuke recalling teasing words spoken in Sakura’s kitchen.
It’s fun to mess with him.
“...Sounds like your interrogation skills aren’t befitting that of a Hokage,” he drawls slowly, schooling his expression into blank facedness. He briefly considers tacking on some kind of jibe about rank, but decides against it since it could be turned back around on him just as easily.
The idiot surprises him by grabbing for his ear, clearly intending to pull it. Sasuke shoves him off with enough force to send him sprawling a few feet away instead, rising to his feet with a glower.
“You’re no fun!!” Naruto gripes, grumbling as he brushes more dirt off himself before trying to attack Sasuke again. Sasuke sidesteps the fist easily; Naruto’s movements are sloppy as they usually are when he’s whining about something, all bark but no sharpened bite to back it up. He shoves his left foot to sweep both the idiot’s feet out from under him.
Once the dobe is sprawled out facedown on the ground and grumbling again, Sasuke gathers his things and begins to amble out of the training grounds, using Naruto’s back as the first stepping stone and inordinately pleased with himself for navigating his way effectively out of this conversation.
Naruto stays pouting behind him until Sasuke’s several yards away, so he pauses by the entrance.
“...Are we getting Ichiraku’s or not?”
He doesn’t stop to look behind him to see if the idiot’s coming; the scrambling sound of small rocks scraping against sandals at his back is confirmation enough.
They walk briskly once he’s caught up to him, making their way through hot streets just on the cusp of Konoha noon. They seem generally a little less busy than they usually are; he assumes it’s due to the heat. Trickles of sweat sear their way down his shoulder blades as Naruto whines exasperatedly.
“It’s hot,” he complains, picking at the collar of his shirt as if that’s going to help.
Sasuke nods in assent absentmindedly just so he’ll shut up as they turn the corner to the main stretch of restaurants, Ichiraku’s only a short jaunt away. There’s a sea of food smells attacking his olfactory senses now, and he’s actually worked up a decent appetite, considering his previous nighttime ordeal.
He’s mentally trying to deduce what dish at Ichiraku’s contains the highest number of calories when he blinks in surprise.
Sakura and Ino have materialized down the road, too far away yet to greet; they must have just finished up with their weekly training.
Sasuke then briefly curses his good eyesight.
Sakura is wearing the outfit from the picture when she made Jonin, the one that bares her midriff, covered only by a thin layer of netting. Even from a league away, he’s immediately hyperconscious of it: the way the red fabric drapes over her shoulders, curves across her chest, stopping just at her ribs, and the flipped V shape framing her sternum, extending far enough upwards that a minute portion of her breast bindings show. The transparent portion of the material below the top covers her stomach like a second skin, slender waist sloping gracefully into gently curved hips and skirt stopping right above the middle of creamy thighs.
“SAKURA-CHAN!” Naruto bellows in greeting after Sasuke’s lost in the way the lineament of her thighs slides effortlessly down into feminine legs for a little too long. For once he’s appreciative of Naruto’s general lack of respect for the eardrums of anyone in their immediate vicinity. “AND INO!”
Green eyes perk up and meet Naruto’s with recognition, then his, smile forming on her lips.
Then she’s turning to Ino with a look that screams she’s out for blood.
Sakura yanks something from her ear - an earpiece, he thinks - with one hand as she shoves Ino. It’s not enough of a shove to hurt anyone nearby, but Sasuke thinks she still may not quite know her own strength at the distance it divides them.
Ino appears unaffected, stumbling slightly only to let loose what can best be described as a cackle, resonating through the intersection in all directions.
“...Never not going to be funny!” Sasuke barely catches the tail end of whatever Ino is wheezing between laughs as Sakura glares her down. Sasuke wonders if Sakura needs to apply more sunscreen - her skin is kind of flushed - as he and Naruto close the gap between themselves and the two. Carefully training his eyes on her face only, he notices now that he’s closer and not as distracted by what she’s wearing that part of her hair is pulled into a braid, arching from the left side of her crown to the right before it blends into the rest of her pink strands. Three small yellow flowers are interwoven into the plait. It suits her, in an innocent sort of way.
As Ino straightens to her full height, clutching her stomach in laughter, Sasuke notices now that her hair is braided, too, miniscule blue flowers interwoven into her own plait, though hers is braided entirely back rather than just a section of it.
Sasuke thinks both hairstyles are somewhat reminiscent of the ones from the festival picture hanging on Sakura’s wall. He recalls clipped flower stems adorning Sakura’s front step, and possibly also from her balcony as he doesn’t recognize these ones. It’s an interesting thing to do with them, to be sure.
“You’re impossible,” Sakura mutters darkly, left eye twitching and purposefully yanking Ino’s hand up rather unceremoniously to press her fingers around the earpiece. They must have been listening to the same thing; perhaps Ino abruptly upped the volume and rattled her eardrum.
“Er, hi, Sakura-chan, Ino!” Naruto greets, voice dripping slightly with confusion at the scene before them, though still overly enthusiastic as always.
“Hey, Naruto,” Sakura responds, still glaring at Ino, though the animosity has mostly dissolved by now. Her expression clears fully prior to turning, briefly making eye contact with Sasuke. “Sasuke-kun.”
“...Sakura.” His gaze flickers to her companion, and he adds politely, “Ino.”
“Didja just get done with training?” Naruto questions with way too much enthusiasm, stepping closer to the women as Ino brushes herself off. “Me and teme did, too! Bet ya won!"
Sakura’s gaze flits back to Naruto. “Eh. More or less,” she says, smiling now. He's not sure if she's referring to finishing training or whether she was victorious.
“She always does,” Ino sighs, rolling her eyes. “It’s exhausting to have to come up with new tricks all the time.”
Sasuke’s interest is further piqued - there’s an implication there, of new jutsu perhaps - but Naruto charges on, tactless as ever.
“We were just headed to Ichiraku’s, Sakura-chan! You guys should come with us!” Sometimes Naruto really does seem to have the discernment of a child, Sasuke thinks. They probably had plans that didn’t involve a loud-mouthed idiot or ramen on a ninety-five plus degree day.
“Ugh,” Ino complains, examining her cuticles now as if she’s bored, and Sasuke remembers that while Naruto lacks awareness for many social cues, Ino comparatively simply has never cared about them, unerringly blunt and the antithesis of social decorum. “Do we have to? Ramen is too hot for a day like today.”
Naruto looks bewildered, as if it’s the most shocking statement one could make. “Whaddya mean?! Ramen’s great anytime! Besides, other food is served hot, too, so I’m not sure what the big deal is.”
“It’s soup,” Ino intones, shooting Naruto a look that screams unimpressed.
“They’ll have ramune to drink now that it’s summer, at least?” Sakura tries adding helpfully. Ino sighs in a way that seems resigned.
“I guess. Whatever,” she says flippantly, though it’s without any actual ill will. Ino turns on her heel, taking the earpiece out of her own ear and depositing the completed pair into a duffel bag hanging crossbody on her back.
Naruto cheers and Sasuke blinks, because this overall exchange occurred in only a minute, and he guesses he’s having lunch with his team and Ino now. He still hasn’t been around her for any extended period of time since returning to the village. It won’t be a boring lunch by any means, he supposes.
Sakura shoots him a smile and a shrug before she turns to follow behind the two blondes, leading the way in the general direction of the ramen restaurant.
He very quickly perceives that her outfit from behind is just as distracting as it was from the front, gaze locking briefly on the small of her back and beyond. It doesn’t leave much to his imagination, overactive as it is regarding her, so he makes an effort to take larger strides until he’s walking beside Sakura than trailing after her.
It’s a short walk to Ichiraku’s. Ino kicks her duffel bag beneath the counter nearest the end stool as if she owns the place, turning to Sakura. “Be right back. Order me a ramune? Raspberry.”
Sakura nods. “Sure. Food?”
“Eh, surprise me.”
Sakura dips her chin once again, taking the seat next to where Ino’s placed her things as the blonde woman scampers around the corner. Naruto takes his own seat on the other end of the group, so Sasuke takes the one between Sakura and the dobe. It takes a minute to put in their orders, as the restaurant is somewhat busy, moreso than Sasuke would have expected given the weather and the general traffic on the way here. As they wait for their drinks, Sakura drums her fingers slightly atop the shiny counters, not loud enough to make noise but enough that the motion garners his attention.
He recalls those fingers against the nape of his neck the night previous before looking away.
“So, Sakura-chan! How was your weekend? Do anything fun?” Naruto asks good-naturedly as Teuchi’s daughter slides their drinks in front of them, icy cold judging from the condensation; mango ramune for the dobe, water for Sasuke, plum ramune for Sakura, and Ino’s requested raspberry ramune. The dobe downs a solid third of his bottle, making an exaggerated, “Ahhh,” and finishing his thought. “Hinata-chan made me try grilled unagi, and that shit is good.”
Verdant eyes, apple green in the sunlight, flick to Sasuke between them before she returns her gaze to her own bottle.
“I had oyakodon,” she says, skin slightly flushed and lips pursed as if she’s trying to bite back a smile. Something turns over in his chest and burgeons into his throat, soothing the ache there.
“Eh? Was it any good?” The dobe is studying her curiously, as if he’s able to read the subtext of her body language enough to know she’s not strictly referring to food, but not enough to actually gain any intel on what’s in the undercurrent of her words.
Sakura takes a long draw on her drink.
“Probably the best I’ve ever tried,” she murmurs softly as Sasuke’s neck warms in a way that has nothing to do with the sun above them.
The idiot’s brow creases further as if he’s now more confused.
“I’m confused,” he echoes Sasuke’s observation of him rather loudly, expression perplexed and looking from Sakura to Sasuke. “Is that, like, code for something?” Their teammate squints at them suspiciously.
Sakura’s blinking and one pink eyebrow is arching as Ino’s voice returns from the direction she left in.
“Code for what?” She asks smoothly, sliding into her saved seat with a glass in hand.
Sasuke’s brow furrows as they all turn the other way, examining the glass in her hand because it looks very much like a hefty shot of alcohol, and it vaguely smells like it, too.
Ino takes a long drag on her own ramune as Naruto answers.
“‘Having oyakodon’. Is that like a code girls use or something? Hinata-chan has never said anything like that.” Naruto scratches his chin, and Sasuke thinks drolly that all five of his brain cells must be operating at their maximum speed.
“Oh, absolutely. It’s code for magic mountain,” Ino responds without missing a beat, now taking the shot and pouring it into the bottle in front of her.
“Ino,” Sakura seethes suddenly as the blonde covers the mouth of her drink to shake its contents together, though Sasuke gets the sense that the warning has nothing to do with her casual consumption of alcohol. He wonders what magic mountain means; perhaps it’s referring to a location in Konoha, though it could also just be Ino messing with Naruto.
“What’s magic moun-” The idiot’s mouth falls open. “Hey, wait, is that a shot?!”
Ino Yamanaka’s immediate answer is another sip of her drink. She swallows, setting it in front of her before speaking.
“Uh, yeah? A double, actually.” She flicks her wrist in the general direction of the small, now empty glass the liquid came in. “What else comes in a glass like this, genius?”
Sakura exhales in what sounds akin to relief, barely perceptible if Sasuke wasn’t hyper aware of everything she does, as Ino looks at Naruto as if to dare him to speak.
The idiot scratches his head. “Uh. Not to be judge-y or anything, but uh. Why are you drinking at this hour?”
Ino snorts.
“Because I'm gonna need it to deal with your pompous father-in-law for the next hour and a half. He already says I live in sin; I might as well be buzzed to boot." She lifts her bottle again in a mock cheer. "But hey! Cheers to the ancient and decrepit. May we all be their peasants until they pass the torch to those more capable.”
Sasuke blinks, vaguely remembering an early childhood a lifetime ago. His father customarily had a grim set to his jaw on a day-to-day basis, but Sasuke recalls it was especially true on Mondays; he always made sure not to speak unless spoken to, those days. The actual full council with the elders met around once a month, if he’s recalling correctly, but the clans met weekly. On those days, his father was even more taciturn than usual. That makes sense, in hindsight, though he makes an effort not to dwell on it.
He hasn't thought about the council in a long time; not since about a year into his journey, now that he's reflecting on it. He hopes that's growth.
The customary weekly meetings of the clans of Konoha must still be scheduled every Monday like clockwork. Hiashi Hyuga would be the oldest clan head in the village now, he supposes, though he has to be getting up there in years. He must be of a similar age to what his own father would be now, with two daughters roughly around Sasuke’s age. It would make the man a little over fifty years, if his estimates are correct.
He’s never met Hiashi Hyuga, but none of what he’d heard in the past speaks to any sort of pleasantness; he finds himself recalling his return, when Naruto mentioned Hinata was no longer the heiress to the Hyuga Clan and was not the least bit upset about it.
The manner in which Ino spoke is pretty scathing to say in a public place, though. The Hyuga are likely the largest clan in Konoha now, though no one in their immediate vicinity seems to care. Perhaps this Konoha is slightly different from the past Konoha, after all, if Ino can be so insouciant in public without fearing any kind of repercussions from those in power.
He notes as his thoughts drift that both Sakura and Naruto spend a long second looking at Ino as if assessing her, then glance at each other with something comparable to affirmation before small smiles erupt on both of their faces. They return their attention back to their drinks, apparently unbothered, as if Ino speaks like this all the time.
Odd, Sasuke thinks, taking another sip of his own water and chalking it up to just being a part of her personality.
Naruto waves his free hand rapidly as if remembering something mid-swallow, then sets his drink down.
“Wait, so what’s magic mountain mean? Is that like another code for something?”
The set of Sakura’s shoulders changes completely, stiffening and straightening.
“I didn’t mean anything in code; I was talking about actual oyakodon. Ino’s just messing with you-”
“Great question,” Ino declares simultaneously with a fiendish gleam in her eye. She sets her drink down on the counter and begins making gestures with her hands to illustrate her words.
“So you stack your pillows high, right? Like three or four on top of each other. Then the woman lays stomach-down across it, arches her back-”
“Stop. Talking.” Sakura slaps Ino’s hands down just after she begins to use her free one to apparently show the man’s role in this… instance. Sasuke carefully averts his eyes, noting Naruto is aghast on his other side, mouth hanging open in disbelief that she really just did that in a crowded restaurant.
“Geez, it’s from a book, Sakura. I thought you loved those, yet you never take any of my recommendations seriously!”
“I do take them seriously; I just would prefer not to have x-rated conversations over lunch in public.”
“Have you forgotten that it’s basically my job to be outrageous?” Ino winks before her expression turns miffed again. “And anyways, that implies that there’s a time that you are open to having these conversations, and yet you won’t tell me a single juicy tidbit-”
"Maybe it's because I don't want private matters to be broadcast to the entire village-"
“I’ve gotta convince Hinata-chan to stop hanging out with you guys,” Naruto whines from his other side, finally closing his mouth. Sasuke busies himself with reading all of the flavors of ramune available off the overhead banner and sparing a second moment of appreciation today for Sakura’s care for their privacy. “You’re gonna corrupt her!”
Banana, blueberry, bubblegum, cherry, grape, green apple-
“Ino’s going to corrupt her,” Sakura agrees.
Lychee, mango, orange, peach, plum, raspberry-
“Yeah, yeah, every woman in Konoha is a traditional and demure little flower who only has sex in the missionary position. Give me a break. Variety is the spice of life, losers.” He sees Ino take a long sip from her glass from his peripheral vision. “This is why I love when Karui and Temari are in town. They actually give me something of substance to work with; international politics. I have so much dirt now, you don’t even know.” She looks to Sakura as Sasuke tries to work out what that statement means. “Though Choji and Karui are getting so gross. Did I tell you she’s thinking of moving here? Love makes people weird."
Strawberry, vanilla, watermelon, yuzu.
“I didn’t know that. Are they that serious?” Naruto interjects from the other end of the counter as Sasuke returns his focus to the conversation now that it is apparently centered around a topic that’s relatively normal. Though he isn’t really participating in the dialogue, he can’t deny he’s a little curious. He still doesn’t know who Karui is, and he didn’t realize Ino even knew who the sand delegate was, other than in passing from the Chunin Exams forever ago.
“Mm-hmm,” Ino says flippantly. “He’s a fool for her. And her cooking. Probably mostly her cooking. They love their spices in Kumo. Suna, too; they both have better food than here. As I said: variety.” She gives a low whistle. “The Akimichis to come are gonna be gorgeous, though, if they have her for a mom.”
So she’s from Kumogakure.
“And prone to black eyes if they cross her,” the dobe says somewhat fearfully. “Her right hook is almost as nasty as yours, Sakura-chan!”
Ino raises an eyebrow as Sasuke tells himself inwardly that he shouldn’t be surprised that Naruto knows her, whoever she is; he knows everyone.
“No one’s right hook comes anywhere near Forehead’s,” Ino proclaims emphatically. “Nor their left. What are you even talking about? When has she punched you?”
Naruto doesn’t answer, and Sakura simply sips her drink. They both look exasperated and simultaneously pensive for some reason.
“Well, you probably deserved it, anyways,” Ino says, apparently sensing a need for a slight change of subject. It bewilders him when the blonde turns her attention to him. “How are you, Sasuke? Choji still won’t shut up about how fast you can skin a duck one-handed, and Shika says your guys' missions have been going well.” She waves her hand flippantly before adding, “And Sai, obviously.”
