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flowersforjude · 24 days

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𝐕𝐢𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐃𝐞𝐥𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 ≈ 𝐢𝐢𝐢. 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐞

❛𝘸𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘭𝘬𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘴𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘵𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘢𝘱𝘢𝘳𝘵𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘪𝘯 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘧𝘰𝘳𝘵𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘴𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘦 ❜

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𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 | canon typical violence, no real warnings for this chapter.

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𝐀𝐮𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐫'𝐬 𝐍𝐨𝐭𝐞 | Filler sort of chapter. Just trying to get all the events tributes have to go through out of the way. The next chapter is a bit longer. Enjoy!!

One word came to mind to describe the Capitol.

Shiny.

Tall, glimmering buildings dotted the skyline, and the fancy furnishings and decorations overwhelmed me.

This morning started for me way earlier than I would have liked. The gravity of my situation weighed more heavily on me than the day before. I woke up at almost 4:00 in the morning, sweaty and twisted up in unfamiliar silk sheets. My heart was beating rapidly from some nightmare I couldn't recall.

With only a few hours of sleep under my belt, I ended up in the shower in the connected bathroom. It was there, under the steaming fall of water, that I allowed myself to crumble even the tiniest bit. Silent tears cascaded down my cheeks and mingled with the water. I watched as they tumbled down the silver drain and disappeared.

After they had dried up and I was only sniffing a bit, I let myself enjoy the warmth for a moment longer before making my way back to the bedroom. I picked something to wear out of the fully stocked drawers and then paced the room. To distract myself, I wondered how this must be for Finnick and the other victors. Focusing on someone else's heartache was easier than facing the dread permanently constricting my chest. I couldn't comprehend how they could bear spending so much time with so many children, getting to know them, just to wave them off once it was time.

Sabine stopped by my room at six o'clock to tell me breakfast was going to be served in thirty minutes and that we'd be arriving in the Capitol around seven. Breakfast was a silent affair, with only the occasional comment from Clay or Hector. I hadn't been able to speak to Finnick since my conversation with him in the shadows of the lounge car. A whirlwind of activity was happening around me, and all I could do was let myself be pulled every which way.

I had been handed off to my prep team some time ago, and they were still busy with the seemingly extensive work. Even though it felt like they'd been at it a long time.

"Sorry." Eris, a short but striking woman with white hair cropped short, apologized as she tore a waxing strip from my leg. "This is the last one, though." She grinned, and her septum piercing glinted in the harsh overhead light. The final strip was yanked free as Ezra, a man with pupils that had been surgically altered to a slitted form, brought over containers of scrubs and other care items that I'd never heard of.

After the first hour, I had gotten used to being naked in front of them, and I started to feel more at ease. Eris and I make small talk since she's more approachable than Ezra.

After my body is scrubbed down with sweet-smelling lotion and I'm waxed and polished to their hearts' desire, they step back to examine their work.

"I suppose she's presentable now," Ezra says. "We should get Elphane."

They leave the room. Eris wishes me luck as she goes, and I think Ezra offers me a small smile. It means a lot more to me than I thought it would. I didn't think I'd care so much about whether Capitol people liked me or not.

I pull the thin paper robe around my shoulders and wait for my stylist to arrive. I look at the cold white floors and walls and suppress a shiver. This robe does nothing to aid the chill. Maybe that's the point.

I hope my stylist isn't too intimidating. I hope she's more like Eris than Ezra. I hope she doesn't make me wear something too ridiculous. I know that's the last thing I should be concerned with right now, but worrying about my outfit is easier than letting in the fact that this is the beginning of it all. The beginning of my death march.

The door opens, and a young woman, a little older than me, walks in holding a garment bag. Her curly hair is styled to poof out around her head like a halo of dark colored-rings. The only alteration to her face is the silver makeup that had been applied around her eyes. The metallic shine of the silver on her dark skin brings out the unique hue of her lavender eyes. She must be wearing contacts. She's beautiful, and not in the over-the-top Capitol way. She's beautiful in the subtle way that sneaks up on you. You're shocked when you get a closer look at her.

She hangs the garment bag on a rack I hadn't noticed yet. "Hello, Lyssa. My name is Elpahne, your stylist." Her voice is soft, like the flutter of a seagull's wings as it takes off from a rock.

"Hi," I venture unsurely.

She circles me, eyeing my form as if assessing every part of me. Somehow, I know she isn't looking at me like this to make me uncomfortable. She's just trying to get a handle on what she has to work with. But I still itch to wrap my arms around myself. I'm not used to someone looking at me this closely and for this long, like she's analyzing every molecule.

"What's your favorite color, Lyssa?" She asked, coming to a stop in front of me.

