first time i met raphael i immediately told him i was going to sign my soul away and he was like :/ umm i don't like the desperate ones

under read more bc i put too much effort into my ocs and there is A Lot. tw for violent stuff

this will be updated every time i think of something for him!

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Rollick

“The Ravenous” ? idk I suck at titles

no accessories

Size reference

why does he have anime hair if hes a fish? because he’s my oc and i say so

I MADE ICONS FOR THE LOCATIONS AND CLASS AND OTHER CHAMPIONS’ ABILITIES AND TUMBLR WONT’T LET ME ADD THEM WITHOUT FUCKING THE WHOLE POST UP

Short crappy bio

A young shark-like Vastaya. Born in Ionia, west of the island Sudaro. He was captured as a child by  Bilgewater pirates after straying too close to the surface and being found. Was then put to work on the Slaughter Docks, and trained to hunt in the traditional Serpent Isles manner: “launching themselves at their targets to secure tow-hooks with their bare hands, and beginning to butcher the creatures while they yet lived.”.

I need to update myself on League lore, but I would like him 2 be acquaintances with Nami and Fizz. Also, Rollick would have heard stories about Pyke and would find him really cool. Ideally, he would have Johnny Yong Bosch as his voice actor because I love how he voiced Kung Jin in Mortal Kombat X, but I don’t know how he’d do with a pirate accent lmao.

Kit

Would be classed as a Fighter with the sub-class Diver. At least I think he would.  

His kit is basically just a mash-up of multiple champions with extra ingredients. Riot do it themselves, so I'm allowed to, too. Pirate lingo used for most of his abilities and voice lines b/c I'm not creative for naming things.

 Passive "Blow the Man Down." : A mash-up of Rengar and Darius' but more complicated. Auto-attacking 3 times in a row, or using abilities, gives his unused abilities 3 different tiers of empowerment. (Like, if you auto-attack 3 times, use W, then Q, his E will have tier 3 empowerment.). Tiers 2 and 3 gives the target bleed when hit by abilities, applying "Blood in the Water."  Applying the bleed multiple times makes it stack, tier 2 stacks like two stacks of tier 1 bleed, tier 3 stacks like two stacks of tier 2 bleed. How many times can it stack? Idk. 5? 7? 10?? ok probably not 10 that would be stupid.

2nd passive "Clipper." : Rollick moves faster in the river; this move speed scales with his normal move speed.

Q "Feed the Fish." : Tier 1 is a swipe in an AOE cone with his claws. Tier 2 is a small lunge in a targeted direction with two swipes, one with each hand. Tier 3 is a longer distance lunge with a bite. If tier 3 lands on a moving target (examples: scuttlecrab when it dashes, Ezreal using his E), it will follow the target like Warwick Q/Evelynn E. The bite will also heal him for a small amount.

W "Hook, Line, Sinker." : is like Rengar's Bola Strike with a wider but shorter range for tiers 1 and 2, but he leaps in the targeted direction at tier 3 and if he hits something, covers it with his net and stays on top of them for a short amount of time. Tier 2 spins the target around from they way Rollick throws his net and will turn the opposite direction of the way the target was originally standing. If you're facing Rollick and the tier 2 net hits you, your back is now turned to Rollick.

E "Chase." : Warwick Blood Hunt but either less or more annoying. Cooldown is shorter in duration, but so is its active. The passive part of it only shows paths to champions affected with a bleed, burn or poison DOT effect. (Includes: Rollick's "Blood in the Water", Darius'  "Hemorrhage", Brand's  "Blaze", Gangplank's  "Trial by Fire", Lillia's  "Dream Dust", Cassiopeia's  "Noxious Poison" and  "Debilitating Poison", Twitch's "Deadly Venom", Teemo's  "Toxic Shot" and  "Noxious Trap", Singed's  "Poison Trail", the  "Scorch" rune,  "Ignite" summoner spell,  "Challenging Smite" summoner spell, "Azakana Gaze" from  Demonic Embrace, and "Torment" from  Liandry's Anguish.

R "Cleave 'Em to the Brisket!" : Similar to Skarner's "Impale". Rollick takes the hooked blade he has on his belt and lunges at the target, stabbing into the enemy champion's chest with his chest to their back, and drags them away. "Cleave 'Em to the Brisket!" can only be used on a champion that has their back turned towards Rollick. It applies a tier 3 "Blood in the Water." upon use. It can yank champions out of  Displacement Immunity, but doesn't suppress the target champion entirely, they are still able to use dash and blink abilities, use Thresh's  "Dark Passage", recast  "Death Sentence" , and use most movement summoner spells ( Flash, Hexflash, Mark/Dash), but if they do, half of their current HP is taken away from the hooked knife being dragged/yanked out of them. If you are 30% HP and you use one of the movement abilities mentioned, you will leave with 15% HP and two stacks of tier 3 bleed. For 5 seconds after using his ult, Rollick uses his knife to attack, gaining increased auto-attack range and his autos apply a tier 1 bleed stack per hit. The enhanced auto-attacks drag his targets towards him because of the hook part in his knife getting caught on them.

Animation ideas

(I used google to find every gif/picture, save for the “dance” one. they have tumblr links bc when writing this tumblr shit itself when i wanted to save it as a draft and i kept it open in a different tab and copy/pasted everything. im sorry some of the gifs are weird aslkfjdjf)

Walking animation is him using his arms and tail to "crawl". imagine the gif has a tail instead of legs

Running animation is the same concept, just with much more effort put into making himself move faster. Moving in the river looks more like he’s swimming rather than crawling. Slowed animation is him dragging himself slowly with his head facing the ground, putting weight on his elbows instead of using his arms completely. Like an army crawl but in pain.

Idle animation is him crossing his arms and resting on his elbows, then looking around and inspecting his claws.

If left in idle animation for more than 15 seconds, he drops down completely and puts his head in his arms and dozes off. Moving after the sleep idle will have him shake his head awake when starting to move.

Death animation is him trying to crawl, being unable to, then collapsing on his side and flopping onto his back.

Taunt animation is him straightening himself then lashing out with his hands and baring his teeth before "biting" the air in the direction he’s standing, voice lines coming out before the bite part.

Joke animation is him chasing his own tail? Maybe he gets tangled in his net after doing it for a second and just struggles there until the animation is interrupted.

Dance is uh. He straightens up and does knife tricks. He doesn’t have legs, doesn’t have a staff like Nami, and just wouldn’t dance like Cassiopeia.

I made the gif using footage from here.

His laugh animation would be him laughing and flopping onto his back, then turning back onto his stomach. All but one of his laughs would be loud and hearty, the one that isn’t would sound like Kung Jin’s laugh.

Voice line ideas

First encounters:

Bilgewater/Bilgewater themed champion:

"Ahoy!" "Ahoy, bucko!" "Ahoy, scallywag."

Multiple champions simultaneously/champions who have a visible partner/partners with them (examples: Kindred, Sejuani, Lulu with Pix, Elise with her Spiderlings, Azir with his Sand Soldiers):

"Ahoy, me hearties."

Pyke:

"Pyke?! I’ve heard stories of you! Though… You’re smaller than I had imagined..." "Hey there, old salt! " "Ahoy, seadog! "

Nami:

"Good to see a friendly face! Shame it’s on the wrong side." "Oh! Little lass! Have you found your stone yet? "

Fizz:

"Little trickster! Where’s your big friend? "

Illaoi:

“Test? Gonna get myself an A-plus-plus! …That’s the good grade, right?

Taunts:

Any champion:

"Scurvy dog! " "AAARRRRGGGGHHHH! "

Bird/bird themed/winged champion:

"Polly want a cracker? "

Tahm Kench:

“The only creature with an appetite bigger than mine” “You put me to shame with that maw of yours! You could fit me in it!”

Abilities/eliminations:

Tier 3 "Feed the Fish.":

(after used on champion wearing armour/with tough skin)

"Ouch… I think I broke a tooth. Good thing I got more. "

(after used on champion with fur/feathers/long hair)

" (violent spitting-out-fluff noises) Blegh! "

Tier 1 and 2 "Hook, Line, Sinker. ":

"Catch! " "Avast, ye! "

Tier 2 "Hook, Line, Sinker. " after turning someone around:

"Bring a spring upon ‘er! " "Broadside! "

Using "Chase. " with a DOT’d champion in range:

"Chum in the water…" " (deep inhale, then a rumbling growl) "

Using "Chase. " with affected champion visible:

"Lookin’ a bit squiffy there…" " (laughter) Yesss… "

Eliminate champion:

"Take a caulk. "

Eliminate champion while using "Cleave ‘Em to the Brisket!" or the enhanced auto-attacks after:

"Hah, keelhauled! " “Taste me steel n’ may the devil take ye!”

“PENTAKILL!”:

"Dead men tell no tales…"

Respawn:

"What a flogging…" "Alright, I’ve fed the fish… Now it’s their turn. "

Pings:

(Danger!):

"Heave to! " "Avast ye! "

(Assist me!):

"All hand hoy! " "All hands on deck! "

(Assist me!) followed up by (On my way!), or vice versa:

"Weigh anchor and hoist the mizzen! "

(Area is warded.):

"They’ve got a lookout. "

(Target champion):

"Thar she blows! " "Sail, ho! " "Savvy? " "Hang ‘em from the Yardarm! "

Miscellaneous:

Allied champion drinks potion or gets healed by another ally when Rollick has missing HP:

"Splice the mainbrace! Please?"

Alone with low HP, no potions or actives available, or sells all items:

"Looks like I’m marooned…"

Healed by ally:

"Feeling shipshape!" "Much obliged." "I’m in your debt." "Thank you!" "Thanks!"

Receives shutdown gold:

"Ha-ha! Plundered! " “Bounty taken.”

Flashing away from enemy:

"Blimey! " "Gah!” "Sink me! " " (girly shriek) "

seeing a lot of posts (im guessing because of the grimes/musk/banks saga) about how straight women soliciting other women for threesomes with them and their boyfriends are the devil incarnate and just as bad as their boyfriends and responsible for the fetishization of bi women and lesbians and maybe this is me being a shill for straight women again but i feel sorry for those women more than anything

like i don’t deny that they are using the other women in these hypothetical triads as a prop and that this mentality hurts bi women and lesbians, or that being solicited for a threesome isn’t often deeply hurtful and invasive regardless of the gender of the person doing the asking, but i ultimately don’t really think the coupled women in this situation are immune to being harmed by it either

i’ve seen a lot of women talking about having threesomes with their boyfriends and other women and deeply regretting it and feeling gross afterwards, both because they didn’t like interacting sexually with other women and because they felt weird about seeing other women interact sexually with their boyfriend. personally, i find it sad and deeply upsetting that straight women often push down their own desires (or lack of desires) and make themselves perform in a certain way to appeal to the fetishes of straight men. straight women should not feel pressured to have sex with people or genders theyre not attracted to, or to forego exclusivity with their partner if they would prefer it. often, the coupled woman in a m/w/w threesome is being seen by her partner as a prop in his sexual fantasy as well.

i also don’t think this issue is as split by sexuality as it is by misogyny--there are plenty of m/w couples trying to get straight women to take part in threesomes with them, and there are plenty of bi women being pressured by their male partners to be involved in threesomes with other women. if a bi woman’s boyfriend convinces her to ask her bi friend for a threesome, is she also irredeemable? is she fetishizing herself?

ultimately, the idea of a m/w/w threesome is unfortunately something that is marketed to men as an ultimate fantasy, and it’s something that a lot of straight men relentlessly pressure their girlfriends for. i don’t think it’s as cut and dry as “straight women are just as bad as straight men because they push wlw into threesomes in order to cater to their men” because a lot of the time that woman (who might not even be straight) isn’t so much acting in her own sexual interest but “giving in” to pressure from her partner because she feels like his sexual needs are more important than her own.

Ep 10 | Am I Just Plain Irrelevant? - Josh

Soooo I am the partial owner of an idol with Taylor!!! So hopefully we get ourselves through this round. I need to tell Ari about it but I’m worried they’re gonna tell Taylor, so maybe I’ll just let it be for now. BUT I PROBABLY WILL TELL THEM RN hahahahaha. Idk if they’ll be mad about it or just happy it’s in someone’s hands. The bad thing is that someone has the whiskey too so that idol is out and about as well. I am BEAMING that the vote worked out as it should. 