Sasuke blinks slowly, a little surprised to have apparently been mentioned in conversations that don’t have anything to do with Naruto or Sakura. Naruto grumbles on his other side, mumbling something about a stupid copy ninja; it seems he’s still miffed that Kakashi hasn’t given Team Seven a mission together yet.
“...They have,” he responds honestly after some thought.
“Hm,” Ino comments prior to taking another sip of her drink; she’s nearly drunk her way through half the bottle now. “How about things with Sakura? Also going well?”
Sakura shoots Ino a warning glance.
More than well, he thinks.
“...Yes,” he answers. It’s an understatement.
Ino frowns, brows knitting together as if she was hoping to get more out of him than that. He barely has time to note the flush on Sakura’s cheeks before Naruto snickers on his other side.
“You’re never gonna get anything out of teme,” the dobe laughs. “It’s like talking to a brick wall.”
“A brick wall that hogs my best friend,” Ino complains, though her eyes sparkle in Sakura’s direction as she says it and she doesn’t look a bit put off by it. "If I wasn't disgustingly happy for you both, you'd get an earful from me, Sasuke."
Sasuke doesn’t really know how to respond to that - Sakura’s words maybe I like being hogged come to mind - and he’s thankful when their food arrives so he doesn’t have to. He takes a first bite, savoring the feeling of the warm broth on his sore throat.
“Joy,” Ino says, attention redirected to what appears to be gochujang ramen with tofu.
“It’s what Sai always gets,” Sakura explains, twirling noodles around her own chopsticks. “It’s not bad. I’ve had it a couple times.”
The blonde shrugs, then goes about taking a first bite.
“Eh. You’re right,” she comments after she swallows. “Not bad, I guess. He is a nut for tofu.”
Sakura smiles through a bite as Naruto echoes the thought on his other side.
“Yeah, he’s fuckin’ weird about it. Once he brought Kakashi-sensei and I this caramelized pineapple thing with tofu at the Hokage’s Office for lunch. Weirdest thing I’ve ever eaten!”
I doubt that, Sasuke thinks, reaching for his water again and mulling that Naruto is the absolute last person on earth who should be critical of someone else being overly fixated on a specific food item.
“You don’t get to talk about weird food,” Sakura admonishes him from his other side. “You made me try strawberry ramen once.”
Sasuke snorts.
“Strawberry?” Ino asks while wrinkling her nose, clearly appalled as she leans forward to peer at Naruto from two seats down. “What’s wrong with you?”
The dobe frowns. “I thought it would be good!”
“Tell me you didn’t put garlic in it still.” When Naruto doesn’t respond, Ino’s disapproval becomes more palpable. “Or egg.”
Sakura merely shudders slightly before shaking her head, and Ino makes a show of gagging as Naruto pouts.
“Didn’t you just say variety is the spice of life or something?!” He tries to defend, but Ino’s not having it.
“Variety and being completely unhinged are two separate things. And trust me, I would know!”
The dobe grumbles a bit more as Sasuke thinks to himself that it’s a good thing that, from what he’s been able to gather, the idiot has Hinata cooking for him the majority of the time.
The sun beats down from overhead as Sakura, Naruto, and Ino proceed to visit back and forth for a bit as Sasuke eats and continues to listen. Ino seems unchanged by the alcohol; she must have a fairly high tolerance, which doesn’t surprise him. The conversation begins to center mostly around work towards the end of the hour. Ino is as loquacious as she’s ever been, and makes a point of asking Naruto about things going on at the Hokage’s Office, decisions on where the next expansions of Konoha’s boundaries will be happening and his opinion on dual citizenship; he assumes that has to do with Choji and the woman from Kumo. That does surprise him a little, because the way she asks him, despite her previous jibes and outspokenness, is fully respectful and laden with the implication that she completely trusts Naruto to be helping Kakashi with these sorts of things. Naruto really has earned everyone’s respect.
“Well,” the blonde says after finishing the last of her own food and reaching for the duffel bag beneath the counter, “I suppose I’d better go shower before this meeting, lest I give Hyuga-sama the ammo to take impeccable grooming off my list of pros.” The way she says Hyuga-sama is dripping with sarcasm; it’s incredibly clear she must loathe him.
Naruto snorts on his other side, and it’s not the reaction Sasuke expected, given it’s the dobe’s father-in-law, so Sasuke looks to him with furrowed brows.
Maybe not everyone.
“It was nice to see you, Sasuke,” Ino is saying, and he blinks in mystification, turning back to his right where Ino is scooting off her seat on Sakura’s other side. “You’re as chatty as ever. Quit being a stranger, yeah? We’ll have to drag you along to go swimming with all of us sometime this summer or something.” She neatly polishes off the very last of her drink prior to sliding the empty bottle across the counter. “You, too, Naruto. And Hinata, obviously.”
Sakura looks amused. “You just want more people to beat in the tournament.”
Tournament?
Ino smirks in response, punching Sakura’s shoulder lightly as she admonishes, “Shut up, Forehead. We have a title to uphold, remember?”
Naruto groans for some reason. Sparing him a glance, Sakura rolls her eyes before grinning and rotating back towards Ino to punch her in return.
"Give 'em hell,” Sakura murmurs simply, voice nothing but encouraging.
Ino responds by flipping her hair behind her with the same self-assurance she’s always had.
"You know I always do."
Sakura watches Ino with something that looks an awful lot like pride as she disappears down the street. She then returns her attention to her own nearly finished food, shifting atop her stool slightly to cross her legs.
Sasuke promptly realizes that the change in position, coupled with the length of her shorts, puts the freckle on the interior portion of her upper right thigh within plain sight.
He manages to redirect his gaze away, but only after staring at it for a good three seconds.
XXX
The lily plants are small, still, but growing steadily. He tips lukewarm water over top of each of them with care before continuing his walk home from Sakura’s.
He’s not quite tired just yet, so he retrieves the remains of his breakfast from the fridge and sets to ending his day the same way it began: eating amidst his notes and pen, piecing out more parts of the scroll by lamplight.
Keys to ciphers, he knows, can often be puzzled out by focusing on apparent groupings of phrases. It’s easy enough to piece together word patterns when you try to separate the onslaught of characters and letters into phrases that seem more akin to the rhythm of common vernacular. Messages in code tend to be shortened slightly, intended to further obfuscate the message, but he’s been stuck on which vowel is which for a while. Other than As and Is easily clued by the shortest words in the selection, the remaining vowels can be difficult to place.
The last phrase in this particular scroll is strange in that it appears to end in some sort of I am statement, followed by a lengthy word. He’s managed a partial translation, he thinks, but it’s still not coming to him: “bjjsccgle” in accordance with what he’s managed thus far is “allsccgle”, but he’s not sure what word would fit. Perhaps he should try to find a dictionary and page through its contents to see if anything comes up. The rest of the message appears to have perfect grammar, so he has no reason to think it’s a misspelling; the style in which the text is written also contributes to that mode of operation, meticulously neat with not a single smudge.
He sighs deeply as he rises to make another round of ochazuke with decaffeinated sencha. If he’s destined to consume words until they become mindless, he might as well eat mindlessly, too. Perhaps tonight he’ll be able to keep it down, should he not be revisited by memories in the forms of nightmares, his brother poking his forehead with two bloody fingers before he coughs up rivers of red and collapses, over and over and over.
It’s macerating, to hear someone take their last breath and choke on it like that. The aftermath of it was somehow worse, though, the sickening crunch of skull hitting the concrete, then the crag of ground at his feet. Sasuke doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to smother the sound of it, nor will he forget the way his brother smiled at him.
He grits his teeth until he thinks his canines must be ground to dull planes, boiling water even as his vision blurs, because he’s trying to be better.
As he cooks and thinks a mile a minute in his quest for distraction, he latches onto the idea of asking Sakura to have tea again at the shop this Thursday, if he doesn’t have a mission by then. He’s running low on the decaffeinated version especially, with as often as he’s been having it in the evenings while he pores over the scroll.
While he forces his mind to focus on something good - the freckle on Sakura’s thigh, or her fingers at the nape of his neck, threading through his hair - he twists the top of the rice bag into a more or less closed position and stops short.
H-E-B, the logo states at the top of it.
His brow furrows as he freezes, examining it with startling clarity. Then he’s setting it aside and moving back to the scroll.
Many ciphers are written without punctuation with the intent of clouding the message further. It’s simple enough to piece together where the apostrophes are, even if they’re not actually included within the encoding, as any word that ends in s is suspect. This particular cipher appears to feature s as a direct translation, so that part was easier to piece together. A hyphen, however, is harder to put into place, and would throw the reader off if they don’t know the keyword.
I am allsccgle becomes I am all-sccgle in his notes.
All what? He questions inwardly, staring at it until the whistle of the boiling water pulls him from his rumination.
He lifts the kettle from the stove top and pours it over his glass to set the tea to brew. As he stirs the rice once, then twice, he frowns.
The “cc” has to be a vowel repetition, then.
It’s that thought that does it.
All-seeing.
For some reason it makes every hair on his arm stand on end, malefic and ill-intended.
He scrawls it down quickly and scans the source text, glancing occasionally to the rice atop the stove before filling in the remainder of the message, now that he’s got Es, Is, Ns, and Gs down.
Eventually the rice has finished boiling, and he finishes his preparation of the simple meal. Typically Sasuke is not hasty in his food preparation, but he is now, only half-draining the white grain into a bowl prior to pouring the sencha over it and taking it back to his table. He wishes he had his other hand in the sense that he could at least eat with one and continue writing with the other, but he makes do as he always does, barely tasting the food in his distraction.
It’s around midnight, ochazuke long finished, when a familiar twinge at the edge of his stump pulls his frown deeper; the heat and the barometric pressure change that accompanies it is beginning to bother his bad arm again. Possibly his lack of sleep, too.
He sighs, wholly irritated, ahead of rising to shrug off his shirt and grab a towel from the bathroom. He examines the residual limb in the mirror, but it doesn’t look red anywhere. Alternatively, the entirety of his right shoulder is a mess of a purpling bruise, sensitive to the touch. He rolls up the towel dutifully as he heads to the living room to quietly begin his routine of stretches, though he knows from experience it won’t help much: flexor stretch for five minutes with the towel propped beneath his stump, extensor stretch for six, then his shoulder for roughly the same stretch of time. It does somewhat help to detract from the concatenation that is his mind’s racing, at least, though the pull in his bruised shoulder as he moves through each exercise is far from pleasant.
He pops two pain relief pills chased with water before returning to the scroll.
It’s nearly three when he pieces the final bit of the message out, keyword identified and sentences chunked into a final legible message that doesn’t do much to detract from his increasing tension.
pjulocr dnr aboecrs trcbsurc sfgsn nljy bpprnxgkbtcjy bprgj tf tf tn fnurs gjjusgnl tcmflgquc vbry jnmbtgnl bs lccoco bjnle rnutc sn jnle bs tfcyrc nmmupgco bt bercco upnl tgkcs ynu wgjj rcmcgvc pbykclt ynu kby iccp wfbt ynu mbl ect bwby wgtf pbykclt wgjj ac pnstco rcebrojcss nd mbpturc bjrcboy stnwco gd ynu tbji cxpcmt rcvnmbtgnl mrbwj jcbos tn rcloczvnus pnglt wgtf pbykclt jnmbtgnl jnni dnr rcmcss rctrgcvc blo dnrect wfbt ynu sbw onuajc mrnssgle wgjj rcsujt gl tfc gldnrkblts cxpgry g bk bjjsccgle
Plunder for badger’s treasure. Shiso only. Approximately April 10th 20th. 800 to 1000 hours. Illusion technique. Vary location as needed along route. So long as they’re occupied at agreed upon times, you will receive payment. You may keep what you can get away with. Payment will be posted regardless of capture; already stowed. If you talk, expect revocation. Crawl leads to rendezvous point with payment location. Look for recess, retrieve, and forget what you saw. Double crossing will result in the informant's expiry. I am all-seeing.
Sasuke’s frown pulls deeper. It sounds awfully familiar, in more ways than one.
The keyword is bamboo.
As it doesn’t necessarily seem like an urgent emergency - all of the bandits are in custody, he knows, and will be for at least the next few weeks, meaning whatever their payment was will be sitting untouched - he resolves to see Kakashi first thing in the morning. He doesn’t typically set an alarm given his tendency to wake up generally when he intends to, but he does this time for just before six. He assumes his old sensei will be in by then.
Sasuke endeavors to clear his mind in the meantime, hoping to be able to sleep for at least a couple of hours. There’s one method as of late that has proven rather effective at aiding him in that regard, so he makes use of it with only a tiny bit of disinclination, closing his eyes and thinking of Sakura and how she gently pulled him back for a sixth kiss tonight prior to his departure.
…And the outfit. He doesn’t notice clothing on other people, but that has been branded into his ocularity all day, even after they’d hung out later and she’d showered and changed, face-framing braid and flowers abandoned for freshly-washed hair imbued with a raspberry scent.
In the crystal clear dream that follows, he’s peeling her clothing off of her as she whispers his name with increasing urgency. He drags the netting over her shoulders, then the shorts down her hips, and presses his lips to the creamy skin by her navel until she squirms, moans soft as silk to his ears. He redirects his attentions to the freckle on her thigh, and then-
He wakes up well in advance of his alarm, blisteringly hot and thinking about flushed skin and wondering the answer to an entirely improper question that's been bothering him since the advent of puberty, coupled with his knowledge of genetics.
He's in over his head, he gathers as he rakes his hand over his face in frustration.
XXX
“Kakashi,” he greets tersely as he steps into the Hokage’s office at six in the morning sharp, scroll and translation notes in lone hand.
“Sasuke,” Kakashi responds. There is no tone of surprise regarding the early hour, despite the fact that it seems they are the only people in the entire building as of yet. The silver-haired ninja’s focus only briefly flicks to what’s in his hand. “It’s early. I take it you’ve finished?”
Sasuke nods as he hands it over. “Keyword is bamboo.”
That statement appears to get his attention. The Hokage meets his gaze and blinks once.
“Curious,” he comments before unrolling Sasuke’s translation and reading through it in a manner that seems methodical. Sasuke lingers, wanting to gauge his sensei’s reaction. There is a very minute widening of Kakashi’s lone visible eye as he reads the concluding statement.
“Hmm,” he murmurs, laying the paper to rest on the desk in front of him, next to the scroll. “How troubling. Though I suppose I can’t say it’s entirely unprecedented.”
Sasuke nods. “The bandits were a diversion, then.”
“It appears so,” Kakashi agrees, peering out the window in a way that seems contemplative.
There is an extensive pause, and then Kakashi’s frowning down at Sasuke’s notes again.
“I know you didn’t mention anything of the sort, but just to confirm: the bandits didn’t use any illusion techniques, did they?”
“...No.”
Kakashi taps his fingers on his desk, frowning. “Hmm. I thought that perhaps the way we came about that first scroll was too easy, though I suppose we had no choice but to intervene.”
“...Where did this one come from?” Sasuke knows it’s probably confidential, so Kakashi doesn’t have to answer him, but he’s disquisitive nonetheless.
His old sensei is quiet for a long time, so long that Sasuke suspects he isn’t going to answer. It seems like he’s thinking, or perhaps planning, mentally positioning pieces in possible paths forward.
“...It was discovered by accident,” he finally divulges. “A civilian was harvesting some bamboo for their family’s dinner.” After pausing, Kakashi turns to him. “Allegedly they sliced off a long section of cane, and it fell right out.” He nods his head in the direction of the scroll. There’s a grim frown etched in the shadows of Kakashi’s mask.
So found in bamboo in addition to bamboo being the keyword.
Something about this is making his skin crawl.
Kakashi sighs eventually, astriction fizzling out of him.
“Well. I’ll have to discuss this with a few people before we act, but I’m guessing I have an idea of what’s going on, based on our other intel.” His gaze rises to Sasuke. “Expect to have a mission perhaps as soon as this evening; I have a feeling your skills are well-suited to what I have in mind. I’ll summon you once the course is decided.”
Sasuke dips his head in acknowledgement, mind going into planning mode as it always does when he knows a mission is iminent. He turns on his heel to head out the door, stump still aching at his side.
“And Sasuke,” Kakashi calls just as he’s reached the threshold.
Sasuke pauses, turning.
His old sensei is smiling at him now, wide and genuine. “Thank you for the translation. Your help is invaluable. I hope everything is going well… Sakura seems very happy.”
Sasuke blinks, slowly nodding once as a diminutive amount of tension eases out of him. He doesn’t say anything more before he departs, quiet footsteps echoing down the empty hallway and atop the stairs.
Sakura works until seven, he knows, and she said last night that she would be heading in a little early today to work on some other things, too - an appointment with a patient and research work. He mulls it over on his walk home in the already broiling air, thinking about an invitation to her office if he's hurting, the pain in his residual limb, and his dwindling supply of tea, in addition to their now null plans for later tonight.
Eventually he arrives at a decision.
XXX
Sakura’s office is still as meticulously tidy as it was the last time he was here, though there's a stack of papers nearly ten inches high on her desk, followed by a few folders denoting some system of organization, bits of documents and what appears to be overflowing notes sticking out of them. It will work in his favor, he concludes as he strategically situates the iced tea out of sight, sweetened and flavored with the things he's learned she likes. It fits slightly behind the pile while still being far enough away to ensure the documents remain unsullied by any condensation on the outer portion of the cup. Most importantly, it’s placed at an angle that ensures it won’t be discovered until she sits at her desk.
