list of reasons our system of canines are all nonhuman and the list excludes "symbolic of being treated as subhuman"

CW: some vague statements about trauma. list is not written in a specific order and statements were given by all system members, not only trauma holders.

if everyone loves (animal) and i am (animal) then everyone will love me

i am a (working animal) and my role in our system heavily focuses on labour in some way

(animal) is more loving and caring than humans have ever been to me, and i am not unloving or uncaring so i must be (animal) because i cannot be them

this would never happen to (animal,) and i am (animal,) so it isnt happening to me

(animal) is more powerful than a human and i need this animalistic power to protect and defend myself

(animal) is free. and i need freedom

(animal's) body is built to cope with this, so if i am (an animal,) my body is built for it too and i will survive

everyone gets along with (animal) so if i am (animal) i will fit in

i am equally as helpless to human (abuse) as ([domestic] animal) so i must be (animal)

if (animal) doesnt have this responsibility and i am (animal) that means i dont have that responsibility either

its fun and exciting to be (animal)

actually its really funny being a system of all dogs because our fictives/introjects who are human originally get translated into Dog Version and then it's usually a much later discovery that we're a fictive

i never considered how different fiction-based identities operate. i can just go on youtube and find edits, songs, animations, all dedicated to me.... its nice, to feel so loved, but it also hurts that maybe nobody understands the Real You, You, as a Person, not just as a work of fiction

current babydog lore

green arrow is a direct split/splitting apart blue lines is a self-split of some kind red circle is a subsystem

BBD1 is the original owner of @strawberrybabydog - the original babydog, a black german shepherd cadaver-finding dog, who in november 2022 was split apart because of a new trauma

BBD2 is the current owner of @strawberrybabydog and the most direct split of the original. it's a wolfdog-siberianhusky mix and it is a cart-pulling dog

TD is a different type of direct split from BBD1. you can probably tell what they embody by the style they were drawn in.

BSG is a somewhat-direct split of BBD1. BSG is a shapeshifter usually seen as a sea angel or an animal carved out of soap. BSG is in a subsystem with BBD2 and SG

SG is not related to BBD1, but is in a subsystem with BBD2 and BSG. SG is a neoselachii shapeshifter, typically a mobula ray. SG's blog is @seagrapejellie

TF is not related to BBD1. TF is some type of self-split of BBD2, we're unsure the circumstances which this happened under

do u ever look at the number of system members u live with and ur just like. how did my brain even become that many people....?

is being in a system of all/mostly nonhumans actually that rare? every time i try to search for anything related to animal alters, a lot of what comes up is other systems asking how animal alters are even "possible" (never doubtfully, theyre all just curious)

how many people are in ur system?

around 40 are known

pluralpedia didnt prepare me for the swiftie alter

imo one of the most devastating parts of memory loss is losing your concept of time

in my experience, the entire day (24 hours) lasts about 1-2 hours. this means every day, i only have 1-2 hours to do everything i need to do (all chores, hygiene, reply to ppl, anything for work, etc) while running on extremely limited energy

does 1-2 hours sound like enough time to actually take care of my house/self? no, it isnt. tasks take me longer than a normal person too.

so... where is the time for me? where is the time for me to do my hobbies and relax?

so every day i wake up and i say. okay, i have 2 hours. what am i going to do with my 2 hours? i have at least 10 different things i want to do that all take up 2 hours. but i can only do 1 or 2 of those things. which is most important? which do i want to do most? (a question made complicated by a new system of 40+)

and then i spend 2 hours laying in bed, doing nothing, deciding what i want to do. by this time, i am too exhausted to even keep my eyes open. and then i go to sleep, and do it all (nothing) again tomorrow

coping as a system is like. okay maybe i personally do deserve to have a giant pile of unwashed laundry because i dont deserve good things, but the NEXT guy that gets here is actually cool and DOESNT deserve a giant laundry pile so whatever i guess i'll do it for them