I think for a moment. What was my favorite color? I've always enjoyed the cerulean blue of the sky. Especially on days when the ocean was restless, when great waves rolled in harmony with the strong winds. Carrying the smell of ocean spray to the shore. Although, I wasn't so sure that it was my favorite. No, I think my favorite of all has always been the green tint the sea takes when the light is just right. The normal cobalt water adopts a shade of green that's lighter than emerald but softer than neon. It's calming, truthfully, and perhaps that's why I like it so much. Because the waves only claim this color when the day is good. When the sun is generous and allows itself to be a friend to the ocean instead of a mere acquaintance.

"Sea green." I finally answered.

Elphane nods as a smile overtakes her face. "I've never seen the ocean myself, but I hope to one day."

"I hope you do. It's magical," I say.

She takes on a knowing look. "I think I will soon." She retrieved the garment bag from its hook. "Are you ready to see your outfit?"

I nod as she unzips the cover. Instantly, I recognized the lovely hue of green and even some spectacular blues. I realize I'm not going to be dressed as a fish or something else utterly mortifying. I'm going to be clothed as the sea itself.

"Let's get you in this!" Elphane said giddily.

The dress is made of blue-green silk that shimmers in the light like the water does on those days where the sun and the sea are friends. The bodice of the dress hugs my curves. The sleeves are long and come to a point on the top of my hand where a ring goes on my middle finger to keep them in place. The neckline plunges downward and stops just above my navel. Leaving the middle strip of my stomach bare. The skirt is long and flowy. It pins up on my right hip bone to make the fabric fold over in some places to mimic rolling waves.

My makeup is done in silvers and whites that have a rainbow effect when the light reflects on it. My eyelids glimmer, and a glowing silver highlight is applied to my cheekbones. I'm surprised when Elphane begins to fix gemstones that look like pearls to the skin beneath my eyes. Three little pearls stretch out to stop at the outer corner. She also adds them to my collarbone and the valley between my breasts.

My hair hangs loose in natural, soft waves. She didn't do anything more than spray something in it that made it curl a bit more than usual. The finishing touches are more pearls placed randomly in the tresses of my hair.

"I was hoping you would say you liked green." Elphane confesses. "I knew it would complement your blonde hair."

"It's more lovely than I could have imagined," I say. "Thank you."

"You're very welcome, darling."

As we walk to the ground floor, where the tributes load the chariots, I find I'm not as nervous as I thought I'd be. I was thankful for the outfit Elphane put together for me. It is a comfort to know that when I'm in front of the entire country, I'll be something stronger than myself. The ocean never wavers, and therefore I will not either.

The chariots are already lined up. The other tributes stand around near theirs with the rest of their teams. I spot Hector standing at the front of our chariot, petting the horses. He's in a similar outfit to mine, but he has pants instead of a skirt.

Midori, Clay, and Finnick are close by with Sabine. They approach when they notice both their tributes are now present.

"How are you two feeling?" Clay questions. "Nervous?"

"No." I say confidently, even though it was only an act. Hector shakes his head, but his lack of a verbal response makes me think he is.

"Remember to wave." Midori advises. "Smile. Look out at the crowd; don't just stare forward."

I'm taking in her words and repeating them over and over again in my head. Wave. Smile. Look at the crowd.

Finnick steps closer to me. "Charm them, Lyssa. This won't be your only chance, but it is your first. Use that District four charisma I know you have."

I'm nodding as a horn blows, echoing around the concrete room.

Hector and I climbed into the chariot. I hold on tightly to the side, trying to save myself future embarrassment if I were to fall.

The roar of the crowd rivaled the sound of crashing waves. I was blinded by the lights around us as the chariots took off into the city. We waved and smiled at the Capitol citizens. I even choked back my revulsion and blew a few kisses at the ones who screamed in my direction. Deep down, I held my disgust and resentment in an iron grip. This was not the place to show it.

Thankfully, soon enough, we're making the last lap and coming to a halt in front of the president's mansion. President Snow stood on a pedestal that was placed high up on a balcony, above everyone. Just like he believed himself to be. He smiled patronizingly down at all of us.

"Welcome." He spoke into the microphone. "We welcome you tributes. We salute your courage and sacrifice." I stared up at him, not in reverence or awe, but in hatred. My eyes looked kind and unassuming, but hidden in them was a storm lashing. The very storm I'd promised Finnick not to lose. And that storm longed to swallow Snow up as he continued with his speech. "We wish you good luck and happy Hunger Games. May the odds be ever in your favor."

The cheering of the crowd faded as we rode back under the stadium. My chest rose and fell rapidly as I let the nerves finally take effect.

Finnick was the first to congratulate us. "That was perfect. Lyssa, nice touch with the kisses."

I smiled gratefully at him. "You gave me the idea."

"You guys killed it!" Clay exclaimed.

"You did very well." Midori praised.

Sabine appeared looking like she would break her face by how hard she was smiling. "I'm so excited! District four will be the best of the best this year! I know it!" She was yelling so ecstatically and waving her hands around like crazy. "You, dears, were absolutely phenomenal!"