Sasuke takes a seat in one of the chairs on the opposite side of the room with Interlocking Maps, angled in a way in which he can read with the light from her large window, as he doesn’t want to turn the light on and possibly alert her staff that someone is in her office. He also doesn't flare his chakra; it's not an emergency, and he doesn't want to interrupt her day. He's sure she'll notice his presence regardless once enough time passes, and she'll have to come to her office eventually. There's some part of him that still feels a little hesitant in being here despite the pain in his residual limb, though he knows that Sakura means what she says.
Roughly half an hour passes - he’s in the concluding pages of the book - before he hears her voice down the hall, followed shortly by her chakra flaring slightly in what he assumes is acknowledgment. He flares his own in response, hardly enough for any other ninja in the vicinity to notice, marking his page with the faded petal prior to closing the book and setting it on the small corner table.
"Aoi," her voice calls from down the hall, punctuated by the sound of footsteps. "Do you think you could get Room 449 started for me? I need a general update from her, and she’ll need to drink the glucola so in an hour we can draw the blood to test. I’ll head in for the ultrasound in a bit.”
Sasuke blinks. He didn’t know she did ultrasounds.
“Of course, Sakura-san. I’ll get the solution mixed up now,” a female voice responds.
“Thank you,” Sakura’s voice calls, closer now. “I’ll be out in a bit.”
The door to her office swings open and in she steps, donning a white jacket and clutching a clipboard in one arm.
“Sasuke-kun,” she greets quietly once she’s closed the door behind her, casting a smile in his direction.
“Sakura,” he murmurs just as softly as she appraises him as if to assess him for injury. She neglects to turn the light on, he notices, likely to ensure they will not be disturbed.
He raises his stump slightly in answer. “...Heat’s bothering it,” he supplies simply, then adds, hesitant, "...If you have time."
She dips her chin in confirmation, eyes softening as if that’s what she expected. She pulls out the chair next to his slightly at an angle and takes a seat while Sasuke begins to roll his sleeve up to his shoulder in response, baring his stump to her on his left as she sets aside her clipboard.
“How bad?” She questions softly as her fingertips rise to meet his skin and he tries to school his brain into not reflecting on masculine wanderings from the night and early hours. “On a scale of one to ten?”
He reflects briefly, taking stock of the set of his jaw. “...Maybe a six.” It’s close to the truth.
Sakura nods as her fingers begin glowing green, and he exhales slowly in relief, tissue losing tension and ache nearly all at once.
“No redness? Or areas that feel warmer than usual?”
Sasuke shakes his head, carefully controlled and thinking while he works on his words.
“...If there was, I’d tell you,” he offers huskily after he’s mulled it over, voice barely a whisper.
Brilliant eyes flicker up to his, slightly wide as her lashes skim her cheeks once, then twice. Then her gaze settles, a small smile threading its way to her lips as her focus falls back to the mess of severed muscle she’s working on.
“I’m glad,” she murmurs in equal volume. He thinks she looks very pleased. One of her thumbs makes an arch across his skin that he knows from past experience isn’t quite necessary.
Worth saying, then.
He swallows, forcing his mind fastidiously blank and trying to ignore what even the slightest touch from her does to his pulse.
“...I’ll likely have a mission assignment today,” Sasuke tells her once he thinks he’s got it under control and she’s finishing up, chakra fading as she begins to rub her fingers in circles, pushing long-lasting relief into the sensitive nerve endings, edge taken off and then some.
Sakura peers up at him, blinking quizzically.
“...Likely?”
He nods. “Kakashi said he’ll summon me this evening.”
Understanding dawns on her expression.
“Ah.” She smiles, apparently realizing that it will negate the plans they made the evening previous, fingers still arching patterns into his skin. “Thank you for letting me know. Any idea for how long?”
Sasuke frowns, reflecting on the rough number of days the bandit mission took. He's not entirely sure what sort of ground they'll need to cover.
“...Maybe eight days, if Sai’s with.”
A thoughtful expression overtakes her face as she continues to massage the underlying tissue. “Sai’s on a mission already,” she says. “Shikamaru, too. Probably won’t be your usual squad.”
His frown sinks further. Perhaps it’ll be a more run-of-the-mill squad then. He briefly pities Kakashi, and to a lesser degree, Naruto, for having to decide who to deploy with him. He’s sure the list of possible candidates isn’t a long one.
“...Longer, then, probably,” he surmises. He doubts there are too many people within Konoha’s ranks who can aid in group travel faster than Sai, other than perhaps Naruto and himself. He’s not keen on using the Rinnegan for that purpose with random ninja he’s not well acquainted with.
Sakura exhales slowly. “Probably,” she echoes in agreement, releasing his bicep now that she’s finished.
“If it’s longer…" She looks at him, inquisitive, as her voice trails off, biting her lip in a way that is profoundly distracting.
Then she adds, softly as she pulls his sleeve back into place for him, "...Is there anything else I should look at before you go?”
Sasuke thinks it over, trying to ascertain if it’s feasible they’ll run into any kind of serious combat on this mission. It’s possible, he supposes, though he’s working with blank spaces in his rationale and scope.
After a brief moment of internal hesitation regarding the ramifications this choice will undoubtedly have in store for him later, he angles his torso differently, shifting his other arm towards her. It would be sensible to get it fixed while he’s here, if she’s offering.
Corrosion.
“...It’s just bruised, but Naruto got my shoulder pretty good,” he responds finally, meeting her eyes with trepidation, because he knows he’s unable to roll up his own main sleeve without doing something wholly undignified like using his teeth. If he was alone, he would simply take his shirt off, but he doesn’t want to do that here for reasons that are obvious.
How different could it be, really, for her to roll his sleeve up instead of down?
“Of course,” she says slowly, lips turned skyward sweetly. “I can look at it.”
There’s a pause in which he simply sits there, waiting, and then he looks away, heat rising up his neck as he attempts to imprison his interior monologue into a metaphorical jar, tightening the lid.
She blinks several times - he can see it out of the corner of his line of sight - before she seems to realize why there is a lack of progress on his part in baring his shoulder. Then her fingers are at his other sleeve, brushing his knuckles in the process.
When he braves a glance, he notes her cheeks are cherry red, and it gives him some reassurance that she’s at the very least not entirely unaffected, either. Her fingers twitch against his, barely noticeable. Then it’s gone in the flicker of an eye, conquered by her professionalism, and she begins the process of shifting dark fabric all the way up his arm.
Turns out, it’s very different.
The air feels unmistakably charged as Sakura’s fingers drag ever so slightly against his skin. He is reminded of the way the strained honey at the tea shop flowed from the dispenser under the weight of gravity, dripping rich gold into a cup of sweetened peach tea and lemon slices.
He rapidly bottles another mental jar, this one containing all of his thoughts regarding removing clothing, and rolls it firmly away into the abyss. She’s careful in her touch even moreso once she gets to the shoulder, brow furrowing with clear concern as the bruise comes into sight. It is a particularly bad one, he supposes, turned fully splotchy purple and blue now, with a sickly yellow lurking at the edges.
Once the sleeve is situated out of the way, she carefully lays her hands atop the curve of his trapezius where it meets his deltoid and presses chakra there, urging the colors of damaged blood vessels back to normalcy along with any remnants of pain. Sasuke very carefully looks anywhere but her, fingers gripping where they’re resting against his thigh.
It feels almost as nice as it does on his stump. She really is good at what she does, to both his benefit and his detriment.
Minutes pass in which he counts the bricks on the wall, memorizing the exact shade of taupe they are painted with. By the time he feels capable of chancing a look again, the color of the skin on his shoulder has returned to its normal shade.
“There,” she says softly, lifting her fingers, and he’d nearly forgotten that there would be no sort of massage following the healing of a simple bruise, nasty and all-encompassing as it was. She gently tugs the fabric of his sleeve back down his arm, lightly branding invisible fingerprints all the way down the expanse of skin that may as well be sacrosanct to the testosterone heavy part of his brain.
Sasuke exhales slowly in a way he hopes is discreet, profoundly coming to terms with the fact that, based on his jumping pulse alone, he is absolutely, pitifully doomed in this regard.
“Thank you,” he breathes as her hand recedes.
Sakura smiles up at him like it’s preeminent praise.
“You’re welcome,” she murmurs, the jade of her eyes dancing briefly before she glances at her clock. He follows her gaze, noting that roughly fifteen minutes have passed, though it felt hours longer to him.
She sighs as she rises from the chair, pushing it into its customary place against the wall; he follows her lead, as he doesn’t want to keep her from her schedule for too long.
“You’ll come by, once you’re back?” She questions, shifting her weight to her other side prior to reaching to collect her clipboard.
He nods, and her smile returns.
“Good,” she says softly, dimple inking into existence. “Here’s hoping the heat breaks soon.”
He huffs his version of a laugh, knowing it will be at least a few days before they have any such luck, and her grin inches wider.
There’s a lingering moment where her smile softens into a decidedly different expression, and he blinks, because she’s still just looking at him.
Then she’s rising to her tiptoes.
Her lips are pressed softly to his right cheek sooner than he can process what’s happening, careful pressure lingering where she can barely reach. She pulls away after scarcely a second, sinking back to her heels with a shy expression.
“Be safe,” she murmurs, casting one more disarmingly pretty glance in his direction. She turns and heads out the door, shutting it behind her with a soft click.
Sasuke gawks at it, disoriented and vision glued to the threshold as the cadence of Sakura’s footsteps fades down the hallway.
Once he’s completely sure she’s gone, he allows himself to raise his hand, sliding his fingers atop the skin where her lips have just been. Once, then twice, then thrice.
His cheek feels warm even to his own touch. It’s a minute or two before he manages to let his arm fall away and he departs the way he came, blind to everything save mixed berry redolence.
XXX
The summons arrives as he’s finishing an early dinner, a large portion of pork curry donburi as he contemplates the ending of Interlocking Maps in lamplight. He’s somewhat glad he chose to do his dishes and organize his newly diversified tea cabinet beforehand; it’s apparently a more pressing summons, which means he’ll have little time to pack.
He’s the first one to arrive in Kakashi’s office, and he’s not entirely sure that’s a good sign regarding this briefing, given he’s going to be assigned to a different squad. It’s rare, but not unheard of for Shinobi to refuse to take a mission. Kakashi is the sort who inspires a lackadaisical sort of devotion, though, so he tries not to let his frown sink too deep right from the get go.
“Sasuke,” his old sensei greets. He doesn’t look a bit concerned, so Sasuke lets his shoulders relax slightly as he nods in greeting. He notes as he comes to stand at his usual spot for briefings, a few feet away from the front of his desk, that a map, the scroll, his notes, and a few other documents of writing are spread before Kakashi; he assumes they must be for whoever is leading this squad.
“The other two are coming,” he mentions cryptically, eye crinkling at the edges, and that gets Sasuke’s attention.
Two. Not three.
It doesn’t take long for Naruto’s trademark gait, loud and thundering, to begin echoing up the stairs, though there’s none of the raspy speech that usually accompanies it. Sasuke briefly wonders why he’s so quiet; usually he’s boisterous with both voice and body.
He soon discovers why. Naruto shoulders the door open, chopsticks in one hand and a ludicrously large bowl of what appears to be ramen in his other, frantically chewing.
“Oi!” He mumbles a greeting through a half bite of noodles and what appears to be a sizable chunk of sliced eel prior to swallowing, and Sasuke’s eye twitches, because he knows in an instant that the dobe probably begged Hinata to combine expensive grilled eel with his favorite cheap food of choice.
Naruto’s blue eyes bug out of his head when he realizes that Sasuke is standing there.
“EH? Teme?!” He looks from Sasuke to Kakashi, then repeats the motion with increasing speed, shoving another bite of whatever’s in the bowl into his mouth - Sasuke recognizes that yes, it is indeed grilled unagi ramen - and sauntering up to Kakashi’s desk.
He chews thoroughly before he sets the bowl down somewhat gingerly on the edge of the surface, careful not to spill a drop of broth. He then levels their old sensei with a glare and swallows his food.
“If YOU called me here for fucking guard duty reconnaissance with teme again-”
Sasuke’s eye twitches again.
Nosy.
“-Just when my wife has invented the GREATEST food to ever exist-”
Sasuke rolls his eyes.
“I’ll-” The dobe punches the air with his chopsticks as Kakashi smiles, completely unaffected, and really, that’s what cements it for Sasuke, in terms of who their third squad member is going to be. “I’ll-”
Naruto angrily shoves his chopsticks into his bowl again, fishing another ridiculously enormous bite out of his bowl and shoving it into his mouth to chew.
The dobe swallows, then sighs exasperatedly. “WELL, I don’t know what I’ll do! But I’ll think of something!” Blue eyes flit from one filing cabinet to the next. “I know your stupid books are hidden in here somewhere. I WILL find them if that’s what this is; do you hear me?!”
His hand manipulates the chopsticks into the bowl for another bite, delivering it to his mouth before he picks up the bowl again and drinks some broth.
Kakashi smiles, completely unmoved.
“Sure.”
A lone blond eyebrow twitches, annoyed, before he comes to stand in relatively the same vicinity as Sasuke. At least the dobe has apparently gathered that he’s not the mission leader. He must usually not be, for the missions he does get; he didn’t even ask about the papers or the scroll.
Minutes tick by, Naruto chewing noodles and eel and chunks of green onions and wakame, vacillating between sipping and glaring at Kakashi. Sasuke becomes even more sure that his earlier inkling was correct - most ninja are not late without good reason - and sure enough, a lighter step pattern he knows even better than Naruto’s begins echoing up the steps.
Sasuke shares a look with Kakashi that is knowing as an ear-splitting grin erupts on Naruto’s face.
“Kakashi-sensei!!” The dobe whoops, raising his chopsticks in the air. Sasuke notes he still grips the bowl carefully, not spilling a drop of what Hinata’s made for him. “Really?! Really, really?!?! You’re not fucking with us, right?!”
Kakashi bears the same smile he’s been wearing this entire time. “Really.”
Even Sasuke can admit that his heart is at least a little warmed.
Sakura pushes the doors to the Hokage Office open a few seconds later, a wide grin on her face; it’s obvious she heard Naruto at least a floor down.
“Sakura-chaaan! Team Seven reunion mission!! For real this time!” Naruto cheers, shoving another bite of his food into his mouth and chewing with renewed vigor.
“Sorry I’m late,” she supplies, gaze flicking from Naruto to Sasuke before she closes the door behind her and turns to Kakashi. “I was in the lab.”
“Usually that’s my line,” their old sensei says with amusement prior to pushing the small collection of papers to the outer edge of his desk. “...But I suppose I’ll let it slide just this once.” He motions to Naruto’s usual chair as well as the few chairs pushed against the far wall. “It’s probably best you all grab a chair. This is going to involve some map work to understand.”
Sakura nods, proceeding to grab a chair. Sasuke follows suit as Naruto grabs his usual one to pull around to the front of the desk.
Once they’re gathered around, Sakura in the middle, Sasuke on her left, and Naruto, still slurping from his bowl, on her right, Kakashi begins.
“Forewarning that this does get a bit complicated, so feel free to stop me if there’s something you need further clarification on.” He slides the scroll and Sasuke’s notes over the map, which Sasuke can now see depicts roughly the area in which they apprehended the bandits, along with some scrawled notes that look like Kakashi’s handwriting. “This scroll was shared with us by our Land of Rivers allies. A civilian found it within a cane of bamboo near their family’s farm field completely by accident; harvesting some cuts of bamboo for dinner. Essentially it wasn’t meant to be discovered, at least not by us; it’s simply our luck that the civilian reported it and our allies collected it.”
Kakashi pauses long enough to roll the scroll open to compare it with Sasuke’s notes.
“What’s significant about this is the timing and locale. We received a report regarding a missing child, a few months back, from the Land of Rivers.” Kakashi points to what must be the rough location, still visible on the map below the other materials, and very near the border of the Land of Fire. “Here, roughly. Now…” His finger trails upwards, to the Land of Fields, and Sasuke frowns. “Here, another child went missing. Roughly the same age, and roughly the same story, though Fields has been less overflowing with their information than Rivers has. A boy, about eight. What they have in common, from what we’ve gathered aside from their age, is that both children were born to civilian parents, but had a solid amount of chakra respectively, and thus good potential to become ninja.” Kakashi points to the town nearest to the disappearance location in the area of the map that denotes the Land of Fields. “This one was from a more populated area - a town rather than the countryside like the other one - but his mother was calling upon an elderly neighbor when it happened, so he was alone at the house. That also happened a few months ago, before the Land of Rivers kid disappeared.”
“There’s been no sign of either of them?” Sakura questions, looking troubled.
Kakashi shakes his head. “No. Nothing.” There’s a brief pause before he continues. “So back to the scroll. Sasuke helpfully finished translating it this morning. His notes correspond as follows: Plunder for badger’s treasure. Shiso only. Approximately April 10th 20th. That’s the first part. We’re working on the assumption that this means something was going to go down April 10th through the 20th. Now previously-” Kakashi leans to open one of the drawers of his desk, procuring another familiar-looking scroll. “Sasuke also translated this one.”
“Hey! I helped-”
Kakashi throws Naruto a look that causes him to close his mouth, grumble, apparently think better of whatever nonsense he was about to say, and take another bite of his food.
