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insert-creative-name-94 · 3 months

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Pearlina Week '24 Day 2- Exploring New Music

Can't wait for their Country album to drop!

#Splatoon #Splatoon 3 #Nintendo #Switch #Off The Hook #Pearl #Marina #Pearlina #PearlinaWeek #Pearlina Week #I've had this idea in my head for nearly 5 years and I'm glad I finally had a good excuse to make this pic a reality

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evandered · 4 months

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revolutionise the world....

#utanthy #rgu #revolutionary girl utena #my 2023 annual utanthy piece!!!! nearly did not make it this year whoopsie #but we did it. last minute but we did it #anyway this is also a redraw of my 2020 piece at some point maybe when i have 5?? i'll put them all side by side:)) i have improved... a lo #evandered #artists on tumblr #lesbians<3 #who else is doing it like them... no one absolutely no one #time to rewatch goodbye

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carefulfears · 7 months

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the scully of fight the future who doesn’t want a career in the bureau at all if she can’t do it with him. who debated even telling him that she’s quitting in person, and feels like her loss won’t even make a difference: he doesn’t need her, she only holds him back. the scully who doesn’t even make it to the elevator. the way that as soon as he starts speaking, she goes silent. she can’t even respond. this is not a debate. tears just pour down her face, as he tells her that she owes nothing. that she has made her favorite person, a “whole” person. that she has saved him “a thousand times over.” and she stays completely silent. all she can do is cry, and hold him, and kiss his forehead. how small she must feel sometimes…being dragged from one spot to the next, following along. the way her face just collapses as she moves from holding onto his shoulder to pull him down to her. he breaks her open sometimes.

#she believes in him so much and she thinks he can save the world even if she moves on. and he’s so frustrated he’s almost angry #as he just spits out at her that she’s the entire reason he’s here.#‘i owe you EVERYTHING. scully…and you owe me nothing.’#from the person she believed in so much she nearly lost her life to follow him!! whom she looked up to from her deathbed #and said take EVERYTHING i have left!!! my dignity my reputation my dying breaths take it ALL!!!#her ahab!!#and she owes nothing. she is everything. she matters.#and she’s been going back/forth with him every day for 5 years but she is rendered with nothing to say.#nothing to do but cry and hold him and hold him and hold him #make him bow his head to her so she can kiss it and try to absolve him. like he did her in that hospital hallway.#so much grief in being needed #it just says so much that the only time she ever considers leaving him is because she thinks SHE is bad for HIM.#and he tells her……i cannot do it without you. but i expect nothing from you anyway.#and being told she’s needed by her best friend reduces her to tears. no wonder.#txf.txt #ftf

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carnivalcarriondiscarded · 7 months

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the high prices of fucking Everything is so exhausting i stg

#i need to take an uber to the vet TEN MINUTES AWAY #i repeat IT IS A TEN MINUTE DRIVE #and its gonna cost me nearly 60 bucks. the FUCK #and who knows how much the checkup for my cats is gonna cost #let alone whatever prescription they need for the long drive #im so tired. im so so tired #its moments like these where i can see my future #ah yes. working 9-5 for a company that sees me as nothing more than a tool to be replaced when broken #just barely scraping by on minimum wage in a world where that isnt enough to pay for essentials #left with no time or energy to actually enjoy being alive or do the things i love #years and years of the same exact shit over and over and over again hating every second #and KNOWING it could be so much better but also knowing that it fucking Cant. sigh #sorry sorry im just. angry again at the absolute state of things #i would love to love life but my fucking god the world at large makes it tough #white-knuckling the little things once again #man its just. its so STUPID lmao #like why are we torturing ourselves like this? why are we just Accepting this #life could be so great but stupid shit like taxes and inflation and utilities exist #most of the shit we have to pay for should be free. it should be free.#it shouldnt be difficult to Live just because the majority of us don't have the fake fucking paper to buy things #its pointless its ridiculous and it makes me furious #why should i kill myself just to survive huh. why should i. why should any of us.#we all deserve to fuckin. idk enjoy sunsets and good food and art and each others' company.#instead everyone's stressing themselves to death over making rent and getting groceries and paying bills. fuck.#id love to be able to create art that Sells and open a shop or something #but also the thought of creating purposefully marketable art purely to make money fucking kills me inside #comms are one thing but... just... sighing sighing sighing. man idk #i just dont know. ill deal but everytime i manage to think positively reality comes in with a sledgehammer and now i want to go back to bed #the point is to live BUT YA CANT FUCKIN LIVE BC POINTLESS STUFF REIGNS SUPREME. WHO'S GONNA COMMIT ARSON W ME CMON LETS GO #this stupid fucking country and this stupid fucking government. i hate it here