WHEW ya boi really survived yet again despite being called out as most likable player in the game!!!!!! idk but i deserve some kind of award the vote went pretty much as expected minus all the scrambling/drama that rly isn't interesting to talk about.... now we have some new tea to spill which is a) idols and b) next moves.

a) the idol randomization this round is absolutely chefs kiss - taylor was planning to buy the last gun anyway which she has now done with the help of a loan from dan, and the only other idol that's active is the whiskey that me and jacob have been sipping + which still nobody suspects we have (i hope). taylor thinks josh has it so im like yeah mhm probably! anyway this means we dont have to worry about the vote going screwy and if we really needed we could play that, but i think that won't be necessary. b) so basically immediately after council, taylor says in the 3some group chat that she thinks it's time for jabari to go next and i said yeah good call i have no problem w that. the only people left here who aren't my bffs are jabari and emma, and jabari proved herself a loose cannon this round with trying to flip on ali so as much as i love her, she gotta go. with the newly solidified trust between taylor + dan, i really don't see how this could go wrong (knocks on wood) because that's been the biggest disconnect so far in our majority group and now they have something to share so that should be helpful in bringing everyone closer together.

in other news, taking stock of relationships - taylor dan jacob ali are all still saying they trust me over anyone and wanna take me to final three which is a very cute look for me but obviously i'm not gonna believe it till we get there. i'm starting to get a little worried about how much jacob knows my game, like i mean i tell him everything and im fine w that but i don't want him to get any funny ideas about how he can sell our story better than me! i'm also nervous about dan clocking the two of us because he said something just now about how we were both doing good at keeping people close, "[him] with taylor and [me] with jacob" which i mean yeah duh to an extent i know everyone knows this but i'm still trying my best to distance myself as much as possible. ali im not worried about obvi and taylor i don't think she will vote me out until close to the end so that gives me time to figure out what to do about her at that point. so likeeee i think we should be good for a while? i've bought myself a couple more rounds probably before i have to really start hustling? we'll see but these fools really did say "ari is the most likeable and talented person in this game let's keep them around <3" they will regret it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel bad for Nic he seemed to have spiraled after the tribal Brandi went. I wonder if this was avoidable but people aren't gonna let the AARP roam free when everyone knows about us which is exactly what I've been thinking from the start. From now on I really have to play smarter. I've been trying to limit the info I give to Ari but I need someone to be 100% honest with and like I'm not a dummy to bring Ari to FTC they'd wipe the floor with me. They just have so much connections and is basically untouchable but people will have to catch up eventually. This is why you always go 5th!!! But for now I plan to hide behind Ari because they're a big target. I honestly dont believe Ari got extorted like lmao ok you've been voted for everything good on touchy subjects and you get extorted for money?? but i'll go along with it and Emma seems to have bad reads so I'm not sure how much I can rely on her to sus things out but I need her as a vote and to pool money with. Taylor seems to be the most open and fluid player so I need to keep a close eye on her. After losing Nic my trust ranking is something like this: 1. Emma* (I just trust Emma the most at this point but I can't let her know everything) 2. Ari* (I also trust Ari the most but I have to limit the info I give to them and only give info that is personally relevant to them) 3. Taylor 4. Jacob 5. Dan 6. Jabari 7. Ali (please do not take 48 hours to reply back or send conversation enders I'm not good at talking to people)

https://prnt.sc/xjoq7k

I'm really annoyed at how Ari seems to be keeping things from me all the time and then telling me things at the last minute where I wouldn't be able to do anything and my dumbass here keeps on telling them things all the time and now Ari told me they lied about their horses? Literally what am I supposed to do Ari is so vague all the time!! I'm not in any position to lie about my horses because I'm taking this opportunity to gain allies but really all this does is make me not trust a lot of people. I don't know who to trust but I don't have the luxury to choose so I'm just blindly gonna follow Ari because they're the only one giving me info. Dan also said he wants to talk to me and Jacob came clean on why he lied to me but I'm just really annoyed. I was in no position to do anything to save Nic and I've been telling everyone I would be fine if Nic goes just tell me if people are voting for him AND THEY DIDN'T TELL ME ANYTHING? What did they think I was gonna do I haven't bought things from the shop they should know I've been giving Emma money so what the heck yall.

I'm really hoping my talk with Dan will help illuminate some stuff because I'm only getting things from one source (well two but Emma's reads are kinda bad) and I don't even know how long Ari wants me around since Ari is the most well connected person here so all I'm doing is getting on Ari's good side and with my back against the wall I just have to trust them....but I have to play smart if I can survive this next round I think I'll have a general idea on where people stand. I think it would be very funny if I send Ari home at 5th place for the memes but I don't have any pull to even do that.

PS: if you're reading this Ari ily but yes i am very annoyed at the moment <3

Another PS: Am I overestimating my impact in this game or am i just plain irrelevant.

If Jabari wasn’t dead to me in this game before, she certainly is now! She just got off a call with Ali and said I voted him out and she voted to keep him. What a fool. Obviously Ali is gonna tell me about it. He told Taylor first which is..... scary to me because maybe he’s closer with her than me. But he still told me so.

I just wanna make sure if I get to f5, I’m not outnumbered by an OG Beeho alliance that they’ve had from day 1.... which is a possibility but 5th place is also kinda cute? 

alright alright alright okay okay okay i need to be a little less cocky here yeah. the rope purchase this round shook me because i have no mf clue who did that or why and that BOTHERS ME!! we're 99% sure jabari has the rifle, josh would tell me if he did it, and none of my ppl are dumb enough to waste their money on that in the middle of a round so like......... it has to be emma??????????????? but where did emma get that money???????? man i dont know. it bothers me.

either way though, basically it has to be jabari this round and the only possible obstacle is if dan/taylor get too freaked about her possibly having the whiskey. i kinda sorta brought up to jacob that we might want to tell them about it but i think he doesnt rly wanna tell anyone and i don't super want to either so we're just saying josh prob has it, sorry josh, i know u don't drink. so hopefully that should be okay idk i don't see another way this could go wrong but i also have immunity so like that helps.

im also Very Worried about whatever twist is coming down the pike because the ftc schedule does not add up and my spidey senses are tingling i just really hope it's not someone coming back because that would be no fun at all. well ok chloe could come back i'd be fine with that <3

i really don't know how to feel abt my personal relationships w everyone because dan keeps saying like he wants to be with me in the end he doesn't care if he loses as long as he gets to play with good people etc etc and it sounds too good to be true but somehow i believe him? but i gotta keep my head in the game. and then taylor, our talks have gotten more personal lately and she's been just saying so much of how amazing she thinks i am and how grateful she is we've met and i'm not saying i don't believe that, i'm just saying it makes me nervous because i can't let that distract me from the very real possibility she makes a move against me at some point. it's safest to assume dan and taylor will come together to flip on me EVENTUALLY and probably SOON so we just have to get there first. which is why my priority thus far in merge has been eliminating all the wild cards as quickly as possible. brandi we didn't know where she was truly at, nic would have kept shaking things up, and jabari's so hard to read because the way she plays is just on a different level from everybody else. so if all of them are gone, then i'm really truly not worried about josh or emma because they're both floaters not scramblers and that leaves me with a group of people whose motives i can understand and predict at least to some extent. the devils you know, right? so hopefully i can keep that up and keep a step ahead of them for a while longer!!

i'm getting a little too used to this look.... https://prnt.sc/xl0ne8

Welcome to my Ted Talk :D

I have been hurt  by this game, I know I am not a bad person, I am loved in my personal life because I love giving. I guess people do not really get how real I am. It is just sad. I never have won an ORG and I really want too. :(

I get its a game and all but i was gutted when people lied to me about horses, it honestly makes me think there's bigger things at play. I might have to find other options in this case 

so many thoughts... um i'm starting to think a lot more about how to get to the end game with ppl that i think i can beat and it's just a lot to think about and i'm afraid if i'm gonna do that i'm gonna piss a lot of ppl off by making big moves and stuff and that is just so scary to me but it must be done

I heard it was jabari but why ppl just going for people in the bottom thinking about just telling jabari hey girl if u have an idol play it im burnt out because im on the very outs the only person here is making me wanting to play is josh if hes gone its gonna be super hard to play this game without them my will to play = lost even tho its hard now rather me then him going if the jabari thing is a lie.

Y’all I am SPENT. I just feel like each round I find myself slipping deeper and deeper into crackheadery and I need to RELAX. I am really proud of the game I have been playing and if I go out now, I’m going to be crushed but also proud. I would be proud of the fact that I was seen as a threat and got taken out bc of it. I don’t want to think negatively but there are SO many idols in play it’s hard to really navigate these votes.

I know the shotgun is with me and Taylor but this fricken whiskey is MIA??? I am hoping someone like Ari has it. They have been really certain that no BS is gonna go down tonight, but how can you be so sure unless you have the idol no one knows the location of?? I mean they’re also safe with immunity so idk.

I am just gonna hope I’ve put enough work in with people to not get voted out tonight. And if I do, it is what it is! 

Power Rankings: ONE - ARI  (+1) Threat: 9 (-1) Trust: 9 (NC) This week was definitely Ari’s week. They won immunity, had everyone give them the correct horses. They also got put in an alliance with josh and I where we got good intel from the other side and what they’re thinking. I think anyone would be stupid to believe that Ari isn’t the biggest threat in the game. TWO - TAYLOR (+1) Threat: 8 (+1) I put myself at two for the same reasons as Ari. I think the other side is opening up to me more now that nic is gone, I have more info. I’m also trying to make people feel guilty for listening to nic. Really using manipulation in a sense to make them feel bad for me. I also want good rapport with them as jury management is key in this stage. THREE - JACOB (+2) Threat: 7 (NC) Trust: 7 (-1) Jacob is someone I’m surprised to seee high this week. However, with being included in the whispers last round, and again this round without his name coming up, I think he deserves to rank third this round. Jacob’s game is very under the radar, and hes playing really well with the power to take the game in the direction he wants. FOUR - JOSH (+4) Threat: 4 (NC) Trust: 6 (+1) Josh got to work this round which is a pleasant surprise. He made an alliance with Ari and I which was a great move for his game. There is also a really good chance he has an idol this round. So he does hold a lot of power and information compared to his past rounds. FIVE - ALI (+2) Threat: 4 (NC) Trust: 10 (+1) Ali seems to have steered clear of his name being on the chopping block this round. Honestly Nic going last round is just as good of a move for my game as it was Ali’s. He just doesn’t have as much information and if he does get any information he comes directly to Ari and I. SIX - DAN (-5) Threat: 8 (NC) Trust: 9 (+1) Dan really plummeted this week as every crazy good week normally follows a terrible week unless you do the right damage control. I think Dan is complacent in our alliance and felt the need to not worry about the mess he was going to leave behind after nic left. But now people don’t trust him, and his name has been brought up by the minority. SEVEN - EMMA (+1) Threat: 1 (+1) Trust: 4 (+4) Emma like usual is toward the end of the power rankings. Her and I did clear the air, but I still don’t like how she just let nic dictate how she played the game. I understand she’s extremely loyal but to not talk to someone for three rounds because your ally doesn’t like them is questionable gameplay. It’s likely Emma goes this round if Jabari idols. EIGHT - JABARI (-4) Threat: 6 (+3) Trust: 0 (-2) After the shady round jabari had last week, it’s no surprise she’s in hot water this round. She also did a terrible job damage controlling the situation. She lied and said Dan flipped, threw multiple people under the bus, and no she’s acting extremely nervous. She’s become everyone’s number one target because she tried to flip at the wrong time.

Okay so im nervous but if i go it isss what it isss Jabari is the plan i think theres a big chance she has an idol im like debating if i should yolo it and throw my vote at jacob i love jacob but i feel like at this point they are kinda in the core alliance how i see it maybe rn are like ari-ali-jacob jacob with dan > Taylor > Jabari i am glad that me and taylor either are good or gonna end this game good idk if i am going yet but after this vote if i survive i really want to work with taylor!! either way i have nothing bad to say about taylor i think shes great me working with nic kinda hindered trust there but i am to loyal to default this game i do love nic tho but atleast i kinda have a game to play!! idk i am also probably just gonna vote for jabari because if its like 4-3-1 mega oof ASDFG i dont trust any of these hoes yet except for josh oh well if i go which i think its a high chance of me going atleast he gets 400 dollars richer hehe also i didnt even want jabari out at first but then she tried to throw me under the bus to dan smh

dont trust anyone not even urself

Belief and Persuasion- Chapter 8 (Finale)

hey folks! i’ve been working on a little batim prequel fanfic for a while n its finally done! its a little long, so im dividing it in 8 chapters total!

if you want to read more, i’ll be tagging this under ‘bap fic’ on my blog!

summary:

Joey Drew gives an interview about how he managed to build his empire, and focuses on the two things needed most: belief and persuasion, the latter of which is trickier. As he talks about his philosophy, we can see examples of his influence at work.

This chapter: Joey finishes giving his interview, only to be confronted by Bendy.

(note: when Bendy “speaks” in this fanfiction, it’s not that he is actually speaking, but rather whistling, and everyone can just understand him, hence the parenthesis. It’s an old silly little trope, but I like it.)

"So, I think that will be all, don't you agree? You've learned quite a lot!" Joey seemed to be joking around, but the interviewer now seemed confused, as if the roles had been flipped.

He looked at his notebook to find scribbles and notes of some strange philosophy bordering in manipulation, things that he hadn't realized he was so absent mindedly writing, so compliant. Joey drew had really taken him for a spin. It really was true what they said about that man, he could have anyone wrapped up in his world in no time. But still, he had to leave.

"Thank you for having me, Mr. Drew." He stammered, getting up, almost not quite sure how to answer. "I will surely remember this, uh. I'll be making my leave now."

"Sure, sure, see you then!" Joey laughed gently as he watched the man make his way out.

After he had turned the corner, Joey moved into his wheelchair and rolled out, only to be confronted by Bendy, who seemed to have been snooping around, hidden from sight. He did not look happy, with his arms crossed and frowning.

"Why, what's this, Bendy? You look as sour as a lemon!" Joey joked, but Bendy had none of it.

"(I know what you did now. Alice and Susie are like this because you did it, didn't you? All of this, everything you do, it's just a game to you! You don't really care about making us stars, you only really care about what you want for the company. Well newsflash! I'm done bowing to you like a loyal little puppy dog, and Boris shouldn't either, no matter how much food you give him!)" Bendy whistled, pointing at him accusingly.

Joey seemed quiet for a minute, seeming genuinely caught in his deceitful manipulative behavior. Then, he nodded solemnly, and spoke again: "Bendy, you don't understand the true predicament I'm in. If I am rushing things, if I am using deceit and persuasion and every resource I can, it's because I'm truly desperate. I'm dying Bendy. The polio is eating me away." He then grabbed his toon's gloved hands, almost as if pleading.