“As I was saying. Not easy by any means, but not nearly as complicated a cipher as the one before you. This one detailed three specific locations that were about to be plundered by bandits, all occurring within that range of time. Stealing valuables of farmers from their houses while they were away trying to sow the fields. Seems simple enough at first, without the context of the second scroll, right? Your basic cut and dry thievery.”
“And nothing to imply that the two scrolls are even related,” Sakura notes, apparently clocking the stylistic differences between the two types of paper.
“Exactly. The newer one’s only become suspicious in retrospect.” Kakashi smiles at her prior to continuing. “So circling back to plunder for badger’s treasure. Based on our intelligence, we believe plunder to be referring to the reward offered to these bandits in exchange for whatever badger’s treasure is, leading us to think that they were not working solely off the motive of stealing cheap valuables from smallfolk, but rather that that was the cherry on top of another promised, more lucrative reward.” The silver-haired ninjai pauses, directing a lengthy glance at Sakura, and when he follows the look, Sasuke sees Sakura seems additionally distraught now, concern painting her face. Naruto, meanwhile, appears to still have gears turning as he tries to follow their old sensei’s logic.
“That’s what I thought at first, too, given the missing children, but I don’t think that’s it,” Kakashi says simply, and the severity of her expression lessens a bit; Sasuke frowns deeper, now reading the implication of her line of thought. “Which brings us to the next portion of this message: illusion technique. Vary location as needed along route. So long as they’re occupied at agreed upon times, you will receive payment. Except here’s the thing. I reread the mission reports, and confirmed with Sasuke, our resident expert in the field on illusion ninjutsu, and none of the bandits used any such techniques. Thus whoever wrote this scroll was the one casting some kind of illusion while said bandits were creating a diversion. Their goal was obviously to focus ninja response in the area on the bandits, and also to lure some of the farmers away from their fields for a bit. I’m working under the assumption, then, that the illusion technique was cast to make something in the fields look like it belongs there when in reality it does not. Obviously that is interesting, because there isn’t a whole lot that one can hide in a freshly tilled field, and furthermore, simple farmers aren’t going to be expelling genjutsu anyways. In addition to that, how many ninja pass directly through fields of crops? Whatever is there, the person behind all this really doesn’t want to be found.”
The three of them nod in unison.
“So then, you may keep what you can get away with is fairly straightforward. Payment will be posted regardless of capture; already stowed is what is currently in question. Thus far, none but one the bandits have talked. For the lot of them, I’d chalk it up less to any sense of loyalty and more to plain lack of knowledge about what they were actually creating a diversion for in the first place. The one that we did get to talk - one of their leaders - didn’t know much, either; just vague hints about badgers being tricksters and shiso fields, so I’m not quite sure they even knew anything other than the location. And if you talk, expect revocation; also straightforward. Crawl leads to rendezvous point with payment location. But crawl where? Into the homes of the farmers? I doubt it. It’s the look for recess, retrieve, and forget what you saw that cemented it for me.”
“Even to a novice ninja, this agreement sounds sketchy,” Sakura comments, and Kakashi nods immediately.
“Very true. And all of the bandits in our custody, as well as our allies, seem to be… well.” He smiles. “They’re idiots. Which leads me to a creeping suspicion that said payment doesn’t actually exist.”
“Wait, wait, wait. If they’re dumb,” Naruto says, swirling his chopsticks into his bowl, “Then how were they supposed to translate this scroll in the first place?”
For a moment, Kakashi folds both of his hands in front of him. “That’s simple: barring their leader, the majority of them weren’t meant to translate it. This scroll in itself was insurance, in case the one leader sent to ‘collect’ somehow did manage to find its location.”
“The location of the ‘plunder’ is a trap designed to eliminate the one who knows the most, so that there’s no trace of whatever it is they’re hiding,” Sakura observes, and their old sensei nods.
“Yes. Insurance. No payment needed until the end anyways; either Konoha or our allies will detain them, and if anyone did manage to escape our grasp, it would be the one who’s the most knowledgeable on the situation and helped to organize the others. In which case… should they be able to even find the ‘plunder’s’ location, they would be swiftly eliminated.”
“Wait. So how did the idiot bandits even know the dates, then?” Naruto asks, looking puzzled as he leans back in his chair.
Kakashi waves his hand. “Different scrolls, copies of the initial one that tipped us off about the bandits in the first place. Those ones were more necessary to deliver, to ensure the diversion was created.”
“Hmm.” The dobe nods his head emphatically, taking another bite.
“So. Back to look for recess, retrieve, and forget what you saw. Double crossing will result in the informant’s expiry. Nice message to lull the reader into a false sense of security, that single crossing will turn out as planned. And then, of course, the ending.”
“I am all-seeing,” Sakura reads, brows furrowing together. She meets Kakashi’s gaze steadily. “Not sure I like that.”
“I’m not, either,” Kakashi murmurs, and Sasuke suddenly thinks the man sounds very tired. “And I’m hoping against hope that this has nothing to do with any sort of business of trying to undo seals, but… Well. You can’t be too careful.” He shrugs - Sasuke thinks in an attempt to lighten the mood - before moving the scroll aside so it’s just the map, Sasuke’s notes, and the few remaining documents.
“So wait,” Naruto blurts. “What’s the mission? Like, what are we doing? Do we know where the kids are?”
“Getting there,” Kakashi admonishes, spreading the documents further out so that the writing is easier to read from their vantage point. “These are a couple reports we’ve had about strange rocks and materials showing up in well water. One from Fire Country, and another from an outlier community in Rivers.”
“Well water,” Sakura echoes, frowning as her green eyes flit amongst the words at the tops of the pages prior to turning focus on the map. Sasuke follows the trajectory and realizes she’s trying to place the locations specified, so he follows suit.
His own brows furrow, because he’s somewhat familiar with the geography of the area from his travels, and he believes he’s now come to the same realization that Kakashi has.
“Badger’s plunder,” Sasuke murmurs, staring at the map as the words he’s translated gain new meaning.
Badgers are tricksters. It’s a common message in folktales, and their main pastime is...
“...They were digging tunnels.”
“Ah, the magic of teamwork. I’m a proud sensei.” Kakashi grins at Sasuke now, before shifting his attention to Sakura. “So the shiso bit…?”
“...A field of freshly tilled dirt will camouflage any tunnel entryways as long as they’re kept small. Shiso will grow dark in color by the time the dirt is more densely packed, following the season’s growth. It’ll camouflage any entrances better,” Sakura supplies.
Ah.
“The bandits were specifically instructed to mainly hit farmers planting shiso, so they were away from those fields specifically while the areas were barred with genjutsu and they worked on tunnel construction,” Sasuke finishes, looking briefly at Sakura with something like silent approbation.
“And thus I assume you can see where I’m going with this.” Kakashi tucks his hand beneath his chin, observing years of his own work unfold.
“You want us to investigate the tunnels, fast…” Naruto begins thoughtfully, apparently quicker on the uptake than Sasuke remembers.
“Neutralize any threats, inclusive of the trap. Retrieve the children if they’re there, and then collapse the entire system,” Sakura finishes with a tone of finality.
“Precisely, and within a short time, too; you’re probably going to need several rounds of caffeine pills. No sense in spreading out the devastation on the chance that you’re discovered; once you collapse one, you don’t want to wait too long to do the others, though I’m guessing they probably connect at some point. You can see why Team Seven’s skills would be uniquely suited to this sort of mission. All of your battle capabilities are obviously invaluable should you run into trouble, as well as Sakura’s healing talents, but your other skills should also be especially useful for the main task I have in mind.” Their sensei’s lone visible eye flicks over each of them in order, beginning with Sasuke. “I imagine that snake summonings will be effective in locating the tunnels in the first place, and any sort of knowledge on the terrain is obviously great. Rinnegan transport could be used occasionally, if you know the path before you from Naruto’s clones. You can also destroy any belongings we don't want whoever this is to have without leaving a trace.” His focus moves to Sakura. “You can collapse a tunnel with your pinky.” Lastly, his dark eye lands on Naruto. “And Naruto can transport groups quickly, too, in addition to making hundreds of shadow clones with which to search the premises, and poof them out of existence as you travel behind them, transmitting any intel back to the real Naruto. It’ll be easy enough to disable possible traps preceding the real you with a clone.” The Hokage scans all three of them in order again. “And then once it’s done, you can vacate the immediate area as quickly as you came, then come home the rest of the way normally so it appears as though you’re just returning from a routine mission.” Kakashi begins efficiently rolling up both the scroll and Sasuke’s notes, returning the items to their pile, though he leaves the map open. “I think it will be quite obvious to whoever we’re dealing with here that trying to operate under our nose won’t be tolerated, but there’s no reason to not go about it all with stealth and finesse nevertheless.”
“But where do we search?” Naruto questions, and Sasuke looks on curiously, because he is also wondering that very same question. It’s more than a needle in a haystack, even if he summons all of the smallest snakes he can request Aoda to gather for him at Ryuchi Cave and they only search around fields planted with shiso. They’re talking leagues and leagues of farmland. This sort of mission could take weeks if not months, unless there’s another clue somewhere within the translation.
Something nags at the corner of his mind, and he forcibly yanks it out, glancing at three areas circled in red on the map.
Unless…
“The scroll was found within bamboo, and the keyword is bamboo,” he realizes aloud.
Kakashi smiles like a cat. “It absolutely is. And for whatever reason, I have a feeling you should take badger’s plunder literally. Start with a search for what appears to be an actual badger burrow, in a shiso field, within the line of sight of a bamboo grove.” He folds the map and slides it into Sakura’s hands. “There are three bamboo groves near fields planted with shiso this year, according to my intel. Interesting that it was the same number of bandit hits; I’ve marked them for you. And Sakura: please send a summon once it’s done, and don’t leave the helpless little Genin unattended, will you?”
XXX
He’s the first one to arrive at the gates. They’re leaving tonight, with the hopes of getting on location at the first site before one; night travel will grant them some cover. Sakura gave them three quarters of an hour to gather their things prior to congregating for departure.
“I’ll take care of things while you’re gone. Teamwork, remember?” Kakashi had finally said once Naruto was done cheering in untempered excitement at the prospect of their mission together. Their old sensei had smiled at that in a way that Sasuke felt was primarily directed at Sakura, then at his other teammate; probably assurance that Naruto’s projects and the hospital’s day-to-day will be dealt with in their absence. Perhaps there are a few particularly pressing things the both of them are working on.
Sasuke will admit that his old sensei makes for a rather astute Hokage, though his eye is still twitching at the sentence involving guard duty reconnaissance. Really, though, Sasuke reflects, this is probably the absolute best excuse for Kakashi to get Naruto off his back about a Team Seven reunion mission, but in actuality it is also remarkably well-suited to their abilities.
He watches the clouds drifting across the sky as the sun sinks lower in the west from his vantage point leaned up against the gates, trying to gauge how long this mission will take, given his and Naruto’s abilities enable faster travel. They’ve been instructed to move at a normal pace for the first hour outside of the village, and then to make use of Naruto’s Body Flicker Technique and his Rinnegan portals to make it to the first location. It all depends on how quickly they can locate and search the tunnels, Sasuke supposes. Being underground again isn’t something he’s necessarily looking forward to, having spent several years cohabiting tunnel systems while under Orochimaru, but it will at least be a bit cooler beneath the earth, he thinks as a bead of sweat works its way across his shoulder, pulled downwards by gravity.
He’ll admit he’s excited. It will be good to work as a team again. They’ve always had his back; now he’ll have theirs once more.
Sakura appears down the road just a couple of minutes before their agreed-upon time, mission pack thrown over her shoulders. She’s wearing the midriff outfit again. It’s the one that makes the most sense, given the heat, but he carefully trains his vision on her face only, thinking this mission will become a test of forbearance in that regard.
“Sasuke-kun,” she murmurs in greeting, laughing a little as she gets close enough to speak. “No Naruto yet? He was excited enough that I thought he’d be the first one here.”
Sasuke snorts, rolling his eyes. “...I’m sure we’ll hear him before we see him.”
Sakura chuckles. “Yeah, I’m sure we will.” She pauses, scanning the village behind them prior to turning to him again.
“Was that unagi ramen he had?” She questions, tone sounding somewhat incredulous.
“Pretty sure it was,” he deadpans, rolling his eyes again.
Sakura heaves a sigh, grinning as she folds her arms together. “Bless Hinata’s heart.”
Sasuke nods in agreement.
There’s a lengthy pause in which Sakura seems like she wants to say something else, but before the words leave her mouth, a baritone is echoing through the streets.
“Sakuraaaaa-chaaaaan! Teme!”
The dobe blasts into sight down the road, arms extended outwards on either side as he zooms down the gravel in a pose reminiscent to that of a child, weaving to one side of the road and then the other. Sasuke takes the opportunity to glance at Sakura and sees she’s smiling fondly.
“Hope I’m not interrupting anything!” The dobe laughs once he’s closer, a megawatt smile on open display as Sasuke’s eye twitches. Naruto then throws an arm each around both Sakura and himself, gripping them closer, and Sasuke promptly begins work on shoving him away halfheartedly while simultaneously realizing the dobe smells more like sweat than he does, despite him being the first one here.
Gross, Sasuke thinks as he surmises the presumable reason he was the last to arrive.
“Man, this is gonna be so great! Team Seven’s BACK!”
Sakura laughs, seemingly unaffected by the dobe’s insinuation as Naruto struggles to pull Sasuke into their circle and he endeavors to swat him away. Despite her calm outward demeanor, Sasuke can tell she’s just as happy about this particular assignment. She doesn’t push Naruto away at all.
Conversely, actually, because not only does Sakura embrace their teammate despite his smell, but she also shifts her stance, reaching for Sasuke with a grin to pull him back into the semi-circle.
The touch feels unsure, even though her outward expression doesn’t seem hesitant at all; merely a light dusting of her fingers at his shoulder, rather than the full-on rowdy hug Naruto tried, as if she’s not totally sure if he’ll let her.
There is a split second where Sasuke recalls a flurry of occasions on which he rebuked such touches from her in their early Genin days, even the times when they were intended to be platonic and within the context of celebratory teamwork, an effort to try to bring the three of them together rather than apart.
He was such an idiot back then, trying to drive them both away with feigned indifference and irritation. If he had simply let them in, his adolescence could have turned out very differently. Perhaps Itachi’s death and the nauseating crack as he hit rock and concrete, fingers bloody, wouldn’t haunt him like an old house, and they all would have been spared the disaster at the Samurai Bridge, so he wouldn’t have to live with the atrocious knowledge of what it feels like to be the object of Sakura’s fear, what her eyes look like when she’s terrified of him.
He also wouldn’t have made her cry on a dark night, knowing him far too well despite his constant facade of acrimony, not far away from this very spot.
No time like the present.
So Sasuke concedes a step back closer to them, allowing smooth fingertips to guide him into place, though he still keeps the dobe at arm’s length for the sake of his nose.
The touch at his shoulder grows just a smidgen more confident.
“We sure are,” Sakura agrees, grinning unabashedly now. “It’s good to be back; I haven’t had a mission in a while.”
“HELL yeah! It’s gonna be totally awesome! Those badgers are never gonna stand a chance!”
At heart, Sasuke agrees.
XXX
They manage to make the first bamboo grove, the one where the second scroll was initially found, just after midnight. Quietly, they begin to poke around the freshly tilled soil. Around five hundred small snakes aid their efforts, scales slithering silent through the dirt in search of entrance to a larger tunnel system.
“What’s that saying?” Naruto asks a few feet away, examining the edges of the field. “Beetle in a haystack?”
Sasuke snorts before he rolls his eyes, not answering. For all his idiocy, at least the dobe is proceeding forward somewhat quietly for once. No sense in starting a fight with him.
“Needle,” Sakura corrects from farther away, where she’s also crouched, using her hands and occasionally her feet to sift slightly through the dirt in the search.
“Huh?”
“Needle.”
Naruto scratches his chin, smearing dirt all over it. “Wait, why would you lose a needle in a haystack? That has nothing to do with hay.” The sits up, focus withdrawn from a patch of weeds. “And what if the cows accidentally eat it?! Ouch!” He asks as an afterthought in a harsh whisper, looking horrified.
“It’s just an expression,” Sakura says impatiently.
“A weird one,” Naruto mutters back as he adjusts his position slightly to the left.
It’s a few more minutes before one of his snakes returns to him rather insistently, coiling around his left leg where it’s crouched.
“Over here,” Sasuke calls quietly, giving the silent creature two strokes across the head in thanks. The snake then uncoils itself and slithers through the dirt, about forty yards deep into the field.
“Watch your step,” he instructs Naruto more than Sakura behind him as they come upon where the majority of Aoda’s smaller neighbors are congregating. He doesn’t want the dobe to step on any of them accidentally. They’re circling around what appears to be some simple soil and rock, expertly placed.
As his teammates come up behind him, Sasuke murmurs a quick word of thanks to the reptiles; they spread to allow him a pathway to where he assumes the hole is, before poofing back to whence they came. He then murmurs a quick, “Kai,” followed suit by Sakura and Naruto behind him. Sure enough, the badger hole is there, inconspicuous even without the genjutsu.
“Y’know, teme, your snakes give me the creepy crawlies, but I gotta admit that was useful. We’da been searching for hours, otherwise.”
Sasuke rolls his eyes again, crouching now to gain a better grasp on the rough width and height of the hole. It’s not much bigger than a typical badger hole; definitely not big enough for a normal-sized person to fit through, though perhaps a child could squeeze by.