I feel the hair on the back of my neck prickle. I glance behind me, and the male tribute from one is openly glaring at me. He smirks menacingly once he knows I'm looking. I meet his eyes fearlessly, my face impassive. I had to show him and the other tributes that I was unafraid. Even if that was the furthest from the truth.

"Lyssa," Finnick called. He got no response. "Lyssa." He said again, but louder.

I finally let my gaze drop from the tribute. "What?" I asked.

"We're heading to the apartments." Finnick informed me. He chuckled while shaking his head slightly. "Did you gain a confidence boost since last night? You were looking at that tribute like you wanted to gut him."

We fell into step together. "He was glaring at me first," I muttered. "I think I've already managed to make an enemy somehow."

Finnick stopped me and reached into my hair. He pulled a red rose petal from the locks of my hair. "This? This is all you need to worry about. This means people like you. This means you'll get sponsors, which is the difference between life and death." He held the petal in front of my face for emphasis.

I grimaced. "But what about the way he was looking at me? Like I was first on his kill list. How am I supposed to concentrate with that hanging over me? It's like they can't wait to get in there and start killing."

We started walking again, not wanting to get left too far behind.

"That's just Careers. They're trained for this. Most of the time, they're volunteers. They're arrogant and overconfident. But that will be what kills them."

"Thank you, Finnick." I expressed, avoiding his eyes. "Seriously, I don't know how I'd be handling all this without you."

"I'm here to help you." He claimed simply.

We walked the rest of the way to the apartment in comfortable silence.

Elphane is a goddess, I don't make the rules.

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ne0nwithazero · 2 months

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obligatory apology for how many of these i’m going to send HAHA 🏳️‍🌈 👻 🫂 🪢 🖕 😬 for klieg?

Yay headcanons game! And by headcanons I mean it's all canon because they're my OCs :3

🏳️‍🌈 A sexuality headcanon

Klieg is aromantic and gay :) Though I have imagined that he spent many years identifying as AroAce because his interest in romance and relationships was so non-existent it just never even occurred to him.

I feel he always knew he wasn't into women, and that paired with his general anxiety around sexual situations just lead him to take quite a while to connect the dots :)

He's aroallo but shy about it LMAO

👻 A headcanon about what scares them

He is scared of a lot of things, but I feel like one of the things that worries him the most is his whole impostor syndrome and the idea of losing everything he's worked so hard to get. :')

What good is he if he can't do the one thing he's good at?

🫂 A friendship headcanon

Klieg has a hard time figuring out when he is or isn't friends with people. And since he assumes that everyone hates or dislikes him by default, he does tend to be closed and hostile if he sees someone approach with dubious intentions.

His closest friendship is with Mittens as he has spent just enough time with her to be comfortable with her regarding her as Safe. He hasn't really told her this directly, but she can figure out quite easily that he trusts her the most and she wants to make sure he feels comfortable.

He's not very good at showing his appreciation for others, but he'll still try, usually in the form of favours. Like Mitts will happen to need help with something in the cooking channels and Klieg just immediately makes himself available to help her ;;

They're very good friends and I care them so much.

🪢 A headcanon about their family

Unless in cases like Button and Match, or Tenna, I don't tend to give my darkner characters family members or relatives ^^ They just exist on their own.

I can give headcanons about Klieg's future family though!

I imagine he would be really into making home films with Rouxls and Lancer, and eventually Lava as well!

Someone does have to take the camera from him because he starts treating the films like he's directing a serious movie and that is only cute for so long x)

🖕 A headcanon relating to anger

He's actually not as prone to anger as I've drawn him! He will get exalted and loud when working, but it's usually more out of a "These people only follow my instructions when I'm yelling them".

He is very passionate about his work and interests, and he will express himself in over-the-top ways, but it rarely comes out of a place of anger, only enthusiasm.

If you want to get him mad, you ask about his opinions on movies he hates, or you make him walk into a cinema where people have spilt popcorn on the floor and it's all sticky and gross :) That should get him worked up!

😬 A headcanon about the worst thing they’ve done

Countless dadaist cocomelon-esque movies at Tenna's request have been Klieg's worst cinematic crimes and he'd gladly exile himself if it means he must be confronted about it.

#Jay Asks #Stunfiskz #Klieg #Mittens #Kliegkaard #Rouxls #Lancer #Lava #Tenna

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jenny-from-the-bau · 11 months

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what are your opinions on reid?

Oh boy haha okay

1. I don't think he's autistic in canon. It's mentioned twice - once as an insult in season one and by Blake in season 8 and she apologizes. MGG says he is in an interview, but then calls himself the r-word in the next sentence, so I'm not inclined to listen to him.

2. I don't like that he becomes the main character of the show. I know he's popular, but it's an ensemble cast and Reid really just takes over later on.

3. He gets away with bad behavior constantly. He's terrible to the women on the team and never faces any repercussions. I don't need him to be like really punished, but it'd be nice to see him learn and grow, but the team just lets him get away with treating his coworkers like dog shit.