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shima-draws · 7 months

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Also it really sucks bc I want to draw but I CAN’T bc I’m in a lot of pain rn. Sitting here like

#AUGHH. I’m still in physical therapy btw.#I was doing p good for a while until I sat in the car for a 5 hour round trip and that fucked my back up SO bad #So I relapsed. And my pain has been Bad for the past couple weeks #Not nearly as bad as it was at the beginning but my pain levels are back up #Which makes me so MAD bc I was at the point where I barelyyy felt it #SIGHS #Well. I’m getting dry needling done tomorrow and that should help #Not SUPER fond of the idea of needles getting poked into my back but at this point I’ll do anything #My therapist says everyone who’s done it under his care has felt a lot better afterwards #And I trust his judgement so.#I’ll be poked and prodded at tomorrow morning lol #I just want this to be over. It started in May. It’s October now #It’s been what. Five months?? FIVE????#It’s almost been half a year since this started oh my fucking god. Killing myself #Shima speaks

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weremustelidae · 3 months

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desperately need someone to make an animatic of the hermits taking turns launching each other into orbit with fishing rods

#roo makes a post #hermitcraft #hermitcraft season 10 #this doesn't need a spoiler tag does it? its just sillygoofy. i've been out of the hc fandom for nearly 5 years so idk the ettiquite

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rainbowharadise · 1 year

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HARRY’S HOUSE WINS ALBUM OF THE YEAR!!!

#harry styles #harry styles gif #harry styles edit #harry styles grammys #harrys house #album of the year #hrammys #favest curly wurly on the planet #i don’t even know how i made this because I am still shaking and crying and it’s nearly 5:20am 😭#i am so unbelievably proud of you #like my levels of proud are in another galaxy right now #his favourite album and the one he’d always wanted to make just won album of the year and best vocal pop album ajhdkdjfkdkkfkg #grammys 2023 #harry 2023 #hugs galore #my gifs

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famewolf · 30 days

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im punching and punching and punching my anxiety today

#[static]#man i need a new job but im gonna try my best to stick it out for the next year and a half so that im 'vested' -#- or whatever its called for my little tiny 401k money lmao #im starting to get anxiety about work on my days off more than usual #they just changed it from 5 years to 6 years fjgkdlghd #and im nearly at 5 years #also i think im gonna try and stick it out with the full time up until October and i'm going back to 4 days a week for my sanity #and also theyve been cracking down on ppl missing work and the winter time i have to call out a couple times a month for snow #they used to be understanding about it but it sounds like they arent anymore :)#in one breath they'll be like 'yeah it's no worries we work at a grocery store who cares! we're stacking cans this isn't life or death'#but the moment you gotta leave early due to snow so you can actually make it home in one piece they get butthurt lmao #mind you I have put my car in a ditch BECAUSE of work doing this to me and i ended up missing a week + covering repairs because of it #like ... would you rather i go home 2 hours early or miss 4-6 days of work and be in debt :)#and the answer is the 2nd one for them lmao i fucking hate them

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alannah-corvaine · 2 years

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ᴛʜʀᴏᴜɢʜ ᴛʜᴇ ʏᴇᴀʀꜱ; brina x jacke

ᴄʜɪʟᴅʜᴏᴏᴅ ꜰʀɪᴇɴᴅꜱ → ᴀ ᴍᴇꜱꜱ™ → ʟᴏᴠᴇʀꜱ

#ffxiv #brina cross #jacke swallow #midlander #i got really emotional making this bc i love them so much #and they have so much history #they've been apart for nearly 5 years they deserve to be happy 😭

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aria0fgold · 2 months

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While typing up the previous post I just realized a common trait shared across all my favourites and that... their self-preservation is Broken, they're self-sacrificial, they all think it'd be better to endanger themselves for the sake of the people they care about. Head in hands... I set myself up for Pain when all my faves are running head first into death's door.

#aria rants #I need to put all of em in a golden cage just to keep em from dying #cain is an Extreme one that i have tho. he is so self-sacrificial he's practically suicidal #AND he makes it a point to remind everyone in the vicinity that he's ready to die for the ppl he cares bout #like my guy. Sit Down. and let me put this rope around you cuz GOD. can you stay put for 5 mins #without opening your mouth and telling anyone around you that youre practically prepared for death #hes 22 surrounded by a lot of century old wizards and yet hes the one preparing for death CMON NOW #hes not making 100 at this point and arthur is Not Helping by turning a blind eye to all that #hes so insane actually. cain is so insane whats his problem bro. without owen around to keep him in check #i feel like cain wouldve died alrdy like bro. owens eyeball saved his life that one time #he CHARGED into battle and nearly DIED if not for owens eye PROTECTING HIM #theres so many things wrong with cain in his 22 years of living i need to study him actually