"(What?)" Bendy took a step back. "(What- I'm sorry, that's really awful, but I still think what you did wasn't right.)"

"Yes, but there is a way to help me, to help this, I can be better, we can be better, together!" Joey grabbed Bendy's hands again, this time holding him firmly, as if not letting him get away.

"(... You... Are you honestly still...)" Bendy looked at him in dismay, trying to wriggle free of his grasp.

"Yes, Bendy, let's become one and the same, then I won't have to ever worry about death again! Won't you save me? Save your dear old creator? And let this studio prosper again? Really, killing two birds with one stone!" Joey kept holding him firmly, trapping him almost.

"(I can't believe it! You're doing it again, even when you're sick like this you're still thinking of what you can do to expand your greed! What about what I want? I'm not ready to have what happened to Alice happen to me!)" Bendy stared at him, visibly upset, his whistles growing louder and more aggressive.

"What you want? How can you possibly be so selfish when the one that has brought you to life is dying? You look positively despicable with that frown you know that! Now you better be smiling up and proud again because you are going to help me or you know what's going to happen? Without me, this whole studio's gonna come crumbling to the ground!" Joey snarled, now actually getting angry seeing as his initial persuasion didn't work.

But Bendy kept shaking his head in disbelief: "(No, no, I refuse to get the blame of YOU wanting to have a perfect little cartoon to dance for you. Maybe you should have never made me, if you weren't ready for me to disagree with you.)" Finally, he managed to tear himself free and ran off down the hall.

Joey huffed in anger and went after him; he had a feeling he knew where the little devil was going to.

Sure enough, Joey found him clawing and pounding at the ink machine, but so obviously unsure of how to attack it (if you could even call it an attack, so meek it was) that it made him laugh.

"Bendy." Joey laughed gently, but obviously mocking him. "What do you think you're doing?"

"(I'm going to destroy this wretched machine. Once it's gone, you won't be able to do any of your weird ideas anymore!)" Bendy growled between whistles, taking out random nuts and bolts and whatever he could out of it. Finally, he managed to reach one of the bigger gears, and started to pull it off, it was almost coming completely loose when...

"Bendy, no!" Joey screamed.

Bendy stopped, startled enough by how loud Joey had yelled.

"If you pull that, the pressure will de-stabilize and the whole studio's going to flood! Don't. Do that. Just gently ease it back into place and-" Joey couldn't finish.

Bendy, even if really had not moved the piece fully away from the machine, had already pulled on it so much it just came loose, and the machine immediately did its job, pipes bursting and flooding the room immediately, large amounts of ink washing over them in waves, pulling both Joey and Henry from where they were in swirls of black liquid. It quickly spread over to the other rooms, the work desks and chairs being knocked over, the items on the pedestals being washed out and spread around, the projectors violently swaying in the ink...

Alice Angel, or rather, Alice and Susie, now made into one being, heard it, from the level she stood, where she was still trying to accommodate her home, to come to terms with who she was now. Even with her having failed miserably at becoming perfect, she had still convinced the others to let her stay. But now, she thought it might not have been such a good idea. The employees that were also in that level immediately looked up, hearing it too, feeling the ceiling rumble. Then came the ink, first dripping down in small droplets, then coming down the elevator shaft, the pipes bursting. Something big and terrible was happening.

"Oh no... Oh my god..." Alice said to herself. Then she looked around, to her ex-colleagues, grabbed a microphone from a nearby booth and connected it to the speakers of the studio, shouting: "Get a move people go, go, go! This place is going to flood! Those who can, get into the elevator shaft, those who can't-"

She stopped herself, thinking about whether there was any other solution. She didn't want any of these people to die, but... No. She couldn't think of anything else. "Listen up people, try your best to keep swimming around the ink if you can, and stay atop big structures if possible! After a while, toons are going to start to form, and... and if you can't hold on until this all passes, and if you fear it's your last moment, coat yourselves in ink and become one with them. I'm serious, it's the only way, I'm immune to the ink, you will be too, but for now, try to stay alive!"

Back upstairs, Joey, who was at least trying to make an effort to hold onto the doorframe, felt himself slipping as the levels of ink rose higher and higher. Bendy on the other side of the room, had managed to hold on still to the top of the ink machine.

"Bendy..." Joey pleaded. "I don't think I'll hold on much longer..."

Bendy kept quiet, almost as if he was trying to ignore him.

"Bendy, look at me! You're the one that's doomed us all and you still refuse to help me?!" He tried an angrier approach, but that only earned him another silent distrustful and angry look from the demon.

Joey gulped, seeing as his last two fingers slipped off. "Bendy!" He yelled, as his hands finally gave out and he got washed away, engulfed by the ink. He tried one more time, using his last energy to yell: "Bendy please! You know I can't swim like this!"

Finally, guilt got the best of the little cartoon demon as he let go of the machine and swam with ease, diving towards Joey, who was now nearly drowning in the ink. Bendy was a toon, so he could keep his eyes open under the ink, and looking at Joey now, nearly unconscious, he did feel in the end, a pang of pity... His creator had been awful to him, his friends and the employees, but surely, Bendy went too far...

Suddenly, Joey's eyes shot up, blood red as they immediately reacted by being in contact with the ink, the human man grabbing the little toon and forcefully pulling him next to him. Bendy whistled and squealed in despair, his sounds muffled out by the layers and layers of ink, as he was pulled in closer and closer to the dark inky figure that had become of Joey...

Finally, the ink machine had given it all it could. The pressure had become extremely low, its fuel, whatever it was, had stopped functioning, it had for all purposes exhausted itself. At the surface of the black sea of ink, all was still for a moment, nearly peaceful.

Then a figure rose from the ink, tall, imposing, almost like a shark emerging from the sea waters, screeching and howling like and unnatural beast being born. But the most peculiar thing about this new monster was its happy grin that went from cheek to cheek.

Ep. 17 - “Everyone here are messy hoes” - Steffen

Honestly why the FUCK are people so far up Jordan's ass. Like even sam g before she was blindsided by the devil himself was like "I think I'm just going to vote out Andrew so that I'll stay on his good side" Like what. I am....Omg. Sara is not winning this game bc she literally hasn't done shit but whatever Jordan tells her. David is fake for making me feel like shit last round when I didn't tell him about a plan that we executed 4 minutes AFTER votes were due. Andrew is my ride or die in this game. Andrew. Wow. I don't know what to do with drew. He was drunk for all the decisions made tonight so anything he said, I really don't know if he will mean those things in the morning. I trust steffen and I guess I have to from now on. Us 3 and maybe drew against Jordan's army. I mean I would rather get voted out than work with (basically for) Jordan so that's fine with me.

This last vote??? Was HELL for me! Of course I knew Sam was going from the start, but as much as I wanted to save her, all of my options were bad. This wasn't like the double tribal vote where I had all the information to flip the vote off of Steffen and onto Ash. The discussion started with David Robb and Jordan, and by the time the target was chosen, there were already five votes on Sam in a nine-vote tribal. The only way to save her was with my idol, which I'm sorry, is mine. It would have also exposed everything. I could have either gotten Jordan's idol or Jordan himself out of the game, but that sacrifices my power position and puts me at the mercy of the Sams, Andrew, and Steffen, who very well may have and may still want to work with me, but would have seen me as the biggest threat once Jordan was gone. Once again in an org, I'm left with the disgusting position of using him as my meat shield and getting the stink of that alliance all over me to the point where no one wants to talk to me because they're afraid it'll get back to Jordan. If only they knew how little I've been telling him the entire time, maybe I could get a little more out of them. Sam knew but she's gone now because I didn't save her, and that sucks, but it's just another person I have to avenge to get through the game. So very obviously, Jordan is winning immunity this round. A trivia competition based on Pacific Islands was fucking made for him, I'd be shocked, horrified, and a little concerned if someone were able to beat him other than Billy, or Monty himself. Jordan's plan is to send Sara to exile, have me use my idol, and then vote the two of us and David on someone, and if they vote for me, I'm safe, and if they vote for David, we force the revote because both of us are immune and David is safe a la Spencer Bledsoe's "Tasha's not going" moment. It's a cute plan. Puts all the ducks in a row. Just one little thing I'd like to bring up. When the FUCK did MY idol become something for YOU to strategize with? This is not some communal shit, like a grab bag of power. I didn't see my vote getting doubled with either of your pearls. I haven't seen any idols played on anyone other than yourself. This is not some "What's mine is mine but what's yours is OURS" bullshit. So what I would LIKE to do would be to team up with Steffen, Andrew, and Sam B for the vote and get David Robb out. I have a power move for it in mind that's gonna take a lot to pull off because there are a lot of moving pieces. I would like to work with all three of them for this vote but I need to make sure they don't get it in their heads to 3-2-1 me out. I'm already opening up conversation with Sam and Andrew before anything else happens with the immunity comp, and Steffen and I have talked semi-regularly, so ideally they'll include me in their plans to target David, instead of me coming to them. I think I'll leak the entire plan to them, tell them everything Jordan wants, ESPECIALLY the part about me playing my idol, so it doesn't even get into their heads that I'm on the menu as a voting option. Then on the revote, if it goes down the way I hope it will, I flip and vote out David. Because I'm not playing for 4th on Jordan's team, and I'm not playing to be the first person Steffen's team targets if Jordan wins another immunity after this. And I'm sure as FUCK not playing to have my possessions be communal property. There will have to be a long conversation with Jordan about all this after the fact, about how everything can still work, me him and Sara to the end, we still have two idols, we can work with this, I'm sorry I just felt like I was being left completely out of the loop on this last vote, the target happened in PMs with David, the decision to play both pearls happened without me, and unnecessarily, I felt like I wasn't being heard and I wasn't going to be replaced. Which is highkey true, like that has been a genuine fear the last day and a half or so, but it's secondary to the main stance. No one. No one. Decides how my idol is being played except me. Thanks. From Jordan's perspective, this can still work, we still have our three players with two idols between us, David had to go eventually, why not tonight. From Steffen's perspective, I took out someone on Jordan's team and there's a chance for a light at the end of the tunnel now, in some way. My juggling act is going to implode on me sooner rather than later and I'm going to have to pick up the pieces. But hopefully that time is not tonight.

So basically last vote, Sam B didnt do what i  wanted and that caused me to go with the devil Jordan Pines, but thats okay, im going to try and vote out Andrew tonight but literally things are so topsy turby anyone can go its all up to the survivor gods

I don't know who I can trust in this game. But I know for sure it is not Jordan Pines. Therefore I can't trust anyone associated with him either. That includes David and Drew. Both of them are claiming that the other one is closer to Jordan when it all honesty, I think that is such a tight trio, there is nothing I could do to stop it. I'm just so tired of Jordan controlling this game. With his fucking idols and powers and omg do not even get me started on this immunity challenge. Trivia with someone who was on 5/7 of the seasons being quizzed. That's the most rigged thing I have ever heard in my entire life. Especially this late in the game AND with the answers not being found on the wikia. I'm so pissed about it. I will probably be going home tonight. I would rather go home through staying true to myself, than to flip on one of my allies to stay on Jordan's good side. I learned from the Sam g blindside: being on his good side doesnt mean shit. If he gets to the end, there is no way I am voting for him. And whoever does vote for him, 100% cancelled. He is just. Ugh I don't want to be mean so I'll move on. So I am voting for David  tonight along with andrew and hopefully steffen. I think itll tie and then on the revote go to rocks, which is scary. But if its me that Jordan's side is voting for, I should be safe. That would make it rocks between andrew and steffen, which would be so hard to watch. But I don't think I have any other options. I got into an argument with Drew just a few minutes ago so if he votes for me, I would get that. I just would rather stand up for myself and play my own game, than to let jordan fucking pines control me. And to everyone wanting to work with him (for him): Fuck you.

idk why the whole fucking world and their dogs wanna work with Jordan

It was supposed to be me tonight. Idk it still might be. But I brought up the idea of breaking up Sam B and Steffen. And I guess Jordan wants that. Sam B says to not give Jordan what he wants. And I'm not. I'm doing what I want. I want that duo split. I want to advance without fucking up game relationships. I'm sorry Sam. I love you so much. But this is my game.