4. He is massively overhyped. Reid is a great source of facts, but he isn't good at synthesizing information and connecting the dots. Most of the time, he says facts and it's the other members of the team who apply those facts to the case. He isn't the smartest person on the team, he's just memorized the most information.

5. He's very pretty in the early seasons!!

#criminal minds #do I dare tag this #spencer reid #ask #anon #cm ask

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monstersinthecosmos · 2 years

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Anne Rice's books are filled with morally dubious concepts and toxic relationships, I thought everyone that is fan would be so because of that. But scrolling through the tag I find people claiming to be fans but only of the wholesome parts, which are almost nothing?? Anne Rice is not wholesome in the slightest. I don't know, it feels lonely. And also I see the TV show isn't willing to engage with the horror and complexity of these books neither, which, makes me see the vampire chronicles isn't really meant to be brought to this medium. I don't know why I am dumping this on you but I feel like you would understand somehow. Please ignore if not, I don't want to offend you.

Lmao I’m not offended, hello! I am, however, about to talk way too much bc I haven't changed in the years since I've haunted tunglr dot com so I apologize for that

TLDR: Be a freak, don't let anyone make you feel bad, I hope the show isn't too wholesome.

I’ve been in and out of this fandom for like, literally twenty years 👵🏻 so being completely honest I have always seen a wide range of fans on the spectrum of HAPPILY ENJOYING IN BLISS to ONLY INTERESTED IN CRITICISM and like that’s such a personal, subjective choice of whatever everyone finds fun in their free time. I’ve also, in twenty years, been on both ends of the spectrum, and I even fully swore AR off for a few years at one point bc I was so mad at her lol, but IM BACK BAYBEE and to me idk it’s not fun to take things so seriously all the time. That’s just me though!

I do think there’s been a huge shift in fandom culture (particularly on Tumblr) in the last 10 years or so that prioritizes moral critiques of canon; it’s not just VC, I see this in a lot of fandoms, and I think it’s been more amplified since the Adult Content Ban bc, surprise!, a lot of adults left the site lol. I think we’re living in a culture right now that’s very focused on respectability politics and there’s obviously a huge push in the mainstream to censor and control transgressive media (especially queer fiction), and it doesn’t surprise me that this has influenced younger fans because it’s a culture we are steeped in at all times, even when they try to identify as progressive. But don’t think that the broader wave of censorship right now isn’t connected to the way conservatives are beginning to skew the conversations in fandom spaces, too. Fandom is a microcosm of what’s happening outside! And there are all types of ideas and stigmas that we get inundated with in the world, without our consent, because it’s the space we all occupy.

Having said all that LOL. All these types of fans exist and sometimes you have to just read the room and find your people. Some people’s enjoyment of the books is conditional, ie: cherrypicking what we liked about them and celebrating just those parts. Especially because I think so many of us read the books young and didn’t think too hard about it; we can agree that Anne’s writing was seductive and we were all probably baby queer weirdos who felt seen or w/e. And I think it’s normal that a lot of us have grown up and looked back at some of the stuff in the books like “oh yikes lol”

But everyone has different ways to navigate those feelings. I personally don’t have a problem compartmentalizing and just enjoying myself. I don’t take fiction morals very seriously and I enjoy the thought exercise of putting myself in imaginary dark places. Not everyone can flip that on and off and separate fiction from reality so easily, so ur milage may vary. I’m also someone who supports the idea of using fiction as a staging area for sexuality, and using fiction imo is a great way to play. Not everybody feels that way and for some people, the fun of playing in fandom is to play with the canon in a transformative way to see how to “fix” it or to rearrange it in a way that is less nauseating. I think there’s a culture in spaces like Tumblr to feel you need to repent for your fiction sins, and not everyone can sit with the guilt of accidentally enjoying amorality in fiction. And like I’m sure there are fans who read IWTV at 13 and Loustat is just so deeply embedded in them that they simply cannot exit the train at this point, and they're doing what they can with the scraps to ease that discomfort.

And I mean, good for them, if it helps them enjoy their time on this fucking germy ass planet!!!!!! That’s very fun, happy 4 u guys lol.

There is also 1000000% Nothing Wrong with blissfully enjoying all the evil and trash. It is perfectly safe and extremely normal. You just need to find your people, and sometimes it is hard and it does feel lonely. I'm with you, though. I'm here to enjoy the evil bullshit and revel in it LOL. There's literally nothing in the series that is wholesome except for Mojo.

