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sorry about your anxiety being bad. mine has been pretty bad lately myself I am soo happy you started watching bnha. :) have some AUs for the headcannon meme - Quirkless & badass Izuku - genderswap au - soulmate au

Anonymous asked:

if you're still doing aus, bnha soulmate au? how does having a soulmate interact with quirks?

Again, sorry, my brain is kind of offline, here’s some short stuff for this headcanon meme, which, again, is closed.

EDIT: Actually fuck, this is as long as any of the others, I’m super not sorry, stay tuned for Tododeku content.

Only people with quirks have soulmates. They’re not sure why it works this way, but it does. It always has. So Izuku...doesn’t have one. He tries not to think about it too much, but it’s hard, sometimes, when Kacchan calls him quirkless and worthless and unloveable. Maybe he doesn’t have a partner at all. Even worse, maybe he does, and they’ll never, ever know him when they meet. When he lets himself think about that, about some kid living their whole life hoping to meet their soulmate and never finding him, Izuku feels so guilty he can’t breathe.

Shouto is born with half his mother’s hair and half his father’s hair and twice either of their power, and without a soulmark to be seen. It comes in when he’s just a few months old, and he cherishes it in the way that lonely children cherish imaginary friends, desperate and jealously possessive. He presses his hand to it, traces the jumping, coiling lines around his eye when he’s hiding in his room after training, wonders what his soulmate will be like, if they’ll love him, if they’ll even like him, if they’ll be afraid of him. His mother, scared Rei too shaken and trapped to think of running, doesn’t mean to take it from him--but she does, with boiling water and a moment of blind fear and rage. It hurts too much to touch for a long time after that, while the bandages are still on, and when the bandages are gone...there’s barely any sign through the scar tissue that the corona of black lines were ever even there.

“Sorry,” Shouto whispers to the mirror, touching the warped red skin lightly. He can barely feel the pressure--the doctors said he might never get feeling back in that skin. Too damaged.

Shouto turns away from the mirror and imagines putting his unknown soulmate into a box, and leaving them to gather dust in some forgotten corner of his mind, and he stops wondering about them. They’d never even know him if they saw him. Everything else isn’t worth considering.

Izuku doesn’t see his soulmark until he gets home after the entrance exam. He knows he has one now--he saw All Might’s gaze pause on his face, and Kacchan stared for a full minute before he ripped his gaze away--but he expected it to be smaller, easier to miss. Instead, when he slips inside before his mother gets home, he’s brought up short by the mirror in the hall. It’s...beautiful, a twining knot of inky lines framing his left eye in a large, trailing crescent moon shape, curving above his eyebrow and just curling under the corner of his eye. Izuku touches it with shaking fingers. He failed the exam miserably, but this--this is so uncomplicatedly good. It also presents a rather immediate problem, vis a vis keeping things a secret from his mother. Fortunately, it seems that All Might foresaw this problem (it is kind of written all over Izuku’s face, in fairness), and sends Izuku a text telling him that he’d better catch Inko up. She’s looped in early, in this universe, by pure necessity.

On the first day of school, Shouto does an absent mental tally of his new classmates, whose powers are interesting and whose are nothing novel. Then he sees has a very quiet, straight-faced heart attack when he sees Midoriya, the boy who got in on nothing but rescue points. This part--he didn’t think about this part. Midoriya’s eyes track right over him, doing the usual curious glance at his hair and his face but no sign of recognition flaring in his gaze, just like Shouto has always known this meeting would go. But Shouto didn’t think about what it would be like to see his soulmate for the first time, hasn’t allowed himself to consider it in years--it never occurred to him that seeing his long-lost mark on someone else’s face would be like being hit with boiling water all over again, the shock of it so intense that it makes his heart hurt and his head spin. He wants to run over to the boy--All Might’s protege, no less, his father would kill him--and shout “it’s me, I’m right here, I’m right here and I never expected to see you but I’m RIGHT HERE.”