Dear Diary, Everyone here are messy hoes, Im over it and them and Jordan can go make out with the abominable snowman for all I care. Like first I have to hear Jordan is threatening Sam B, Sam G was voted out, and now Jordan wins immunity, saves sara and now everything has gone to crap, Drew can’t be trusted worth beans and David is a messy bitch and Jordan well, indifferent towards him at this point, so now Im on call with a crying Sam and I could give 2 shits about anyone left in this game, Im on fits end for who I vote for cause literally this group of people are disgusting except Sam B and Andrew, Also shout out to Sam G, a true hunt

EPISODE SIX: "I'LL SEND HIM IF IT ALLOWS ME TO GET ONE STEP CLOSER TO TAKING THE CROWN." - ZACH

So if you haven't heard it from me enough yet, THAT 📣 TWIST 📣 IS 📣 BULLSHIT! With that being said, I may as well continue. DANA 📣 DOES NOT 📣 DESERVE 📣 TO COME BACK. Not enough yet? DON'T 📣 TALK 📣 SHIT 📣 ABOUT 📣 JULIA RAE. Anyways! I'm still here. Still got no votes cast against me. The best I can do at this point is pull a Sugar and make it to the end with no votes, then receive none in the final. Fine. I'll do it. But first, let's fuck up everyone else's game in the process. I'm going to come back and pretend like I'm this poor, shit-for-brains Jaiden. Maybe that is who I am, but I'm still going to make sure there is no blood left unspilled. I don't care how it happens, but I'm out for revenge. Even if I go home next, I'm going to try and destroy everything in my path. No more mister Nice Jaiden, I want to finally fuck shit up the way it was intended to be. I'm not winning anyways, so why not go out in style? Watch your backs, castaways.

idk whats happening but i slept through the revote and adrian got voted out which  im upset about. he was a number on my side and idk i liked him as a person. on another note, dana is back and i dont know how i feel about it. shes obviously close with everyone and i dont think shes going to be voted out anytime soon but i just need to make sure im on her good side. BUT the good thing about nicholas and zach flipping on adrian/jaiden and not me is that jaiden is mad at THEM and thinks i had nothing to do with it (which is true) MEANING, hes going to do whatever he can to throw them under the bus and not me. i need to start picking up my social game and start becoming friends with everyone and i need to be more active and seem non threatening. right now i think kai and willa like me which is good, so i just need to keep talking to them and i think they wont vote me out until later in the game. obviously zach and nicholas are my best friends but i dont trust nicholas one bit. ive played other games with him and he fucks me over in every single one of them so this time, im going to get the last word. the first chance i get, when i think its a good time, im going to flip on nicholas to get him out. its what she deserves. i brought this idea up to zach and i dont know if he'd be down for it but nicholas just flipped on my closest ally in another game (we were considered a trio in that game too) so im going to say to zach that hes going to be in the same position and that my closest ally was and that we need to flip on him. i think it would be really smart to plant seeds in jaiden's head and have him go after nicholas for us. i think jaiden trusts me a lot and wouldnt go after me so i need to use him to my advantage. i want to make an alliance with zach, willa, and kai because i think willa and kai are kindaish on the outside and don't really have that many loyalties so it would be easy to bring them in. phew idk what im talking about mostly bc i still barely know how survivor works but im going to start to pick up my game and now im going to play to win. i really think i can if i play my cards right. so im sorry if none of this makes sense and its just me rambling but i thot id make a dr about my thoughts sooo hopefully my ass can win immunity this week!

DANA TOLD ME SO MUCH. AND ALSO ------ DANA IS BACK. So BRIAN wants to take me out eventually. In-ter-est-ing. I'm gonna fuck that Brian bloke into the pavement and he wont even know what happened. Metaphorical fucking of course. I'd never have sex with someone who likes the same music as me, that sounds dangerous. I want a final 3 involving Kai + Willa or Gage, but I'm also trying to make a Zachary Julia Me final three happen. I can those 5 fairly easily. The others? not so much. I'm not gonna be voting Dana out, but I'm scared of going to the end with her. Brian seems like a juror who will vote objectively. I'm not, but it's a good thing that he's gonna try to be objective in looking at how hard i blindside his ass out of here. But for now we've gotta take it slow. You can't be dumb. Gotta be smart. I need to vote out Jaiden first. Jaiden is a hazard to everyone, and he's a difficult human being to deal with. Why would I leave Jaiden in the game? ZACHARY IS TELLING ME THAT MY JURY MANAGMENT IS GREAT. I literally tell him that he's going to vote for me from the jury, and we argue about that shit. Now im trying to work with him and he's like "you're playing me arent you? well ill vote for you." like what. I love this

[2017-06-11, 12:02:47 AM] zachary rae: So [2017-06-11, 12:02:53 AM] zachary rae: I am spilling like everything to Bodhi [2017-06-11, 12:02:58 AM] zachary rae: I did something stupid but helpful [2017-06-11, 12:03:18 AM] zachary rae: whic hwas that I told him if he keeps me, because he’s the only one that talks to me, i’ll vote for him at the end and its good to have people like friends on jury [2017-06-11, 12:03:23 AM] zachary rae: but that also implies that i’m willing to be his lapdog [2017-06-11, 12:03:43 AM] zachary rae: but literally im going to be heartless later on and my bitch ass, i promise you, will be cutthroat and ill send him if it allows me to get one spot closer to taking the crown

A QUICK SUMMARY OF DANA's RETURN 28 After the day of rest—a holy day, as the sun rose Sunday morning, Mary from Magdala and the other Mary went to look at the tomb. 2 Suddenly, there was a powerful IDOL. BRIAN had come down from heaven, rolled the stone away, and was sitting on it. 3 He was as bright as lightning, and his clothes were as white as snow. 4 The guards were so deathly afraid of him that they shook. 5 BRIAN said to the women, “Don’t be afraid! I know you’re looking for DANA, who was crucified. 6 SHe’s not here. SHe has been brought back to life as he said. Come, see the place where She was lying. 7 Then go quickly, and tell hER disciples that She has been brought back to life. SHe’s going ahead of them into Galilee. There they will see her. Take note that I have told you.” 8 They hurried away from the tomb with fear and great joy and ran to tell his disciples. 9 Suddenly, DANA met them and greeted them. They went up to her, bowed down to worship her, and took hold of her feet. 10 Then DANA said to them, “Don’t be afraid! Go, tell my followers to go to Galilee. There they will see me.”

So its been difficult playing two games at once but somehow i managed to win INDIVIDUAL IMMUNITY OMG. I've never won before so I was probably way too excited but idk. sooooo. I'm really proud of myself but really see myself as a huge threat now. I'm playing a great social game where I'm friends with most people. I have a large alliance where I trust most of them very strongly. I'm winning challenges and helping my tribe succeed. I feel like now I'm really gonna need an idol cause I think people are gonna want me gone. I'm gonna try to play up how I don't know what I'm doing and strategy is confusing but I doubt people will buy that. But gotta do my best to not seem like the biggest threat after we target people outside of the alliance. I still think its a little risky keeping zach, julia, and nicholas but honestly I'm friends with all of them for the most part or they respect me so maybe if they do come together against us they would want to do it with me. I like knowing the gossip even tho most of the time I'm the last to know the gossip. IT'S WEIRD BEING SAFE. Like wait. You are telling me I won't go home? "Correct" Wait so like if someone plays an idol? "It won't affect you" BUT, what about rocks???? "You won't be in them" OMG THIS IS A DREAM COME TRUE #IFeelLikeAPrincess #AllHailtheQueen I feel like I'm gonna get myself blindsided pretty soon but hopefully Kai has my back and will let me know if anything crazy happens.  

OK SO IT's TIME FOR BIG MOVEZ TALK WITH YOUR RESIDENT HATER OF BIG MOVEZ Hi there. My name is Bodhi. I am 17 years old, and I hate big moves. I'm almost certain that if I wanted to, I could float to the end and win in this game. We would just need to pick off Zach, Julia, and Jaiden, then our alliance would cannibalize Brian, Dana, Lily, Willa, Nicholas. I'd make it to the end, and I'd beat Gage and Kai. That's an easy path for me to take. Big Movez are the devil, why would I ever make them? Well the answer here is simple. It's fun. Dumb big moves are the worst, but smart big movez? now this is something new. I want JURY VOTES, and Zach, Julia, and Jaiden would all be good votes to have at the end. Jaiden is not going to be a part of the plan to move forward though. I can't stand working with him. One thing that I have going for me is that I have been blunt with Jaiden. He knows that I'm voting him out tonight. That is big. The amount of honesty I have given him might lead to his respect down the line. But he thinks I'm bullying him by being honest. Whatever, if he doesn't want to give me his jury vote, that's fine, but I'd like it. I'll need to make Big Movez to suck Jaiden's dick and get a vote from him. I'm not scared to do it. Well I'm a little scared. Jaiden must go home tonight. Getting rid of Jaiden is not a big move. We aren't shaking up the game by getting rid of Jaiden. It's  just some basic janitorial shit, nothing extreme. Jaiden is not worth blindsiding, because he'll like that. He lives for big movez, so I refuse to give him one. After this, the plan is to get a vote split between Zach + Julia. This is not in order to get out either of them. Rather, it is to get out someone in the majority. I was thinking Lily at first, but now she seems to be more hesitant about trusting Brian. So I am considering trusting her. Gage and I are going to flip and make the vote 4-3-3. BIG MOVE Next on the menu is Willa or Nicholas. I don't quite care which, but I think that Willa might be a better call to do first because he's got the idol. Then we're at final 8. Dana, Kai, Gage, Willa or Nicholas, Lily or Brian, Zach, Julia, and myself. I'm closely alligned with Zach, Gage, Julia, Dana, and Kai, and in the time leading up to this I can get even closer with the others. I think I've got enough clear paths to the end that I can make some stupid #BIGMOVEZ and still win. I've got a deal with Dana to go to the end no matter what. I also have a deal with Kai to probably go to the end. I've got potential for a deal with Zach + Julia and go to the end with them. I think if I go with these BIG MOVEZ I might actually appease the juries sentiment of "rewarding objectively better gameplay" and win because of my jury management while they think that it's because of my strategic prowess. If you think that me winning this game along this path is because of strategic prowess, you're wrong. Any strategy that i put into place is solely to get jury votes. It is part of my social game more than anything else. I'd be getting to the end if I didn't make these moves, I'm only doing it so the jury feels like I'm strategically good.

[2:52:56 PM] jaiden: so what r u thinking of doing [2:53:00 PM] jaiden: I KNOW U HAVE IDEAS [2:53:06 PM] jaiden: I'm not gonna rat you out [2:53:16 PM] Bo dhi: what am I thinking of doing? [2:53:21 PM] Bo dhi: well I'm not sure you're gonna like it [2:53:21 PM] jaiden: for tribal [2:53:30 PM] jaiden: I mean as long as it ain't me??? [2:53:32 PM] Bo dhi: my plan is to vote you out tonight if that's alright with you [2:53:41 PM] jaiden: (dull) [2:55:17 PM] jaiden: anyways I'm voting out Nicholas. [2:55:21 PM] jaiden: you can follow me if you want to [3:24:23 PM] jaiden: or not >: ( [3:33:41 PM] Bo dhi: I'm thinking [3:36:29 PM] jaiden: let me know when ur done thinking [3:54:03 PM] Bo dhi: I'm not done thinking but I'm thinking [3:54:39 PM] jaiden: what,,, [3:54:42 PM] jaiden: that doesn't make sense [3:54:54 PM] Bo dhi: think think think [3:55:44 PM] jaiden: alright well I'm gonna go take a shower [3:55:52 PM] Bo dhi: good luck!! [3:55:58 PM] Bo dhi: I hope you have a clean one [3:56:07 PM] jaiden: just pls don't vote me out bodhi. [6:00:10 PM] jaiden: Big mother eggplant I have an idea. [6:00:23 PM] Bo dhi: what is your idea little son eggplant [6:02:32 PM] jaiden: We should vote out Nicholas :) [6:02:41 PM] jaiden: Because zach and Julia hate him and are willing to do it this time [6:03:33 PM] Bo dhi: "anyways I'm voting out Nicholas. you can follow me if you want to" you already brought this up [6:04:04 PM] jaiden: BUT NOW IM SERIOUS ABOUT IT [6:04:10 PM] jaiden: like I was joking then and now I mean it [6:04:12 PM] jaiden: We have the votes [6:04:17 PM] jaiden: Kai will literally do it if you do it [6:04:25 PM] jaiden: we just can't.....tell anyone [6:04:40 PM] Bo dhi: oh it was a joke before? didn't really seem like one [6:05:00 PM] jaiden: Yeah?? I wouldn't just be like "vote him out w me" [6:05:16 PM] jaiden: Bodhi I'm being serious [6:05:16 PM] jaiden: pls [6:05:22 PM] Bo dhi: {quoting earlier in the conversation} > [3:24:23 PM] jaiden: or not >: ( > [3:33:41 PM] Bo dhi: I'm thinking > [3:36:29 PM] jaiden: let me know when ur done thinking > [3:54:03 PM] Bo dhi: I'm not done thinking but I'm thinking > [3:54:39 PM] jaiden: what,,, > [3:54:42 PM] jaiden: that doesn't make sense > [3:54:54 PM] Bo dhi: think think think > [3:55:44 PM] jaiden: alright well I'm gonna go take a shower > [3:55:52 PM] Bo dhi: good luck!! > [3:55:58 PM] Bo dhi: I hope you have a clean one > [3:56:07 PM] jaiden: just pls don't vote me out bodhi. [6:05:59 PM] jaiden: WELL!!!! [6:06:02 PM] jaiden: CAN WE JUST DO IT [6:06:07 PM] Bo dhi: no thanks

Jaiden spent about 20 minutes being a complete asshole to me and then eventually gave up and talked to a ton of people about me behind my back. I honestly am disgusted. He thinks I owe him something, which is bullshit. I don't like him one bit. He might be the person that I've respected least from any game I've ever played.

[9:48 PM] nicholas: <<< On 6/11/17, at 9:43 PM, Logan (he/him) wrote: > Jaiden. I owe you nothing. But I think you owe everyone in this game an apology. For some reason, when you do something cruel, it's a game. But when anyone does anything targeting you? Suddenly they're a piece of shit! I'm thrilled to be writing down your name. whoever wrote this is winning bahamas btw THIS IS MY VOTING CONFESSIONAL. NICHOLAS BETTER KEEP THIS PROMISE

I'm using being castrated by Jaiden and feeling guilty to make people KNOW that I'm not a robot. I want to be loved.