To be honest, I’m not into Loustat at all. And not in a morally superior way—they don’t really do it for me but also Lestat reminds me waaaaaaaay too much of my abuser and Louis reminds me way too much of myself when I was stuck in that relationship. It isn’t fun for me to engage with Loustat content because I tend to only see the manipulation and gaslighting when I look at it, and for me personally it’s juuuuuuust a bit too close to the reality I lived through. I would argue that my OTP Armand/Daniel is the most toxic ship in VC but I was never kidnapped by a vampire or stalked across the globe while being literally addicted to his body fluid so yknow, that don’t bother me. =P But it’s 100% normal to look at canon toxic ships and play in the sandbox to either “fix” them or to like, take control of the narrative and allow yourself some catharsis by digging into it in a safe imaginary space. When I have the chance I like to mAkE thEM WORSE

So it’s been occurring to me when I see the enthusiasm of these fans for the show that perhaps they don’t particularly like canon to begin with? So changing it this drastically isn’t an issue to them? I’m sure everyone has their own reasons and I don’t want to generalize. On the issue of Claudia, for example: I think she is an intrinsic part of the plot and drives very profound feminist messages in the book, and I think her being a small child is absolutely essential to that story. I recognize that there are morally reprehensible moments in text regarding her and to me I’m like GOOD, IT’S SUPPOSED TO BE GROSS. It’s supposed to be gross!!!! It’s a horror novel!!!!!! And Anne Rice was a writer who wanted to always talk about the full spectrum of human emotion, including sexual emotion, so having sexual themes intertwined with the horror was completely on purpose!

Then you see some people who ONLY see that it’s gross and can’t connect with the full scope of her story because it’s too uncomfortable. And like, you do you bestie! Curate that experience for yourself! Have boundaries and love yourself enough to stay safe!!! But I do think it’s wild the amount of complaints I’ve seen about Claudia, for example, which strike me as particularly ironic because it’s almost meta in the way they’ve embodied the entire reason her character is tragic. People infantilizing Claudia as a character, unable to engage with the topic of her at all, is exactly the reason she’s a tragedy in canon, because she can be as old as she wants and people will always see her as a child. D:

As far as the TV show goes lol.

Being fair, I don’t think we know enough yet to know how evil & problematic they’re going to be. LMAO. I hope it’s like unhinged gaslighting abusive romance bc like, WHAT ARE YOU WASTING OUR TIME FOR IF NOT? But I always have found it funny when you see people who seem to otherwise hate everything problematic in VC somehow cape for Loustat as if it’s any different from the other ships. 😂

My concerns at this moment are that the way they changed Claudia is a huge red flag to me about whether or not they will engage in the problematic elements, and I’m not thrilled that RJ says the rest of the books give you a better picture of Lestat than just IWTV, because I disagree. Like, hearing from his own voice definitely allows us to know his sense of humor and we can see he’s a bi disaster, but he’s already CHARMING in IWTV. Louis falls for his shit because he’s charming. So I don’t think we need to know that he considers himself faultless for him to have a fuller portrayal on the show.

Like, I hope the show portrays them as being an abusive ship and shows all the nuance that it deserves, but RJ’s comments reminded me of the binary we see over and over in VC fandom about trying to get to the bottom about WHICH ONE OF THEM WAS LYING. (And it was Lestat, imo LOL he’s told on himself many many times.) So claiming IWTV is an incomplete portrayal of him makes me wonder if RJ comprehended that Lestat is a charming manipulator who abuses everyone in his life LOL. And ESPECIALLY with the time shift + age difference I think this puts them in a very different context. A Lestat who is turned in his 30s with a fully baked prefrontal cortex is going to have a very different temperament from canon Lestat, and even moreso when we understand he’s not a traumatized, freshly-bereaved fledgling anymore but like OVER A CENTURY OLD LMAO so like, he’s had time to calm down and gain some wisdom and that would have to make such a huge difference on the level of coercion. (That’s another red flag for me too is that RJ goes “no no we just changed a couple little things !” and the things he changed are like HUGE??????? So him saying that makes me skeptical again about the nuance of the abuse here.)

I also have some concerns bc some of the show’s team has worked on other titles that were about toxic male antiheros and there are definitely moments in those shows where you can’t tell if the writers are aware of themselves. IE: Tony Soprano is a racist bad guy who kills people and cheats on his wife, and yet there are still occasional narratives on The Sopranos that show the creators also had some of those same biases, and you must wonder if some of Tony’s actions or behavior weren’t intended to be catalogued in the ways he’s very evil.

So looking at the way they’re speaking about Lestat’s characterization, that they’re referring to it as a romance, and some of the patterns in their other work I do have concerns about how the abuse will be portrayed. I also worry about how the abuse will play on screen now that there is an added racial element, and if it will be too cruel or edge into messages that feel too real and hurtful to the audience. And, to circle back lmao, I’m not uncomfortable with objectionable morals in my fiction, but, some nuance would be good.

Don’t get me wrong like I hope the ship on the TV show is like ABUSIVE and SEXY and I hope Louis is like HORNY and TRAPPED because he knows he should leave but he CANNOT! And I want there to be some steamy frustrated hatesex! And huge fights and makeup sex! LOL. But yeah I mean, pretending that Loustat is wholesome is a complete joke, and I really really hope that the show doesn’t misunderstand Loustat to a point where they aren’t aware of what they’re really portraying. LET THE STORY BE ABUSIVE BUT PLEASE BE AWARE OF YOURSELF!