Naruto whistles as he gets closer, butting in beside Sasuke. “The fuck? Whoever got in here must be really fucking tiny.”
Sasuke rises, frowning at Naruto prior to taking a step back so the idiot has space to do whatever he’s about to do. When he glances at Sakura, she’s also frowning, dusting dirt off her knees.
Naruto makes the appropriate hand signs for Shadow Clone Jutsu, several much smaller versions of himself poof into existence beside him, roughly two feet tall. The clones all but dive head first into the tunnel.
There are several dull thuds, and then a moment of silence. The three of them listen with bated breath; they had assumed based on their intel that the pickup location of the promised reward, or rather, the trap, would not be at the same entrance within sight of where their scroll was found. It would be too easy.
“Yep!” Several voices eventually call up, and Sasuke strains to hear a variety of soft tapping noises as if the clones are sliding hands along the boundaries of the space and kicking in search of pressure release traps or punji sticks. “This is it. No trap at this one that I can tell. Hang on…”
The real Naruto flurries through hand signs and about twenty additional small scale clones of himself arrive, dropping into the hole one by one. Then, there is the sound of raucous digging.
The dobe rises as both Sasuke and Sakura close in. Sure enough, several small blond heads of hair poke to the surface, scrabbling dirt from the boundaries of the hole to make the entrance wider. It’s soon doubled in size, which is probably big enough for Sakura to squeeze through, and then shortly thereafter triples.
They slide down one after the other as Naruto’s shadow clones scatter forward into the darkness of the tunnel. Sasuke rises to his feet slowly, trying to gauge where the ceiling of the tunnel is, while simultaneously he hears Naruto rise too fast in the dark and crash his head against the low ceiling.
“Ow!”
Sasuke rolls his eyes for the umpteenth time today as Sakura flips on what must be the flashlight from her own pack. Sasuke situates his own to offer more light. Naruto follows last, grumbling at the low ceiling.
Sakura fits below it without crouching, he sees, but not by much; the ceiling’s maybe got three inches on her. It’s going to be a long journey for both himself and Naruto, if that’s the case the entire way.
They shine their trio of lights down the tunnel, and Sasuke’s brows furrow, because it appears to go on for miles, as evidenced by all of Naruto’s clones’ footsteps already out of their hearing range. It’s well-constructed, no evidence of leaking dirt anywhere, and reinforced with posts as far as the eye can see.
Sasuke finds the same look of concern painting the faces of his teammates when he spares them a glance before they start the path forward.
Sasuke activates his Sharingan just in case.
XXX
They find absolutely nothing for the majority of their trek through the tunnel.
Preceded by clones, there’s a relative sureness in their exploration of the tunnel system in regards to safety, but all they can really gather is that it’s lengthy and that there’s occasionally spots where the system widens to a larger room and a taller ceiling, deeper underground, before the tunnel narrows and slopes upward again. Naruto puts upwards of five hundred clones to work ahead of them, circling the ceilings and looking for traps to disengage as they travel behind them at a brisk pace. The dobe pulls them along with his Body Flicker Technique for the most of it; it’s more reliable for speed and safe transport given Naruto knows the route ahead from popping a clone out of existence every so often. Sasuke’s Rinnegan portals work if they know the path ahead is fairly straight, but he doesn’t want to waste chakra taking them straight within a dirt wall if the tunnel curves. Every couple of minutes, they have to stop so Sakura can turn behind them and level a chakra-charged fist at various points of the infrastructure to collapse the ground they’ve covered already. There are no branching pathways to be discovered, and no inhabitants to be found; simply mile after mile of earthen pathways to level in their wake, with occasional actual badger tunnels decorating the nullity of the dirt walls and intermixing with the new system.
There’s no furniture in any of the larger rooms, either; no evidence of people inhabiting the area, or even any hiding spots. They mutter a chorus of kais every five minutes of travel or so, but nothing. Just dirt. It doesn’t take long before they’re all covered in it.
It is very apparent that whoever constructed the place, they were confident that it wouldn’t be discovered.
Eventually they reach what appears to be the end of the first tunnel system. Judging by the time they’ve spent traveling thus far, they know they’ve been inching closer to the second location. Another pathway branches off from it, dirt scattered everywhere and no bit of light peeking through that would denote an entryway to the underpass.
They approach it carefully, as Naruto already knows from a clone’s demise that this is where the trap was.
It was a bomb, and one large enough to leave a small crater in its wake. Designed to kill whoever entered immediately upon impact, as well as to completely collapse that entrance to the tunnel, effectively closing it off but still leave the remaining system connected to the previous one.
They take a short break just past it, hydrating and shoving down much-needed food pills and caffeine pills. Sasuke takes two, given he hasn’t been sleeping the best already, and stretches his back, as it’s cramped from crouching near constantly. Naruto deposes a couple of his clones to gain intel on the path forward: no more traps, though apparently there are a few additional larger ‘rooms’.
“I’m going to have you use your Body Flicker Technique again with us to cover the ground faster, though we can’t cover too much with me collapsing everything behind us,” Sakura says to Naruto. “Sasuke-kun, your Rinnegan, too, if the path is straight. I don’t like any of this.”
Inwardly, Sasuke echoes her thoughts. It’s well past sunrise by now, probably closer to noon - there are probably farmers walking on the ground above them, though they can’t hear them - but the system is deep enough that there’s not even a trickle of sunlight. It reminds him a little too much of Orochimaru’s network of hideouts, where it often felt as if the walls were closing in, given the pressure he was under at that time and how many days on end were spent in darkness.
The distance to cover between the second to the third location is longer than the span from the first to the second. Even with Naruto’s Body Flicker and occasionally Sasuke’s Rinnegan portals speeding up the process, they still have to stop far too often for his liking. Sakura’s fists are coated in dirt, and it’s also smeared all over all of their clothing. The dobe’s had some painting his left eyebrow for at least eight miles now.
They change the flashlight batteries once they flicker out one by one, circumnavigating through three more of the larger rooms over the course of miles.
It’s the fourth one that gives them pause. Naruto walks to roughly the northeastern corner - it’s hard to tell due to being underground this long, though generally Sasuke’s navigation is pretty good - and points out a piece of machinery that juts out of the wall that one of his clones forewarned them about, though he scratches his head as he does so as he, “Hasn’t a fucking clue,” what it is. It’s a flat brown in in exterior finish; someone traveling through the tunnels in a hurry wouldn’t notice it, as the color camouflages it somewhat, apatetic to the dirt walls surrounding them on all sides. It’s also huge, almost Sasuke’s height and at least another five feet wide.
Sasuke runs his hand over it, checking to see if it’s still warm.
“Not recently used,” he murmurs. Though he’s pretty sure he knows what it is from past experience, frowning in recall of Orochimaru’s labs, he looks to Sakura in question, as she is the mission captain and, more importantly, their resident hospital expert.
Sakura aims her own flashlight upwards as if she knows exactly where the logo will be.
Sure enough, there it is. Hokuetsu Industries, Gen 3 written in white over red, caution symbols, and a control panel.
“It’s a generator,” Sakura confirms quietly. “Hospital grade.”
XXX
All in all, they burn through another two rounds of food pills and caffeine stimulants before they finally trudge out the last hole entrance, roughly ten in the evening of the following day, generator reduced to nothing in the flames of Amaterasu behind them. There was no trace of either of the missing children.
They’re all exhausted from roughly forty-eight hours of near non-stop travel, running on food pills and stimulants and emerging into a humid mess of a night across treetops. They’ve also utilized a significant chunk of chakra between the three of them. Still, it’s important that they get out of the immediate area as quickly as possible to avoid being seen and leaving any trace of their passing, so immediately following Sakura’s collapsing of the final tunnel, Sasuke and Naruto alternate between their transport abilities. They’re well into the central portion of the Land of Fire now, far away from farmland or border and surrounded by thick forest. They even go a touch further north, to make it appear as though they could simply be returning from an assignment to the Land of Rice or beyond.
“That,” Naruto gripes through a yawn as they begin to make camp, “Was fucking exhausting.” For once, Sasuke doesn’t think he’s complaining too much. Between the two of them, it was much faster than Sai’s birds, but repetitive use takes its toll, and his back is aching from maintaining a stooped position for such an extensive time frame.
A rabbit emerges cautiously from the bushes as they line the premises in near exactly the same routine they did as Genin; with a well-aimed kunai, Sasuke pins it to a nearby tree mid-hop. Pausing briefly to ensure it’s been killed, he leaves it pinned there as they finish up. Sakura’s working dutifully on some traps at the edges of the perimeter as he finishes his own tasks. Using his Katon, he puts together the smallest amount of fire possible to cook with.
It’s not a large kill, but it’s fresh. They should all eat at least a little bit of something that’s not food pills tonight, and it’s definitely better than rations.
He’s just started skinning it and has cleaned the first front leg when the dobe conks out a few yards beyond the other side of the fire, having been uncharacteristically quiet for the past five minutes as his eyes drooped. Naruto barely finishes crawling into his sleeping bag before his trademark snoring starts. It’s at least slightly quieter now than when they were kids, Sasuke supposes.
Sakura returns to the center of their camp around the same time, dusting her hands off and rolling a spool of clear trip wire back up prior to stashing it in her pack. She bites her thumb as Sasuke spears the first clean portion of the meat onto a wooden spit, putting it over the fire to start roasting.
A tiny slug appears on her shoulder, greeting softly, “Lady Sakura.” If the summon is surprised by the dirt caked to one of her cheeks, it doesn’t say so.
“Lady Katsuyu,” Sakura says quietly. “Please tell Kakashi-sensei that it’s done, and that we’ve made it out of the immediate area.”
The slug nods just once before poofing out of existence.
Sakura then sighs, and comes to claim a seat on the ground near him, legs folding criss-cross and pulling out a kunai to help with the skinning and cleaning.
“That was a lot,” she breathes, echoing Naruto’s sentiment from earlier as he pops the joints of both back legs and hands them to her.
“It was,” he agrees, returning his attention to the task in his hand and far away from the netting clinging to her midriff, damp from sweat and humidity.“...Made good time, though.”
“We did,” Sakura agrees, slicing near a leg to peel the remaining bit of skin and fur off like a sock before adding it to the discard pile he’s started. She glances at Naruto briefly, body folded half into his sleeping bag in a position that can’t be comfortable. “Doing the advanced Body Flicker that many times must take a lot out of him. It’s disorienting to travel that way, I’ll admit. Your Rinnegan, too.” She pauses, then adds, “Still. Just like old times, huh?”
Sasuke nods in agreement, taking in her thoughtful expression. Despite the mission being relatively successful, he thinks she’s probably still worried about the missing kids. He is, too.
“...His snoring isn’t as loud anymore.
Sakura laughs a little, then heaves a sigh.
“No. It’s not, thankfully.” She skins the other leg, chuckling again. “It got worse for a bit, actually; missions when we were sixteen were a horror. Kakashi-sensei used to stick those anti-snoring strips on his nose after he was out for the night.” She shrugs. “They work decently well. I think I still have one or two at the bottom of one of my mission bags, come to think of it. He sleeps lighter now than he used to, though; that might be why.”
Sasuke snorts and Sakura grins at him before she proceeds to clean the two legs she’s cleared of excess. He himself gets the other front limb he’s just finished cleaning on the spit, and rotates the previous one so that the flame can proceed to cook its other side.
It’s nice to be out here with the both of them, even with the dobe sleeping, nostalgic crickets chirping in woods that look familiar as they recuperate a smidge beneath starlight. He makes the incision into the chest cavity of the rabbit and efficiently begins removing the innards. Sakura had disliked this part when they had begun to take missions outside of the village, he recalls in a moment of nostalgia, though after a few months of missions passed, she had gotten more accustomed to it. It’s somewhat ironic to think about that now, given she moves around body parts regularly as part of her work.
He makes sure to check the liver for spots when he finds it. There are none, thankfully. He’s hunted and prepared quite a few rabbits one-handed over the past couple of years, so it doesn’t take long to slice into the ribs and prepare the rest of the meat. He hands sections of it off to Sakura for cleaning as he slices away the surplus fat and bits.
Pretty soon they’ve finished the job, and have a small amount of meat in total to rotate over the spit. It’s not much to split between three people, but it’ll be good. Perhaps the smell will wake up the dobe; he always did stir at any smell of hot food when they were kids, even from the deepest of sleep.
He rises briefly to move the remains to a bush on the edge of their camp, left for whatever creature finds it. Some people eat the kidneys or livers of rabbits, he knows, but he doesn’t much care for them, and recalls from when they were kids that his teammates don’t like them, either. They’ll make a good snack for whatever animal happens upon them.
They then wash and sanitize their hands with supplies from their packs before resuming seats as far from the fire as the spit length will allow, on the opposite side of their previous spots so that they’re not sitting in any remnant entrails and Sasuke can turn the spit from its as yet untouched end, free of germs. It’s still much too hot, but Sasuke inwardly is just thankful that he’ll soon have a few bites of real food and also that his arm’s not aching again as of yet. He had thought coming out from the tunnel to the higher temperature might cause it to flare up again.
Naruto’s snoring has quieted more, now at their backs. Sasuke alternates between rotating the meal over the fire, the aroma of seared meat drifting into his nose, and taking drags from his canteen a few times before Sakura speaks.
“...Thank you for the iced tea,” she intones softly.
He blinks prior to looking her way, spit still in lone hand. She’s looking at him fondly, a small smile playing at her lips and light from the flame licking its way up her cheek. Her eyes look almost yellow in this lighting.
That smudge of dirt is still there, nearly covering up the freckle. It takes him a second before he remembers to finish what he was doing, turning the meat. There’s a sort of unplaceable tension saturating the air, a pleasant languor with which to stretch the muscles in the mirk.
“...You’re welcome,” he whispers into the humid forest air, setting down the end of the spit to splash a little water on his thumb.
Her fine pink brows furrow as he reaches towards her cheek. He thinks her face reddens, too, and her eyes definitely widen, following the movement as he swipes the dirt away in a couple of strokes against her cheekbone.
Better, he thinks as he lets his hand linger there.
He’s just about to pull back when a raspy voice clears its throat behind them.
“Hey, uh… guys?” The dobe questions, yawning halfway through the statement as Sakura flushes further, pupils flitting to where Naruto’s stretching upwards behind them.
Sasuke drops his hand hastily, gaze rebounding to the small fire to rotate the spit again and hoping that the heat of it disguises the flush that’s creeping up his own neck at having been caught, despite it being entirely innocent.
“Hmm,” Naruto starts with a tone of voice Sasuke already knows he abhors. He sidles up to Sasuke’s other side so he’s within his line of sight and fucking winks at him.
“Seems like I interrupted something, eh?” The idiot chuckles as Sasuke levels him with his most murderous scowl and uses his foot to shove him away, churlish. He then returns his focus to the meat nearing its completion, refusing to dignify what he said with a response.
Naruto only laughs louder while somehow still sounding sleepy, sealing his fate, because Sasuke is going to make sure the idiot is eating his share of the rabbit last.
“Oh, man! Teme, your fucking FACE! Just wait until Kakashi-sensei hears about this!”
XXX
The journey back to Konoha is a grueling few days in the heat. They shift into mostly early evening traveling through the night to make use of the slightly lowered temperature, having slept in a bit to recover after that first night of camping in the woods.
It’s hugely refreshing when the heat breaks in exchange for a quick rainstorm at the tail end of their trip, clysmic, late Saturday night turning into early Sunday morning. The mizzle washes away a minuscule portion of grime from the past few days. They cross through the vaguely brumous to a quenched forest on the other side, humidity finally easing into something more bearable. It would have been nice if it had happened sooner, but Sasuke supposes he’ll take what he can get.
A dog - he suspects it is one of the Inuzukas’ - howls when they’re a mile off, lazy and echoing atop the whispering of the breeze through the leaves.
It’s extremely fulfilling to return as part of his original team, Naruto's tendency to get on his nerves aside. He pays close attention to the way each of his steps feel, firm and grounded, as they pass through the gates.
It’s well beyond two in the morning, but it’s possible Kakashi might still be in his office as of yet, so the three of them make their way to Hokage Tower to report in.
Sakura pauses for a moment once she's opened the door, leading the way. It doesn't take her much time to recover; she's foraying into the room, and as Sasuke trails after both her and Naruto, he sees why.
Shizune, apparently, has returned from wherever she was to assist Kakashi again. It's of interest, given it's so late, though Sasuke wouldn’t put it past their Hokage to have become detrimentally behind on paperwork. She sits across from Kakashi directly at his desk, in a spare chair instead of at Naruto's usual spot. If he didn't know better, he'd say they were having a debriefing rather than working on matters of office maintenance.
"Shizune!!" Naruto greets cheerfully, bounding forward in greeting. “I haven’t seen you in forever!! How long are you back for? Does this mean you’re gonna help Kakashi-sensei with all his paperwork so I don’t have to anymore?!”
"Shizune," his other teammate echoes, more calm and not seeming surprised in the slightest to see her here. Perhaps Sakura has kept in touch with her, wherever she’s been.
The brown haired woman returns his smile, pen in one hand and a document in another. "Sakura, Naruto. It’s good to see you both. And yes, I’ll help a little, while I’m here." Her eyes linger on them before she addresses Sasuke, also, which surprises him given he's never spoken to her outright. "Sasuke."