She’s back? Listen I'm not going to pretend to understand what the FUCK this twisted game has in store, but somehow I moseyed my way back from the depths of Ponderosa paradise back into this hellish game. At this point I’ve been back for two days and I have SO MUCH to say. Why am I so irresponsible about confessionals? Well, I tried to write one Friday night… but we’ll get to why that failed. Also because I’m writing this retrospectively right after Jaiden’s vote out, some of what I write was irrelevant in the progression of the game and some is foreshadowing for what ended up happening at the Jaiden vote tonight… just stay with me because too much significant stuff happened to not write this altogether. For the sake of anyone who feels compelled to read this, I’m going to organize it the best I can, starting with my thoughts on being brought back. I.        Being brought back into the game. First, I'd like to thank Brian and his trashy idol for this opportunity. a. Notable reactions and my responses Brian: Immediately wants to talk to me about the game, and is saying that he “brought me back into the game for a reason, because he wanted to work with me. We skyped for THREE HOURS on Friday night, the content of which I’ll get to later in this confessional. Here's the thing, it would be REALLY easy for both Brian and other players in this game to think that Brian bringing me back means that he and I are working together or that I owe Brian... haha NO! That’s not how this is working necessarily. Jaiden: FREAKED out when I was brought back… and at first I thought it was my fault, but then we talked and apparently he’s not really mad at me, just the existence of the idol. And sure, maybe I should have figured that, but his reaction certainly left some questions. Here’s what Jaiden eventually had to say about me coming back after I, stupidly, apologized to him for coming back because I felt guilty (lame, I know) that the impact of his big game move was trumped. On 6/10/17, at 3:53 AM, jaiden wrote: > I just want you to know that my entire reaction to what went down today had nothing to do with you coming back.The idol is in concept extremely unfair, but the way it was executed tonight wasn't and I'm honestly not that mad you're back. I don't have an issue with you, and while I really hope that like, through all of this ugliness and craziness we can literally salvage ANY sort of working relationship, I know it's not going to happen, at least not on your end :/ I know you're a smart girl and very strategic but I honestly doubt that the move I even made anymore was an intelligent one so I don't see how you could justify it either. I'm sorry for getting extremely ugly in the tribe chat over what could've been seen as this whole idol thing taking place, but truly I am just frustrated about every event that went down tonight. What did I get from it? That Jaiden thinks I’m smart and tbh that’s more than enough for me. Honestly if he kept stroking my ego like that, I probably would have even considered working with him. Everyone else’s reactions to me coming back: Too nice honestly. People were THRILLED to see me back and I don’t want this to translate to “does this mean it was actually good for her to go?” Like on a personal note, I was pleased that people were so happy to see me. On a gameplay level, I was like pls can someone other than Jaiden pretend they hate me in this chat so people will think i'm less universally liked (whew that sounds INCREDIBLY cocky, though perhaps not inaccurate within the context of this game ONLY). Just be more casual people. b. Is it fair within the context of this game to bring me back? Listen, I’m definitely NOT an objective judge on that front. Am I happy the advantage exists? Absolutely. Do I see how it can be perceived as unfair? YES. But the way the idol was played within this game didn’t really make things as unfair as it could have if it was played at a later stage, as in it didn’t change much other than shift numbers. It brought back a player who nobody voted out except for one person, who is conveniently the one who is most agitated that the idol exists. Adrian is now first juror instead of me, which would have been the case if Jaiden hadn’t ALSO played a crazy idol like Brian, one that ALSO only exists within the online survivor universe. Moreover, I’m not really even back in the game on my own accord, it was all Brian’s idol, though I benefit from it. So all I can do at this point is keep playing my best game. c. How does being brought back in with this idol change my gameplay? In a way, I kind of feel like a free agent now. Of course, I still have relationships from before. I was re-added to the Bahamian Rhapsody alliance, but the pressure to work with certain people feels significantly lower than it did before I was eliminated the first time. I Coming back also forces me to acknowledge that I am a threat. I’ve already been voted out because I was perceived as a threat, and now I have to work hard to explain why I’m not. I won’t be successful convincing people that I’m not a social threat, I know that. So here is my plan about how to use this idol play to my advantage: 1)        Explain that being brought back in via this whack idol effectively means I CANNOT win. I was voted out once, and that is supposed to mean you can’t win. How could a juror POSSIBLY reconcile my vote out with then naming me the winner? I’ll tell people I’m going to have a much harder time convincing jurors that I would be a legitimate winner, thus making me a good pick to string along in the game. The thing is… this is probably true… It is harder for me to win. Except I’m confident that I’m smart enough to work my way around this and explain how my vote out can be discounted by the actual jury. Thus, I don’t mind floating this idea out there if needed for consideration in hopes of making it further along in this game. To be fair, Bodhi told me he doesn’t think I could win because of my vote out and Jaiden also told Bodhi the same (whether or not Jaiden actually believes this… debatable). 2)        I’m social, but not a game player. I started playing this strategy with Jaiden yesterday. On 6/11/17, at 4:48 AM, Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host) wrote: > My problem in this game, and I think my relationship with bodhi represents this, is that i'm friendly with people but nobody is really playing the game with me. I don't receive a lot of detail ever. Now of course, this is absolutely unrepresentative of my relationship with Bodhi, but I think it is a good (and perhaps not untrue) strategy to employ. II.        What I’m hearing about the game From Brian: We skype Friday night after I’m brought back… FOR A LONG ASS TIME. Was it a productive call? Idk maybe, I definitely learned some things that I’ll mention. Right before we got on call, I was writing a confessional about how Brian bringing me back changed nothing about any allegiance I had to him in this game (which was about zero when I was voted out) and then we call and I start to feel differently. It’s not that the idol produced that though, us talking did. I was still trying to regain my footing in the game and Brian was asking me to make a lot of decisions, which is a position I hadn’t been in before. I was there, he could see me over skype, and I had to think on the spot and speak. He was asking who I want to be in final 5 with and what I think about Willa or Lily making it far—amongst other things. Like SO many questions pls. He tells me that Willa has half of the super idol (the other half of which I still have, yet tell Brian I don’t). This was important information, whether or not it is true, and I can hopefully use it to try to manipulate the super idol advantage or cast doubt within Willa and Brian’s relationship. Brian also sends me an idol spreadsheet that supposedly only him and Kai have access to and are editing (though that myth is shattered quickly when Bodhi tells me he also has it and is contributing). Brian proposes a F3 with me, himself, and Kai (who I’ve still NEVER) spoken to. But he seems to understand that I have to get to know Kai better before committing, but I pretend I’m SO interested. He talks about the big votes being at f5 and f7, where we get out Willa and Lily, because they are threatening as organizers of alliances and social players respectively. As for his plans for other votes, apparently Brian wants to do Nicholas ASAP and obviously Jaiden, but who doesn’t want to vote Jaiden at this point. During the call we’re both talking to Jaiden, and effectively he is telling Brian his plan was always to get me out (on the vote he sapphire idoled me out on) and me that he only idoled me out because he couldn’t gather the votes to vote Brian out. This was the first sign of the extreme havoc Jaiden create within the next 30 hrs. Brian also, ironically, starts telling me that it’s so great that we can talk about the game and he can trust me to say nothing, whereas he couldn’t do the same with people like Bodhi. Brian has started trying to cast a lot of doubt about Bodhi, suggesting that he certainly can’t go far in the game. As Brian is telling me this, I of course know I’m going to tell Bodhi everything that is happening in the morning. Lowkey I have kind of a bad memory though. I wanted to take notes so I could remember everything to tell Bodhi, but that would have been way too obvious, but I manage to tell him most of the important things on our call the next morning. What did I learn from skyping with Brian? Perhaps don’t totally count Brian out as somebody to work with, even though today he came to me about Bodhi being sketchy when he got exiled which I CAN’T have people thinking or talking about. Most significantly I learned that LYING OVER VIDEO CALL IS HARD. Looking into Brian’s eyes over the screen at 5am and pretending to be sad over an immunity idol that I “lost” before I was brought back into the game was HARD… and I’m not a great liar. From Bodhi: Umm… A LOT. But here’s what matters. I don’t think I’ve talked about this in a conf yet, and if I did whatever. Before I got voted out the first time, Bodhi and I supposedly set aside the game for a second to talk about our alliance. [6/7/17, 12:57:22 PM] Bo dhi: So I just want to think out what exactly our alliance is. I just want to know what you want to do alliance wise. [6/7/17, 12:59:48 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): No you’re right, that’s smart because I don’t want something to go down and then us not be friends any more [6/7/17, 1:01:47 PM] Bo dhi: Imo, the two options are either A) we say it's just a game and that we're ok with the other taking us out, or B) that we go to the end together regardless of whether we think we can beat the other [6/7/17, 1:01:57 PM] Bo dhi: I'm honestly good for either one, but I want us to be clear [6/7/17, 1:04:01 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): I agree, I would feel the same way. Honestly, even though i’ve considered what would happen if I had to do option A, I really don’t think I could do it. I don’t see a path to the end for myself, but if it happens, i’d be happy to be with you there and lose. [6/7/17, 1:09:50 PM] Bo dhi: I could do it with some people, but I don't want to vote you out. Even if we agreed "yeah it's just a game" it would hurt. There’s more… but that’s the relevant part. We agree on Option B and that changes the course of my game. Because I was being completely honest, I’ll go to the end with Bodhi and lose. Happily. But now my game is looking out for the two of us and not just myself. I tell Bodhi about my idol and like clear up everything else I’d even moderately lied about to him to solidify this trust. Since then (once i’m brought back), I’m just like 100% all honesty. But here’s the problem: I am the most paranoid girl in the world. Like I really really hope Bodhi wasn’t lying and nothing he has done would suggest that AT ALL. But I just don’t want to be in this mindset where I’m 100% sure we’re being 100% honest and then actually let myself get disappointed if he decides I’m a liability. Normally if I was thinking about something like this, I would go tell Bodhi, but um IT’S ABOUT HIM SO I CANT. I’m trying my best not to think about it though, because when he is almost inevitably being completely honest and reads this conf. he’ll probably be like “why the doubt?” and it’s like idk man it’s a game that is foundationally built on the hopes that you’ll get paranoid and maneuver based on that… how could I not consider this? ANYWAY, let’s move onto tyrannical Jaiden because I mostly just had to write this part about Bodhi so I would stop thinking about it. Confs are for venting, right? From Jaiden: He’s going to be erratic and unpredictable no matter what. A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENED WITH JAIDEN. I could honestly go on and on and I’d die trying to explain it all, but here’s the short list and then a few important things will be highlighted.  Within the past few hours before his vote out, Jaiden committed to voting Nicholas, told me he implicitly trusts Nicholas, asked me to vote Julia (which apparently Willa put in his head, which he told Bahamian Rhapsody), told Bodhi he wants Bodhi to win, and ripped Bodhi to shreds in pms with me. A TRUE MESS. Leading up to this though, let’s go back to when I was brought back into the game. Because I think Jaiden is PISSED as I mentioned, like going to metaphorically cyber murder me angry. I message Jaiden while he’s having his post-my-return-party blow up and then once I know my life is no longer in the balance, I decide we’re going to talk game. Now remember, Brian and I have already received polar opposite messages about my vote out from Jaiden. Jaiden mistakenly keeps up his pattern of lying and misleading everyone who will speak to him for no reason and doing it TO THE EXTREME. The first lie comes over discussion of who the vote should be for tonight.   [6/11/17, 4:26:36 AM] jaiden: I heard a little idea of maybe going for one particular person but I think that's changed since Brian is back, which is amazing because Brian literally never fails at coming up with a better idea. [6/11/17, 4:27:17 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Who is this one particular person, just to be clear? [6/11/17, 4:28:14 AM] jaiden: not saying anything because I don't wanna screw up whatever good graces I'm in with someone else. I can assure you that it wasn't you though [6/11/17, 4:31:07 AM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Ok well, you have to understand, that puts me in a little bit of a weird position if i want to work with you. Like you dont have to tell me who said it, but can i know who it is? [6/11/17, 4:31:54 AM] jaiden: Okay, fair. It was Nicholas. So he tells me it was Nicholas, which I’ve already heard from Brian and ASSUME Jaiden has heard from Brian, though he won’t tell me because he’s trying to serve a grammy- award- winning ~I’m trustworthy~ vibe in this conversation. VERY off brand for Jaiden. Well then I started playing hard ball with Jaiden, even though I’m 99% sure I’m voting him out, to tell me who said Nicholas’s name. Eventually after enough prying, he tells me it’s Brian who mentioned it, confirming what I already knew. [6/11/17, 4:33:00 PM] jaiden: I haven't mentioned that it was him to anyone else so if it gets back to him, I'll scream ….LITERALLY I KNOW YOU TOLD JULIA AND ZACH that it was Brian who brought up Nicholas SO YOU BETTER BE SCREAMING JAIDEN…and do you want to hear about convoluted way I found out Julia and Zach knew Brian said this initially? Because… in the midst of me being pretty stern with Jaiden, and really digging into whether he heard it was Nicholas vs. had told Zach and Julia it was Nicholas himself, Jaiden is messaging Julia. So I end up seeing this message from Julia because while Jaiden and I are talking, Bodhi is on call with Zach and Julia. Jaiden -> Julia -> Bodhi -> me. Whew was I mad once Bodhi sent me this. > [6/11/17, 4:27:06 PM] jaiden: Dana is being fucking bitchy [6/11/17, 4:27:16 PM] julia rae: what she sayijng [6/11/17, 4:27:31 PM] jaiden: I told her last night that someone brought up Nicholas going home (it was Brian) but I didn't wanna rat Brian out to her In order to cover that Bodhi and I are working together, I DON’T EVEN GET THE DELIGHT OF CALLING JAIDEN OUT FOR CALLING ME BITCHY. But, this does highlight Jaiden’s sad failure of an attempt to pretend that he and I have some closed stream of information where he’s telling me things he isn’t saying to anyone else. THEN Jaiden spins a WILD tale that I know isn’t true because Bodhi and I had talked about it HOURS earlier. According to Jaiden, Bodhi wanted to take me out of the game and was trying to gather the votes. Once Jaiden basically realizes he is going home not matter what, he LAUNCHES into this story full force, and I’ll admit, even though I know it didn’t happen as he said… he fed into my paranoia a lil. Gage was really the one behind this failed vote plan, as long as Bodhi is telling me the truth, which I believe he is because otherwise there is no reason I would have been made aware of this HOURS before Jaiden told me. [6/11/17, 6:22:13 PM] jaiden: anyways I'm going home. [6/11/17, 6:22:31 PM] jaiden: I'm signing off skype because there's literally no chance people will save me bc bodhi hates me and wants me out [6/11/17, 6:22:38 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): fuck what [6/11/17, 6:22:39 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): ok [6/11/17, 6:24:23 PM] jaiden: Bodhi was coming after you lmao. I flipped it onto Nicholas because of what Brian said. Vote me out, I'm still voting for Nicholas, and I think it's still gonna be me. But Gage told me Bodhi was really wanting to flip on you, Lily, and Brian to get further in the game but for whatever reason!!!!! He's changed his mind. Because I want Nicholas out over you????? Idfk. Anyways I'll lay down and die like Bodhi fucking wants. This is just… a lie. Because while Jaiden is trying to convince me of this, Jaiden is also trying to convince Bodhi that he even told Gage any of this in the first place. This is where the two of them start getting into a fight. But before we get there, let’s take note of what Jaiden sent to Bodhi… [6:19:00 PM] jaiden: Bodhi. I'm not going to win. I literally could go and tell Dana you wanted to flip on her but I won't because I still want to work with you, dude ….HE CAME TO ME AND TOLD ME THAT… REPEATEDLY IN FACT. So then Bodhi and Jaiden start this weird fight, where Jaiden is ranting to me about how Bodhi is a piece of shit and im just like adding nothing of value to the conversation. Finally, Jaiden claims that after he threatened to tell me Bodhi wanted me out…Bodhi wanted revenge. [6/11/17, 6:36:12 PM] jaiden: I told bodhi I could tell you that he was going to vote you out but I wouldn't [6/11/17, 6:36:22 PM] jaiden: Then he went and told Nicholas I was going for him because he's mad … except Bodhi told Nicholas this HOURS beforehand. Yet another lie from Jaiden. With all this lying, he HAD TO GO. Like it was out of hand bad honestly. To his credit, he didn’t know that Bodhi and I are going back and forth this much… but his strategy almost RELIES on nobody comparing any notes, which is too dangerous.   Honestly, I’m just thankful Jaiden is gone because whew was I actually starting to feel irl stressed by his presence. I’ve aged 100 years in the last day and it’s not a cute look. III.        Moving Forward 1)        Lily vs. Brian is going to matter in this next vote. Brian has mentioned to me that “nobody would ever vote Lily” which makes her threatening. Agreed, but If I let people starting voting out social threats right now I might as well say bye to myself round 2. Lily and I talked about Brian as a threat, a conversation the Bodhi and I have had numerous times and that Bodhi says he and Kai have had. Things like this are GREAT for me because they take a little bit of pressure off of my gameplay. Right now I’m debating on whether or not to tell Lily about Brian’s plan to send her home eventually. This could put some pressure back on me, but also it could also give me a lot of leverage over their relationship. TBD. 2)        Fix things with Gage. In spite of Jaiden’s BS, Gage did say he wanted me, Lily, and Brian out… I THINK. I told Gage before the Jaiden vote that he and I should talk game soon, and I need to make that happen today so that we can proceed. 3)        Figure out what to do with my fav Nicholas who I love very much and inevitably will not be able to keep around much longer. I feel like I would love Nicholas as an irl friend, but in this game unfortunately he’s gotta go soon. Current Skink tribe fan theory suggests that he is pretending not to give a fuck about the game so he can go far and win. And honestly? Pretty smart. Good work queen. 4)        Decide whether talking to Kai and Julia outside of tribe chat makes any sense at this point/ ever? I feel like it makes me look disingenuous if I just randomly start speaking to them after we haven’t talked basically ever. I’ve heard from a few players outside of this game that it is only worthwhile to spend time talking to the people you can actually manipulate, so maybe I’ve lost out on those relationships and should keep up the radio silence. TBD. 5)        There is a plan with Zach and Julia in the works that Bodhi is entirely manipulating on his own because I lowkey barely talk to Zach though he is also a fav. I have no reason to believe this plan will work, but also things are lining up so far and Zach/Julia have been honest with Bodhi about their voting thus far. Also important, they don’t know that this plan exists at all. This plan is V ROUGH, but basically makes it so Gage, Kai, Bodhi could flip with Julia and Zach to vote out someone in our Bahamian Rhapsody alliance soon with me joining them later. Most importantly, it is structured to minimize the possibility that Bodhi and I ever have to flip together at the same time because that is too sketchy. WE MADE IT TO THE END AND I FEEL ALIVE. Knowing this game? I’ll probably have to do it all again tomorrow.