(Anne could have used this advice too in the second half of the series LMAO whoops but I think having that nuance would ultimately make these stories even richer. HERE I AM COMPLAINING ABOUT CANON NONCOMPLIANCE EXCEPT MAKING AN EXTREMELY UNAWARE PORTRAYAL OF ABUSE IS COMPLETELY CANON, my bad.)

And basically like. If it’s not going to be those things I’m just back to wondering why they wanted to adapt this book? So far the only thing in common with canon is like… New Orleans???? An interview of some type will take place? They have the same names?

So it’s hard to hear the team talk about how respectful they are of the book when…. They’re not keeping anything from the book? LOL. What exactly did you see in this story that you wanted to express? I don’t get it. 😂 And I would hate for a book about morally dubious characters and abusive romances to be like, a campy vampire romance without any of those questions and themes.

I’m not saying any of this to nitpick or be needlessly negative; I’m saying it to say it’s some of the things I’ve been wondering and some of the clues I’ve been looking for during the past year to see what exactly is going on with this show LOL. Again, I don’t think the trailer told us enough to know. I’ve been critical and looking for these things and genuinely don’t have a solid opinion yet because I haven’t gotten enough information. Lestat is certainly being extremely predatory and he looks unhinged as fuck so that’s a good sign LMAO. Louis even refers to it in the voiceover as being “hunted”, so it’s nice to know that he feels that way with 100 years of perspective. But we’ll have to wait and see!

I think at this point I’m really hoping for like HANNIBAL LEVEL fuckery and like that type of unhinged gaslighting and manipulation LOL and I think Hannibal was about as far from canon as VCTV looks so far. I’m just doing my best to compartmentalize and be fair about the show while also acknowledging my extremely deep disappointment that we waited 5 years for WOLFKILLER STUFF AND NICKI only to be given an AU fanfic lol. And like, I give Hannibal a bit of a pass because by the time that show came out there had already been like 5 movies made of that franchise and they were mostly faithful so like at that point the idea had already been explored and it was time to remix. I don’t feel VC has ever gotten that shot yet so it’s sad that they went straight for a remix :(

anyway sorry, I disappeared off tumblr for years but I apparently still answer anons with exceedingly meandering essays, I have no idea if this answered what you were asking but LOL YOLO ✌️

#having slept on this #i also want to add that in case this wasn't clear:#TLDR there is room for everyone #be kind and find your people #fandom is not a finite space #it's like Clifford #it wlil get bigger and bigger if you keep loving it!!!!! LOL #make stuff!!!!

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I COME BACK WITH THOUGHTS/THEORIES ON ITADORI AND HIS RELATIONS- I THINK.

anyways, so i'll just point this out: i'm not good at speaking my thoughts in an organized manner. i absolutely suck at it, i speak on how my brain brings up the thoughts so i might ramble, get over my head in a thought, etc. i can't control it so i apologize in advance for the jumpiness of the texts. i will spell a lot of things wrong and not everything will be correct, as i read translations and on a manga site. don't worry it's not illegal, i believe.

MANGA SPOILERS AHEAD.

i apologize for my absence! last week or two weeks ago the tower to my computer completely broke and will not turn on. i tried to repair it and follow my fathers instructions but nothing worked. even cleaned off the fan and went through countless nights readjusting things. it's not my cords either so to help me out my father is working extra shifts to get me a new pc. so in the meantime i'll do small posts like these but not full writing/head canons until i have a computer tower lol. a family member was kind enough to allow me to have their phone while we work throughout this issue.

now onto the actual topic:

kenjaku and itadori's relationship. ( family wise ).

for context in the most recent chapter, 160 "colony" kamo shows up in sasaki's home and talks to her about the culling game and a barrier. but that's not the point, the point is as he's guiding her to the barrier inside her "dream" at the end he says "oh right. i almost forgot to tell you. thank you for getting along with my son." and then she is awakened inside the barrier, in her pajamas beside iguchi. when sasaki and iguchi look at the barrier and gather themselves they bring up kamo.

sasaki asked iguchi if he mentioned his son and he says no. this leaves sasaki in a state of confusion when itadori flashes in her mind. she says his name aloud like she finally connected the dots. now. why am i bringing up this whole kenjaku thanking sasaki for being his "son"'s friend. it throws me off because why didn't he thank iguchi?

did he not think iguchi meant their friendship? because sasaki was the one uninjured and still counted itadori as a friend? does iguchi not consider itadori as a friend anymore?

because we haven't seen these two at all since the incident. that raised many questions in me. as well "how can itadori be related to kamo?" and itadori is related to choso.

because kamo's technique is explained ( vaguely. we are aware he can create barriers, take over bodies, and has incredible cursed tools. chapter 134. this is also where choso makes his connection ( i believe. ) to itadori yuji as his brother. but because we saw this with todo many thought itadori just had another unconsious technique that allows the person who is hit create false memories and believe of a completely made up relationship with itadori without his knowledge. but alas, i was wrong. ) and we're given more hints shown than told ( imo ) i tried my best to make sense out of the situation and what he said. i think my conclusions are pretty solid, so continuing on.