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volfoss · 6 months

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as a guy that loves getting into obscure media that like. maybe 5 people talk about now. it is interesting the difference between consuming media that is SUPER popular and everyone loves your fave (a curse i would never wish upon anyone. the posts will never be good) and a media that like. there is NO ONE actively posting about. it has barely any fan presence online. and honestly its kind of peaceful

#twist rambles #like. being into the wit/cher books and games and show (the good one. the hexer) was a hellish experience. there was such isnane shipping o #that old man everywhere. there were 5 million bad takes. there were ibs whump fics (which is a plus. more of those should exist).#and it was just like. 50 million incorrect characterizations of my faves. it made me a bit insane. but then irt vol/foss and gan/gsta #its like. peaceful silence. like gan/gsta actually well. has like a minor audience i just have a lot of the tag blocked bc racism is insane #esp when ur like wow ^-^ would love if this complexly written black character was treated half as nicely as the popular guy in that media.#it does not happen. but w vol/foss. there is NOTHING on ao3 (good for me due to loving to torture myself and friends w bad fanfic) and mayb #five posters in the tumblr tag. like NO ONE is really actively playing this that ik of. even on the jp side there hasnt been a ton of #interest for A DECADE. but its weirdly peaceful other than i CANNOT talk to anyone whos played it and go insane over how well its written #its so dire that ive contemplated emailing the person who made a rly helpful fansite back in. 2004 or earlier. and being like hi. thank you #nearly 20 years later lmao. like im glad both of those medias arent super popular BUT it does mean i rly have to make all the content for i #or pester chris for 5 million hours as im in the vol/foss agony mines. but all of that to be said. popular media is such a hellhole for fan #content most of the time. so its been weirdly nice to just be peacefully vibing. even w f/e im still on shadow dragon so its VERY like ok i #care abt this old man that everyone else doesnt like so i can just. peacefully exist.

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cuteniaarts · 29 days

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Behold, my latest and most enamouring new obsession:

Malina, Lady of the Chief of the Northern Water Tribe. As if Red Lotus child OCs weren’t niche enough

#my art #artists on tumblr #the legend of korra #lok malina #still feel like that’s too vague of a tag but I can’t come up with anything better for now #and yeah. she has completely stolen by heart and I don’t know how to feel about that #don’t think I ever was this attracted to my own art before #to be fair the design isn’t mine. it’s very heavily based on something nina drew back in 2021 #because I did not have the energy or creativity to come up with my own thing #but the art is all mine and I genuinely adore it. super proud of myself which is a rare occurrence #anyways. kat and I spent three days digging this niche lower and lower and now have a he #*hell of a lot of lore about this basically nonexistent character #for lore about a lady from the North Pole a lot of it is rather hot… to the point my cheeks are burning non stop #I would say I’d let her do anything she wants to me but in my very specific aroace-adjacent case it’s more like #I’d let her tell me to do anything she wants to her #if that makes any sense and I have not completely lost my goddamn mind yet #okay. enough yapping. back to the art itself #lazy background because I suck at those and am not currently attempting to learn them. I’ll probably do that over the summer #about time anyway. my characters have been placed against an off-white background for far. far too long #this is the first piece in just over a year that isn’t tagged with sotrl. which is kinda weird tbh #I’ve been drawing my OCs almost exclusively for nearly 5 years so it is genuinely surprise I’m branching out #*surprising #less branching out and more diving from one hole into another but y’know #anyway. in my personal and very correct opinion she turned out absolutely gorgeous #her servants are way too lucky and unalaq is way too much of an idiot. no offence to vaatu but he could never beat out this #and I also have Kat’s personal and very correct opinion to back up my own. two against the void. once again we’re winning #I wanna draw her a lot more bc she has completely possessed my brain. I just wish character interactions were easier to draw 😭#I’ll figure it out. just need to fight my visualisation issues for a proper idea. brb #okay I’m almost at the tag limit so. in summary:#she 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵

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this-doesnt-endd · 25 days

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I dont need these things but i wanna get those like finger pulse oxygen readers and the like blood pressure wrist cuffs. I dont need them i go to dr appts all the time and ive never had issues but like all of a sudden i feel like i really need them and i need to know these stats daily