"Ah," Kakashi drawls. "Welcome back. I thought you three might return tonight." He motions to Shizune and the papers between them. "Shizune just got back this evening, also. We had much to discuss, regarding pursuits in Wind. Lost track of time."
Wind?
"Yes," Shizune says, twirling the pen in her hand and eyes lingering on Naruto and then Sakura. "Things are going well. Hokage-sama says the same of here." The woman pauses, briefly seeming to take in all of their state of dress, dirty clothes still slightly damp from the brief rain, prior to adding, “I have some things for you, Sakura, from Tsunade-sama, but I’ll get them to you later since you just got back.”
Sakura nods before procuring the documentation and the scroll from her pack to return to Kakashi.
“I’ll have my report in tomorrow,” she murmurs as she hands them over. “But everything went well. No trouble.” She frowns. “No sign of the kids either, though. We did find a generator. Hospital grade.”
Shizune seems befuddled. “A generator?” When Sasuke briefly shifts focus to Kakashi, he seems entirely unsurprised by this information.
Sakura nods in the affirmative in Shizune’s direction, then returns her attention to Kakashi. “Sasuke took care of it.”
“I see. Well, hopefully we’ve nipped whoever it was in the bud.” He smiles beneath the mask, making sure to make eye contact briefly with both Naruto and Sasuke as well before moving his attention back to Sakura. “Your reports are always thorough, so I won’t keep you too long. Thank you all for taking care of this so swiftly and efficiently. I doubt such a quick response would have been possible, otherwise.”
The three of them nod in unison, and Kakashi’s smile shifts wider.
“Well done, Team Seven. Dismissed.”
Shizune makes no effort to rise and leave with them; whatever’s going on in Wind, they must have additional matters to discuss. Sasuke hopes it’s not anything bad; he’s coming to rather enjoy peacetime.
As the doors close behind them and they begin to make their way down the stairs, Naruto bounds ahead of them.
“Well, this was pretty much the best mission ever aside from not getting to fight anyone and my back basically being broken from stooping like an old man, but I gotta get home to Hinata-chan; she’s probably kinda worried since I didn’t know when we’d be back.” He turns around to face both of them, angling around the second floor landing briefly and waving. “See you guys later!”
The dobe then flies down the last flight of stairs and out the door as they continue behind him at a slower pace. Sasuke’s not sure where Naruto still has the energy for that, following a mission. He himself is pretty enervated, though more in the sense of his body is fatigued than being tired enough to sleep.
Sakura shakes her head as they make it to the main floor, catching the door in their teammate’s wake just before it closes. When they step outside, Sasuke sees Naruto’s already all the way down the road, blipping out of sight.
“I don’t know where he has the energy, after all that,” Sakura remarks from his right, wearing a bemused expression.
“...I don’t, either.” They step into the street, taking the main road the short direction east. It seems to him that they’ll walk together until they reach the road that splits in direction to their respective apartments.
“At least the heat has broken, it seems,” she says somewhat conversationally. Sasuke nods, blinking, because he figured she’d be in a hurry to get home, but the pace she’s setting is kind of slow. This is far beyond her normal sleeping hours. At least it’s Sunday; she’ll hopefully still have the day off despite missing the majority of her work week. He frowns, then, because he hopes she doesn’t have too much she’ll have to catch up on.
“...It has,” he murmurs finally, agreeing. It’s actually kind of nice outside now, faint stars dotting the darkened sky. There’s a hush blanketed over everything this late that’s incredibly calming when paired with the feeling of coming home.
He thinks he can see gears turning behind jade eyes as they amble on in the quiet, desaturated in the small amount of light cast from the occasional streetlight every block corner. The moon is a thin crescent above them, offering little reflected luminescence.
Sakura looks up at him, then, and suddenly her expression has turned both shy and evocatively familiar; he’s pulled disorientedly to childhood, to their Genin days, and the things Sakura would always ask him following the completion of missions.
“I was thinking… Maybe we could do something. If you’re not too tired, that is. Or…” Her voice trails off, set of her mouth shifting as she looks forward.
“...You’re not?” He questions softly, hopefully, as his pulse quickens.
She shakes her head, flyaway strands of pink hair spreading outward slightly from the distance they’ve just traveled and the breeze. Her gaze is still locked forward. “No, I’m always too wired to sleep after missions that go late like this. I’ll be up for a while,” she divulges softly, barely audible in the slight breeze coupled with the sound of crickets rubbing their wings together.
For some reason, the way in which she speaks catches his attention even more than it usually does, as if something is special about whatever she’s thinking of saying.
It then occurs to him that she might be expecting him to say no, whatever it is.
“I will be, too,” he admits, in near a rush to get the words out now. It’s the truth, unless he were to… indulge. Though now that he’s thinking of it, he thinks days’ worth of dirt and sweat rinsed by a short rain presumably still doesn’t smell the best. “...I should shower first,” he adds quickly, before questioning quietly, “What were you thinking?”
Her gaze flickers to him hopefully, and he relaxes a little, thinking he’s gotten the message across. He expects her to challenge him to chess, or perhaps to invite him to watch another bad movie on her sofa.
“It’s nice out,” she observes softly instead, looking briefly to the sky. In the pause that follows, nearing the ever-closer intersection where they’ll part ways, he comes to predict perhaps another short hike to the place in the woods where they stargazed previously, or maybe a trip to the training grounds they sometimes eat at.
“We could…” she begins, gaze traveling to him and then away as her cheeks darken further. “...Have tea on the balcony. If…”
Her voice tapers off again, and he tries to smother his heart’s rampant pumping through sheer willpower alone.
“Just… if you want to, that is,” she finishes, a diffident expression painting her face as she shifts her shoulders slightly in a way that seems anxious.
“Yes,” he agrees promptly, barely allowing the pause normally appropriate for wait time, unwilling to give her any doubts of his assent. He further cements it by adding, “I would.”
Her focus shifts back to him, and the unsureness is gone; in its place, a breathtaking smile overtakes her features. Sasuke is, for about the millionth time in his life, struck by the thought that the choices he made when they were younger, driving her and everyone else far away, were incredibly fucking stupid.
“Okay,” she says softly. “I’ll go shower, too, then. You can come over when you’re done.”
He nods, feeling winded in a way that has nothing to do with the fatigue of the miles they covered over the past few days.
It’s difficult for him to quite recall the movements that follow, in retrospect. He knows they make it to the far intersection in an easy, short-lived silence, splitting ways at the library with her heading south and him heading north, and then before he realizes it, he’s at his door already. Stripping off his gear and clothing seems to happen in the blink of an eye, and he’s in the shower. As he scrubs away the grime and sweat, his mind travels to the recent past, a lengthy ablution at an inn just upon returning. It feels a little like that at present, as if something has been dislodged and is in the process of falling away. He breathes in deeply, then exhales, over and over and over until he thinks he’s perhaps carved a foothold.
Once he’s toweled off, he redresses in simple black clothing as always, though it’s a clean pair. He brushes his teeth, too, though he barely feels the bristles against his gums with how unsteady he is in anticipation. It reminds him of being a passenger on a boat, the changing center of gravity the waves bring as the vessel departs from the relative safety of the shore.
It feels like he’s about to do something important, he realizes once he’s past the diamond window, now faced with the stairs that ascend upwards to her doorway and sea of thriving plants.
It’s just her room, he scolds himself inwardly, inhaling deeply and exhaling with his lone hand on the doorknob prior to letting himself in.
“Sakura,” he calls quietly in greeting into an apartment lit by only one lamp instead of its customary three; the one in the living room is scattering soft golden light across the light wood.
A damp head of pink hair pokes out from the kitchen area as he shifts his sandals onto the rug.
“Sasuke-kun,” she greets, eyes swimming with affection. “I’m almost done heating the water. Is Earl Gray okay?”
He nods, making his way nearer the kitchen and not adding anything further; she knows how he takes his tea. Her small form disappears back to the kitchen, and he stands in the space at its edge, the precipice between it and her living room, nerves choosing now to begin eating him alive.
He absently looks out her dining table window, but it doesn't help; he sees now, hyperaware in a way that he wasn’t on the walk here, that the lights are off in all of the windows of the surrounding buildings. Not a soul is up, and there is almost no light outside, given the waning moon. He feels timid, alone with her in her apartment this late at night after all of her neighbors have gone to bed. Sasuke has often sought the comfort of being a creature of routine, having found over the years that it helps to ground him, a cautious way of coping. This is new territory.
It’s just her room, he thinks again as he watches Sakura shuffle around her kitchen in clean lounge clothes, pouring coconut milk cream and sugar into her own mug of Earl Gray. He knows this is entirely innocent, but his neck warms all the same.
She passes his mug to him once it’s ready, smiling and smelling of mixed berry soap, and then turns the corner, heading down the hallway to her room. He shadows her tentatively, struggling to swat down the nervousness in his ribs; it feels like a wolf’s mouth has opened up there to consume him.
Three things become conspicuous to him as Sakura shoulders her bedroom door open and the internal snarling quiets.
One: it is so utterly, predictably Sakura to paint the walls of her bedroom the exact same color as her front door. He should have known; hadn’t he recently speculated that she wears her heart on her sleeve? The mid-tone sage green coats the interior, calming as ever. He finds he likes the color here even moreso than he likes it as the adorning color of her door.
Two: the general layout of the room is simple, organized pragmatically as he’d expected. There is a closet to the left, and white furniture that looks aged: a white dresser, several small shelves mounted on the wall, as well as a small vanity with a chair towards the corner, just to the left of what must be the balcony doors.
Three: the ability to breathe has vacated his body, and it is not just her room.
He's overcome by such a sudden surge of affection and devotion for her that he almost can't see straight, tempestuousness of something else, something profoundly deep-seated and absolute, arching into his throat from where it’s been aching to grow for the better portion of eight years, weighted down by blood and tragedy. He has to blink to clear his eyes and snatch his lower lip with his teeth before it trembles in full.
The uchiwa fan sits there, not at all stored away in a box, but instead on salient display, carefully balanced atop a traditional-looking stand she must have found for it.
It looks like it belongs there.
He had worried for months, prior to returning and giving it to her, tracing the place where her name was engraved and the empty space above it, that it wasn’t right; that it was an entirely impractical gift, too teeming with history and unfair to saddle her with.
To have it displayed so prominently signifies that it is of grand importance to her. A comb of a similar color - it’s hard to tell in the low light - lies on the opposite far side of the furniture's surface, and he knows instantaneously that it means the fan is in view always when she sits there, that she gazes at it every time she brushes her hair.
It thus dawns on him why their team photo appeared in her living room, the second time he'd been over. He bites his lip back again.
Oh.
I'll treasure it. Always, she'd said, and she'd meant it. He hadn't doubted the truth of her words by any means - he knows that Sakura means what she says, and always has - but seeing the evidence and action of it is acutely saccharine. He knows what that photo means to all of them, so for her to replace it with his gift for her is…
It's tremendously difficult for him to focus on anything else in the room after that, but he does try, because if he doesn’t, the blur in his eyes is going to escalate.
The far wall has a single window, along with the balcony's sliding glass door; both are covered with gauzy white curtains, thick enough to offer privacy but thin enough to allow a little light in during the daylight hours. Her bed is to the right, framed by white end tables and small lamps; a book sits atop the one on the right side.
He notes her bed is large, big enough for two people and overlaid with a textured lavender comforter.
For now. The words echo at the edge of the ossuaries that are his memories.
He looks away from it after that realization.
Sakura crosses the room and shifts the curtains out of the way of the balcony sliding door. As she opens it, she casts jade eyes back at him, smiling, so beautiful; he can barely make out the curve of it against the edge of her cheek in the dark.
Sasuke follows.
Her vast array of potted plants line the balcony on all sides, daisies and azalea and others he’s too distracted to identify, though he notes there’s also a bird feeder in the left rear corner closest to the building. The greenery encloses the railing nearly entirely all the way around, overgrown in full now that summer has arrived. This doesn’t affect the view when standing, but he realizes that if someone were to sit down, it would effectively block the light from the streetlights on the corner, eliminating light pollution to view the sky unencumbered. There’s scarcely enough room for two people to sit with some leverage to stretch their legs forward.
Sakura picks up two sizable outdoor cushions propped against the building and lays them out, then sits down on the right side. Placing her own tea on the concrete next to her, she holds her hand up to take his mug, offering him a small smile, one that he also thinks looks a little nervous.
He hands it to her and wordlessly takes the cushion next to her, submerging into a desaturated world of celadon and viridian, the smell of raspberries and verdure cocooning them both. It's closer than they usually sit, but he’s more than okay with it at the present.
Sakura casts a pleased smile his way, handing his mug back ahead of a sip from her own, eyes turning upward.
He’s too out of sorts to drink something right now, so he sets down the mug in favor of following her gaze, and normally he would enjoy this as its own dedicated activity, but he's still reeling in the grandest way from seeing the fan displayed in her room, as if it's something of great pride, a treasure.
She really loves it, he realizes.
And…
She’s already looking at him when his gaze floats back down to her of its own accord, as if drawn like a magnet.
She wants to say something, he thinks in the pause. She flushes a little, but maintains eye contact.
"It’s good to be home," she breathes finally. Her eyes are so lovely, even with no light, alive and looking at him with adoration.
I’ll treasure it. Always.
"...It is," He agrees quietly, voice thick, before leaning in.
They share a kiss under constellations rolled atop burnished and blackened silk, his hand rising to her cheek. He thinks he likes this particular activity better than looking at them, though he finds himself remembering his first night back in the village, observing the stars and how he thought they appeared the same as everywhere else.
He was wrong, he understands as her hand traces its way up his nape and into his hair. They are better here with her on her balcony than anywhere he's traveled.
When they part for air, he stares at her unabashedly, admiring her and trying to steel his resolve, as he has never done what he’s about to do and has no concept, really, of how to go about it correctly; he just knows that he wants to, and if he doesn’t, his chest is surely going to combust under the sovereign pressure of it, the sensation of words he’s long swallowed trying to fight their way out. Sakura’s cheeks darken further under his continued gaze, and he wonders unbidden if she’s thought about kissing him more than chastely. Women must think about this sort of thing, too, right?
Her fingers dwell in place, leaving fingerprints against his occipital. But no, not really. Any occasion she touches him, it’s never been about that.
It’s been his heart she’s touching, every time.
Her eyes, trusting, flicker briefly to his mouth, her own lips parted, and that’s what sparks him into action.
He slots his lips to hers anew. There’s a bit more pressure this go-around; he’s still gentle, but more assertive, aspiring to summon the confidence he lacks. Sakura exhales a little through her nose, fingers finding further purchase at his nape.
He keeps it chaste for a second longer as his heart threatens to crack out of his sternum.
Then, he hesitantly opens his mouth a little against hers, tongue probing her bottom lip gently as his thumb swipes against the freckle atop her cheek.
Her lip arches upwards after only a millisecond of delay, akin to ages according to his frayed nerves, tongue meeting his, yearning reciprocated with clearly equal intensity and shyness. The degree to which it affects him physically throws him; his heart doubles its previous pace, which is a feat, and his neck burns, too, as if he really has burst into flame. It’s more sensual than their other kisses, tender and much better than he’d imagined. She tastes like her cup of tea, novitious, mellifluous fruit and rind and malty dashed with coconut milk creamer and bergamot.
Their noses bump together, because the angle isn’t quite right for this type of kissing. Parting for a breath, Sasuke angles her cheek a little more intuitively, still careful and without enough push that she could pull away if she wanted to.
She doesn’t, though. Their tongues meet fully this time, and he begins to burn in a different way, because this kiss is incandescent, intimate, much like the ones he shares with her in dreams he’ll never admit to anyone he has, the ones where he wakes up panting with the compulsion to kiss her, down, down, until she cries out. It’s passionate yet gentle all at once, but principally, it is all-consuming. He knows in an instant, the thought fleeting as he has more important things to consider at the present, that this will only serve to add fuel to the fire, ensorcelling him into a dire appetence for more.
The pressure at his nape increases as Sakura pulls him closer, tongue dancing fervidly against his, boldly venturing a little further into his mouth before drawing back. He involuntarily makes a low noise in his throat, and she grips him tighter for it, pulling him to her again, fingers threading through his hair as if she can’t get enough.
They’re both out of breath when they finally part for oxygen. Sakura’s pupils are blown so wide that there’s hardly a speck of grayed out green to be found in them, and even soaked in scant silver light - he briefly praises his good eyesight - it’s clear that she’s wearing a lambent blush that rivals even the richest of rutilant reds, highly contrasting against closed daisies and flushed azaleas.
The stars and his brother’s eyes lend him some confidence, he learns as he leans down again for more, nose nuzzling hers briefly before their lips reconvene.
Sakura exhales breathily, and it’s incipiency, lashes fluttering, so close he can feel their whisper against his own cheek. He moves to slide his fingers through her hair, weaving through silken pink still slightly damp. Her breath hitches at the touch, and that is something else entirely, a sonance that seems to reverberate down the catacombs of his spine through her fingers at his atlas as she nips at his lower lip from a new angle. It feels like something in him is unraveling, her tongue tugging snared knots from a red thread cordiform.
He leans down again and again, until they’re not parting at all, really, dizzily sharing each breath and something adamantine that he knows he feels but is afraid to put into words.
The tea sits beside them, long since cooled and almost entirely untouched, even when the barest hint of the dawning begins to augment across the horizon.