i am once again asking for. assistance

TLDR one of our Guys has been lashing out at our abuser frequently and more aggressively more often. when it first started happening we would apologize for it and everyone but the person who did it would feel bad. but over time.... we kind of get it. and feel pretty neutral about it. and none of us are motivated to apologize (all for our own reasons - some of us understand the trauma now, some of us kinda agree with the aggression, some of us just dont care strongly enough to do something even if not apologizing and doing this in general feels really out of character, etc) ... i guess we all just kind of agree abuser doesnt deserve our kindness anymore after everything hes done/keeps repeating

but probably from an outside perspective this is terrible and seems like im just passing my trauma onto someone else, which is understandable. and thats the dilemma - i dont feel bad, but other people definitely think this is bad, and thats why i SHOULD try to take accountability and stop whats going on, but.... does other people thinking im a bad person outweigh what my abuser has actually done to me? :0/ if we keep shutting up and being quiet, nothing is going to change, were just going to keep getting trauma

i wish i wanted to apologize because i cared about him and feel bad, i wish i really wanted to stop because aggression just isnt Right, but.... i get it now, i dont really have an opinion, i dont really care. its hard to tell if that's a true opinion we're all holding or just This Brain Guy's anger/trauma poisoning all of us

i want to do system accountability and its easy for everything else... but we're stuck in this. i dont really know where to go from here. advice is welcome lol

-babydog(? maybe?)

how do you find a therapist as a system? not for DID, for anything, just finding a therapist who will recognize you as individuals?

weve been hitting them with the HIGHLY unprofessional "whats your opinion about DID systems?" and i just feel like theres a better way to do it....?

still floating in my happiness from yesterday's trip ☺️ learned some new things about the sys + our fiction identity

we're making a simply plural account... i know its going to be so useful once im finished but holy hell this is going to take all day

Hi! Regarding your reblogged personal post on abuse and system accountability, we wanted to reach out to say that we personally don’t see anything wrong with being cold, dismissive, or even lashing out at your abuser. While it might make you seem like an asshole to those who don’t know about what you went through, that doesn’t change the fact that you were abused. No victim should ever be forced or expected to treat their abuser with kindness and respect, especially if their abuser still behaves poorly or hasn’t taken ownership of their past actions.

You don’t owe your abuser an apology. You don’t owe him feelings of remorse, either. Outsiders aren’t aware of the full story, and that may lead them to the wrong conclusions, but that is in no way your fault.

So sorry if this ask is invasive or unwanted. We just want to let you know that we’re in your corner, we understand what you’re feeling, and we’re wishing you peace, respite, and comfort! Hopefully better system accountability will come with time and practice, but in this particular instance, we don’t think any member of your system has behaved rashly or in a way that’s unjustified!

thank u i really needed to hear this. i feel like in general you might be right but yeah its complicated . more abt it below sorta if any1 is interested

our abuser does recognize what he does to us to some extent? but doesnt stop and keeps... trying??

we had more level-headed protectors near the beginning but This One Fella's anger just grows and grows with every betrayal. it is also (primarily) a prosecutor though and another problem with it, is it turns it's anger onto us as well during these times. i, myself, do not remember the specifics of what it says to our abuser, but our abuser describes her as having no limits and suddenly cutting deep. i do know that whatever she says can be very personal, and she is very mean-spirited. this is mostly the behavior we're unproud of - not just lashing out in anger, but throwing personal specific insults or using sensitive personal information against abuser. it's justified i guess, but still doesnt fully feel right. it feels relieving, but it's still Bad Coping

now that im typing this... maybe our hosts just need to become more comfortable sitting in anger in general. i feel like im describing a feeling of, all of my anger is unjustified and i should just Not Be Angry, and maybe thats just not fair to us? i dont know. it still doesnt feel right to use personal attacks, even if it feels good

it is a complicated situation and idk if there is a correct answer or not. im trying to figure it out. i know my words could never do even close to the damage he has done to me but hhhhh Hurt People Is Bad !!!!!! it is not good it sux !!!

hi um. how do u choose how to spend your time as a system?

we have no control over switches and rapid switch (few minutes to 2 hours at most) & also have constant passive-influence so deciding what to do with free time can cause. issues

-babydog