we're given very little history on itadori, his past, and family. at the start of the manga we know that itadori's only family he knows is his grandfather and that he is ill in the hospital. at the very very beginning we learn that itadori is your average cute, fluffy, laid back but strong and goofy protagonist. in smaller words: itadori is kirby but even cuter and dumber.

my first impressions of him is a pineapple. if you're confused to this saying: it's calling a person prickly on the outside but sweet on the inside. and this is true, itadori's grandfather seems prickly and cold on the outside but he genuinely cares for itadori.

he raised itadori for all we know and did that with his all in assumption. but this ends up backfiring onto itadori, because he cares so much for his grandson - he ends up leaving a " curse " on yuji.

help people. save them.

itadori takes this to heart as his grandfathers speech is his last one. when he looks over to his grandfather the man is dead and now yuji is left alone. then the following events occur.

at this point in time i assumed itadori was an orphan ( he technically is if we're connecting the dots. his parents has not been shown, he doesn't speak of them, they aren't in the picture. we can conclude either they disowned itadori or died before he could make complete memories of them. )

but when we are shown in chapter 143 itadori's parents we see this "woman" jin ( yuji's father ) and his grandfather talking about has the same scar pattern. this scar pattern is either stitching ( assuming that is how kamo keeps the top of the opened skull from coming off. this is also how kamo revealed his cursed technique / body of sorts ( the brain, assuming that is kenjaku in his cursed technique and not the body / puppet he is controlling " getou suguru " ) to gojou. )

this is the only way i find kamo being able to assign itadori as his son. why is that you might be asking this dumbass here.

we do not have the full story, exact date, location, and full context of the memory/dream itadori is having. this cannot be fake either because kamo would than have no reason to call itadori his son. or is there? anyways.

take a leap of faith with me. imagine that before itadori is born ( he seems no more than a few weeks or days old in this memory. hence why i am thinking my conclusion is pretty solid in theory. but yknow gege, there might be something different. ) anywhooo.

TW. D3ATH/IMPLYING ANTI LIFE ATTEMPT

kamo had to have taken over yuji's mothers body after an accident OR after she gave birth to yuji. his grandfather is interrupted by her before he can finish his sentence but it seems to be leading to the conclusion that either kaori ( yuji's mother ) died while giving birth to yuji or kaori could not conceive and tried to take her own life or cause an accident that would take her life. ( i read a fan translation for this part but im pretty sure i also read the official translation today too and it added up to the same. )

i believe in the first idea, but since kamo's cursed technique wasn't explained in detail i don't know the conditions of his body technique. does the original host of the body have to be dead? can he regenerate body limbs ( i highly doubt. getou lost an arm during his fight with yuta. overconfident dick. reminding me of an ex ANTWAYS. i forgive him for being overconfident smooch. he learned. OFF TOPIC but continuing on i promise.

this is being continued from the cut off point. i'm so upset so it'll just be summarized. i can't believe this shit lol i took three hours just to finish it for it to literally cut off the bottom half.

continuing on in a sadge mood. kamo must not have the complete ability to take over a body. after all getou took his only arm he had as he was dying and choked his own body to his full ability. getou was willing to die ( possibly, you never know he could be alive if he killed his own body. moving on. ) just to have the chance to save his friend from being swallowed by a damn box.

so there has to be a chance that kamo cannot fully take over the previous persons complete consious and memory of their body. if getou still had his other arm after losing the fight to yuta, he could've choked kamo with both arms. in theory kamo wouldn't be able to control the right arm and die to the previous host choking him to death.

so why wouldn't the other hosts do it? after all, kamo did say it was his first time experiencing such a thing. assuming kamo has lived throughout many bodies in his 150+ lifespan none of the previous hosts could take control of their body.

i believe getou was completely influenced by gojou and his six eyes. there is no way gojou would even try to speak out to his friend unless he had an inkling or saw getou still in there. helpless and without the ability to save himself from the cage he's in.

being used and puppeteered in his own body by an external force. laughing in the world he could not. putting getou into a constant misery and defeat that he couldn't escape his hell. the one he tried so hard to fight and get out of. even if it was the wrong path.

gojou was the last person to witness getou dying. he had to watch getou bleed out after their conversation because he couldn't bring himself to kill his friend. the one he spent his whole jujutsu student life with. so for gojou to say such a thing to getou despite all that he did had to break getou out of his misery and give him that small sliver of hope that he could do something. of course he failed, but i doubt that's going to be the end of that.

the only way i see kamo being related to yuji is if he took over kaori's body before the pregnancy. assuming that when kamo takes over a body he becomes one with said body and is that person for however long he lives in said body. my only thing is, can he take over a persons body whilst they are alive? i would go more in depth like i did the last time but i am extremely upset about my work being erased so that's the end of this part.

thank you for reading! i have one more thing for you though.

the last time we see sukuna in a manga page after the shibuya incident is where he is on his throne and in his domain. this is after yuji is stabbed by yuta and is presumed "dead" at the time. he seems to be interested in yuta and i can think of 2-3 things. I would love to hear your theories too so don't be afraid to barge into my dms like the koolaid man.