They are too busy kissing to care.
#22k who am i??#this one really got away from me tbh#naruto#sasusaku#ssfanfiction#cherry writes#like gold#fanfiction#sasuke#sakura
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no thoughts just Heiji Hattori (HD)
#detective conan#case closed#amv#my amvs#eye strain#heiji hattori#harley hartwell#conan edogawa#shinichi kudo#funimation english dub script#video#happy two-year anniversary to 'no thoughts just heiji hattori'!#while it's not my first amv (it's maybe my... fifth?)#it was the first one i made with davinci resolve and the amv that really got me into editing amvs for real#it's the amv that made me believe i could make amvs 🥺#and in remastering it i deeply understood how ambitious it was! i thought i did a lot of audio mixing for 'messed up'#but that's not even close to all the audio mixing i did here--cannot believe that i did all this for my first big amv project#it took about 20 hours *just* to remaster!#which is something i've been meaning to do for a while now so i'm very happy to finally share the results!#to make this a 'remaster' and not a 'redo' the only changes i tried to make were to the source footage and audio#video now uses almost entirely hd remastered footage from my blu-rays or netflix rather than my dvds#but oh gosh was it *hard* not to touch anything else! i'd do so many things differently now#but this video will always be really special to me (and i can't believe i did it at all tbh!)#i hope seeing it in hd is fun too! i'm so blown away by all the love this vid's gotten#and that it helped increase interest in funi's old english dub is amazing and 100% what i was trying to do with it!#thank you everyone for all the support <333 i wouldn't be the video editor i am today without this vid or your encouragement for it <3333#like the original the sources used are mostly from what funi dubbed (but mixed in hd by me!): eps 48-49 57-58 77-78 117 and 118 and movie 3#but i also used episodes 141-142 174 189 239 263 277 291 293 345 479 491 517 and 522#and ova 3 and tv special 6 (episode one) and movies 10 and 13 and ops 27 31 and 33 and the funi 5.2 dvd blooper for the one line lol#the song is 'you're stupid aren't you' by toshio masuda (from jubei-chan 2)
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to be totally honest i feel like people forget that hp is a children’s book series and that the characters in it function the way they do to fit the narrative structure of children’s books. like.
we can boo-hoo about snape being an abuser or w/e the fuck but the fact of the matter is that his place in the narrative is to be a mildly annoying antagonist. that’s why literally none of the kids except maybe neville are really that bothered by him beyond a “ah fucking SNAPE” attitude. like even that moment where snape insults hermione’s teeth gets blown over in like five pages??? in the next scene she’s totally fine.
because snape’s narrative purpose is to be the annoying mean teacher. plot-wise, he functions as a narrative hook (what’s snape doing? why is he so suspicious?) and an obstacle to the goals of the protagonists. if we look at the events of a lot of the books, without snape in them there’s immediately way less tension because without snape in them, harry & co would immediately have a much easier time achieving their goals. like yeah, he’s mean but i think we’re also like... forgetting that “mean teacher” is as much a trope as like “prophecy child” or w/e. idk what to tell you except that it’s the same kind of annoying discouse that surrounds people who gasp in moral outrage over child protagonists being made to like fight the evil villains. because for most children’s stories, this isn’t a commentary on child soldiers or loss of innocence or anything like that, it’s just because... these books are for children and kids want to read about themselves conquering evil. it’s that simple. it’s a similar thing with snape. like at no point when i read this series as like a 10 year old did i think “wow that teacher is sooooo abusive and traumatizing his students!!! evil man!!!” i was like “wow he’s mean!! damn him, stop getting in harry & co’s way!!! foiled again by snape!!!” like when i was reaching as a kid/teen i regarded him as a scooby doo villain (affectionate) not a child-abusing sadist.
and i think it’s just... really necessary to remember that characters in books serve a narrative purpose and also that the way they interact with their world is actually dependent on their genre, you know? and also because i had to read someone’s like four paragraphs on why snape is an evil abuser and i was thinking 2 myself yet again about how it’s Not That Deep. like. he’s a mean teacher. his function in the story is to Be The Mean Teacher. he’s an obstacle, not an abuser and the fact of the matter is harry & co always treat him like that bc that’s his purpose in the narrative. sorry 2 break it to you.
#this one got away from me but tbh im tired of this#lmao pretending that harry is ever bothered by snape is SO funny 2 me like he spends half of his time disrespecting snape#and yelling at him and never once is cowed by snape???? like idk it's wild 2 me to pretend snape traumatizes harry#neville maybe??? altho tbf neville is cowed by like mcgonagall#but hermione sets snape on fire??? harry & co regularly bamboozle him for kicks????#idk i DO feel like it's really important to remember that snape is a narrative device as much as he is a character#he's supposed to be there to be an obstacle! and the protags treat him as such not their like... abuser or even their bully tbh#snape and harry#there was a reply to that one post about harry not being bothered by snape that made me roll my eyes lmao
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To be honest, stardew valley has me in such a chokehold. It always has, even before the 1.6.
In such a way that my brain wants to smash my hyperfixation into it. So late at night I'll be awake thinking of this stardew/south park mashup.
Call that bad boy Star Park AU.
But no brain! Bad! We already have too much going on! You have a Secret Soulmate AU. Fantasy AU, A Cowboy AU story staring Kenny that's still in the outline phase, and these one shots!
(Look at the tags to watch me descent into madness)
#like C'mon#it would be so cute and wholesome#ya know#everything south park isn't#its not my fault I think about me and my friends ocs starting a little farm together#i got one friend I rp with#we smash everything into our stardew rp#it ain't even really stardew besides like the layout of the town#I could write something like that up#like Stan and his family are already “farmers”#the heart event where he tells you he fucking hates it#but next heart event he confesses he's starting to associate farming with you#and now...maybe its not so bad?#COME ON#Kenny taking Karen to see your animals and falling in love with the way you're so gentle with her#Kyle finding you passed out in the mines and scolding you for being careless#but he's patching you up while he does it!!!?#Cartman demanding you bring him crops from your farm because#“everyone elses crops taste like dirt and ball sweat! at least I can stomach yours.”#(its the sweetest thing hes ever said tbh)#tweek having his little coffee shop set up there#he gets away from his parents and moves out to the valley because its quiet!#Craig moves out there to study the stars because they're so clear he can almost see all of them without a telescope#Clyde is JUST Alex and you cant change my mind#after the death of his mother he goes to live with his grandparents#Bebe is like a mix of Haley and Emily!#her events would be you helping her get her outfit designs off the ground and using her photography skills to have you model them#Wendy's whole thing would her being the mayors assistant but over heart events you make her believe in herself#and she becomes mayor; fuck you lewis you old fuck#shhh its a secret
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#thanks everyone for all the kind messages#like seriously thank you#I guess it was one of those things where I was having a really shitty week and then I came on tumblr and just the one thing set me off#and affected me way more than it usually would have#this past week was good for me though#I had three interviews and two of them were for jobs I really really want#and one of them is my dream job so hopefully I get it!#but even if I don’t… I genuinely think the interview went really good like all three of them! so I’m happy for that like#it gave me more practice#anyways with five days away I guess I made my point lmfaooooo#I was angry and upset but tbh anon hate is nothing new and it’ll keep happening sooooo#I was genuinely touched by all the sweet messages!#and also laughed at the ones which were just begging me not to leave poyt unfinished 😂😂😂 like I love the honesty there#but I laughed in a touched way bc I understand that even those asks came from a good place like the intention was good#ANYWAYS yes I was very very upset but this week went good for me so I’m in a much better place#I guess I’m going through a very rocky time irl so it’s making me more sensitive to small things that didn’t affect me before#like anon hate I mean usually I honestly find it entertaining and funny 😶😶😶#but yeah that one thing got to me but whatever!!! we move#anyways how r y’all!#I’m free this weekend so I’ll be active on here as usual hehe
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“Constantia et fortitudine” - Emperor Sebastian I “der Sieghafte”
#i dont ever want to look at his face(blatant lie)#i love him and i love staring at pics of him but jfc trying to draw them. absolute murder to ME#well anyways. happy with this. took too many late like 4 hour sessions tho LMFAO#watched uhhhh animal documentaries and casino royale again :)#OKAY ANYWAYS ITS NOW YOUR FAVORITE! CONTEXT! INFO! LORE!#so ive mentioned before seb is charles vi. obviously. but i love to steal stuff from Joseph I as well 🥰#seb is a mix of both bcs he obv doesn't have an older brother in this au so yeah!#'Constantia et fortitudine'(by persistence and courage) was Charles motto!#i think that fits seb so well no? 🥹🥹#'der Sieghafte'(the Victorious) comes from Joseph I! bcs he was so successful in battle 🥰#again! so seb right???#i think so fucking often about him and nando's nicknames in this au#'the spirited' for nando's perseverance....'the victorious' for seb's well. victories haha#i think they fit them incredibly well both in this au and real life!!#even if this fucking murdered me to paint i like it a lot :) i thinm the hair was a lot of fun#actually im not even mad w this one! it was pretty fun once i got past a certain point honestly!#but the secondary expression whoch will be in a different post....jfc i wanted to throw my ipad away 😭#it doesnt help that it was 4-5 am when i was working on jt LMAO#but i believe in courage and perseverance! i will paint constantia et fortitudine 🥹#anwyaysyyyyys!!! hope you like!!!! i think i got him pretty accurate???? im pretty happy w the fsce tbh#wish i could draw his crown but i dont think ill ever subject myself to painting thay monstrosity#also dont really undertsand how they wore crowns back then alongside their giant periwigs?? dont crush the curls :<#sebastian vettel#f1#formula 1#boy king au
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Rip to the Emperor, just got rejected 3 times in a row in increasingly more painful ways
#bg3#baldur’s gate 3#jsdhfks#empy fans turn away this is a roast post dfgjkhg#(side note i'll be using he/him for emperor just because i cant tell what the game has in mind with mind flayer pronouns tbh)#Alfhart was first and like. I dont know what Empy was expecting from the guy that hates him just as much if not more than Lae'zel does#but what he got was a very solid fuck off followed by sarcasm at his mask falling off and laughter at his threat#(Latter doesnt happen in game but it does in my heart)#Then it was Olur who was trying to keep the conversation more neutral. Until the squid flirted and he was so taken aback dnbfg#he called him a freak and that he should have thrown the prism in the shadow curse#Then poor Ayre jksf just genuinely so uncomfortable the whole way through. for a mind reader Emperor does NOT get the hint#'i dont really know how i feel about this forced alliance' ' you tried to control me :(' THEN HE FLIRTS AND AYRE IS STRAIGHT UP TERRIFIED#rip emperor you sure tried#cant wait to get to omelluum again#it's going to be SOOOOO funny when alfhart gets him out and is like : of course i saved you- i rather like you :)#POINTEDLY TO PISS THE EMPEROR OFF#only one illithid he respects and it's not you <3 fucking loser
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Hey, thanks for the response on the post where I asked about what people dislike ab totk! I genuinely appreciate it a lot, and you summarized most of my thoughts about this beautifully!
Here's something you might find interesting: something about this game's pacing REALLY bothered me from the start, and I think I know what it is. Totk, despite being an open world game that you can pour a ton of time into, feels short. It's a really weird feeling, and I think it can be explained in that Nintendo is trying to use the linear storytelling format for a nonlinear game, which is also why the ability to see the tears in a random order was disorienting, and why the stories from the ancient sages felt so repetitive.
The gameplay is long, but the story isn't! If you compare it to Skyward Sword, for example! In sksw, you go through each of the areas once, and then again with some changes, and then again with more. There's several clear acts, and even if the game is super super linear and recieves criticism for that, it works really well in that context. Additionally, the characters more than make up for the linearity of the story. Totk tries to take that same format, but doesn't seem to understand that this format is for a linear story. It only has a very brief story, and the story to gameplay ratio is so dragged out that unless you get invested in the world, it all starts to feel really stupid and pointless. Unfortunately, totk fails at getting us invested, too.
I really hope this made ANY sense at all, ty again for the input!! I love the responses I'm getting on that post djbdjsndns :D
Hi, you're welcome for my uh... totk rant, I guess? I covered a lot of stuff in it but I wouldn't say I covered everything bc there is... a lot abt that game that rubs me the wrong way in one way or another.
totk is definitely an odd case, it being an open world game that does try to adhere to linear game rules, you’re right- and i’d say the story is severely kneecapped by that attempt on the game’s part to have its cake and eat it too. it tries to mix what botw brought to the table with what was done in the past, but because botw is vastly different in what it does than past zelda games, the result is a messily paced, poorly-told, gameplay-focused with piss-easy mandatory puzzle segments result, failing to capture the advantages of linear games and instead making those specific parts considerably weaker.
people give linear games shit for… honestly, im not totally sure, as someone who really enjoys linear games. they allow for a good focus on story and character, mostly because you can have a set pace and passing of time and order of events. totk tries to implement linear style elements into a game where you can do anything out of order, so in the end the story is surprisingly brief but slow paced because you have to travel so far for everything and they have to account for you doing everything in any order, hence... repeating the same fucking information as a reward for four of the dungeons (which, i don't care how you feel about this game, is an awful fucking choice i mean holy SHIT), and is probably why the interactions with the new sages include very brief character arcs or something, they wanted to include some kind of linear character stories but it all just got stuffed in between a bunch of mini-main quests.
the fact that effectively half of the main story happens ages in the past and is communicated through brief cutscenes that can easily be encountered out of order, too, is kind of a pitiful way to tell the story. they're all basically glorified exposition dumps since nothing about them will change, they're all events that have already happened and have nothing to do with the player except hyping them up i guess.
the dungeons themselves are awkwardly transposed from a more linear game style with them relying on a specific skill to some degree, but they just fall so flat compared to past linear zelda dungeons. in botw the divine beasts honestly worked because the mechanic of manipulating the beasts themselves and the activating of switches fit perfectly with the setup of the dungeons being huge machines, while there isn't as good of a story example as to why totk's dungeons have the same switch mechanic. botw's divine beasts work pretty well in an open world setting. totk's just fall to pieces in an open with setting, even discounting how ascend could just snap them in half entirely. you just... can't have the same kind of dungeons as past zelda games in an open world format. once you take out the array of specific-use progressively-earned items, you're just left with this tiny little gmod ass toolbox to do what felt like baby's first loz-style dungeon. go to the clearly marked waypoint, do one (1) simple puzzle, get reward.
i miss mini bosses, rooms with puzzles that had to be solved to unlock a door or a doorkey, and even the experience of wandering around just trying to figure out what to do next. honestly, the first half of the lightning temple was the best part of all of the dungeons put together, and then we're back to 'go to four different rooms to do four different easy puzzles'. linear games have genuine advantages over open world games, and open world games have their own advantages. in the story segments, totk just ignores the advantages inherent to it's game's basic style in favor of trying and failing to emulate the advantages of a very different game style.
totk is so paradoxically unable to tear itself away from the series' past while at the same time disregarding series staples and even big parts of its own goddamn prequel.
in my experience with the game, as far as i can remember, i believe i went around and opened all of the towers, did some shrines and the depths, got the master sword, did the main quests with some side quests, then sped through getting all of the memories in order, then did the final boss. in between all of that, i managed to get all of the armor, do every single shrine, and open the entirety of the depths. i did not give a single damn about the story by the end. for me, with my playstyle, everything was just... spread out over such a long period of time so there was barely any urgency at all, i experienced the memories all in quick succession while already knowing the big twist (which. btw. i didnt care about. i wasnt really endeared to zelda and link's lack of visual interest during cutscenes just brought up the question of if he doesnt care why should i), and since this game's story is more linear, it just felt so disjointed and strange and... not important.
with botw it makes pretty good sense why link may take ages, why you could get the memories however you want, all of that. zelda is keeping things with ganon on pause for you. all of the big stuff happened in the past. you are here in the present, in the ruins of the past, a blank slate come to eventually complete the mission that you had failed, at the same time discovering this new world and becoming re-acquainted to it with this strange second chance you've been given. totk doesn't have this excuse. at least in past zelda games, you did things in a specific order, so when you wanted to fuck around, it was usually something related to or based on your progress. if you want to fuck around in oot what you can do is based on where you are in the game and even then it all ends up wrapping back around to bolstering link for the end. getting hearts, better items... like every side quest in every other loz game did. in totk you can do a sidequest for like. one flower. and what does that even do for you. it doesn't have the excuse of the honestly pretty well crafted setup and world state of botw.
i really don't know what happened during the development of totk, and i can't imagine it was the smoothest thing in the world, esp considering the pandemic hitting in the middle of it. but just... it just feels like it failed in so many regards and was just... so disappointing, and yet people are heralding it as the best zelda game and- this is not what i want a zelda game to be! i want a zelda game to have those wonderful puzzle-filled dungeons with well-written main characters and music that fits the setting and feels supported by the game's events and a unique setting with unique little nooks and crannies and good pacing and act structure and like. some kind of heart to it. not just another big open-world game created to be the big open world game where you can do this one amazing specific cool thing that TOTALLY is worth the $70 or whatever else it may be priced around the world.
idk. to me what makes zelda games zelda games is the linear storytelling and those complex dungeons and specific method of progression, and botw's new open-world emulation of the sense that loz 1 gave does not and probably will not ever be able to mix with that linear style unless you have massive in game game style shifts to allow for it. either return to the old format or just commit to the series becoming Triple A Open World Game Series Number 34
#asks#salty talks#bitching abt totk#wind-awoken#ty for the ask i love tearing into this game bc its at least helped me understand some stuff abt game design and what kinds of games i like#and why. too bad this game is rancid imo#dude i fucking love skyward sword. the linearity lends itself to a sense of progression and time passing and just. ugh. its so good#totk critical#totk neg#totk salt#covering my bases :)#i just. yeah gamedev is hard but if this is the mess we got after 6 YEARS what the fuck happened??? what was scrapped????#they had SIX FUCKING YEARS and having the ancient sages regurgitate the same info 4 times made it to the final release#what in the fuck happened in there#i dont really like the idea of there being a permanent move to open world bc its clearly just following the crowd on this one#its just such a massive departure from all other loz games (including loz 1 tbh) that that has to be part of it i feel. it makes sense#botw + totk dont feel unique like the other loz games do. they just. feel really similar to shit like elden ring and fenyx bc like.#thats just how open world action adventure games are ig. ironically theres not a ton of wiggle room with the open world formula#cant really get away from what makes them all feel interchangeable bc its so core to what an open world game is#best you can do is add some standout aspect like the general. Being A Souls Game in elden ring#totk adding dumbass glue doesnt even feel unique bc like. its just what every other sandbox game lets you do with some added jank#progression feels meaningless when it has no impact on what you can do in the game and thats the only kinda progression in totk#get more health make armor numbers bigger make better food fuse better weapons. you cant even upgrade the abilities this time#yeah botw has similar pitfalls but it at least owns being an open world game. it utilized and embraced the format#idk. totk before release was increasingly overwhelming to me and post release it was just such a massive letdown#i remember trying in earnest to pull a wagon using a horse and just. having the worst time. ultrahand sucks unless you make death machines#or one of like five specific traversal things
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what am I even going to do when I graduate? wait a few years and then get another degree? am I going to like have a party for this. Who would I even invite
#i'm really going to make it without dropping out#but sometimes i think i probably should have just dropped out#my grades are so average and my degree isn't the best one for people who don't have their lives figured out#i haven't done that many clubs or activities i've mostly been focusing on trying to be alive#idk. tbh i was using school as a way to take a break from life#like i'd work a few years put school on the back burner then do a semester or two of just school when i got burned out of work#it gave me an excuse to move away from my family without hurting anyone's feelings#it's just what i used to leave and keep leaving but now i have to actively make life decisions. horrible#trying to figure out what i want or what life would be tolerable is like waring uphill through a river#what? how does anyone do this#wading hghjkl#see i didn't even learn to spell
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sorry, halsey — hopeless fountain kingdom.