Jaiden was robbed but also not robbed. Hopefully Julia can go next and then I can decide if I want to turn on Brian, Bodhi or just... stick with this huge alliance for whatever reason.

so me and zach made a deal with bodhi for him to keep us safe and have nicholas go this week. im really hoping he stays true to that and doesnt try to get us out this time bc honestly we just want to make single digits. i kinda wanna act like the goat so ppl will take me far but we'll see

So originally, my plan for this vote was to do some wonky flipping and take out someone big. But other people have plans for big moves, and I've heard of them from multiple sides. Interesting. There is nothing in stone, but Brian and Nicholas are both potential targets. This is GOOD. I don't want to keep either of them around too much longer, and I think I could easily win either of their jury votes. This is rather dandy. Last night, Brian gave Dana his ideal "boot list." Of course, Dana ran right to me and told me. That's because Dana and I are bffs, and we both think Brian is a threat and a joke. Brian wants a final 4 of Dana+Brian+Kai+myself. This would lead to him booting me in 4th place. I don't want that shit. I'd rather Brian go out before final 4, and I'd rather stick around to the end. So that's my plan. Take Brian out at some point, and win. Solid game plan, right? This final 4 got Kai and I talking about JURY MANAGEMENT. I told Kai that neither of us can beat Dana at the end. I suggested a final 3 with Gage. Of course, I'd rather have a final 3 with Dana, but I don't want that to be too obvious. Kai asked who I think would get each Jury vote. I turned it into a game where we take turns saying one juror each. The reason for this is that I don't want Kai to know how big my Jury ego is, and how I think I can beat almost anyone at the end. It's currently with a Gage majority, which is laughable. I'm just throwing jurors who I think are voting me over to Gage so that Kai thinks that I'm gonna get 3rd place. Here is the list of who each juror will vote for in a final 3 of Kai/Gage/Bodhi according to the list that Kai and I have compiled: Adrian - Gage Brian - Kai Dana - Bodhi Jaiden - Gage Julia - Bodhi Lily - (we decided that she'll vote whoever betrayed her the least) Nicholas - (we haven't discussed this one yet) Willa - Kai Zachary - Gage/Kai Laughable, right? Here's what I think it would look like in reality: Adrian - Bodhi Brian - Kai or Bodhi Dana - Bodhi Jaiden - Gage Julia - Bodhi Lily - Bodhi Nicholas - Bodhi Willa - Kai Zachary - Bodhi Now I'm not absolutely certain, but I do think that I have the most locked down jurors. Dana, Julia, and Zachary are ABSOLUTELY voting for me at the end. Jaiden is voting against me, but I don't really care all that much. I don't think that either of the other two have many jurors locked in. I think I'm all set

Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian by Vachel Lindsay I In a nation of one hundred fine, mob-hearted, lynching, relenting, repenting millions, There are plenty of sweeping, swinging, stinging, gorgeous things to shout about, And knock your old blue devils out. I brag and chant of Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian, Candidate for president who sketched a silver Zion, The one American Poet who could sing outdoors, He brought in tides of wonder, of unprecedented splendor, Wild roses from the plains, that made hearts tender, All the funny circus silks Of politics unfurled, Bartlett pears of romance that were honey at the cores, And torchlights down the street, to the end of the world. There were truths eternal in the gap and tittle-tattle. There were real heads broken in the fustian and the rattle. There were real lines drawn: Not the silver and the gold, But Nebraska's cry went eastward against the dour and old, The mean and cold. It was eighteen ninety-six, and I was just sixteen And Altgeld ruled in Springfield, Illinois, When there came from the sunset Nebraska's shout of joy: In a coat like a deacon, in a black Stetson hat He scourged the elephant plutocrats With barbed wire from the Platte. The scales dropped from their mighty eyes. They saw that summer's noon A tribe of wonders coming To a marching tune. Oh the longhorns from Texas, The jay hawks from Kansas, The plop-eyed bungaroo and giant giassicus, The varmint, chipmunk, bugaboo, The horn-toad, prairie-dog and ballyhoo, From all the newborn states arow, Bidding the eagles of the west fly on, Bidding the eagles of the west fly on. The fawn, prodactyl, and thing-a-ma-jig, The rackaboor, the hellangone, The whangdoodle, batfowl and pig, The coyote, wild-cat and grizzly in a glow, In a miracle of health and speed, the whole breed abreast, The leaped the Mississippi, blue border of the West, From the Gulf to Canada, two thousand miles long:- Against the towns of Tubal Cain, Ah,-- sharp was their song. Against the ways of Tubal Cain, too cunning for the young, The longhorn calf, the buffalo and wampus gave tongue. These creatures were defending things Mark Hanna never dreamed: The moods of airy childhood that in desert dews gleamed, The gossamers and whimsies, The monkeyshines and didoes Rank and strange Of the canyons and the range, The ultimate fantastics Of the far western slope, And of prairie schooner children Born beneath the stars, Beneath falling snows, Of the babies born at midnight In the sod huts of lost hope, With no physician there, Except a Kansas prayer, With the Indian raid a howling through the air. And all these in their helpless days By the dour East oppressed, Mean paternalism Making their mistakes for them, Crucifying half the West, Till the whole Atlantic coast Seemed a giant spiders' nest. And these children and their sons At last rode through the cactus, A cliff of mighty cowboys On the lope, With gun and rope. And all the way to frightened Maine the old East heard them call, And saw our Brian by a mile lead the wall Of men and whirling flowers and beasts, The bard and prophet of them all. Prairie avenger, mountain lion, Brian, Brian, Brian, Brian, Gigantic troubadour, speaking like a siege gun, Smashing Plymouth Rock with his boulders from the West, And just a hundred miles behind, tornadoes piled across the sky, Blotting out sun and moon, A sign on high. Headlong, dazed and blinking in the weird green light, The scalawags made moan, Afraid to fight. II When Brian came to Springfield , and Altgeld gave him greeting, Rochester was deserted, Divernon was deserted, Mechanicsburg, Riverton, Chickenbristle, Cotton Hill, Empty: for all Sangamon drove to the meeting- In silver-decked racing cart, Buggy, buckboard, carryall, Carriage, phaeton, whatever would haul, And silver-decked farm wagons gritted, banged and rolled, With the new tale of Brian by the iron tires told. The State House loomed afar, A speck, a hive, a football, a captive balloon! And the town was all one spreading wing of bunting, plumes, and sunshine, Every rag and flag and Brian picture sold, When the rigs in many a dusty line Jammed our streets at noon, And joined the wild parade against the power of gold. We roamed, we boys from High School, With mankind, while Springfield gleamed, silk-lined. Oh, Tom Dines, and Art Fitzgerald, And the gangs that they could get! I can hear them yelling yet. Helping the incantation, Defying aristocracy, With every bridle gone, Ridding the world of the low down mean, Bidding the eagles of the West fly on, Bidding the eagles of the West fly on, We were bully, wild and woolly, Never yet curried below the knees. We saw flowers in the air, Fair as the Pleiades, bright as Orion, -Hopes of all mankind, Made rare, resistless, thrice refined. Oh, we bucks from every Springfield ward! Colts of democracy- Yet time-winds out of Chaos from the star-fields of the Lord. The long parade rolled on. I stood by my best girl. She was a cool young citizen, with wise and laughing eyes. With my necktie by my ear, I was stepping on my dear, But she kept like a pattern without a shaken curl. She wore in her hair a brave prairie rose. Her gold chums cut her, for that was not the pose. No Gibson Girl would wear it in that fresh way. But we were fairy Democrats, and this was our day. The earth rocked like the ocean, the sidewalk was a deck. The houses for the moment were lost in the wide wreck. And the bands played strange and stranger music as they trailed along. Against the ways of Tubal Cain, Ah, sharp was their song! The demons in the bricks, the demons in the grass, The demons in the bank-vaults peered out to see us pass, And the angels in the trees, the angels in the grass, The angels in the flags, peered out to see us pass. And the sidewalk was our chariot, and the flowers bloomed higher, And the street turned to silver and the grass turned to fire, And then it was but grass, and the town was there again, A place for women and men. III Then we stood where we could see Every band, And the speaker's stand. And Brian took the platform. And he was introduced. And he lifted his hand And cast a new spell. Progressive silence fell In Springfield, in Illinois, around the world. Then we heard these glacial boulders across the prairie rolled: 'The people have a right to make their own mistakes.... You shall not crucify mankind Upon a cross of gold.' And everybody heard him- In the streets and State House yard. And everybody heard him in Springfield, in Illinois, Around and around and around the world, That danced upon its axis And like a darling broncho whirled. IV July, August, suspense, Wall Street lost to sense. August, September, October, More suspense, And the whole East down like a wind-smashed fence. Then Hanna to the rescue, Hanna of Ohio, Rallying the roller-tops, Rallying the bucket-shops. Threatening drouth and death, Promising manna, Rallying the trusts against the bawling flannelmouth; Invading misers' cellars, tin-cans, socks, Melting down the rocks, Pouring out the long green to a million workers, Spondulix by the mountain-load, to stop each new tornado, And beat the cheapskate, blatherskite, Populistic, anarchistic, deacon-desperado. V Election night at midnight: Boy Brian's defeat. Defeat of western silver. Defeat of the wheat. Victory of letterfiles And plutocrats in miles With dollar signs upon their coats, Diamond watchchains on their vests and spats on their feet. Victory of custodians, Plymouth Rock, And all that inbred landlord stock. Victory of the neat. Defeat of the aspen groves of Colorado valleys, The blue bells of the Rockies, And blue bonnets of old Texas, by the Pittsburg alleys. Defeat of alfalfa and the Mariposa lily. Defeat of the Pacific and the long Mississippi. Defeat of the young by the old and the silly. Defeat of tornadoes by the poison vats supreme. Defeat of my boyhood, defeat of my dream. VI Where is McKinley, that respectable McKinley, The man without an angle or a tangle, Who soothed down the city man and soothed down the farmer, The German, the Irish, the Southerner, the Northerner, Who climbed every greasy pole, and slipped through every crack; Who soothed down the gambling hall, the bar-room, the church, The devil-vote, the angel vote, the neutral vote, The desperately wicked, and their victims on the rack, The gold vote, the silver vote, the brass vote, the lead vote, Every vote?... Where is McKinley, Mark Hanna's McKinley, His slave, his echo, his suit of clothes? Gone to join the shadows, with the pomps of that time, And the flames of that summer's prairie rose. Where is Cleveland whom the Democratic platform Read from the party in a glorious hour? Gone to join the shadows with pitchfork Tillman, And sledge-hammer Altgeld who wrecked his power. Where is Hanna, bulldog Hanna, Low-browed Hanna, who said: Stand pat'? Gone to his place with old Pierpont Morgan. Gone somewhere...with lean rat Platt. Where is Roosevelt, the young dude cowboy, Who hated Brian, then aped his way? Gone to join the shadows with might Cromwell And tall King Saul, till the Judgement day. Where is Altgeld, brave as the truth, Whose name the few still say with tears? Gone to join the ironies with Old John Brown, Whose fame rings loud for a thousand years. Where is that boy, that Heaven-born Brian, That Homer Brian, who sang from the West? Gone to join the shadows with Altgeld the Eagle, Where the kings and the slaves and the troubadours rest.