A - sukuna is interested in Yuta because of his ability to use the reverse healing technique ( only a few sorcerers know this. sukuna being the first. shoko being the second one to be told that she has this power and then gojou. ) because of this he sees potential in yuta as well or has added this boy into his plans. after all, there is very few that can make sukuna make an expression that isn't an RBF. aka megumi and possibly gojou. I was looking at the page of him stabbing yuji and noticed we only see the entry point of where the blade enters. it's smaller because some got chunked off so its a possibility yuta used this to his advantage when "killing" yuji and instead hit an artery that could kill him but quickly healed him afterwards. or just his heart. the ideas.

B. Rika, Yuta is able to completely control Rika as shown. Even though he claims he is on the weak side, these two combined seem like an unstoppable force. He may be interested in Rika as she is a curse that has been put on someone that can fully control it. Not many people is shown to be able to control their curse. As we haven't met many.

this was enti and that's the last of my post! thank you for reading and it was a fun one. even though i had to restore this shit. anyways, i'd love you to add or fix up my ideas and tell me your thoughts and opinions! Thanks a bunch!

^ this is for pure humor

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tls123 · 3 years

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NEW TWIN PRIDES THOUGHT ?!?!?

this got long so i am shoving it under a read more but the core (ha!) of it is moving on. uh... moving forward! can't break the unbreakable* and all that <3

*the love siblings have for each other

so, new twin prides thought that’s more post-canon twin prides fic idea where we get a second conversation about the core transfer because wei wuxian spends some time having to come to terms with the thought that someone had to be completely erased from existence die for him to get this second chance at life and he really has to sit there and live with it because there is absolutely nothing any of them can do about it. he has done as mo xuanyu asked and that's it. the rest is up to him and something something having to bear the consequences of someone else's actions regardless of their intention.

anyway this part is all about wei wuxian having to make his peace with it, letting himself be grateful without dishonoring the sacrifice by feeling unworthy of it (which isn't really the first time it happens but it's something he didn't really get to process when the wens went to koi tower to try and save him and they asked nothing of him for it but it's not really the same anyway) and blah blah blah

but then! he will think of his brother and connect some dots and this time they won't have to talk about it in front of other people, the conversation won't be forced out of them because someone is pushing all their Trauma Buttons, they won't be on the floor bleeding.... they'll choose all of it! they'll be in lotus pier, bellies full, cups fuller and wei wuxian will drink a bit more and then turn to his brother. and it will be uncomfortable but he will power through it because he understands jiang cheng's words from the temple a little better now that he has looked at them under a different light.

he'll say he won't apologize for the choices he has made (jiang cheng will glare at him, but he is listening and fuck!!!! he is always listening if only wei wuxian would speak up!), that he can't regret doing the things he has done when it was to protect those he loves. but then he will grasp his brother's arm and say he is sorry for the weight his decision has put on jiang cheng's heart.

and jiang cheng will have done some thinking of his own, in a different way, and he won't burden his brother with the truth (because younger siblings are hypocrites of the highest order) and sure his was a split-second decision and wei wuxian's was a very thought-through plan but at this point he will have also read between the lines of what had been said at the temple and he has to believe that while duty had some part in it, ultimately all wei wuxian did he did out of love. he'll face up his worst fear and maybe he'll ask (was it really just duty? because i don't want that) or maybe he'll just let it go and let the fact that wei wuxian is here now, still able to translate jiang cheng's scowls and anger, speak for itself. because it means something. he knows it does.

jiang cheng will say, you were right, wei wuxian. the past is the past. what is done is done. there is no use in dwelling on what might have been. he won't say, you said you count it all as your past life and forget this is still the same life for me, because he has learned his lesson and knows that wei wuxian was giving him an out because he is a self-sacrificing asshole, so it's up to him to make it clear that the past is the past doesn't mean severing ties, letting everything go, it just means moving forwards. and they sure as hell can do that together.

they'll look at each other, with the frogs and the crickets and the water in the background (home), and they'll both think i'm sorry and they'll think thank you and they'll think i just wanted you safe, i still do very very loudly and they'll be on the same page.

because the point is........ the point is that jiang cheng didn't kill his brother but if he had wei wuxian would have loved him still. and wei wuxian didn't abandon his brother but if he had jiang cheng would have loved him still.

#anonymous #what i really had in mind was something more eloquent #but i suppose this is more on par with how my brain works lmao #untamed.txt #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #yunmeng shuangjie #fra.txt #fra.xml

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