#ALL POWER DEMANDS PAIN AND SACRIFICE: musings.#NO SLEEP OF THE INNOCENT. NOT FOR YOU: character study.#it kind of surprises me just how much content there is out there about being afraid of intimacy but then again-#i have heard that that is supposedly one of the most common fears that people have apparently. so yeahhh but of course i do mean emotional-#intimacy here and oh my goshhh. i never realized just how sad parts of this song were until i listened to it again.#'i run away when thing's are good and never really understood the way you laid your eyes on me in ways that no one ever could#i hate to say it BUT that is so misao. she really does feel sooo unlovable sometimes and she has this 'leave them before they leave you'-#mentality that is so saddening to have TBH but i understand why she has it. her childhood kind of left her broken in a way i think-#in ways that can't be easily explained as it was very nuanced and complicated. but GAHHH that doesn't stop me from wanting misao-#to find at least some kind of love from people 😭 like she needs at least one friend or something that she can depend on bc i feel like-#that would really help her and being in a house alone all the time whenever she's not at work can not be good for her psyche.#so petition to get misao a friend or two? JSJSJ nahhh but i am legitimately being serious at this point#she needs someone who'll stick with her through thick and thin and will be understanding of the fact that she's got unresolved trauma so-#that partially causes her to be hyperindependent but i firmly believe that she needs people just as much as anyone else.#maybe more in fact but IDK#and the fact that in this song halsey says that she still knows facts about them even though she hasn't talked to them-#in forever? i'm WEEPING AHHH#that is so like misao as well sadly. she would literally take little notes as to what thing's people like to reference later if she had a-#friend because she 'doesn't want to get it wrong' whenever she gets them a present she says but it's really so that she doesn't forget-#how precious this person is to her and how she wrote down all of their favorite things as a result.
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last grief vent post lads
#i wish there was someone to blame. i mean there Is but it wasnt really her fault so i cant blame her really.#a driver had dementia and somehow slipped away from her caretakers and got on the road with her car and now my friend is dead#and there's nobody to blame for it. shit happens. she didnt know what she was doing. i know that she didn't mean to.#but the fact is that she got in her car that day when she shouldnt have and now a 20 year old girl with her whole life ahead of her is dead#and i am not gonna lie guys. im fucking pissed.#its unfair. its so fucking unfair.#but its also unfair for me to point fingers when it wasnt really that driver's fault.#she doesnt even remember causing the accident. she doesnt know where her injuries came from.#and i KNOW what dementia is i KNOW that thats part of it and it isnt her fault at all#but im really angry. not even necessarily specifically at the driver tbh just . angry#but. the funeral is over. so i think ill be ok from now on.#there was a beautiful sunset while i was driving home today. it was pink and orange#pink sunsets were her favorite. it was beautiful to see one today.#winter speaks#grief tag#tw death#tw car accident
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huge w for all talkative girlies today!!
#i just passed the most humane course in my comp sci degree#the teacher encouraged discussion during their classes and i sure as hell was the most persistent one#with some banger jokes might i add#and he got to like me#i kinda messed up the written part of the exam and ended up overall with all assignments summed up at 88.8#which is 1.3 points away from a 10 :(#and i looked up the june grades list and saw people got 9s which is like cool but tbh i wanted a 10 here#and he logged in the grades tonight and gave me a 10!!! :DDD#on his own#i didnt ask for extra credit or anything and im soo soo happy#mostly because he was the most human like prof#and i find him really cool#and i kinda missed having interraction with profs and other students i didnt have that since high school#so this was a breather in a way#im just so so happy!!#gonna do my thesis with him!!!
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sick and twisted that organizing my desk space (and organizing the clutter in my room in general) does, in fact, make me feel a lot happier and a lot better about my life . . . sick and twisted
#caroline talks#guys i got this desk organizer . . . it's got my nail polishes and my sticky notes and pens and pencils in one place#and it makes me. very happy.#i did spend. the last hour and a half cleaning my room and just. mopping. dusting. unpacking. re-organizing my closet.#i need to wait for my washing machine + dryer to finish up so i can finally finish changing my sheets#and i also need to clean my bathroom. and then. and then i'm going to go to a meeting.#i really do like. living away from my parents for the most part. i love them but i also. think i just feel more motivated when i'm not#living with them. cue: decorating my room for the first time in forever. organizing things. cleaning more. telling myself that despite my#desire to crawl into bed and not get back up. i need to buy milk.#(WHICH. DEEP SIGH. I DON'T WANT TO BUY MILK)#(but tomorrow me will be SO thankful. i know this. i know this too well.)#(but the grocery store feels so far . . . .. . ... )#(lunch. i need to eat lunch. that's what's going on here tbh)
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(Jacobsbadwig) with all due respect, when the fuck did you get back! I missed you!
never left, only reincarnated :)
#i missed you too!!!!!! how's the fanfic going???? well i hope :)#it has been a Time#my burnout & mental illness got the better of me. i intended on divorcing myself from fandom & deleting my blog#i wanted to make myself as small as possible so i could spend whatever energy i had on work and drugs#i was afraid my presence was negatively affecting the fandom at best & contributing nothing at worst#it didn't feel like there was any place for me anymore - not because of anything anyone said or did but bc#many posts i made i no longer agreed w/ & bc i was too burnt out to write new theories i figured no one would notice or care i was gone#so i got super drunk and deleted everything#people contacted me about my blog but i was too anxious to reply#bc i didn't want to admit i had made a mistake#i kept the handle in case i ever wanted to post#but for a long time i had nothing to say about twilight outside of what my fanfiction had to say about it#i lurked for a while & at the end of the day i missed the community that came with participating in fandom#really tho - what helped was quitting my crushing job and taking several months to travel around the pacific northwest#(burnout is REAL!!!!!!)#and the admin of the twilight Discord server recognizing my handle & taking the time to talk to me - which was very sweet of them#plus - i am rereading Eclipse for the fanfic rewrite and began to have Thoughts#tbh i've been finding it amazing that anyone ever noticed i left or remembered my handle! im kinda blown away#anyway here's all the information you never asked for LMAO#i am happy to be back in the circle :)#cheers to you#<3
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This is silly, but I feel like the best way to make sure Mayuri comes to a party you're throwing is to not invite him. Like he wouldn't care in the first place, but if he found out every other captain had been invited but not him, he'd show up out of pure spite and maybe to raid the fridge.
Literally, yes. Like Shunsui throws a belated party after the war to celebrate his new position (and the end of the war!) and with Nanao in charge of the invites, one or two happen to go ‘missing’.
To be fair, the last time Mayuri showed up to one of Shunsui’s parties, he started calculating each attendee’s specific lethal limit of sake and insisting on having anyone who was easily cowed try an injectable instead of downing 5 shots in a row because it was more effective & less painful to watch. Whatever that last part means.
Kira projectile vomited from the instantaneous nausea, Soi Fon almost murdered Mayuri after he offered to make a Yoruichi replica that could do everything a cat could do—including transform into a very handsome woman!—, and when one of the seated officers passed out from the injectable Mayuri split him open right there in the middle of the room to investigate why, explaining what he was doing the entire way like it was of interest to anyone but him (Isane was piqued but also horrified at all the bodily fluids leaking on the party favors).
Now every missing invite where he feels he needs to be there as a show of due respect (all other captains being there, for sure) is an invitation in itself.
He made Akon look up human party games and brought a real eldritch horror of a gigai to play Operation! on for the promotion party. And spiked the punch with something that (probably) won’t kill everyone.
He also gave Nanao his soul phone number and gifted her 2 pagers (in case one breaks) should she need to let him know about the next party. Perhaps a hell butterfly instead of a letter next time! Or an announcement at a captains meeting! Anything but what she did this time around, because she did it badly—but Mayuri knows everyone makes mistakes…some more than others, apparently. Losing letters seems a little cliché.
Mayuri then proceeds to raid the fridge before he gets his shit rocked by a thoroughly demoralized Nanao. It is mostly too-salty food absolutely riddled with green onions but he removed his tastebuds beforehand, so it’s fine.
He only kind of suffers consequences (he has to FIGHT for his budget next quarter against a very prepared Nanao).
ALL THAT SAID!
I don’t think he’s completely without social graces. They’re just hidden behind socially unacceptable oddities that keep him off the invite list lmao.
But positives of Mayuri at a party:
He and Soi Fon would talk the nastiest shit on Urahara. Both of these characters so desperately want Urahara to be bottom of the barrel talent, they will drink until it’s their reality.
Isane would treat him like a bomb, bodily throwing herself away at the first sign of leakage or ticking, BUT she would be intrigued by his practical advise. They’re both insecure about the positions they have, even if they deal with it in very different ways. Mayuri would never show that and Isane wouldn’t be that vulnerable with him, but I think they would have some chats that would be considered (mostly) positive.
I think he and Zaraki would have this weird vibe where they work each other up over war stories but are having just entirely different conversations and once they try to get on the same wavelength they are at each other throats (Zaraki is having a great time and Mayuri wants to claw out his own sternum).
Rukia (with Renji and Byakuya closely trailing her) actually have some simple and pleasant conversations about new Chappy merch & technology developments.
He has ‘talks’ with Omaeda that really just boil down to Mayuri’s insults flying over the lieutant’s head while Mayuri grills for funding. Omaeda has a little R&D VIP lanyard for his troubles that means absolutely nothing.
Somehow him and Nanao actually do get along but only if they’re talking about very specific topics (management, mostly) or else Nanao remembers who she’s talking to and Mayuri remembers he’s taking advice from a Lieutenant and then it’s ruined.
Rose talks to Mayuri like he is a bug with middling music tastes and Mayuri treats Rose similar but they always end up talking new talent they’ve found.
Honestly, Shunsui handles Mayuri’s bullshit best because he has the security net of being Captain General & Mayuri’s sneering isn’t that far off from the personalities he’s surrounded himself with Lieutenant wise. Shunsui treats him like an annoying cousin and it works somehow.
Really, though, Mayuri never stays long enough to do Too much damage. He has his fill of people quickly and fucks back off to the labs. I’d say it’s realistically 50/50 if he crashes an (important) party. He doesn’t bother with the casual gatherings, really.
HOWEVER. When Mayuri throws a party, people don’t miss out because R&D does fun grab bags with prototypes of their upcoming tech that’s been green lit, Senjumaru sneaks down to lead a murder mystery game, and Urahara always crashes because he loves to have fun at his student’s expense.
It’s also the most popular time to start planning Captain parties, because Mayuri gets so burnt out on people after his yearly hosted shit show that he doesn’t bother even snooping on who’s holding what where for months. And also Urahara & Yoruichi are guaranteed to stay in town for a while and everyone wants them as guests.
#I think Mayuri wanting to make a fake soul Yoruichi wouldn’t be him making fun of her either#it’s him trying to brag about how well he could do it#and implying to Soi Fon that they run in similar circles even if they Do Not#Mayuri trying to make friends is a disaster#truly a vibe killer#tbh I think he would ignore the VAST MAJORITY of parties#but the ones where all the captains are gathering!??#fuck off he’s there#this really got away from me but it was fun#Mayuri Kurotsuchi
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Have you ever thought about how Linebeck describes Jolene as "crazier than a rabid squid"- only to then be possessed by a literal rabid squid later in the game?
Cause I sure have- especially after seeing a lot of your BellumxLinebeck stuff
mmmmghmm im gonna be honest i haven't thought about it much at all
linking it to my bellum x linebeck thoughts, im not too sure what to make of it in context with my other linebeck notes and w/e
there's also my idea that linebeck has a special interested in shellfish and by extension squids, and the idea of him having a weird thing for bellum, and just... enjoying sealife, and it's kinda of...
he compares her to a rabid squid to link in order to i think... offer a shorthand explanation of what she's like, and i think it (with some other stuff) is kinda just another little peek into how he might feel abt her?
i mean he also compares link to a dog in that one letter? i'm not sure where im going with that one. i dont think linebeck particularly likes dogs
i'm not sure abt the link between that and him getting possessed, jolene is kind of just... there a lot of the time and doesn't really do anything except 1) show that linebeck has enemies and 2) show that people know about link's quest by the end, linebeck generally references sea creatures a few times in ph
relating to bellum x linebeck, i dont see him comparing jolene to a squid an indicator of anything in relation to that, with linebeck having a thing for bellum its more of like. there's a lot of complicated ideas i have with what goes on between them during bellumbeck and bellum being a squid thing is more linebeck having a bit of a monsterfucker streak and having a bit of a thing for like. being tied up. as for literal squids he kinda just likes them as food and to dissect and learn about
like i think 'rabid squid' is more like linebeck just tossing out some derogatory shorthand to explain how he thinks of jolene as some fucking. violent annoyance he has to deal with that he doesn't fully understand
tbh i see the comparison but imo it comes down to a difference in characters and interactions and histories, there is the rabid squid thing (and i think in the manga too theres a vague parallel drawn ig) but im not. sure. what there is there just beyond. linebeck talks about sea creatures and wants to get the fuck away from jolene
i'm not entirely certain what you've been thinking about with that comparison, but i haven't been thinking much about it and it's kinda. eh ig???? its something
#asks#musicncomics#like im gonna be real jolene is a character i do everything i can to avoid half of the time#im not too sure what your thoughts on this are but i can tell you like jolene leagues more than i do so like. idk#idk i have a hard time talking abt jolene bc i Do Not like her so im not really sure beyond this stuff its just. idk#bellum also isnt a literal squid like looking at actual squids the most comparisons are surface level and dont work too deeply#he kinda just looks like one at first glance but 1) doesnt line up well enough and 2) we dont have enough info on him anyways#hes more a reference to a squid than an actual squid bc there is the reference to sperm whales and giant squids fucking hating each other#but while oshus is literal whale bellum is like. some thing in the shape of a squid#im not sure what parallels oyu can draw between the jolene thing and bellum thing. if anything theyre opposites?#w/ jolene its like things got so bad (or w/e) that he just robbed her n fucked off and she decided that was enough to warrant murder#while with bellum things get so good (w/ link and co) that he risks his life for em and is turned against them for it?#tbh this kinda comes down to me having a pretty negative bias against jolene and. that ship. so yeah sorry#im not gonna give this any main tags or anything this is way too far off the beaten path and kinda negative#idk i hc linebeck as gay and a lot of other linebeck hcs just kinda. suggest that he kinda had a really shit time w/ jolene#i dont like her im trying to figure that shit out so i can be like. fair at least in how i write her but i dont like her#salty talks#sorry that i keep tearing away from the rabid squid thing but its like a minefield when i try to talk abt anything w/ jolene#theres not a ton of parallels or like shared themes or w/e and its just too dissimilar in little ways that its just. a thing#ill add this in a few hours later idk if youll see jt but like. i can go in depth and discuss stuff#in dms like im fine with that its just weird in posts bc like tagging and my thoughts are a mess#like if you wanna elaborate on your thoughts thats fine
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