#we technically have a blood pressure cuff my mom wanted one and then we kept it around before we knew i had sezuires cause we #were worried cause id just have episodes and nearly black out so my dad had me check it a lot #but its the arm one and i dont know how to use it #also ive been like worried a lot lately abt getting seziures which idk why cause theyve been very controlled for like year n half 2yrs now #so theres no reason i should be concerned but i am and i think taking my vitals everyday would make me feel much better #cause like nevermind the fact i havent had a deep breath in like 5 years and im constantly lifting like many many pounds of stuff #all at once all day long and like getting a workout essentially my slightly elevated heart rate means im just gonna like #drop to the floor n black out or like explode or something like theres no reason i need to be taking my pulse like 10 times a day #but it makes me feel better and i will give into that #much like spraying my house with lysol constantly or having to do my door lock routine like 3 times a night it makes me feel better #and i will totally give into that #like thats relatively normal i feel like #i wore a watch for like 2 months straight cause in my mind that was the only thing preventing nuclear war and like i dont wear watches #like that but alas i had to cause im built different (incorrectly) and it was my job to prevent nuclear war #wow im so normal about everything

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heyitsphoenixx · 1 month

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#personal vent incoming to just get off my chest don't be weird about it #i've known since i was a kid that my dad was overtly abusive but #just in the last 3-5 months i've learned my mom was and currently is almost just as abusive #but she's just covert about it instead #all of my adolescence was about surviving my dad who was so obviously a monster that he was almost easier to deal w in a way by comparison #this is. what an utter mind fuck #there's also like. no member of my family that i can turn to for help #bc they're either just as bad or my mother has ruined any relationship i might have w them over time #and i also fear being a burden #so i'm making a plan to get out but god it's overwhelming thinking about doing it all alone #and the thought that it might take years to actually get out or get healthy #she's kept me isolated from any support for so long #and im afraid any family that could possibly help wouldn't fully understand or they would be just as bad as her #and it feels impossible to progress at all bc im living w her and literally filed as her dependent on taxes #like ik this is gonna be the hardest thing to escape in my life and i've already escaped a lot #but this time i have to largely on my own #is v scary #and she's conditioned me to believe that i can't make any right decisions on my own without her #and that anything i do is always 'backwards'#makes it that much harder to make a clear plan #her work schedule is so inconsistent that it makes getting therapy online (since i don't have a license or car yet) nearly impossible #to do it without her or my brother listening #that i've just felt trapped for years #but. i can Tell i'm getting better now and rapidly. more than i've been for a v long time #so the process is just beginning and i think even she can tell #which is also dangerous #but ik i can do this its just the amount of time and effort and organizing behind her back and doing it alone thats v overwhelming #but anyway #we stay silly

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fazcinatingblog · 1 month

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Sophia said the budget for the week is $38k (most ridiculous target she's ever come up with) and I did that and she didn't mention if she was pleased with it or will she just continue giving me ridiculous targets every week like $40k then $50k then $103k and then if ever I don't meet her dumbass target, I get fired that's it, it's that easy

#i don't know how we got to $38k this week like each job is like between $100 and $2000 #but we did #we got there #she'll make up more stupid expenses next week #she'll be like 'I've got land tax and wages and oh i bought another house and we need $400k of invoices to cover it'#be like 'can't afford the wages this week we need a billion dollars worth of invoices to go out'#goddddd i hate her #also as far as i know I'm the only idiot on earth who's worked the longest under Sophia #nearly five years!!!!!!#Jesus #it's too long #but also i don't know like she ran her own accounting practice out of her own home before taking over from mort #like I'm pretty sure she had people working for her and I'm pretty sure I've seen a list of them #i have a list of her clients from that time and underneath it says employees/homestay #i think #i think there's phone numbers too #i mean #i clearly need to do some research #find out if any of those worked for sophia for over 5 years #what are their stories #they would've worked at her house and maybe even lived there if the homestay thing is true #i need to know what it was like #at what point did she turn evil #was she always evil #was she ever normal?#what do her kids think of her #do they know she runs an accounting firm #were they ever inspired to do accounting #what was she like as an employee #did she eat 6 cheese biscuits for lunch every day

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iampikachuhearmeroar · 11 months

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i fucking LOATHE the move to subscription models times a gazllion. like bro. why the fuck are you making subscription services out of a JOB PLATFORM???!!!

#life #about me #shut up ilona #ilona's job hunting thoughts and woes lol #*cant #this is from a hipster uni job platform that i started using in uni to get ideas of non-profit jobs #they've done a big overhaul in the last few months that led to this #it was free for like 5 years and now they want to you pay nearly $300 a year....#......to get more than the 25 jobs i was recommended last night for a squiz.#ok admittedly i know linkedin premium is much more expensive than this (ie its like $AU50 a month here in aus i think)#but STILL. fuck subscription services making their way to jobhunting #and esp when uni students can afford $20 a month to view jobs that they could probs find on seek....#....or ljke ethicaljobs or whatever #not some dumbass subscription website that uses millennial slang.....#....and does ~quirky~ 'what career swapper/zig-zagger are YOU? quizzes

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