Brian has been renamed Cool Brian. Stay tuned

I am ADDICTED to suggesting voting out Willa. I have been doing it for many days. It is bad. but i can quit any time i want. right?????

[9:43:38 PM] Bo dhi: ok [9:43:43 PM] Bo dhi: are we doing Nicholas or brian [9:43:55 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think nicholas tbh [9:44:14 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): Like Brian has made it pretty clear he wants to work with us, and i dont think we should turn on that yet? [9:44:24 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): but i can really do whatever [9:45:16 PM] Bo dhi: ok I get that [9:45:20 PM] Bo dhi: ill go with that :) [9:45:27 PM] Bo dhi: I mean we gotta talk tomorrow too [9:45:30 PM] Bo dhi: figure it out [9:45:47 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah obv. im mad i dont think ill be around for tribal again [9:47:55 PM] Bo dhi: I wont be here at this one [9:50:06 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): it seems kind of easy, so i guess i wont worry too much, but idk [9:50:12 PM] Bo dhi: wanna make it willa [9:50:16 PM] Bo dhi: that would not be easy [9:50:17 PM] Bo dhi: bad call [9:50:18 PM] Bo dhi: no no no [9:50:20 PM] Bo dhi: don't [9:50:24 PM] Bo dhi: I need to STOP my obsession [9:50:34 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i kind of dont think willa is a bad ideea [9:51:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): because Nicholas will listen to me. and willa WILL try to flip on us [9:51:39 PM] Bo dhi: and I can get Zach + Julia almost without question [9:51:43 PM] Bo dhi: that's 5 [9:51:53 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah but we shouldnt flip together [9:52:16 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): so if we cant pull in another then we should wait a round [9:52:25 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i mean we can tell nicholas to do it or he’s going [9:52:43 PM] Bo dhi: we can explain working together without it being us two SUPER close [9:53:04 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): yeah ur right i forget that sometimes [9:53:33 PM] Bo dhi: should we [9:53:53 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): idk do we isolate too many people [9:53:55 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think we might [9:54:01 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): if we wait 1 round [9:54:11 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): it might be better [9:54:46 PM] Bo dhi: but then one of us could be exiled [9:54:55 PM] Bo dhi: and willa would know that the game was starting to shake around [9:55:19 PM] Bo dhi: and there would only be 3 more votes to use the idol [9:55:23 PM] Bo dhi: so theres a good chance [9:55:30 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): right- also for all we knwo, willa is trying to pull something this round [9:55:36 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): like i dont know why he wouldnt [9:56:17 PM] Bo dhi: absolutely. I think it could be neccecary to be honest [9:56:24 PM] Bo dhi: gage will come back and work with us [9:56:39 PM] Bo dhi: the question is who do we get rid of next [9:56:44 PM] Bo dhi: because that could screw us [9:56:50 PM] Bo dhi: we might need to just take out brian/lily [9:56:57 PM] Bo dhi: and then we're the big threats to flip on [9:58:02 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): i think the urgency of getting Willa out of this game depends on what conversations we hear tomorow. [9:58:10 PM] Bo dhi: excellent call [9:58:13 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): if we start hearing non Nicholas/ Julia [9:58:17 PM] Dana Barry (Bouvet Islands Host): we need to strike for sure

so like i obviously said ive been wanting to flip on nicholas for awhile. i think whats going to happen tonight is the whole majority is going to tell us that the majority is brian. i think either an idol is going to be used on brian or itll be 3-3-3 and they either vote me or nicholas out in the revote. my plan is to get me and zach to flip on nicholas, voting him out and itll be 5-3-1. it'll keep MY ass safe and its what nicholas deserves. god i hope this works B)

I'm having difficulty trusting Zach as much as i would like to because he is very paranoid even though he has immunity. So like. Fuck.

Today, Brian made a slip that cost him the game. He's said things to Dana and I that make it seem like he knows we're tight, and just this morning when i said that I know Willa has an idol he said "oh, so Dana told you?" Now Dana and I don't trust that he's actually wanting us in the final 4, and Dana wants to vote him out. I literally am so fine with voting him out it's not even funny. So it is time to vote out the Prairie avenger, mountain lion, Brian Brian Brian Brian. Cool Brian is going to leave, and that's gonna be the end of him! I really hope he and Adrian have a good time on the jury together. That sounds like a fucking party. So we've got Dana, Zach, Julia, Nicholas, and myself voting Brian, and then FUCKIN GAGE COMES BACK FROM EXILE. N O N O N O. 10 people is a weird number to make a big move with. 6-4 is just an AWKWARD dynamic. But we're doing it anyway I guess.

So according to Zachary, Willa decided to take advantage of the split and try to rally Zach Julia and Nicholas against Brian. This lets us have ANOTHER split. So this vote could theoretically be 5-2-2-1. I'm heavily considering getting myself and Dana to vote for Willa just in case Brian has an idol. This could be an incredibly complex vote.

Ok so Willa wants to flip and get out Brian? (me too but) we're gonna be splitting votes between Brian and Willa because Willa so kindly graced us with his vote!! There's a method behind this madness of a 4-3-2-1 vote. We want Willa to think he was being blindsided, but it failed last minute. How do we do this? VOTING CONFESSIONALS. Zachary puts a 1 on his vote, Nicholas puts a 2 on his vote, and .... I PUT A 4 ON MY VOTE. Then Willa is like "shit, had #3 voted for me, I'd be dead." This plan exists so that Willa freaks out about whether there are people actually gunning for him, and so he starts trying big shit. It'll get him to waste his idol next tribal (just wait), and it'll also get him to try and completely realign himself. This is NOT going to work for our tragic hero, but it'll make for one hell of a few days.

There have been 101 conversations about what the fuck is going down at tribal tonight, and while I feel like I'm totally up on the plan, everyone is trying to make an OTT move tonight sooo Alright, so Bahamian Rhapsody alliance basically has a conversation about splitting votes between Nicholas and Julia this morning. To be honest, I never really want either of these two to leave. Julia barely plays this game, and I think I have a better chance of getting someone like Nicholas to work with me later down the line then someone like Willa. So basically this plan immediately disintegrates, but right now hopefully Brian, Kai, and Lily are still believing it. So Bodhi and I decide that even though we have a F4 with Kai and Brian called "The Hotdogs" it's probably time for Brian to go. He could have advantages, he's also just generally a threatening player because of his relationships and strength in challenges. At this point, Bodhi and I are going to vote Brian with hopefully Zach, Julia, Gage, and Nicholas. This, however, would mean that we were flipping together, which the goal is not to do. Then things get shaken up because Zach tells Bodhi another group has brought him a blindside for Brian tonight. I assume it's Willa, because Willa is probably coming from the same place Bodhi and I are, where he's like "I need to make a move." So we assume that Willa is trying to also take advantage of the vote split using Nicholas, Zach, Julia, and MAYBE Lily (whose willingness to vote for Nicholas was unclear). Basically, I give Bodhi the idea to tell Zach that he HAS to tell Bodhi who told him about blindsiding Brian because if a unanimous blindside for Brian were to come together from two separate groups (who didnt know the other was voting Brian) and Brian played an idol, someone like Julia or Nicholas could go home, which is the exact situation Zach wants to prevent. At this point, Zach tells Bodhi it is Willa, confirming what I already thought. Then Bodhi is like, lets split even further, and tells me he wants to pull off a 4-3-2-1 vote. We pick Willa because we know Willa has an idol, and thus in the off chance Brian has an idol, Willa will be gone and his idol flushed. Bodhi, somewhat naively imo, tells me it's going to be easy, which I think is a complete overestimation of how complex this game is, but whatever. He tells me to still vote Brian, which was my plan anyway. So then the vote breakdown would go as follows: 4 Brian (Me, Gage, Julia, Willa), 3 Willa ( Bodhi, Zach, Nicholas), 2 Nicholas (Brian and Lily), 1 Julia (Kai). Bodhi has some really flashy plan to pretend the split for Willa was last minute move by making people number their votes 1,2,4 so it looks like someone defected last minute and that Willa was only 1 vote from leaving the game. It's really fucking funny, but also it would be stupid for me to not think about how this impacts my game. Here's the thing, overall, this is all kind of fine with me. If I weren't playing this game, I would love it. Even still, if it works, it'll be hysterical. But moving forward in this game, a move like this REALLY isn't advantageous for me and i'm worried i'm starting to get envious? jealous?-- idk which word is better-- of people who are going to be visible for making big moves like this if they get to the end, including people like Bodhi. Because here's the thing, i'm still an important player in this move to take out Brian and split with Willa, but I'm a silent player and I didn't really choose to be. As far as Zach, Nicholas, and Julia know, I have no knowledge of this plan of a side split for Willa, and that sucks for me. It also makes my day harder, because I can't talk to any of them right now without putting them in a position where they would have to lie to me and pretend they aren't voting for Willa. So instead I have to ignore them, so as to avoid a situation where they lie to me, vote Willa tonight, and then feel uncomfortable playing the game with me moving forward because they know they've been dishonest with me and I might not trust them. So assuming things go down like this... what do i gain from this move? Very little is the answer. Perhaps Willa and Gage (who I already know is uneasy about me for no reason) start to trust me more. But I get none of the glory of pulling off something funny or smart, and more importantly I've voted out someone who claims they want F4 with me and put him on the jury, which is blood on my hands that people like Bodhi won't have. More importantly, the Willa defectors get to put a cool move on their resumes. So I have two counter plans that can help me compensate for having to partake in this move as a silent actor. One of them is necessary imo, and the other is nothing more then a plan in the works for me to get the glory I deserve. 1) One thing i'm PANICKED about tonight is that a group of Julia, Zach, Nicholas, and probably Lily (because she's close with Nicholas) could come together and pick a new target. Namely, someone like me, which would either create a tie with Brian or if they could pull enough people, send me home. This is paranoia in prime form, and I know it. BUT, In order to prevent this, I'm toying with the idea of sending Lily a boot list Brian sent me the other night (I know, A BOOT LIST, who sends those) that has her as the f10 boot and telling her she should vote with me tonight for Brian. This would give me some more confidence in her, and eliminate the possibility that she is conspiring with a Zach, Julia, Nicholas group about picking their own target. it also makes the 4-3-2-1 less flashy by producing a 5-3-1-1, which is kind of bitchy of me, but ummmm... who cares? Here's the problem though: I don't want Lily to have time to go to Brian with this information before the vote because it increases the chances of idol play. Anyway, I just have to think about that option for the next few hours. 2) I am plotting my big move. If I gain no notoriety  from this vote, you bet people are going to be thinkin I'm (cautiously) good at this game by the next vote. If Gage doesnt get closer to me by the next vote, I'm thinking of targeting him because he is a sneaky snake in this game and really playing a pretty good UTR game in my opinion. Other than that, hopefully things go well tonight. Either way, the fallout from this vote PROMISES to be lit and I better be here tomorrow.

Episode 10 “The One Where This Tribal Council is a Mess” (Zakriah)

(here we go yall lmao- pippa)

All along it was always me and Aro and that's how it's gonna continue to be until we're both voted out anyways. Idk Mitch has lied to me already twice now and I don't play baseball so there's no third strike here. Ofc Willow and Allie flipped on us and ofc it's just me and Aro like it always has been. And I can't wait to get 10th.