Shouto does not do that. Instead he waits, and watches, and on the day of the Sports Festival, angry and determined to prove his father wrong, he issues a calm and immoveable declaration of war, and just as flatly explains to Midoriya why, exactly, he’s been caught up in this. It’s not Midoriya’s fault. He deserves to know why he’s been caught in the crossfire of Shouto’s unending fight with his father. Shouto does not tell Midoriya about what the burn on his face took from him. It would be underhanded, to use that now, and unproductive--Midoriya feels things too deeply, he would never be able to face Shouto in a fight if he knew, and Shouto has to beat him.

Endeavor gets snarled down by a short teenager with green lightning in his eyes and clenched fists and a tangled knot of black lines framing his left eye, and barely looks at Izuku’s face the whole time. Offhand, halfway through his speech to Izuku, Endeavor says, “It’s a good thing his mark was burned away. He’d never be any use at all if he was busy pining.” Izuku stares.

After the fight--after everything--Izuku finds Todoroki outside UA the next morning. Early. Todoroki is always, religiously, early, even today when they’re having a half-day debrief session with their teachers rather than a full class day, and everyone knows it. It’s not hard for Izuku to find him.

“Hey,” Izuku says breathlessly while Todoroki looks mildly alarmed at him, and--God, Izuku can’t tell if he’s imagining the way Todoroki’s mismatched eyes catch on his mark. There’s a moment of silence before Todoroki shifts away from him, turning away a little with a faintly self-conscious motion, and Izuku realizes he’s been staring at the scar like he could see through the old wound to the skin that used to be there.

“Hello,” Todoroki says stiffly. “I’m glad to see your arms--”

“Where’s your soulmark?” Izuku interrupts, because he’s pretty sure that if he doesn’t blurt it out right now he’s going to have a sudden failure of courage and never speak to Todoroki again. It’s one thing to ask someone directly about their soulmark if it’s not visible, a little odd but not unforgivable, but god it’s a whole other thing to ask the prettiest person Izuku has literally ever met such an uncomfortably personal question after Todoroki’s already told him probably way more than he would have otherwise.

Whatever Todoroki was expecting, it wasn’t that. He hides the surprise pretty well, but his eyes flare wide and one hand, automatically, twitches up to brush over his scar, the barest touch before it goes back down to his side.

“I--Endeavor said it was burned away,” Izuku says, deciding that now that he’s started, he may as well fuck this up properly. “And I started thinking, like, I didn’t ever think I’d find my soulmate because of--some stuff, and I figured that maybe you thought the same thing, if the scar is hiding your mark, but obviously I don’t know what your soulmark looks like because I didn’t know you before you got that, so--so--so...” Normally Izuku can ramble for...ever, probably, but Todoroki’s wide eyes make his voice trail off like he’s run out of air. He feels like it, a little, breathless and dizzy.

Todoroki opens his mouth to say something, and then closes it without a word, looking shocked and a little dazed. His hand goes back to his scar, absently, and he takes a deep breath before he opens his mouth again. “I--I wasn’t expecting to ever meet them,” he finally says. “You. I mean.”

Izuku smiles, suddenly not feeling breathless at all. His chest feels full and light and sparkling, like he could float away at any moment, and he says, “Well, um. Here I am.”

#bnha #my hero academia #todoroki shouto #izuku midoriya #tododeku #soulmate au #ask meme #headcanon meme #starlight writes stuff #i did wax a little fic-like at the end there #sorry #not...that sorry #also LISTEN i always have so many soulmate memes in my inbox: READ THE NIGHT WORLD BOOKS #THEY ARE THE TROPEY GOODNESS THAT WILL SATISFY YOUR HEART #but anyway i like any soulmate au with these two that goes 'and then todoroki suffers'#let's be real here i like anything where shouto suffers because he's my favorite and i'm mean like that #ALSO #CONCEPTS I LIKE #SHOUTO BEING UNAWARE OF HOW PRETTY HE IS (i'm actually a desperate sucker for this trope all the time always)#IZUKU BEING READY TO THROW DOWN WITH ENDEAVOR 25/7 #AND SHOUTO'S VISION BEING IMPAIRED ON HIS INJURED SIDE SO IZUKU USUALLY FIGHTS TO HIS LEFT #SO THAT HE CAN GUARD SHOUTO'S BLIND SPOT #i actually also like this concept for zuko but we're not talking about that right now #anyway this was a good time i hope you enjoyed it #queue deeper than the sea of stars #readera #asked and answered

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