(a while later)

These people aren't even good at lying and Willow was trying to help me literally all along and she was right there literally was nothing she coulda done about it!!! I feel awful that I ruined any trust I had with her and I feel awful for cultivating a relationship with the wrong rookie on numakira. I'm just so fucked up rn and I knew it was happening too.

(later)

She's over here apologizing to Mitchell and NOT ME for this last vote when I literally just left the alliance chat! So that OBVIOUSLY tells me she has no intention of trying to work with me again after this and that pretty much me and Aro have no shot to make it any further in this bih

(even later)

Most of what I just said was very spur of the moment and I don't even remember half of it but tbh me and mitch are on the same wavelength rn and us and aro's lives basically depend on MY MORTAL NEMESES lexi and rtp

(so much later)

Mitchell and Zakriah's guide to surviving Tumblr Survivor: Solomon Islands Merged Tribe. Step 1) Vote with Allie against LA Step 2) Form a vets alliance Step 3) Steal Willow from Allie

(later isn’t even an option anymore)

LEXI AND ALLIE ARE IRL BEST FRIENDS WHAT THE FYCK IS THIS

(3 years later)

MITCHELL IS A FUCKING DETECTIVE HOLY FUCKING SHIT THIS GAME IS TOO FUCKING MUCH HOW IS LEXI SO FUCKING STACKED WITH PREMADES IN THIS GAME I THOUGHT ME/ARO/LINUS WAS BAD WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUCK

(everyone has died, Zak is the only one left)

NO HOLY SHIT SERIOUSLY THIS IS LIKE WHEN IN A MOVIE SOMEONE FINDS OUT THAT THE PERSON THEY THOUGHT WERE INNOCENT AND LIKE THE GOOD GUY IS ACTUALLY THE DEVIL AND HAS BEEN BEHIND EVERYTHING THE WHOLE TIME AND THEIR FACE IS LIKE FLASHING EVERYWHERE THEY LOOK THAT IS L I T E R A L L Y ALLIE HOW DID WE NOT FIND THIS OUT SOONER OH MY LANTA

I just wanna say, Jacob, I voted Matt for you.

So there's literally no possible way I can win immunity - one of my two friends in the game exiled himself from the challenge and that leaves me next to be picked off from winning immunity along with Aro, LA, and maybe Allie too tbh. It's basically Allie/Lexi/Willow's comp to lose at this point and there's literally not a single thing I can do to give myself any edge to win at all. Out of nine people competing in this challenge only one person is working with me, and in a challenge that's essentially a popularity contest, 2/9 gets you nothing. I'm willing to accept the fact that Mitchell and I are completely screwed, and it's not helping that Mitchell is quite actually ostracizing himself from the rest of the people. I'm honestly praying he's hiding another idol from me at this point.

i know it's been a while since my last confessional and i don't wanna make a long one rn but allie's bitch ass

SO the plan for right now is to get the majority to split the vote between 2 of Me, Mitch and Zak. Willow is willing to flip with us so we can get ahead of the split and put 4 votes against Lexi or Johnny and get our minority asses back in this game. Not gonna lie Im having a blast being at the bottom with Zak and Mitchell even though Mitchell is kinda rude towards Willow >.> . We are basically the 3 amigos/ Witches Coven of the season but we will be successful know that!

Oh my GOD if I pull this off... If i pull off this 4-3-3 vote tomorrow night it WILL be the single best play I've ever made in a game. Like I'm honestly shaking. This is either aboutta go so horribly wrong and Willow is lying to us all or it's gonna go extremely well and I won't know until it's either me joining Jacob, Dana, and Matt on the jury or it's Johnny joining them. I have a vote negator, but my history with vote negators has not been a fun one. I would kill to have an idol, but if I make it through this vote, which would literally be the biggest miracle ever, I fully feel like I can retake control over my fate in this game. All hope may NOT be lost!!!

(a little bit later)

ooookay... So I just lost literal years of my life planning a Johnny blindside and now he's trying to take out Allie!!! Everyone is literally fucking VYING FOR OUR VOTES right when we thought it was a clear majority against us! What the fuck this game is so hilarious I don't know what the fuck to even say right now!

(yall thot huh)

Wow I can't believe we just orchestrated a 4-3-2-1 vote. Like imagine how lit it would be for the two people voted as most likely to be voted out next in the challenge were to literally take the 3-2-1 cirie patent vote and upgrade it to a fucking 4-3-2-1 vote! Im beyond shook at this like ive been spending the last three days absolutely certain I was gonna be the next voted out and now as far as I'm concerned I should only be seeing my name once or twice this round. I feel like ciera rn bc I'm making a big fucking move! Game changer Zakriah razzak!

Okay so I need to start writing more confessionals. BUT HOLY FUCK SO MUCH JUST HAPPENED. Okay so first to start off I won individual immunity, and I even had a one rope disadvantage, like how the heck did I do that! I mean it was just Touchy Subjects, but still, I never thought I was gonna be able to win a challenge lmao. Also I'm too tired to finish writing this confessional so I'm just gonna submit and write more tomorrow goodnight lmao.

If everyone's telling me the truth, which why would they, we get to make the sole decision on whether to keep around Johnny or Allie - the two people controlling the whole game. And the best part is that either one of them getting taken out is one less rookie to pick off me/mitchell/aro (and rtp and lexi but screw them), and then that plus my flare gets us at the very least a tie if we piss everyone off with this vote. But, hey, they left us in the dark last time, it's time for some revenge anyways! And then, after we finally get the upperhand again, we can avenge Dana too! I'm still out for blood rtp

(ive avoided this for days)

Mitchell is saying this tribal council is essentially a sitcom episode and if it is it would be called The One Where This Tribal Council is a Mess

(he’ll be gone soon, don’t worry)

Literally we're looking at rtp targetting johnny but voting with allie bc he doesnt think theres numbers to get out johnny and so its "supposed" to be a rudimentary vote split against me 4-3-3 a la queen daisy peacebeuponher but IN ACTUALITY what we're looking at here is johnny reneging and trying to blindside allie in some kind of mess of a 5-3-2 vote WHEN REALLY willow is "using" the three of us to get out JOHNNY in a FUCKING CRAZY ASS 4-3-2-1 vote that's gonna be something like johnny-aro-alie-me and i honestly... LOVE THIS

OKAY SO LET'S FUCKIN DIVE RIGHT INTO IT going into last tribal something was a miss bc of a certain miss willow sayin cryptic ass shit like "i'm sorry i can't stop what's about to happen" and so i knew then that we were fucked. the suspense of waiting was alleviated by allie basically saying she flipped and it wouldn't be on me; i could've guessed it would be matt since she hates matt, but i never thought she'd actually flip and do it bc i don't see how any of us would benefit from leaving a solid 6 to form a very volatile merge but WHATEVER and then i exposed allie and lexi's pregame relationship and close irl friendship and thought i'd blown myself up, particularly after wILLOW TOLD ME SHE FUCKING ALREADY KNEW INSTEAD OF TELGKIEFFREFIURHDIF TELLING ME TO CHILL, and NOBODy seemed to think that it was a big deal. combined w that, i fuckin bought my ass a trip to the cave and couldn't compete in immunity so FUCK me but  then also... good things zak guilted willow HARD about what allie made her do, which was particularly effective bc willow already felt like it was bad for her game. so while allie is saying we should vote LA, then saying johnny and RTP told her no so we can't, i'm like... we need willow rn to flip on this dumb twerking girl who is so far up these kids' ass yet MIRACULOUSLY still has willow up hers??? and zak does in fact guilt her into trying to get everyone else to split the votes so we can do something like get LA out or whatever but i'm sittin here like... alright... who gotta go? and it comes to me. johnny the frat boy, my lover and archenemy!! miss chrissa and dana send their regards bitch!! it seems to me that johnny has a certain degree of control over LA and Luca, and as long as he's in a potential rookie or nuTemoana faction could be reunited or resurrected on his behalf. i don't want that. the game gets more open with him gone. so zak laid the groundwork for willow's flip, and i get to her and convince her the flip gotta be on johnny. it's almost too good to be true. a 4-3-3 vote agaisnt mr frat boy keeping i, mitchell kalabang, still in the game w my f3 of zak and aro and now w miss willow on our side??? FUCK YES and then zak finds a flare that allows him to burn someone's vote at a tribal council, which means if willow stick w us worst-case scenario at the f9 is rocks. things are fallign into place, i'm so JFIOHWEIODFH EXCITED BC it's gonna be HUGE and it's almsot too good to be true when johnny's frat boy ass says he wants to get out allie w me, la, zak, aro, and him. ????? johnny wants to flip on her ass bc of my expose about her and bc she's controlling willow. little does he KNOW that willow already flipped against allie and on HIS ASS and that allie is no longer a threat bc people know that she and lex are friends. so now johnny thinks it'll be like 5-3-2 or something but in actuality it'll be more like 4-3-2-1 johnny-aro-allie-zak which makes me sCREAM THAT"S  SO FUDI*CVJOWDIS FUCIING EBEAUTIONFGD BEAUTIFUL AND ICONIC but THEN RTP FIWEODJFD  COMES TO ME AND ASKS TO MOASMDFUIBHWENDS make a move against johnny and i'm all ike ???D<EKODJFKLJWD iorhejdgio YOUWDFI(JF hwo are you people giving such a clear mnoritjy THISF IOWJDMFIO much POWMERUIOFMWEIOFDJ POWER and he can't get LA on board so he resigns himself to the split vote between aro and zak tellign me about it even tho it's supposed to be a secret but little does he know that i already know about it and i also know that it's a farce bc willow flipped and that it's not even happening bc JOGNY flipped and rtp targets johnny who targets allie who splits the vote betwween aro and zak w rtp bc he can't get the votes aginst johnny while aro and zak are gonna tke out johnny bc WE have the votes and i'm CRYIORJHdf cryin i really think we might actually get the 4-3-2-1 and if that fucking happens i'll literally fuvkcixghnfei shit myself on call somehow i mitchell kalabang am coming out on top?? and i like johnny legitimately to some extent and he might want to work w me, but johnny has also lied to me and has multiple other deals and alliances, and i can't work w that if he's gonna keep shit shady. zak and aro have been loyal and honest to me since day 1 so i'm ridin w them boys and i hope you use all the money you're in charge of as treasurer of the frat to drink yourself into a stupor so as to neuter the humiliation ur gonna feel at being outmaneuvered by fuckin willow. ALSDOJQSOFD speaking of shady miss allie like... first she flip, then i find out she got a #secretpairbeware, and i'm like ???? this BTIHDCIH she might wanna F3 w me and willow but AGAIN how am i gonna play w u when u say shit like "i know you said you didn't wanna do this and take out matt and i respect it so i got literally the entire rest of the tribe to do it instead and against u without telling u haha we still good tho i own you and control you" she seriously got so cocky after that and so self-righteous in defending herself about the lex thing and it's like... girl how the FUCK am i still savin ur ASS after tonight LMFAO the #obvioustension i've felt between me and LA is gone i think, we've had some rlly good chats lately and welp it's gonna suck for her when i now snake HER but whatevs!! and RTP and i are prob good now too considering he told me about his johnny plot and then about the split. considerin i'm gonna do his work for him and oust johnny he shouldn't be too mad lol ! idol searching i fucking went into a cave and my choices were octopus and moray eel and y'all had to be fuckin kiddin ME but ofc the cave fucks me up AHFUIEWHD AGAIN and no second idol for mitcherell kalabganfger but whatevs Somehow, everything has lined up to give me an unprecedented amount of power for someone who felt helplessly on the bottom after Matt, who I feel was an actual tick in this game harming me more than helping me with his poor gameplay and social skills, was voted out. I think I've played an influential role in getting this vote together and in forming a group that can now move solidly forward. I just... if this all works I'm going to cry because RTP going for Johnny going for Allie going for Aro/Zak who're going for Johnny without RTP knowing is a fucking sitcom episode. I can't fucking breathe. If the 4-3-2-1 is what actually happens tonight i might literally cry laughing on call for tribal. mitchell kalabang is not dead yet!

also biggest VILLAIN?????? how the fUIHEWDRHJIernfuier what've i done this season but been lied to and love dana i jsut... and they fucked up w what they said bout luca bc now he's pissed and i'm all like... come to papa :)

IM STILL SO WORRIED EVERYONES LYING TO ME THOOOOO

Okay so, in Touchy Subjects I tied with Johnny in the category "If you could not win the game, who would you most like to see win". And I'm very confused by this because I literally thought I wasn't a threat to win at all. Johnny I understand, he's the one controlling everyone, he's the one calling the nuTemoana shots, and so if he made it to the end he would win no doubt. But me on the other hand, I haven't exactly done much, like I've tried to make good social bonds with everyone, and been honest with everyone, but yeah other then that I'm kinda confused how I got the majority in that category. Onto another topic though. I never thought I would ever say this, but I'm actually pretty damn excited to go to tribal tonight. I have individual immunity, so basically I 100% made it to single digit placements, which is amazing!! Anyway onto the vote. It's going to go great because Johnny thinks Allie is going home, but in actuality Johnny is going home. I guess I sorta convinced Allie, Lexi, and Ryan to split the votes on Zak and Aro. So the vote should go 4-3-3, if all goes according to plan. I'm really hoping this works bc Johnny wont expect it, and it'll get the biggest threat out of this game. I really like Johnny though so I hope he won't be too mad and that we can be friends once this is all over.